• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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i'm sober and full of regret haha [editline]15th September 2014[/editline] 7 billion lives and i end up with mine, wouldn't trade it for anything but it makes you think what coulda been
so...pretty much got broken up with because I was "controlling her" when I let her do whatever the fuck she wanted. so fucking sick of this shit....3 years ago she promised to never leave me (I was very skeptical about going in another long distance relationship, last time didnt work so well..) and I believed it. I can't take being depressed like this again I just feel like ending it all....I'd rather have nobody if I can't have her, even if I did find someone else all I'd be able to think about is her. I can't live putting on a face for everyone only to come home and break down and cry. I'm sorry for the rant I just can't take this pain I want to stop breathing...if she really never gets back with me I'm gonna have serious trust/self esteem issues. I don't want any other girl...:( been toking a lot with a friend the past couple days though. [editline]15th September 2014[/editline] like the other day she was saying she wants to marry me, etc and now this.
it sucks that you're sad dude; and I'm sorry you feel so low but, why did she feel that you were controlling? I'm not saying you WERE but I mean there's always two sides to the story, and sometimes people do and say shit without thinking; and don't apologize for it properly. You gotta analyze the whole situation otherwise you won't learn and grow from it.
[QUOTE=Lebowski;45981969]it sucks that you're sad dude; and I'm sorry you feel so low but, why did she feel that you were controlling? I'm not saying you WERE but I mean there's always two sides to the story, and sometimes people do and say shit without thinking; and don't apologize for it properly. You gotta analyze the whole situation otherwise you won't learn and grow from it.[/QUOTE] I'm not sure exactly cause I couldn't get a straight answer but I'm guessing maybe because I was looking on her fb and a couple months back I guess she took a picture with some guy at her school which I had no idea about (which made me kinda mad cause I'm so far away and I have to see her with some other guy when I want that to be me, and i didnt even know) so I just wanted her to at least tell me when she's with other guys, but again I'm not 100%. Though I've been letting her do whatever she wants, even if it includes going to parties/drinking/talking to other guys which I was really uncomfortable with but it had to be that way. I do understand that but she won't really cooperate and tell me what the hell I did wrong.
[QUOTE=dr.bean;45982037]I'm not sure exactly cause I couldn't get a straight answer but I'm guessing maybe because I was looking on her fb and a couple months back I guess she took a picture with some guy at her school which I had no idea about (which made me kinda mad cause I'm so far away and I have to see her with some other guy when I want that to be me, and i didnt even know) so I just wanted her to at least tell me when she's with other guys, but again I'm not 100%. Though I've been letting her do whatever she wants, even if it includes going to parties/drinking/talking to other guys which I was really uncomfortable with but it had to be that way. I do understand that but she won't really cooperate and tell me what the hell I did wrong.[/QUOTE] If you're going to be in a relationship with someone, you should be able to trust them well enough to be around other guys. She probably picked up on that vibe dude, and that vibe probably permeated a lot more than just that. Honestly if the two of you are gonna have a chance, from the bit that you've said; you [I]probably[/I] need to give her space and time to figure herself out. Then ask what went wrong, and even then it's still not a conversation she [I]has[/I] to have if she's already found some form of closure. Take care of yourself dude.
I did, its just the fact that I didn't even know, and I know she wouldn't do anything but shit happens when alcohol gets involved. I know but I just can't take being depressed again, she's my whole life and the one I wanna marry and have a family with.
curry rice! curry rice!
[QUOTE=de;45982349]curry rice! curry rice![/QUOTE] [img]http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/c/c3/Misadvbox.jpg/256px-Misadvbox.jpg[/img] [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] ?
[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;45979940]fuck me its not even 9pm yet [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] yeah im proud i lost my v-card to some chick i met online, still lost it yo [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] and she cute af, don't forget [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] cute > hot imo [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] but that's just me[/QUOTE] Does she toke on the weed? Never seen her post here. Smoke her out and convert her to a DD regular. Our community could always use some more chill folks.
