Holy. Fucking. Shit.
I really need to get this off my chest, because what has just happened in the past 3 hours might be life changing for me.
I'm grounded from driving, so I was picked up from school by my mom. She came into the school where I was talking with a friend and asked what we were doing. Dumb me responded jokingly, "Smoking PCP", and my mom said, "Wouldn't surprise me." This honestly was extremely upsetting to me, that my mom thought that since I was caught by an officer with weed, that I could also being smoking PCP. I was short with her on the ride home, because I was upset about it. She asked why I was being so short and I brought up her comment. She became very angry, yelled that it was sarcasm, and ran out of the car, slamming the door, and into the house while slamming that door as well.
I get inside and just think, "Fuck this, I'm going to smoke." I get my weed, walk around my backyard (I live on a farm) and smoke. About 10 minutes later, I come back to the house. I go downstairs and a few minutes later my mom comes down and apologizes for freaking out, but then still scolds me and the like. We talk for maybe 30 minutes before she goes upstairs again.
I eventually go upstairs to talk to her about things more. I'm sorry, I don't remember full specifics, because we talked for 3 hours, but there was one thing that I don't think I'll ever forget.
She asked me if I wanted to know the turning point in her life that woke her up. I said sure, because I thought I already knew what it was. When she was a sophomore in high school, she got into a car filled with drunk people, including the driver. She ended up getting in a car crash, where the car flipped over multiple times, while she wasn't wearing a seatbelt. Her braces ended up bending, she knocked out almost all of her front teeth, and the metal brace stuck through her chin. She's had to wear fake teeth since then. That's not her turning point.
Her turning point was something I was not expecting at all, something she had never brought up with me or my brother, and only once with my dad. My brother still doesn't know, and my dad apparently blocked it from his brain.
When my mother was a junior in High School, she went to a party and got really drunk. Someone ended up date-raping her, and next thing you know, she's pregnant. A junior in High School, 17 years old, my mother became pregnant. She had to go to her abusive father and lazy I-don't-care-about-my-children mother, and explain that she was pregnant.
Keep in mind I am at an [8] or whatever at this point. She tells me this and I seriously almost pass out.
She apparently was pregnant for 3 months, and "God showed mercy on her" and she miscarried.
Like, seriously holy shit. That is a fucking bombshell to put on me. I thought I was underprivileged because my parents were a little annoying and my Dad yells at me a lot. But jesus christ. That is going to fucking stick with me for so long.
I'm literally speechless. :(
my shroom connect didn't pull through. no psychedelic experience for me :c
Finally got round to smoking that bud I found in the back of my gameboy, this is some good shit, and I haven't been blazed in like 2 months. When I got caught by my parents, my dad's reaction was "I at least got my GCSEs first"
I now have my GCSEs so I kind of have permission.
My friend broke his bong so we got a new one
It was much stronger than we expecting and so holy balls I'm high. I don't even know how I'm successfully typing right now
Scored 20 hydro 5/325's for $40, so I now have a stockpile of 9 perc 10/325's 5 hydro 10/325's and 20 hydro 5/325's.... I need some weed and my collection will be complete for now...
day one and i'm already failing...
i've blocked my access to facebook so I don't waste the entirety of my day on there trying to talk to people though, told my mates to call me if they need anything/anything's happening. Lets see how long this lasts
one step at a time I guess... i don't think we as humans could possibly break the bond between ourselves and technology entirely but I want to find a healthy balance, facebook was probably the biggest one
essentially my current method of action in going about this is re purposing my tools, i suppose.
Cut myself off from heavy sources of distraction with my computer and turn it into something with a more specific purpose (music workstation primarily)
for now i'll report back here, because in this being a forum it's a bit easier to not stay stuck on the entirety of the time, less rapid updating of information and what not
utilizing the phone for the more social stuff should push me, in a sense, towards upgrading to a better more recent phone, which i've been wanting to do for some time now but haven't found the capability to do so just yet.
it's probably excuses and justifications but at least phones are well, mobile... so i'm not locked down in one spot distracting myself from everything else around me, even if I do use it as a source of heavy distraction in itself
I think my plan might have been a little drastic, but i'm going to work towards it one step at a time. Minimize my intake of any altering substances, maximize my purity, but the cold turkey approach seems to fail me yet again without me even realizing it.
I'm not giving up, though, it's just gonna be a bit of a bumpy ride it
i'm pretty shit at this all, and it makes me feel subhuman. but then I look around and I realize i'm not the only one, even my close friends have their problems with substances and or distractive things, the only real difference between myself and them at this point (other than the diagnosis and what not) is they've mostly got jobs and or study to partake in, and i've still got nothing for now
for now.
Is there an easy way to transfer money from paypal to bit coin?
maybe check local bitcoin but be prepared to pay a premium
the one time I have scales and a lot of weed on me at the same time..
fuck
[QUOTE=Thug;45766389]the one time I have scales and a lot of weed on me at the same time..
fuck[/QUOTE]
Hope everything turns out fine for you, you got my good vibes mate.
smoked a gram and went for a haircut :Da
awesome page king
my mother just got fucked over by a long time friend, who we used to invite to our birthday parties, vacations etc because she doesn't have a lot of family or friends, and now we're out 24k danish krones.
i'm considering driving over to her place and give her a piece of my mind. also started thinking of ways to make her life miserable (cutting tires, smashing windows, threaten her beloved kitties etc.
