Speaking of working i think i might be finally getting a job later today. I got layed off some 3 months ago and i've been searching ever since.
[QUOTE=The Aussie;46053440]Speaking of working i think i might be finally getting a job later today. I got layed off some 3 months ago and i've been searching ever since.[/QUOTE]
Best of luck. I have a tradition of smoking out my friends after they get accepted to a job, if you get it and happen over to Washington I owe you one lol
[editline]22nd September 2014[/editline]
Real high again. Running low on dank, once I am out I really am gonna T-Break
I will never be willing to die for my beliefs because I may be wrong
when a girl asks for help with homework
That's a good thing, right?
>still hoping i'm not just being used>
it's on a subject I have no real idea about but i helped her dig up some resources where she was struggling
i'm not gonna do her work for her though :p
meanwhile there's these few girls that really annoy me that keep popping back up and i'm just in ignore mode currently. I probably sound like a dick
but god damn, last time I spoke to them my head ended up all fucked over and I felt completely shit about myself for just being friendly
why should I suffer that
[QUOTE=jonnymad;46053454]Best of luck. I have a tradition of smoking out my friends after they get accepted to a job, if you get it and happen over to Washington I owe you one lol
[editline]22nd September 2014[/editline]
Real high again. Running low on dank, once I am out I really am gonna T-Break[/QUOTE]
same here, hell if you make it over to here we should have a meetup
[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;46053534]same here, hell if you make it over to here we should have a meetup[/QUOTE]
Hell yeah man will do
8 hours at my job today, but I'll be done soon and I'll have enough to support my smoking for a few months
Relaxing and contracting Bowlio, a disease that takes away all function of your legs
[QUOTE=DELL;46052887]Psychosis. No full diagnoses yet.[/QUOTE]
You are never devoid of the light that is inside you
[QUOTE=ZenX2;46053698]
Relaxing and contracting [B]Bowlio, [/B]a disease that takes away all function of your legs[/QUOTE]
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[editline]22nd September 2014[/editline]
Lol like Cornholio
I just had a full concept and visualization of adulthood, I need money to fund things I like to do, like smoking weed or living in a house, and I need to toil away for hours at things that I can do well, then I get money. And also, I have to give up having a big house if I want to do more things
And there's also time, I can only have a job that doesn't take up all the time for things I do, but that limits how much money I can get for doing things.
And again with the spirit world poking spikey things into the roof of my mouth. This is such a strange sensation, not because of it's potential horrific ness, but because it's just so otherworldly
Edit:
I hallucinated a small earthquake, and now I think I'm having a mild asthma attack.
Also, chromatic aberration vision.
[QUOTE=Garb;46045106]DMT sounds rad as heck, never had the chance to smoke it tho
anyone here have any first hand experiences they remember well enough to talk about?[/QUOTE]
quoted from my big text file of psychedelic experiences
[quote]
7/9/14, DMT experience
I'm not going to time log any of this because I just recently came out of the trip.
That was the closest I think I've ever got to dying. DMT is very latin american-esque. As I was taking hits from the make shift pipe I had made, I started to feel that DMT "floating" feeling. Eventually the pipe starting warping, almost as if my vision was composed of different colors of liquid and someone just took a small brush and swirled them together. I took that as my sign to pull off of it and close my eyes. The visuals were box like patterns, had a lot of similarity to Amazonian/Mexican indiginous art. Breathing became hard, and slowed. I felt as though I were dying, so I used all my effort to take in as much air as I could. While in that mindset I rememered the advice of "just let go" and give in to the drug. Spurred onto this advice, I physically tried to stop breathing and hold my breath. This was easier said than done however. I was making every effort to stay alive and keep breathing. Opening my eye's helped a bit, and upon opening I noticed that the OEV weren't actually that intense. The curtains on my door were warping. In particular I noticed that the edges of the curtains warped into the shape of sillouhetts of two faces with pointy chins. Really cartoon like, and the faces were looking at each other. They were almost ominous, malicious looking. As if they were minions for some evil boss of some sort. A feeling throughout the experience was one of fear and panic, I desperately wanted to run to my mother and have her tell me everything was ok. That feeling was immediately followed by the realization she could not do anything to help me, and that the drug would have to run its course. Telling myself that dying from DMT was impossible, but that's not very believable if you're laying there gasping for air.