[QUOTE=Elecbullet;45982372][img]http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/c/c3/Misadvbox.jpg/256px-Misadvbox.jpg[/img] [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] ?[/QUOTE] no, as in literal curry rice that I made and am eating right now. [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] looks like a good game tho, my inner weeaboo urges for it
[QUOTE=dr.bean;45982216]I did, its just the fact that I didn't even know, and I know she wouldn't do anything but shit happens when alcohol gets involved. I know but I just can't take being depressed again, she's my whole life and the one I wanna marry and have a family with.[/QUOTE] You gotta take a step back and look at things from a greater perspective. You are only what,17-18 now, you're life has only begun dude. I remember when high school was like your entire life, when you think all of that drama matters and crap, but after college and into young adulthood I realize life is a hell of a lot bigger than that. Sure you are right in the middle of a relationship and you are going to think there can be no one else, but remember what it was like before them. Remember that there is a hell of a lot more out there that you live for, enjoy, cherish. There's so many more people out there, people who can be more compatible with you in different ways. Yeah she may be unique and seem like the only one but there are others out there, new people, new memories to create and share with those new people. This is only a small window of your life and you have to realize shit is going to start changing real fucking fast, especially from like 16-22. People also have different perspectives too, like you may felt like you did everything right while they get hung up on a certain thing you did which they focus on but you don't. I just feel like this mini rant is more about the fact that you are growing up, you are going to be put in new situations, meet new people, learn about yourself that its all a part of the process we call life. Deal with the now, but remember where you are in your life dude, tons of shit ahead of you, shit you will [I]never[/I] be able to predict.
I feel like my parents are not fully assessing my situation at the moment. They are angry because my grades are "shit" (B's and C's in college level courses as a junior in high school) and of course they automatically blame it on me smoking. Really though there's been a girl that is messing with my emotions, general worthless high school "drama", me fighting depression and anxiety problems, and to top it off my dad recently found he has a fucking brain tumor. So I'm living a slightly loaded life atm for a high schooler, and smoking has really helped me cope with everything so far IMO. But since I was recently in trouble, my parents are getting paranoid about me. A few days ago my dad said the garage smelled weird when I literally had not even been in there. He blamed it on my ecig, which is stupid as fuck because it doesn't even smell in the first place. Then my mom just came downstairs to tell me my grades are shit (keep in mind it's also a midterm so it doesn't even matter at this point) and she said I can't use my ecig in the house because "it smells and I don't like it" which is again bullshit. I keep a fan running at all times in the basement so the vapor disperses almost immediately. But of course my Mom tells me that my grades are dropping because of my smoking as if she has any fucking clue what is even going on in my brain 24/7. They want me to talk to a psychiatrist/psychologist, and it's funny because I feel like they are the one's that make me want to talk to someone more than anything else. They are a constant stress in my life, and they affect me in a lot of negative ways. Sorry.
[QUOTE=iggy650;45982967]I feel like my parents are not fully assessing my situation at the moment. They are angry because my grades are "shit" (B's and C's in college level courses as a junior in high school) and of course they automatically blame it on me smoking. Really though there's been a girl that is messing with my emotions, general worthless high school "drama", me fighting depression and anxiety problems, and to top it off my dad recently found he has a fucking brain tumor. So I'm living a slightly loaded life atm for a high schooler, and smoking has really helped me cope with everything so far IMO. But since I was recently in trouble, my parents are getting paranoid about me. A few days ago my dad said the garage smelled weird when I literally had not even been in there. He blamed it on my ecig, which is stupid as fuck because it doesn't even smell in the first place. Then my mom just came downstairs to tell me my grades are shit (keep in mind it's also a midterm so it doesn't even matter at this point) and she said I can't use my ecig in the house because "it smells and I don't like it" which is again bullshit. I keep a fan running at all times in the basement so the vapor disperses almost immediately. But of course my Mom tells me that my grades are dropping because of my smoking as if she has any fucking clue what is even going on in my brain 24/7. They want me to talk to a psychiatrist/psychologist, and it's funny because I feel like they are the one's that make me want to talk to someone more than anything else. They are a constant stress in my life, and they affect me in a lot of negative ways. Sorry.[/QUOTE] don't apologize, those are legitimate complaints. your only real way forward though is to either reach a comfortable standoff with them or to just get through this and move out tho really
Packed a decent bowl, this thing hits really well even without water in it. I think I'm gonna be really high by the time I'm through this [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] Oh fuck, two hits in and it's really hitting me
Found out today that my grandpa died... [editline]15th September 2014[/editline] He was such a funny guy
[QUOTE=de;45982423]no, as in literal curry rice that I made and am eating right now. [editline]14th September 2014[/editline] looks like a good game tho, my inner weeaboo urges for it[/QUOTE] MOTB was godly, as was the series (Megaman Legends) from which it is a spinoff
Turning 18 in a few days, so I think I'm gonna do DXM this next weekend. Gel caps or syrup? Also, I've heard trees are good idea to help with the nausea, is that true?
