• The Addicts' Lounge VI. You Know It's Dank
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[QUOTE=Rediscover;46087002]remember me.[/QUOTE] i shall friend, even if you won't be able to remember yourself
[QUOTE=dr.bean;46087005]i shall friend, even if you won't be able to remember yourself[/QUOTE] thank you u are a true american hero
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[QUOTE=dr.bean;46087064]gay as fuck, the friend that wanted to trip tomorrow is pussying out and telling me he'll come over if I stop doing opis. I enjoy them once in a while sure, but its not like I'm buying a fat bag of heroin and using everyday[/QUOTE] he's silly opis are fuckin GREAT smh @ him
[QUOTE=Rediscover;46087075]he's silly opis are fuckin GREAT smh @ him[/QUOTE] exactly, and I don't even have the money to supply erryday use lol
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wasn't drug related, she got hit by a vehicle on a moped. oh well time to get high..
Just thought of a saying along the lines of "I don't do drugs anymore, but I don't do them any less" "I used to do drugs, I still do, but I used to, too" I used to 'do drugs', now I just use them.
Got drunk with some friends yesterday to celebrate ones birthday. Great evening, MrJazzy and I chilled and talked about life and music all the night. Met a few old friends, one of them talked about a job he maybe could get me Sent my CV to a place today, wrote to a guy I went to school with a long while ago who I met yesterday and asked if he wanted to chill sometime Chilling time today
[QUOTE=dr.bean;46087064]gay as fuck, the friend that wanted to trip tomorrow is pussying out and telling me he'll come over if I stop doing opis. I enjoy them once in a while sure, but its not like I'm buying a fat bag of heroin and using everyday[/QUOTE] i understand that your first reaction to this might be anger, but try and remember that the kid is probably just trying to look out for you. it might even have taken some guts for him to say that he worries about you as well. [editline]27th September 2014[/editline] [QUOTE=Remi;46085251]It must be friday [img]http://ulve.land/randompics/zoobrilium.jpg[/img][/QUOTE] whats in there and how much of is prescription meds? [editline]27th September 2014[/editline] [QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;46085454]I have to say, considering how in the US teachers and principals are hell bent on rule following I am amazed he didn't just be a bureaucratic dick and just turn you in to the cops. I would applaud him to both realizing you weren't in any serious addiction but also that he listened to you explain your situation and made a decision off the books about it. That is a real professional, someone who looks at the context and not blindly follow the rules.[/QUOTE] i agree. i wish more people were able to think for themselves though.
Today was spent recovering from last night. Exchange students go hard. I'm getting really into 4x and grand strategy games again, endless legend and crusader kings 2 seem pretty dope. might want to stat up the lets play channel again, with a bit of a strategy theme going for once.
Sorry for self ranting here guys, need to get this off my chest a bit last night wasn't too bad all thing's considered I realize in retrospect I had a lot of missed opportunities, at the time I could see the opportunities arising but I had a lot of pent up resistance especially with the anxiety wall of having failed to live up to my own high as fuck expectation about doing it sober. I did take some opportunities, but they were short lived moments that didn't quite last.. I still did quite well i think though The group was basically like, 4 guys 2 girls, the other 3 guys were pretty caught up in their own little group mindset of shit talking and masculine posing, or whatever you want to call it. I was doing my own thing and staying clear of that as best I could, one of my bro's started to catch on to what was happening there (stuck in guy group mindset, wanting to get away from it and actually have some fun with the girls) so I kinda reached to him and pulled him over to the other side so to speak, figuratively and literally, and we basically had the most positive interactions in that night, he's less socially anxious than I am so he had more positive results but none the less, it was good to see him get his mind out of /that/ for the duration of the night it became, 2 guys, 2 girls, 2 sideliners I don't know if I should be so generous to people, but a bro's a bro and i'm not gonna be a cunt by not giving a nudge in the right direction when he knows what's up, the other two, I would do the same for, if they had worked it out and expressed the desire to get out