How i went from the happiest guy on earth to a waster with a criminal record. - General

[QUOTE=OutOfPop;27560078]They help me. I can't sleep without the aid of weed, and I can't feel any sort of attachment without alcohol.[/QUOTE] Son, you're addicted, get yourself checked in :geno: Kinki, don't get down, but this is your life and you've got as many as 90 more years to live in it. Don't waste it away because her parents are rich dickfags and are denying you. Do as said before, get cleaned up, ride along life for a while, let it all cool off and then when they least expect it, you can sweep her off her feet and elope. Or maybe get married properly, it sounds like it's just the mum being a twat. Don't fret, 17 is still really young. I'm 17 and I've never had a girlfriend. I get a few "forever alone" thoughts sometimes, but then I just get on with what I enjoy. Find a hobby and land that rebound.

Listen to NIN. This song's title is even (possibly) related. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdS7o5oP5m8[/media] [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=lintz;27560174]Son, you're addicted, get yourself checked in :geno: Kinki, don't get down, but this is your life and you've got as many as 90 more years to live in it. Don't waste it away because her parents are rich dickfags and are denying you. Do as said before, get cleaned up, ride along life for a while, let it all cool off and then when they least expect it, you can sweep her off her feet and elope. Or maybe get married properly, it sounds like it's just the mum being a twat. Don't fret, 17 is still really young. I'm 17 and I've never had a girlfriend. I get a few "forever alone" thoughts sometimes, but then I just get on with what I enjoy. Find a hobby and land that rebound.[/QUOTE] You can't be addicted to marijuana, and I haven't drank since I entirely gave up on people (I've since decided to only bother with the people currently in my life). I'm 19 and the girlfriends I had weren't worth the while. All they did was cost me a bit money, and tried to control me in one way or another. I had no attachment to them, didn't even bother to have sex with them. There has only been one girl that I was actually interested in, and I would drink and hang around with her. We kissed and such one time, then not too long after she started hanging out with me less and less, and then stopped all together. Next thing I knew she starts dating her neighbor, who was basically stalking her at the time... I guess I didn't move quick enough and she got away. Since then I've just said fuck it.

get a new phone number. call again!

If anyone's wondering what the OP looks like, he's the blonde kid in this video. He doesn't look like a criminal and actually looks like a decent person. [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mjq82QhzQuk[/media]

I wish I was 18 when I joined FP that way I could join these meetups :saddowns:

Im getting driving lessons this payday. im going to learn to drive and drive up there one last time. maybe if they know ive put the effort in to learn to drive im not such a lowlife after all.. i dunno i guess its worth a chance. il talk to amy face to face about it and if she says then and there she cant see me i guess its time to move on. thanks for the ideas guys but i think giving a court case will just get me in even more shit with her parents. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] and yea that was me in that video. or heres a picture. [img]http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs1235.snc4/156731_470162916935_575026935_5780126_703752_n.jpg[/img] im not your typical brummie chav.

[QUOTE=kinki-bunni;27561021]Im getting driving lessons this payday. im going to learn to drive and drive up there one last time. maybe if they know ive put the effort in to learn to drive im not such a lowlife after all.. i dunno i guess its worth a chance. il talk to amy face to face about it and if she says then and there she cant see me i guess its time to move on. thanks for the ideas guys but i think giving a court case will just get me in even more shit with her parents. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] and yea that was me in that video. or heres a picture. [img_thumb]http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs1235.snc4/156731_470162916935_575026935_5780126_703752_n.jpg[/img_thumb] im not your typical brummie chav.[/QUOTE] You look like a pretty cool guy. Remember, never give up!

What a moving post by "Kinki bunni".

Yeah its a very old account. and thanks, Maximo13. :)[U][B][/B][/U][B][URL="http://www.facepunch.members/176383-Maximo13"][/URL][/B]

Go there and prove you aren't what they think you are.

"I'm not going to fall in love with her because it's impractical", that always works right? :sigh: Moving story, I hope it gets a happy ending. :unsmith:

Problems started with "I met a girl on Chatroulette..." In addition, I think it sounds like bullcrap:colbert:. Internet dating does not involve beautiful girls(Chatroulette especially), it involves big fat chicks who can't get a date unless they pose as a supermodel.

Go to the death row

Nothing ever good comes from meeting someone on chatroullete.

i know it was strange meeting on chatroullete but there are nice people in the world that you just happen to meet by coincidence, eg amy.

Kinki, how old is she man? How are her parents controlling her like that? Taking her computer away and telling her what she can and cannot do. You did nothing wrong, you're dealing with a fucked up situation and her parents sound like fucked up people. Stop blaming yourself because killing yourself, giving up, whatever is not an option. You did make a mistake in blowing up to her mother this early in the relationship. You're going to have to try your best to move on now because its out of your hands. The decision is for her to make now and theres nothing you can do beyond what you've done. Trust me this is your only option; you see where the other options have gotten you. If she was smart she'd break out of the vice grip her parents have her in. She's not their kid anymore.

so you think i should just leave it all and hope she does the right thing?