Eventually once it started to come down I got ahold of myself, breathing became easier and I opened my eyes. My walls looked huge and far away. Direction was flowing and could be changed at will. I could either look up at my wall (like normal), or look down on it as if I were standing on a large cliff above it. I looked at a painting to my left (across the room) of the animals going into Noahs Ark and it was alive. The sky on the painting was flowing, and the animals were walking into the boat. I still felt uneasy, and really wanted to come down as much as I could. However I was ASTONISHED, and I was so shocked at what happened to me. There is nothing that can compare to the intensity I felt laying there dying. That overwhelming feeling that shook me to my core. I experienced something similar while on the come up to a DXM trip that included severe nausea. Just the feeling of complete and utter helplessness as the drug ravages your body. At that moment you truely understand what death feels like, you can easily imagine that overwhelming feeling becoming so overwhelming that it destroys your very being. I imagine this is what death is, a feeling that is far too intense to come back from. It's pure and utter terror, and really made me glad to be alive both times that it happened. I can see experiences like that being useful for people who are suicidal or who take the act of dying lightly. [/quote]
Fuck, i have this heart condition where once in a few years my heartrate leaps to 190 and stays there for like 10 minutes. I become light headded, my vision goes dark and I can't hear anything for a minute.
Its been fine for two years then all of a sudden it starts up in the middle of a fitness class. So embarrassing to have to come up to the instructor infront of a room full of people in which I'm the only foreigner. At leas the instructor is chill, he studied in Springfield MA and has a bosten accent stronger than mine. Still though, now suddenly after 2 years infront of 30 people. This is the first of 7 mandatory lessons, so they'll be seeing me a lot in the future. Damn.
Ok, now 15-20 minutes in it just stopped. Damn it heart you had one job
3 bowla gets me to the "wolfensfein tno's title screen music makes me cry a bit" how is my tolerance
job interview in under 2 hours
time to amp it up instead of snoozin around
may be playing basketball tonight
don't fail me now coffee
had to help a girl escape from her abusive ex yesterday
let us mourn in peace you fucking carrot
[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;46054217]3 bowla gets me to the "wolfensfein tno's title screen music makes me cry a bit" how is my tolerance[/QUOTE]
Just right
it's on. wish me luck
[QUOTE=explodingape;46054125]Fuck, i have this heart condition where once in a few years my heartrate leaps to 190 and stays there for like 10 minutes. I become light headded, my vision goes dark and I can't hear anything for a minute.
Its been fine for two years then all of a sudden it starts up in the middle of a fitness class. So embarrassing to have to come up to the instructor infront of a room full of people in which I'm the only foreigner. At leas the instructor is chill, he studied in Springfield MA and has a bosten accent stronger than mine. Still though, now suddenly after 2 years infront of 30 people. This is the first of 7 mandatory lessons, so they'll be seeing me a lot in the future. Damn.
Ok, now 15-20 minutes in it just stopped. Damn it heart you had one job[/QUOTE]
lol a heart condition ain't shit to be embarassed about dog
hold your blond head high
[editline]23rd September 2014[/editline]
also college is awesome. I went to the best party of my life the other night. With a live reggae band, random faded kids spitting on the mic and singing. There were a couple of kegs and I met some really chill musicians. Also this blond sorority chick kept hitting on me and calling me prince [lick]
[B]FULL TIME[/B]
if I get it
interviewer said i'm like most definitely probably going to get it, but he has to wait for the confirmation from the actual rostering manager (who wasn't in)
College is sorted, doing photography.
This weekend was messy and we all had a confusing trip together. 6 of us I think it was, we all kept forgetting what we were about to do. I did my typical thing of doing too much, had ket, drone, coke, 2C-B, Nbome, and Nos. I don't really remember much, my friend tried to explain to me for 2 hours why I owed him £10 for the Nos, which I knew, but he couldn't remember how to do anything other than explain it to me because I looked so fucked. Everything had a hairy texture to me at one point, I took a drink and nearly spat it everywhere because it felt like it was just hair.
One of my friends couldn't speak properly, told me to leave so I did at 2pm Sunday, got to my friends at 2:20 after a weird taxi ride, took a bong hit, had weird flashbacks. Her mum came home even though she was supposed to be out all day, yelled at her for smoking weed even though she's usually fine with it. I left, went and met my other friend for 30mins, then it took me until about 4:30 to walk home. Slept for about 18 hours, waking up for dinner in-between.
Overall it was nutty.
So my statistics prof is awful. So bad that actually listening to her causes more kids to get confused. Sadly though, attendance is recorded so I have to go. Instead of listening to whatever she's saying I just watch khan academy vids in class. She just walked behind me while I was watching it. Whoops.