of it. It was a bit of a weird dynamic though because, there was obvious mutual attraction happening between us but it was split, at times it was hard to tell who was leaning towards who, but it beat being stuck to one chick the entire night especially when I don't even know if I /really/ like them yet, i have mixed feelings based on what I know of them so far and the anxiety stuff aint helping me figure it out any faster had very brief moment's of complete let go, i was holding one of the girl's around the waist/stomach at one point while we were dancing and she didn't seem to be uncool with it, it was a strange moment of "I don't even know what the fuck is happening" but then thought's and resistance popped up in me when I tried to 'work out' if it was cool or not, so to speak, and I let her go. Not sure if it's a bad thing, it was all just a bit of fun in the end, but I kinda wish I hadn't started thinking about it at that point.. I also kinda kissed the other one on the forehead for a photo, woke up and saw that and laughed cause I didn't remember doing that i had some natural pull attraction happening towards the end of the night, nothing significant but it's a nice positive reference. sweet glances/smile's shared with this super cutie and she came right over to me but then her friends pulled her away and they left the club, i was a little aw about that one. I tend to not just go over to people I find attractive, usually struggle to even make those eye contact moments because of the social anxiety stuff so the fact that she was coming over to me and we shared that brief little moment was a very solid confidence booster in itself. the four of us all stayed the night at one of those girl's houses, but I shared a spare bed with the dude. this aint an uncommon thing to do here, as i'm sure i've mentioned before, we're all pretty comfortable around each other as people in these parts. the girls shared a bed and made us breakfast.. i'm pretty sure... if they weren't at all into it we wouldn't have been given the hospitality at the very least... both me and that bro seem to be on very similar levels, I think he may be a step ahead in terms of his general ability to let go and have fun, and i'm happy for him, but in some regards we are very much the same with how these things go down it seems, it seems like neither of us really know for sure if either of those girls are really what we want just yet, and seems like both of us don't feel a need to limit ourselves too much to the idea of them. it's weird observing this stuff unfold but I like it. It's all friendly and shit but good fun and life continues to twist and turn while I continue to work on myself in new and different ways. Whether there's anything there or not, I don't even think it really matters, i'm gonna be happy in doing my own thing either way now that all my personal life stuff is on track again allowing autopilot to take over is tricky for me
i'm completely dry and the party i thought we were going to later isn't before next weekend apparently. i don't think it's too bad though. normally the thought of a sober day scares me and makes me hella anxious, but right now it seems more like a test. i guess i should just look forward to be rolling on mdma with my childhood friend next weekend.
didn't manage to clean out my drawer today aAAa i need to throw this trash out [editline]27th September 2014[/editline] anybody got a good part-time jobsite for the UK? might hear of one i haven't heard
[t]http://i.imgur.com/sgwhAZm.jpg[/t] getting closer... there's work to be done yet [editline]27th September 2014[/editline] they've asked me to come back into the store on tuesday to go over a few things before finalizing the application sweet looks like it's on
blastin thru skyrim
The more I work on this piece... the closer I feel to /it/. it's already begun... no turning back now. I must complete this it's a profoundly difficult one to accurately depict, in all it's elegant simplicity dmt... what have you done to me
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DtN0CKtX9-s[/media] finally proud of something my country's done music-wise recently
"video is not available" unfortunately i'd love to hear it though. Any other links? [t]http://i.imgur.com/JrZ6L8V.jpg[/t] so so close... something's missing/not quite right, can't put my finger on it
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46088140]"video is not available" unfortunately i'd love to hear it though. Any other links? [t]http://i.imgur.com/JrZ6L8V.jpg[/t] so so close... something's missing/not quite right, can't put my finger on it[/QUOTE] I don't know, i am not good at graphics but maybe you lack some contrast or something like that :v:?
