• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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[QUOTE=cody8295;46680861]hello redis[/QUOTE] hey cody
I actually heard an anxious thought enter my head a minute ago I was thinking about a worry with my inner monologue, and I dissmissed it, but then I immediately heard another thought casting doubt on that dismissal, but unlike the rest of the thoughts in my inner monologue I didn't prompt or try to think of that. This isn't the first time I've caught this happening so I guess maybe I should try to figure out why I'm having intrusive thoughts or at least how long it's been happening
I swear whenever I go on vacation you guys talk/experience some of the worst shit in your lives. I dont have much time to post on the internet but i hope you guys are doing well. Pls drbean dont become another statistic, you gotta better yourself. As for the others you guys are always on my mind, stay strong dudes.
[QUOTE=dr.bean;46680770]plugged up some harry ron, gonna go smoke some buddage and half a cig in a bit then coffeeeee[/QUOTE] [QUOTE=Wowokay;46665119]Isaac, I'm sorry man, but you have a problem. I've known you since eighth grade, when we were thirteen years old. You were smoking weed and stealing petty amounts of vicodin. Now you're selling your possessions for drug money and buying tar heroin from strangers over the internet. You transferred schools and don't really talk to me, or to any of us anymore. You probably think we forgot about you, but you're on our minds. I saw your mom at the supermarket the other day and she said you've been doing terribly, that you never bring people over anymore, and that you're really sad. This isn't how you should be dealing with your problems. I like you, but not when you're like this. The things you post on here are the sort of stories that recovered addicts tell when they come in and talk about how we [i]shouldn't[/i] be doing drugs. I don't know if we're still friends, and I don't know if you like any of us anymore. You're slowly killing yourself and we're all very worried about you. You need to put down the crack pipe and think about where you want to be in five years. You'll end up dead.[/QUOTE] Not sure if you saw this, but you should really listen, this guy cares about you. Please be careful.
[QUOTE=Rediscover;46680827]this but with me used to be a regular here, havent posted in awhile i need your validation dd [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] last night i bought a xanax bar and decided to take a fourth of it and just chill out for the night guess how much i ended up taking[/QUOTE] I remember you man. How's it been?
With the 12 beers I drank last night, I have a suprisingly small hangover. Played a lot of beer pong with some students from usc, I really want to go there but I'd say my chances are shit [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] Rip pirate bay, i guess i need to grow up now
I gotta get good at breakin, deejayin, beatboxin, and emceein, and then organize events in my community, where we hang out and have fun, burn some energy, it provides entertainment for people (and kids here need that too, it keeps them out of trouble also), and it brings people together. We could come together and unite as one, figure out what we want to happen in our community, address the problems ourselves, etc. It's fucking awesome to rap, sing, chant, etc. words to remember them and to pass them on. You can really change the world with it. All by speaking into the air. It's like magic. Spit an ill rhyme to strengthen and uplift the mind!
[QUOTE=explodingape;46681860]With the 12 beers I drank last night, I have a suprisingly small hangover. Played a lot of beer pong with some students from usc, I really want to go there but I'd say my chances are shit [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] Rip pirate bay, i guess i need to grow up now[/QUOTE] wait what this is devastating news [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] what should I watch while I binge on chicken wings i wonder i literally just marathonned through all of adventure time considering regular show but eh i don't find it holds my attention as long, prefer just keeping up with it
watch community, I love binging on that
[QUOTE=Joscpe;46681790]I remember you man. How's it been?[/QUOTE] pretty shit tbh girls are bad and opiates are hard to not take shit happens tho
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46681948]wait what this is devastating news [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] what should I watch while I binge on chicken wings i wonder i literally just marathonned through all of adventure time considering regular show but eh i don't find it holds my attention as long, prefer just keeping up with it[/QUOTE] When I'm high/drunk/tripping Regular Show is one of my go to's. Especially the older episodes, I fucking love it. The 80's vibe, the hidden jokes/drug and alcohol references and the general craziness. It's amazing, and it's a shame it wasn't an adult cartoon because it would have been even that much better. For example: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiViiubjLDM[/media] If only...