On a different note, been talking to this super friendly chick I mentioned before. We're going to get dinner and have drinks by the harbor on Sunday seeing as neither of us have monday morning courses. Yay!
[QUOTE=Lick;46054577]
also college is awesome. I went to the best party of my life the other night. With a live reggae band, random faded kids spitting on the mic and singing. There were a couple of kegs and I met some really chill musicians. Also this blond sorority chick kept hitting on me and calling me prince [lick][/QUOTE]
Living that California dream
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46054851][B]FULL TIME[/B]
if I get it
interviewer said i'm like most definitely probably going to get it, but he has to wait for the confirmation from the actual rostering manager (who wasn't in)[/QUOTE]
Fuck yeah man, i think i got my job too. He said he'll shoot me a text on friday about when to work on saturday. It's only a job at a cafe but it's good hours, good pay ($16.21/hour, i think $19.45/hour on Saturdays). I need the money for end of the year travel, need to raise something like 2.5 thousand by the end of the year, with finishing year 12 on top of that. Hopefully i've got money left over for bud and drank.
i haven't landed a job yet, but i'm going to go do some photography for my fathers website tomorrow, so at least there's [I]some[/I] money coming in.
It's my birthday today! Last night I had a smoke-a-thon with my friends of like six grams of already vaped bud and damn did I pay for it. Had a headache so bad I was crying when I got home, then woke up with an awful tummy ache... still gotta go to school...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY THOUGH MATEY!!! :v:
Me and my mates were chilling in my tv room smoking cones, and somebody thought it was a good idea to chuck a cigarette into the bin, so like fifteen minutes later one of us notices the horrible plastic smelling smoke and mumbles "something smells like it's burning" and we look down and the bins fucking on fire and is spreading to the curtains.
I jump up and try to grab the fire extinguisher i keep in the kitchen and one of my friends goes for a bucket of water, he chucks the water on but i sprayed the fire extinguisher anyway cos there was still a fuckton of embers and the room just filled completely with fire extinguisher dust shit and horrible plastic smoke so we all stumble outside and can't go back inside my house for hours.
I'm starting to like this being high all the time. Only shitty part is walking up a flight of stairs is hard as fuck now because the anti-psychotics make me feel super heavy. As well as loopy as shit, and feels like I have an alcohol buzz going all day long. So now its good old time to start applying for disability.
[QUOTE=pvt.jenkins;46055975]Me and my mates were chilling in my tv room smoking cones, and somebody thought it was a good idea to chuck a cigarette into the bin, so like fifteen minutes later one of us notices the horrible plastic smelling smoke and mumbles "something smells like it's burning" and we look down and the bins fucking on fire and is spreading to the curtains.
I jump up and try to grab the fire extinguisher i keep in the kitchen and one of my friends goes for a bucket of water, he chucks the water on but i sprayed the fire extinguisher anyway cos there was still a fuckton of embers and the room just filled completely with fire extinguisher dust shit and horrible plastic smoke so we all stumble outside and can't go back inside my house for hours.[/QUOTE]
I've done this before lol dumped my ashtray into bin apparently there was still an ember, I go to bed....20 minuted later the house is full of smoke...
Ball was alright. I got very stuck in a self sabotaging thought cascade for a while but I cleared up nicely during the game, exercise seems to be very good for the adhd stuff like nearly as good as medication. Problem is it takes the right kind of pressure to get it happening and pushing through the boundaries on your own is a bit difficult. 2 more days but for now I thankfully don't have to worry too much about my situations. Jobs lined up, I've got the money I need for now, I've got everything I need together for the appointment, The girl I'm interested in is supportive but she seems to be staying the right kind of distance for me to be comfortable and not getting too caught up in her but isn't cutting contact entirely or anything.
Once again this is assuming she isn't just leading me on and is giving me space to deal with things/focusing on her own stuff as well. which, based on my current more stable mindset Is how it seems to be.
I mean she did reciprocate on my expression of interest/intent but im wary of getting closer myself for now in case of the excessive uncontrollable thinking leading to me pushing her away and I've basically let her know this, feels like we're just playing it safe for now but I don't want to leave her waiting on me for too long, and you know, inadvertantly lead her on because my mind starts jumping to conclusions and endless worry about it happening to me :p
Do you guys think corporations should be able to patent human genes for profit?
I'm very conflicted on the idea.people seem to think it'd impede on research, I think it would expadite it a little (cash rules everything) but dunno if I agree with the idea of any one company patenting human genes
[editline]23rd September 2014[/editline]
Do emojis work on facepunch. 
I am bored