[QUOTE=Amic;46088143]I don't know, i am not good at graphics but maybe you lack some contrast or something like that :v:?[/QUOTE] na i'm talking about the scene, the contrast and lighting will be fixed for the final render, but there's something off about the scene that I can't quite put together in my head I think I need to change the model's pose to something a little less robotic looking, more alive, animated or 'relaxed' and natural looking
Oh my god yes I have this friend, ramage - he's a neo nazi and a bit of a dick sometimes, but mostly, he's a sound guy. Our most notable memory of him is this: at a party some time ago, (I was not at it, recounting it from someone's elses tale), he was bragging about how "drugs don't effect him". A bong got packed, and he was offered it. Took it, of course. Then what does he do? He says he doesn't feel well, and goes and passes out on the bathroom floor. He's a pretty tall guy (6ft 2+, not sure exactly), and he ends up having to be dragged out of there by an even taller person (6ft 4+) because drunk girls need to pee. I wish I knew more details, but like I said, I wasn't there. We get to get him high again today.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46088140]"video is not available" unfortunately i'd love to hear it though. Any other links? [t]http://i.imgur.com/JrZ6L8V.jpg[/t] so so close... something's missing/not quite right, can't put my finger on it[/QUOTE] [url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55Izy6y2eEA[/url] vevo link rubadub (done know) by the skints
[t]http://i.imgur.com/Ez3imTb.jpg[/t] sorry for spamming it up, from here on out any updates I make on it i'll just edit into this post it's ever so close now... [editline]27th September 2014[/editline] [QUOTE=geogzm;46088197][url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55Izy6y2eEA[/url] vevo link rubadub (done know) by the skints[/QUOTE] that one works this is pretty damn cool
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46088115]The more I work on this piece... the closer I feel to /it/. it's already begun... no turning back now. I must complete this it's a profoundly difficult one to accurately depict, in all it's elegant simplicity dmt... what have you done to me[/QUOTE] i felt the same way after a lot of dmt, it got me obsessed with this thing. with a delused state of mind on the edge of Psychosis. i think i have found the balance now, but the obsession lingers. be very careful that you don't lose grip on the physical world my friend..
[QUOTE=scorpinat;46088246]i felt the same way after a lot of dmt, it got me obsessed with this thing. with a delused state of mind on the edge of Psychosis. i think i have found the balance now, but the obsession lingers. be very careful that you don't lose grip on the physical world my friend..[/QUOTE] I have not broken through on DMT more than once, and it was a very long time ago. The question at hand for me now is, do I really want to hold on to that within me which resists the real world? what is that thing and how do I let it go. These visual manifestations are what happens when I find moments of letting go to creativity They feel like expressions of that state of mind, while creating the visualization, I fall into that state of mind. But it does become obsession in itself, to some degree. I know the state of mind I seek, it is not delusional, it is a pure meditative state where thoughts do not interfere and cause resistance within my self. the mind at home, not resisting the flow but instead resonating outwardly, at one with the world around me, not stuck within it self. I have experienced, i have known, but only ever caught brief glimpses.
[QUOTE=Consciousness;46088276]I have not broken through on DMT more than once, and it was a very long time ago. The question at hand for me now is, do I really want to hold on to that within me which resists the real world?[/QUOTE] I've asked myself that question, and the answer for me was : Yes , but on my own terms. we gotta play the game, and stay true to the heart not the brain. But i can acknowledge dmt unlocks some funky inspiration [img]http://i59.tinypic.com/do31b4.jpg[/img]
i only smoked a one gram joint and a couple more smaller ones last night but it was one of the most intense highs i've ever had, i can't explain it but everything was so crazy and i was having such insane complicated thoughts and i was just hearing crazy ass sounds and shit and i just could not function properly when i was trying to speak i've smoked a LOT more than i did last night and it was nowhere near as weird does it sound like it was laced?
Unless you got it from a friend with a big collection of stuff then no one's gonna lace weed, they don't get anything out of it, just costs them money. Did you have a break between your last smoke and last night? And have you smoked that particular weed before? It can vary in potency and it could even be something like you inhaling a bit more effectively than you usually do.
Dropped a bomb of MD and the second it hit, the damn club starts playing sandstorm I didn't know what to do
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