• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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[QUOTE=explodingape;46009675]I think the next two places I'd like to live are montreal and seattle. They seem cool and more relaxed than the intense madness I'm experiencing here. I also speak french, so no language barrier. All day I've been wishing that I could blaze up and play pokemon.[/QUOTE] If you move to Seattle I'll be sure to come up to visit and smoke you out
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46009633]my odds of finding work are looking slim to none right now :/[/QUOTE] I feel the exact same. It almost leaves a burning sensation, constantly searing the back of your mind. I numb the sensation with whiskey.
[QUOTE=jonnymad;46009669]Keep searching, call back companies you already applied for, and keep applying for anything you qualify for. I'm sure you'll get something soon man[/QUOTE] im tryin but i've essentially got no quality references that would appeal to most employers, i've been out of work for months, i'm 19 and it doesn't look good on me argh if only I had the hindsight there is one position i'm looking into at the moment that may be promising, but it looks like it'd require quite a deal of dedication and i think one of the other members, possibly /b/rother? might have gotten into a similar position and said he wasn't all too fond of it, photography/marketing/editing assistant, I could get quality references for that field, submit it with the example work and a CV/cover letter that explains my situation and why I feel i'd suit the role but I genuinely don't know if i'd even do well in it, and it's on a 3 month contract position if I was to get involved...
[QUOTE=explodingape;46009675]I think the next two places I'd like to live are montreal and seattle. They seem cool and more relaxed than the intense madness I'm experiencing here. I also speak french, so no language barrier. All day I've been wishing that I could blaze up and play pokemon.[/QUOTE] If you were in Montreal, you'd be in my country. Sadly, still 6 hours away, so I wouldn't be able to meet up and smoke up with ya. Ironically enough, it'd probably be cheaper for me to fly to Washington than to Montreal. Flying within Canada is ridiculously over priced...
[QUOTE=Creid;45993857]Got prescribed concerta. It's been 3 days and I only have two pills left. Worth it? I was way more talkative and focused. I did all my classes homework in 30 minutes. It was pretty sweet. Now I just have to live through the rest of the month without it. Abusing medication...ugh? [editline]September 16th, 2014[/editline] Anyone heard of or use HabitRPG? If you don't you should check it out. It turns your life into an RPG so you can get things done and get experience points and armor for completing tasks. It's pretty cool. [URL="http://habitrpg.com"]http://habitrpg.com[/URL][/QUOTE] you cant really abuse concerta man, like you can make it instant release but then you still cant snort it cause it gels up in your nose and methylphenidate is only recreational when you snort it ime. Just use the concerta to be productive or to beat shao khan in mortal kombat.
Heading off soon. About to break up with her. Wish me luck.
damn i just rolled the best joint i've ever seen [editline]17th September 2014[/editline] in real life*
i would really enjoy DPH if it wasnt for the fucking body load, I have a soft spot in my heart for deliriants. Ambien is the best deliriant imo, 20mg for most people will be more than enough. Get some crazy ass (non spider based) visuals while enjoying a weird benzoy feel. [editline]18th September 2014[/editline] oh and its liable to make you lose control of your actions and black out while doing so, which is a shame because its such a good fuckin deliriant for those that enjoy that kind of thing.
Expansion Contraction Breath Work Play Class Learning Understanding Confusion Holding on Letting go Freedom Excitement Humility Attraction Thinking Waiting Fighting Surrender Life Love Death Pain Waves, cresting and breaking in the ocean of the mind. For as long as you live, these waves will persist. Order may vary I'm up to surrendering, hopefully it's not too late to catch this wave. lemme know if there's any i've missed edit: MKII [CODE]I am expert at minimalist philosophy (Growth) Breathing Expanding Contracting Observing Confusion Playing Learning Working Understanding Acceptance Release (Pain) Loss Suffering Denial Opposition Resistance Holding on Acceptance Release (Freedom) Contentment Possibility Excitement Humility Discovering Understanding Opening up Acceptance Release (Connection) Attraction Learning Admiration Understanding Attachment Acceptance Release (Loving) >Freedom >Connection >Growth >Pain Acceptance Release (Hating) Lack of understanding >Connection >Love Jealousy Resentment >pain Acceptance Release (Living) >Growth >Pain >Freedom >Connection >Loving >Hating Acceptance Death Release Waves, cresting and breaking in the ocean of mind. For as long as we exist, these waves will persist, sometimes in no particular order. But they all all follow a basic pattern. The trigger, the swell, the process, the release. Everyone's (LIFE) order will be slightly different, but still starting and ending in the same way, as with all things[/CODE] I think it's pretty much it it is what it is.