[QUOTE=Rediscover;46682146]pretty shit tbh girls are bad and opiates are hard to not take shit happens tho[/QUOTE] Yup, I've got my mindfuck of an ex coming to visit family next week, and she wants to have coffee... Maybe something will happen out of it, who knows. Knowing my luck, she'll just attempt to play with my mind again. But I've got a pretty solid barrier between me and other people, so I tend to remain resilient to her attempts. Fucking cat just slipped off my desk and accidentally dug her claws into me during her fall, while I was typing. Fucking random, and now I'm bleeding all over, hahaha. God damn it.
[QUOTE=explodingape;46681860]With the 12 beers I drank last night, I have a suprisingly small hangover. Played a lot of beer pong with some students from usc, I really want to go there but I'd say my chances are shit [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] Rip pirate bay, i guess i need to grow up now[/QUOTE] one police raid can't kill the pirate bay. I bet they're back on in three days
[QUOTE=LSK;46682211]When I'm high/drunk/tripping Regular Show is one of my go to's. Especially the older episodes, I fucking love it. The 80's vibe, the hidden jokes/drug and alcohol references and the general craziness. It's amazing, and it's a shame it wasn't an adult cartoon because it would have been even that much better. For example: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiViiubjLDM[/media] If only...[/QUOTE] holy fuck that'd be perfect on another note [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAC9Ecf1Xgc&list=PLeBlyY_6Ks-oQTB8cObGdn_v9svy9AWQt[/media] this is still one of my favourite albums alltogether. brings me right back to the psychedelic vibe of last year while I was still able to enjoy most drugs
I prefer this from their album. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVeMiVU77wo[/media] It's just a damn shame that their latest album didn't really live up to the first. If you like Alt-J though, check out Glass Animals for something more hipster. [url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jeo3an2M_Lo]Link to something that's kinda similar[/url]. More psychedelic pop/Trip hop goodness. [editline]10th December 2014[/editline] It's singer also does that weird breathless singing that alt-j's bloke does too.
Does anyone here who drinks beer like Bud Light? I personally can't stand it, I think it tastes like that bad rain water that's been sitting in your gutter too long because it's clogged up with leaves but hey that's just me not judging anyone. Just asking because I've been drinking Leinenkugel lately which has some pretty good flavors. Before that I was drinking Shiner Bock which is ok, it's an eh cheap beer which is what Bud Light should be like (IMO). Again I'm not trying to be a pretentious asshole I just honestly can't stand Bud Light, and I have drank it quite a lot in my youth to be fair. Also listen to this it's one of my favorites. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cU8HrO7XuiE[/media]
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46682342]holy fuck that'd be perfect on another note [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EAC9Ecf1Xgc&list=PLeBlyY_6Ks-oQTB8cObGdn_v9svy9AWQt[/media] this is still one of my favourite albums alltogether. brings me right back to the psychedelic vibe of last year while I was still able to enjoy most drugs[/QUOTE] I fucking love that album, I found out about it here in DD last year when I was first coming out of my really major depression/social isolation and attempting to enter society (I'd say re-enter but I was never there in the first place), and it's stuck with me ever since I just realized it's actually really fitting that their name is ∆ because that's the symbol for change and that was a period of extreme change in my life And on the topic of their second album, I was initially disappointed but after giving it some time and listening to it again there's more to it than I heard at first I'm in the midst of an episode of depression right now, going off wellbutrin last week has really fucked me up. I narrowly avoided having a full breakdown an hour ago, and I haven't been able to take care of myself at all. I've been missing tons of meals and I've been frequently dehydrated, and I've been struggling to keep up with hygiene which feeds my anxiety which in turn feeds back into the depression This is also the first time I haven't been able to keep the effects to myself and put on a happy face for everyone. It makes me kind of uncomfortable but it's inevitable and probably for the better Honestly I'm not sure where the past 12 hours went. I feel like I haven't been able to control my actions at all.