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i remember her once telling me that my brother and i were like nephews or something to her. i think i'm going to barf.
A fresh shot of booze,
i feel the warmth spread inside,
my troubles leave me.
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[QUOTE=/B/rother;45767165]my mother just got fucked over by a long time friend, who we used to invite to our birthday parties, vacations etc because she doesn't have a lot of family or friends, and now we're out 24k danish krones.
i'm considering driving over to her place and give her a piece of my mind. [b] also started thinking of ways to make her life miserable (cutting tires, smashing windows, threaten her beloved kitties etc. [/b]
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i remember her once telling me that my brother and i were like nephews or something to her. i think i'm going to barf.[/QUOTE]
Please don't. Don't stoop to her level. Fucking with her with fuck you and make her the victim.
baked from resin
the special thing about this high is that there was one pile of resin that i couldn't scrape before but i figured out how today, so there's at least 30-40 different variants of weed plant that i'm smoking in that resin
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i call it 'mystery mix'
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also, if spice leaves resin, i'll have a bit of that lingering too, and some tobacco that i threw in there
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[media]http://soundcloud.com/george-fitzgerald-georgeplaysaguitar/untitled-16[/media]
recorded some ska toon
well, i'm dry.
one of my friends who was over last night dropped the pipe and spilled the dope all over the floor, god damn it. he kept hogging the pipe so much too
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i think he's a bit depressed tho so I should talk to him. he seemed a bit off :(
aren't we all a bit off
-nevermind tho-
[QUOTE=Mooe94;45767602]I've never tried rolling one before, anyone got a good tutorial video or something? :)[/QUOTE]
I thought you were dry?
Well, I don't know about tutorials, I just kept trying. It doesn't take as long as you may think to get good at it.
[t]http://www.shellshock420.com/store/media/catalog/product/cache/1/image/370x/040ec09b1e35df139433887a97daa66f/i/m/image_982.jpg[/t]
These are what I started with, they're still my favourite to roll with. I'm sure there are youtube tutorials, and image tutorials out there, but you more or less just have to get used to working with the paper.
[QUOTE=Joscpe;45767765]I thought you were dry?
Well, I don't know about tutorials, I just kept trying. It doesn't take as long as you may think to get good at it.
[t]http://www.shellshock420.com/store/media/catalog/product/cache/1/image/370x/040ec09b1e35df139433887a97daa66f/i/m/image_982.jpg[/t]
These are what I started with, they're still my favourite to roll with. I'm sure there are youtube tutorials, and image tutorials out there, but you more or less just have to get used to working with the paper.[/QUOTE]
I prefer the Raw rolling papers honestly. Better burn, flavour and all that. Zig zags are my back up though, for both cigarettes and joints.
If there's an outside break area with nice flowers and benches, who would rather sit inside and watch t.v. in the dull break room
[QUOTE=The Aussie;45767775]I prefer the Raw rolling papers honestly. Better burn, flavour and all that. Zig zags are my back up though, for both cigarettes and joints.[/QUOTE]
I found (at least with the pack I bought) the glue to be too weak on the Raw papers. It really didn't hold well.
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What the fuck is it with cats, man.
My cat was laying across my computer desk (It's L shaped, so she had a whole length there), she's just laying on all my shit. Then she decides to push a couple things off with her paw, and moves my wallet under her head. Go ahead, make yourself comfortable, you asshole. Then I get up, because I'm about to go out; so she gets up as well, and rolls a pencil off the desk, before jumping down. Then she starts calling out for food. "Here, clean this shit up, and feed me".
taking acid for the second time tonight, a drop aswell what ive never done. getting a g of mud aswell so wish me luck guys, i need a good fucking wrecker after last night
[QUOTE=Creid;45767531]aren't we all a bit off[/QUOTE]
And sometimes drugs make us straight on
[QUOTE=/B/rother;45767165]my mother just got fucked over by a long time friend, who we used to invite to our birthday parties, vacations etc because she doesn't have a lot of family or friends, and now we're out 24k danish krones.
i'm considering driving over to her place and give her a piece of my mind. also started thinking of ways to make her life miserable (cutting tires, smashing windows, threaten her beloved kitties etc.
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i remember her once telling me that my brother and i were like nephews or something to her. i think i'm going to barf.[/QUOTE]
people change man, my friend was robbed by one of his bestfriends for 2000 dollars at gunpoint, just like that.
Just went for a huge joint by myself, feeling pretty damn wrecked god damn, gotta sober up in 1 hour before my girl friend comes home and finds out I smoked the last of my (she always that when I buy it, I have to provide 99.9% of it to her) weed.. Um
[QUOTE=Joscpe;45767765]I thought you were dry?
Well, I don't know about tutorials, I just kept trying. It doesn't take as long as you may think to get good at it.
[t]http://www.shellshock420.com/store/media/catalog/product/cache/1/image/370x/040ec09b1e35df139433887a97daa66f/i/m/image_982.jpg[/t]
These are what I started with, they're still my favourite to roll with. I'm sure there are youtube tutorials, and image tutorials out there, but you more or less just have to get used to working with the paper.[/QUOTE]
well i found some i had mixed with tobacco so i just used the pipe as always. works fine.
[QUOTE=WoodenSpoon;45769345][video=youtube;JbWMj4b2rDg]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JbWMj4b2rDg[/video][/QUOTE]
oh shit, i saw this posted in a band's group page on facebook when it had like 20 shares
crazy motherfucker
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