[QUOTE=Faren;46009930]Heading off soon. About to break up with her. Wish me luck.[/QUOTE] Did I miss something? Just remember, you're in control.
lol wow reefer madness is a funny movie when you're stoned [editline]17th September 2014[/editline] more dope down the hatch. [editline]17th September 2014[/editline] How about some more stoner metal for you guys? I know I'm up for more. [video=youtube;BjrdfAWBO_E]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BjrdfAWBO_E[/video] [editline]17th September 2014[/editline] Wow, I'm really fucking high guys, just wanted to say that I love you guys. Again. <3 Wish I could chill with you guys right now like for reals.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46010008] I think it's pretty much it it is what it is.[/QUOTE] I'm missing the entire connection, and love portion. For some reason I'm disconnected from people and full of apathy. I don't know how to respond to people when they say they love me, and I don't know what it means when/if I say it back. I can understand the logic of most situations, and base my morals off of such. But I can't conjure an emotional understanding/connection. The only emotions of which I can experience are that of which stem from anger. [editline]18th September 2014[/editline] They all seem to end in release. But what if you've released before you've accepted?
To release is to have accepted, ultimately If you can't release, you have not yet accepted that the release is necessary what i'm getting at is, as per >pain If you are holding on and not letting go, you have not yet truly released, as you have not yet accepted the inevitability of release if you are forced to release without acceptance, it feeds back into pain, as you have suffered a loss. Don't worry yourself too much over the connection and love portion, they come with understanding through growth and pain, don't rush into it until you find the understanding, or it will lead to hate manifesting whether towards yourself or towards others I can't explain it too much more than that, but ya know.. it varies a lot, and different things can lead to different results along the path, it's not a 100% definite order of things and could still be made a bit more comprehensively understandable through simplification but ultimately go with the flow of things, and trust your instincts
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46010329] per >pain[/QUOTE] Yes, I would love some percs for my pain. [editline]17th September 2014[/editline] It's good for what ails me
I have the Vicodins from the dentist in me, I dont do opiates much but this is fun.
[QUOTE=mikerocks;46010347]I have the Vicodins from the dentist in me, I dont do opiates much but this is fun.[/QUOTE] Opiates are like a treat to me, I stay away from them mostly, but I do enjoy railing some oxy from time to time.
I just had 4-5 minutes where I smiled and laughed at nothing. I had my eyes closed, sitting here. Not thinking, and blanking out all thoughts which came to mind. I just laughed, with no explanation. Maybe it was the feeling of actually having near silence through my mind, which stimulated the response. Though, I've had the same thing happen whilst thinking of horrible things.
[QUOTE=Faren;46009930]Heading off soon. About to break up with her. Wish me luck.[/QUOTE] Well, that's that. She told me (mostly correctly) about some pretty big issues I've got and she agreed that I'm not really ready to be in such a long term committed relationship. Got some stuff to deal with e.g. self-absorption. Wish I'd told her a thing or two that she could work on but I am made of guilt (and awful at being sensitive) so felt too bad to get much of it out. [QUOTE=Joscpe;46010052]Did I miss something? Just remember, you're in control.[/QUOTE] Nah you didn't miss anything, I generally avoid posting really personal stuff here nowadays. Partly because a couple of people I know are familiar with this forum, partly because I'm just generally uncomfortable with it. So that's why that came out of nowhere. I just had to tell someone in order to make it real, I didn't want to change my mind. You guys are a good bunch.
Anyone else's jaw tend to chatter once they've drank some alcohol?
this mindstate... So this just happened, someone was asking for team players on a basketball thing and I kinda jumped in at the ready like fuck it why not "Someone else - I like how you didn't ask who else would be playing :p 3 mins · Unlike · 1 Me i'm good enough to play why would it matter who else is playing, as long as we're on the same team in the end chances are I wouldn't even know them yet, only way that's gonna happen is if I just jump in ball is life" ball /is/ life
[QUOTE=Faren;46010536]Nah you didn't miss anything, I generally avoid posting really personal stuff here nowadays. Partly because a couple of people I know are familiar with this forum, partly because I'm just generally uncomfortable with it. So that's why that came out of nowhere. I just had to tell someone in order to make it real, I didn't want to change my mind. You guys are a good bunch.[/QUOTE] That tends to happen to me. I tend to post more about shit when I've been drinking, or when the thoughts become overwhelming.