hahaha oh god I found a website I used to host when I was like 11 through the web archive [url]http://web.archive.org/web/20070518044437/http://www.c4d4u.com/portal.php[/url] this is hilarious. I managed to download one of my old tutorial videos and oh god my voice
[QUOTE=Dark Crypto]I am very strict about this, No piracy. and that is final[/QUOTE] [QUOTE=Consciousness;46681948][QUOTE=explodingape;46681860]Rip pirate bay, i guess i need to grow up now[/QUOTE] wait what this is devastating news[/QUOTE] These two things coming up on the same page is a really satisfying coincidence
[QUOTE=/B/rother;46674478] [editline]9th December 2014[/editline] You should tell the story about how you barfed in the bin while being there, haha[/QUOTE] Oh yeah! I had a very bad hangover, and had to signal the dentist to stop every time I was about to puke. She was ice cold though, just pushed a bin next to me and was like "do you mind? you can always signal me to stop" Longest dentist visit ever. I also fell asleep inside the waiting room at the train station, and every now and then i woke up and puked all over the place, then fell asleep again. I was about to go shopping with my girlfriend, but I didnt enter any of the shops, afraid I was gonna puke again. Omg. So retarded, but funny!
a mate of mine's in hospital because his lung collapsed again and now he has to have an operation i'm sure he'll be alright but it's kind of sad to think about i've been thinking about the medication and everything a bit and I don't really know how I should go about it now, i'm still off but as of now the symptoms of the disorder are very debilitating though possibly made worse partly by withdrawal rebound, it's like I can't even think clearly and if i'm trying to decide what to do i'll sit here for half an hour before a single idea comes to mind with any remote clarity, otherwise i'm just bouncing between thoughts, start doing something for a bit, get distracted and forget about it, go back to mindless responsive behavior and mostly just wasting my time doing essentially nothing back into impulsiveness as well with my money spending which isn't good because I was meant to be putting that towards my license... not a huge deal, but in retrospect i'm not sure why this is how I was way back even before starting medication and it's fucking annoying me, i'd rather be on meds than live like this because I remember I spent a good 2 years between seeing my first psych and finally getting diagnosed trying to fight well, this, and get my shit together. It didn't work but I don't want to be like I was the other night and end up binging through meds, so i think i'll give long-acting a go to see if that's better for me because honestly i'm more or less fine while the meds are active, it's facing that comedown that gets me. It successively gets worse with each one I have to face, it's like paradoxical how bad the comedown is compared to how I actually feel while the meds are active (which is, basically, as if I hadn't taken anything just normal and functional, for about 2-3 hours, followed by high irritability and depression. First one for the day usually isn't too bad, second one is annoying as hell but bareable, third is where I've fallen into abuse pretty much every time as of late). I know you guys think it's wrecking me but myself and everyone around me has seen how positive it's effects can be when I take it as prescribed, the problem is if I can't take it as prescribed well then that's when I get that million miles a second state of mind where I think everything has completely gone to shit and start questioning life in general. Not too much longer until my next appointment, so i'll definitely switch to long acting to avoid those issues if possible and see how that goes, if I get back on the IR between now and then i'm going to titrate again with half's as I didn't do that after my extended break post binge and haven't been consistently /on/ since then, which probably was a bad idea it self feel free to share your thoughts on this with me, i'm open to criticism and suggestions but I do think medication isn't the worst thing in the world for me and is otherwise quite beneficial, obviously though i've been fucking that up for myself by not using it properly I still haven't decided what to watch... and time's running out for the day. I want a nice show to take my mind off things but I don't like repeating shows too frequently, community is good but i never really enjoy rewatching episodes of it for some reason. I'll probably just watch robot chicken 3 hours later and I managed to watch maybe one or two episodes at best and got caught up doing random shit again.... eck
[QUOTE=explodingape;46681860]Rip pirate bay, i guess i need to grow up now[/QUOTE] None can sink tha boat, arr m8. But well, time to switch to Popcorn Time for a while
Bought a half OZ of mids for 80, got 11 grams of mids and almost a gram of dank. I mean, I guess I shouldnt complain but still
rolled a fat joint of the danks, saving for later. threw the rest of the dank, prolly like .3 into my bowl. When I was done smoking I picked up the top half of my grinder and brought it towards the bowl, as if the two were going to connect somehow. I immediately burst into laughter and realized how stupid that was
got like 4g of kief what should i do with it?
