I thought about that but no, haven't thought about anything related to the dream. At least not what I can remember. I've been happy for a while but today (this happens every now and then) I got a bit angry at nothing, thinking I was gonna get into an argument with someone. It all faded after I switched music and then I was fine.
Oh, I've noticed my deja vu moments have been coming back, once or twice a day they happen. I always think something bad will happen but of course nothing does.
deja vu + anxiety is a terrible feeling
Deja vu is the weirdest shit, it fucks with my head so hard that you feel without a doubt that what is happening, has happened to you some other time already, and that what happens next is just out of reach of your mind.
[editline]19th December 2014[/editline]
Had a shitty day but after having a pretty real chat with my mum just now I feel better. I've come to realise that without intending to at all, I have almost completely shut my family out of my life for the last couple of years. I never wanted my family to know I was high, and for the last two years almost all my time spent at home has been spent high. This basically equates to me almost never having had an open/honest moment with my family throughout that time, except on special occasions when I couldn't be high e.g. family christmas, a road trip or something.
Turns out that your parents are basically you, split up into two people, and that they have insight into a lot of things that you struggle with, seeing as they struggled with the same things.
[QUOTE=KillerTele;46747297]Just up from a dream where I was hopping between dimensions killing bad guys, I think they ask were rich people. I remember beating their skulls in with a mace of some sort. At one point I saw one crying and saying it all felt weird after I had hit him, that's when I said, with a sad voice "this is horrible, I don't want to do this" and woke up. Horrible way to start the day.
Any clues on what it could be? It was a long and graphic dream, but I saw no blood. Fairly sure I had a companion in the beginning who dragged me into it then disappeared.[/QUOTE]
-snip-
Upon reading this over, I remembered there was a reason I don't share my uncontrolled thoughts.
[editline]19th December 2014[/editline]
I remember hearing someone say that you can't really die in your dreams. I'd like to slap that person in the face.
[editline]19th December 2014[/editline]
[QUOTE=Faren;46747629]Turns out that your parents are basically you, split up into two people, and that they have insight into a lot of things that you struggle with, seeing as they struggled with the same things.[/QUOTE]
Not my dad, man. He's perfectly fine, it's everyone else who is really fucked up. Specially "the niggers" and "the fucking faggots".
[QUOTE=Faren;46747629]Turns out that your parents are basically you, split up into two people, and that they have insight into a lot of things that you struggle with, seeing as they struggled with the same things.[/QUOTE]
Please no, I don't want to be a two loser college dropouts at the same time.
[QUOTE=Comrade_Eko;46747712]Please no, I don't want to be a two loser college dropouts at the same time.[/QUOTE]
Both of mine dropped out of high school.
:v: maybe I was too literal, my point was we learn all of our most basic traits from our family and they've probably had similar experiences in a lot of areas
4:20am
[img]http://images.mzzt.net/smilies/emot-2bong.png[/img]
[editline]December 19, 2014[/editline]
How the fuck can I be late when I'm in a different fucking time zone nub.
[img]https://www.apotheekmeysen.be/UserFiles/Uploads/images/Products/1236728.jpg[/img]
Lol so Xanax is packaged as "Xanax Retard" in some countries
Smoking joints through the carb of my bubbler...
It's really hot but also really effective
it was so cliche I had to get it
bong has bob marley on it
basically this
[t]http://www.ozbongs.com.au/images/D/bob-marley.jpg[/t]
two of my friends just lost their father a few days ago and today i'm going to the funeral with some friends.
later on we'll probably gather some people in the basement and get zonked.
Came across like .5g of shake while cleaning out my room (which has been a fuckin sty for the entire year, I'm so glad to finally clean some of this crap up) and had a bit of a moment where I almost kept it. Knew I'd just end up causing myself more grief (probably by smoking it after a particularly rough day or something, then feeling awful about myself because of it) so I threw it out. Yeah baby, one more step toward better self-control.
I reckon willpower is like a muscle, sure you only have so much to expend at a given time until you wear it out, and if you've been letting shit slide for a long time, it's difficult to put your foot down and get shit done. However I've found that the more you do, the easier it gets over time. Gotta keep exercising this willpower. Might start taking cold showers again just for the hell of it :v:
3rd day of my break from drugs including alcohol, and while I honestly had a pretty rough day (I might have smoked if I'd found that bud earlier), I feel like I'm finally working through all the feelings/thoughts I've been ignoring for months. I think by being constantly intoxicated I'd basically hit the pause button on processing all my feelings and just became completely stagnant, just delaying the inevitable and wasting my own time, making myself feel like crap because of it. But now I'm beginning to work through all my issues and get my life moving forward again. Might even be ready to meet up with my ex to swap our shit back to one another soon.
and yo thanks DD, for being a place where I can voice this kind of stuff, it's hard to admit everything I want to say to friends or family, it'd be like opening a floodgate of problems all over them with more shit than they could really respond to I think. Yet at the same time, I reckon (at least for me) you've gotta tell somebody what you're thinking/feeling, otherwise it's just abstract thinking floating around in your head, or a journal you can forget about after two entries. Even if nobody responds, it still helps having somewhere to put this that isn't visible only to me.