this is hopeless where's the fuel at, i've got a fire to start, a forest to burn, a mindless heart, and a heart filled mind, this is the part where it all aligns, the demons depart a new chapter begins, angels arise and in the death of the old, we spring a new life. Inevitability. what's happening to me...
well... i guess it's time to do that thing I do and find myself again [editline]18th September 2014[/editline] dare I hit send though? why do I fight inevitabilities
[QUOTE=Joscpe;46010556]Anyone else's jaw tend to chatter once they've drank some alcohol?[/QUOTE] Ever since I took MDMA I've had that kind of thing with almost every drug
the possible mistake has been made and now I go on with my life either way No response... doubting i'll get one, i'll assume it's a no and prepare for moving on again yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelife... one more challenge tackled, a new reference point of being able to overcome it emerges, so that aint so bad edit: oh wait... i think I just got what I was asking for, so the next phase begins I guess I pretty much did ask for what I got in return, so i shouldn't be so confused by it but i can't tell if she's actually interested in me or if she's just being friendly now i shoulda been more concise, but oh well. Gettin closer is good and what I was hopin for
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46001799]never put drugs before your relationships. if your relationship isn't working for you, see if you two can work out the root causes of it, if it's purely about your drug use, identify why it's a problem to her, and be honest with yourself about it if you're putting drugs first, try taking a break for a while and see if you can find happiness with just her in your life if she's just overstepping and trying to control you, then I understand but hiding from it with further drug use won't particularly help the situation either i wish you luck in working it out. Don't make the mistake I did and continue to hide from things (whether it be a fear of commitment/progression or that the relationship doesn't satisfy you or just drug addiction) I regretted that one, and lost the chance to progress peacefully before it was too late, and the results shattered myself and probably my significant other at the time. To this day, I still can't work out why I didn't just put the drugs down for a while, and lost the chance of finding out if it was ever really something real or not learn from my mistakes so you don't have to go through that pain, please. You can always return to drugs, you may not have to stop entirely even (just moderate it more so) but don't hide from working things out. Years have gone by, and i'm still confused because of it, but finally moving on [editline]17th September 2014[/editline] [url]http://pixlpa.com/flow/melter.html[/url] check this out guys[/QUOTE] this post has made me realize how i'm not really contributing with much in this relationship and that i'm probably taking this amazing girl for granted. i've got a lot to think about [QUOTE=Consciousness;46009723]im tryin but i've essentially got no quality references that would appeal to most employers, i've been out of work for months, i'm 19 and it doesn't look good on me argh if only I had the hindsight there is one position i'm looking into at the moment that may be promising, but it looks like it'd require quite a deal of dedication and i think one of the other members, possibly /b/rother? might have gotten into a similar position and said he wasn't all too fond of it, photography/marketing/editing assistant, I could get quality references for that field, submit it with the example work and a CV/cover letter that explains my situation and why I feel i'd suit the role but I genuinely don't know if i'd even do well in it, and it's on a 3 month contract position if I was to get involved...[/QUOTE] yeah, i landed a job as a photographer's personal assistant. the work i had to do wasn't bad, it was learning experience, but my boss was apparently a greedy assholes who just wanted the cheapest manpower he could get. it ended up costing me 1000 danish krones in public transport costs for a single week there, he then changed my pay to 2500 danish krones less a month with no explanation and last but not least he wanted me to pay for the damages on a car owned by his company. now i'm without a job and completely broke as well. [editline]18th September 2014[/editline] and in the end he never paid me a single dime [editline]18th September 2014[/editline] okay, i'm broke and dry.... should i aspire to be completely sober today?
Go for it, sobriety can give perspective from time to time Me, on the other hand, I just picked up my second 11 dollar bottle of whiskey. Once I get back from the gym I'll give my liver a workout
Dude at college offered me to join a blaze circle, pretty buzzed considering it was two-toke-pass on a single L of pineapple kush College is so fucking sweet I cannot explain it. Everybody's chill with everything, I don't have to hide anything about myself, not even to the teachers. We just learn about music, play music, write music, smoke and laugh. I'm learning fast too, my keyboard skills are improving and shit and I've already spotted a ton of the shit we've learned in the music I listen to. It's fucking great. Fuck. Now I just need a job, and the easy goin' college-blazin' lifestyle is in my hands. I've been waiting for this for a long time. Fuck yeah, motherfucker.
Fuck yeah got another job! Are you ready guys?! I IS GON' B PACKING NUTS. NUTS. ALL DAY ALL NIGHT NUTPACKIN'
bustin' nuts
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