Turn it into hash. If you have butane, isopropyl, acetone, you can do a simple extraction. If you don't want to do that, you can spread the kief evenly under 2-3 layers of plastic, take a spoon, heat it up with a lighter for 2-5 seconds. Press the spoon onto some spare plastic to make sure it's not going to burn through the plastic layers and ruin your kief. You want the spoon hot enough to be really warm but not plastic-burning hot. So once you know it's not too hot, you press down really hard on the kief, and do this for a few seconds. You'll need to do it a couple times but it works good.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46683556]a mate of mine's in hospital because his lung collapsed again and now he has to have an operation i'm sure he'll be alright but it's kind of sad to think about i've been thinking about the medication and everything a bit and I don't really know how I should go about it now, i'm still off but as of now the symptoms of the disorder are very debilitating though possibly made worse partly by withdrawal rebound, it's like I can't even think clearly and if i'm trying to decide what to do i'll sit here for half an hour before a single idea comes to mind with any remote clarity, otherwise i'm just bouncing between thoughts, start doing something for a bit, get distracted and forget about it, go back to mindless responsive behavior and mostly just wasting my time doing essentially nothing back into impulsiveness as well with my money spending which isn't good because I was meant to be putting that towards my license... not a huge deal, but in retrospect i'm not sure why this is how I was way back even before starting medication and it's fucking annoying me, i'd rather be on meds than live like this because I remember I spent a good 2 years between seeing my first psych and finally getting diagnosed trying to fight well, this, and get my shit together. It didn't work but I don't want to be like I was the other night and end up binging through meds, so i think i'll give long-acting a go to see if that's better for me because honestly i'm more or less fine while the meds are active, it's facing that comedown that gets me. It successively gets worse with each one I have to face, it's like paradoxical how bad the comedown is compared to how I actually feel while the meds are active (which is, basically, as if I hadn't taken anything just normal and functional, for about 2-3 hours, followed by high irritability and depression. First one for the day usually isn't too bad, second one is annoying as hell but bareable, third is where I've fallen into abuse pretty much every time as of late). I know you guys think it's wrecking me but myself and everyone around me has seen how positive it's effects can be when I take it as prescribed, the problem is if I can't take it as prescribed well then that's when I get that million miles a second state of mind where I think everything has completely gone to shit and start questioning life in general. Not too much longer until my next appointment, so i'll definitely switch to long acting to avoid those issues if possible and see how that goes, if I get back on the IR between now and then i'm going to titrate again with half's as I didn't do that after my extended break post binge and haven't been consistently /on/ since then, which probably was a bad idea it self feel free to share your thoughts on this with me, i'm open to criticism and suggestions but I do think medication isn't the worst thing in the world for me and is otherwise quite beneficial, obviously though i've been fucking that up for myself by not using it properly I still haven't decided what to watch... and time's running out for the day. I want a nice show to take my mind off things but I don't like repeating shows too frequently, community is good but i never really enjoy rewatching episodes of it for some reason. I'll probably just watch robot chicken 3 hours later and I managed to watch maybe one or two episodes at best and got caught up doing random shit again.... eck[/QUOTE] I'd suggest you try to switch over to Focalin/dexmethlyphenidate if it's the crash that's getting to you, it's got a much more bearable crash But also, I'd recommend against going on Focalin IR because I've never really enjoyed abusing it and it still happens occasionally
sitting here eating a box of quality street buying drugs off the internet when i have a test tomorrow this is my life now
I shouldnt have napped for 2 hours earlier around 8 aclock I already got up late in the day now i cant get to sleep and have been laying here with everything off for like an hour So i give up trying and am gonna play san andreas for a while on my phone i guess
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46685766]I shouldnt have napped for 2 hours earlier around 8 aclock I already got up late in the day now i cant get to sleep and have been laying here with everything off for like an hour So i give up trying and am gonna play san andreas for a while on my phone i guess[/QUOTE] Friendly question: Isn't you the main cause of your sleep disorders?
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