Special thanks to Consciousness and a few others for demonstrating that if you're open and honest about what you're going through, you can make real progress compared to just trying to silently work through stuff without even writing anything down. No joke, you guys inspired the crap outta me and I wish you all a kickass, transformative journey.
Being stimulated still when waking up is an odd, nauseating feeling. I had the worst eye-shaking last night. I had to lay down and turn off the TV before I got sick.
If I'd been using the DK2 while the Kratom and Syrian Rue set in, I definitely would have gotten motion sick.
[editline]19th December 2014[/editline]
I'm not getting out of bed until I can feel like I'm [I]not[/I] going to vomit. Why did I wake up so fucking early?
[QUOTE=Elecbullet;46748362][IMG]https://www.apotheekmeysen.be/UserFiles/Uploads/images/Products/1236728.jpg[/IMG]
Lol so Xanax is packaged as "Xanax Retard" in some countries[/QUOTE]
Means "late" in french, so I'd imagine maybe it's extended release or since they're the 1mg tabs maybe late as in late at night before sleep but I'm leaning towards ER, but do they make an alprazolam ER? I mean it lasts kinda long as it is.
Also jeez when I'm going to wake up in the morning and not be sore anymore, like it goes away during the day, but for some reason I still kinda feel almost w/d-e but I can't agree that it's still w/d when it's been nearly 8 days since my last use and it was only 60mg hydrocodone.
Double teaming DMT and Ketamine is life-alteringly gud.
On K right now and I keep trying to rate posts, it's really difficult. £40 a gram, never buying it again so making sure I enjoy this. Feel tingly, numb and happy.
Well the girl im still crushing on basically made it clear i have no chance with her, and i didnt get a Christmas bonus... wtf? Everyone else did
im high as fuck,
my friend is drunk as hell
good night to fuck shit up in minecraft
if either of us can work out how to get a server up again :v
Hey guys it's been a while. I just woke up an hour ago and had me like four shots of Captain Morgan and now I'm watching TV. I missed you buddies :^)
Just saw some dude get arrested for dancing his ass off. Granted he had started taking his clothes off but he was having a good time.
I think I want to quit my First Amendment drug: pornography. And masturbation too.
I bought weed off this random guy at a large city I visited and he sold it to me in this container:
[img]http://i.imgur.com/ii6jVML.png[/img]
[img]http://i.imgur.com/VIdLDjn.png[/img]
[img]http://i.imgur.com/usoNIdU.png[/img]
After dousing the thing in bleach, a mix of alcohol and baking soda, and soaking it in alcohol, it still smells like weed on the inside.
I could totally, really easily use my bubbler as the bowl for a makeshift bong
And it'll have a built in ash catcher too, damn
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Afa-e9aT1-0[/media]
[img]http://media.giphy.com/media/pew812I3w3cGs/giphy.gif[/img]
[sp]Even his mask looks exhausted. Also fuck the guy that said "yeahhhhh boyyyyy."[/sp]
[QUOTE=Banandana;46752136]I bought weed off this random guy at a large city I visited and he sold it to me in this container:
[img]http://i.imgur.com/ii6jVML.png[/img]
[img]http://i.imgur.com/VIdLDjn.png[/img]
[img]http://i.imgur.com/usoNIdU.png[/img]
After dousing the thing in bleach, a mix of alcohol and baking soda, and soaking it in alcohol, it still smells like weed on the inside.[/QUOTE]
Vinegar yo
I'll try that
So any time I don't have enough bud/keif to smoke in a bowl (pathethic right, anywhere from 0.05-0.2) i'll throw a cannabis seed (I try to use the lighter colored ones, since they don't grow well anyways) in the bowl first, this ensures that no keif or anything gets sent flying into the downstem when I hit it, for maximum bakedness. Seed burns nicely too, I assume it has a tiny amount of THC in/on it.
Scraped what little scrapings i could get outta my grinder just to get high tonight. I had an annoying headache that seems to have subsided, and I'm decently high
I can only smell TRACE amounts of weed if I put my nose in it. That's perfect. Thanks
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