[QUOTE=Nukefuzz;45983444]Turning 18 in a few days, so I think I'm gonna do DXM this next weekend. Gel caps or syrup? Also, I've heard trees are good idea to help with the nausea, is that true?[/QUOTE] Gel caps is better if you cant stand the taste, but they go down kinda hard after swallowing several. Syrup tastes nasty but has none of those ill-effects, though I have never seen any DXM HBr syrups, only poli, so if you are okay with a poli high, then this is the way to go. And yes, smoking some ganja will help to relieve the nausea, and the two go hand-in-hand anyways so I would recommend it.
[QUOTE=iggy650;45982967] They want me to talk to a psychiatrist/psychologist, and it's funny because I feel like they are the one's that make me want to talk to someone more than anything else. They are a constant stress in my life, and they affect me in a lot of negative ways. [/QUOTE] In that case you might as well try a psych, seeing as it might be good to have someone to vent and talk things over with. This helps with that but doing it in person can help a lot too. It might also help with the whole parent standoff situation, if they want you to do something like see a psych you might as well appease them on this one instead of fighting it, no harm done that way.
[QUOTE=jonnymad;45983453]Gel caps is better if you cant stand the taste, but they go down kinda hard after swallowing several. Syrup tastes nasty but has none of those ill-effects, though I have never seen any DXM HBr syrups, only poli, so if you are okay with a poli high, then this is the way to go. And yes, smoking some ganja will help to relieve the nausea, and the two go hand-in-hand anyways so I would recommend it.[/QUOTE] pills don't make me puke as bad as trying to choke down syrup
still can't believe my friend gave me the last bowl outta his weed ;_; hopefully these jobs reply to my applimacations so that i can begin to pay back alla this karma
i've dun fucked up again turns out my phone bill is due today, not at the end of the month i don't have enough money in my account it's my first bill ever, and i'm already fucking it up this is an important lesson for me, but hopefully I can make ends meet somehow and sort it out without having to pay late fees, i have 5 days i get paid again in 7, so i'm hoping one of my mates bails me out this one last time but if they don't I wont hold it against them, it's entirely my own fault
My dear friends, I cannot accompany you on your stalwart journey, for I have splurged the last of my coppers and bronzes on biscuits and canna-drugs!
So, I'm going bald at 19.
[QUOTE=KillerTele;45984112]So, I'm going bald at 19.[/QUOTE] believe me, i know the feeling friend; it isn't easy
I've been tracking these large spiders which've been chilling on the outside of the windows on my house. I'm really terrified of the beasts, so it was scary enough knowing they were just on the other side of the glass. Anyway I wake up today and they've ALL gone. This worries me alot, wondering where the fuckers have gone... I have to head outside soon, bet they're all waiting for me above the door. If I don't make it, the combination to my drug safe is 1234, first come first get. ily.
[QUOTE=mrmr;45984205]I've been tracking these large spiders which've been chilling on the outside of the windows on my house. I'm really terrified of the beasts, so it was scary enough knowing they were just on the other side of the glass. Anyway I wake up today and they've ALL gone. This worries me alot, wondering where the fuckers have gone... I have to head outside soon, bet they're all waiting for me above the door. If I don't make it, the combination to my drug safe is 1234, first come first get. ily.[/QUOTE] they're in the safe m8
Man, i fucked up on Sat night at a party. I was talking to this cute girl, we were getting along and she goes, "So, can i have your number?". I smiled at her and go "No, i'm going to get another beer". She wasn't there when i got back. I don't remember any of this either, and i've pieced it together from testimonies from eye witnesses. They think it's fucking hilarious. I must have been too drunk to understand the question. Keeping in mind that i'm a brownie, 3 bowls and roughly 9 standard drinks in at this point, and apparently still pretty fucking smooth. Also i apparently look like Paul McCartney. I don't know if that's a good thing :v:
[QUOTE=The Aussie;45984235]Man, i fucked up on Sat night at a party. I was talking to this cute girl, we were getting along and she goes, "So, can i have your number?". I smiled at her and go "No, i'm going to get another beer". She wasn't there when i got back. I don't remember any of this either, and i've pieced it together from testimonies from eye witnesses. They think it's fucking hilarious. I must have been too drunk to understand the question. Keeping in mind that i'm a brownie, 3 bowls and roughly 9 standard drinks in at this point, and apparently still pretty fucking smooth. Also i apparently look like Paul McCartney. I don't know if that's a good thing :v:[/QUOTE] [B]dude[/B]
I don't really know if i dodged a bullet or not. She was a heroin addict at 13. She was off now though. I can't remember what she looked like either. I think we were talking about drugs though.
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