[QUOTE=kinki-bunni;27539900]Well I just seen that thread on the two people who committed suicide and how you should not bottle your feelings up and tell people, well ive been here since late 2005 and i see you guys as brothers to me in a way, and ive been having suicidal thoughts lately so i thought i will let out my feelings to you. Before i start, this might be quite a long read, just warning you. Well it all started in 2010, i had nobody, i wasn't in education and i didn't have a job. I pretty much spent my whole time on the internet or getting drunk at parties. One day i decided to go on chatroullete.com, you know that place where its mostly mens dicks? yeah that place. well I was on it for a while when i came across these two girls. we got talking and i realised one of these girls, lets call her amy, was really really nice. We exchanged msn addresses and the next day when she got home from the sleepover she came online. We started talking about some random crap i dont remember. this carried on for a few weeks and i realised that im becoming quite attached to this girl. whenever she would come online ide be instantly happy. we started speaking on skype and she told me where she lives, its around 100 miles from my house. I live in birmingham (united kingdom). i thought nothing of this and we carried on talking like normal for a further few weeks. until i started really falling for this girl, i told myself not to as she lives so far away from me, but i couldnt help it i had to tell her how i felt, i couldnt hold it in anymore. so when she came online i told her. "amy, i know its stupid but im falling for you, your amazing, your beautiful, your kind, you make me happy just by smiling. please dont let this ruin our friendship." to my suprise she said that she felt the same way back with a gleaming smile on her face. after this we started to become ever closer. we would text eachother daily, phone eachother in the night etc. she told me that im not worthless and i deserve an education. just to make her proud of me i tried to get back into a college course and was successful, i told her that im starting a course in IT and she told me she was so proud of me, it made me feel amazing inside. a few weeks after that i told her that i really wanted to meet her, she said that she could come down this weekend as her parents were going shopping in birmingham.I was so overjoyed it was unreal. that week went so slow but finally it was the weekend. I was so nervouse when i heard the doorbell ring. but when i went downstairs to greet her my nerves all went away. the most beautiful girl i have ever seen stepped through my door. i can remember it like yesterday. she was wearing a superman hoody with a skirt and tights on. i smiled at her and said hey, she done her amazing smile back and said hey Jack. we went into my living room as our parents discussed where to go shopping and talked just as comfortable as we did on msn and skype. it was amazing. as the day went on i took her out and we had an amazing walk through these fields. she held my hand and smiled at me, and i kissed her. i couldnt control myself.. she held my shoulders and kissed me back. it felt like something out of a film. the sun setting behind us. then she had to leave and i was devistated. she was crying telling me she didnt want to leave. I promised her i would get a job and il see her every weekend. i kissed her again and told her to stay strong for me. she nodded and i wiped the tears away from her eyes. fast forward a few weeks later, i applied for a job at UPS and was thrilled when they said i got it. i told amy and she told me she was so proud of me again with a huge smile on her face. i told her i would come down the weekend after i got payed. after i got payed i booked my train ticket up and some other stuff, a huge as stereo system, a samsung galaxy S and a ps3 (im only human afterall) and i got on the train to london, on my own. needless to say i was shitting it as it was only the 2nd time ide been on a train. but she helped me through the underground and met me at the train station when i got there. she greeted me with a kiss and introduced me to her parents. her dad was awesome, we played the playstation together and had an awesome laugh. but i could tell her mum didnt like me, im from a rough part of the UK and where amy lives is very very rich. i acted on my best behaviour, manors and all that shit but i could just tell she thought i was scum. we went out to the grounds of this castle and on top of this hill amy promised me she is never going to leave me, she told me she loved me and wanted to be together forever. i was so happy to hear this and said it back through the happy tears in my eyes. we sat ontop of that hill all day, cuddled up, kissing and talking. it was the best day of my life. it carried on like this, me going up on the train and spending the day together until eventually i was aloud to sleep round her house. we was just like a normal couple. i was someone else when i was with her, ide change, ide become happy. im not sure if anybody really knows me here but i suffer from anger problems, ide get violent at the simplest of things. but when i was with her it would just disappear. she was my life, my whole world revolved around this girl. ide do overtime just to meet her more. ive never felt this wat about a girl in my whole entire live. i loved her. while all this was happening though her mum was trying to convince amy im a horrible person. she thinks i would hurt her because im from a rough area, i promised amy that i would never hurt her and she knows i wouldnt. i phoned her mum up and asked what the hell she is playing at, she told me that she [B]knows[/B] im going to hurt her daughter. yeah she was an ignorant fuck.. this is where it started to go down hill.. her mum had told amys friends that im a horrible person and im going to hurt her daughter. so at this point amy had her mum and her friends begging her to leave me. she took none of it and phoned me up crying, telling me she will carry on fighting because she loves me. this went on until i eventually lost my temper with her mum. i called her a heartless cunt and she should just let her daughter be happy. she used this as wood to fuel the fire. she told her husband (who i was quite close to, played gt5 online with him and could talk to him easily) and he phoned me up. he told me never to contact amy again because im a monster. did he know what he was asking me to do? he was asking the impossible. amy was my life and she loved me just as much as i loved her. amy stood up to her parents and said "just leave Jack alone, i love him." and they kicked her out of the house for the night. yeah, they hated me THAT much that they kicked their own daughter out of the house because she wanted to be with me. her parents took her phone, computer and blocked me off everything. i couldnt talk to amy at all. i phoned them up and they said she can do so much better. and told me to get the fuck out of their lives, oh and her dad said he is coming to my house to "rip my fucking head off" i told my friends about this and bieng the violent bunch of people they are decided to to up to their house and kick the shit out of him. i told him about this and said im going to stop it dont worry. he said fuck you and phoned the police. the police came and said that i am held responsible for getting the people together and an "attempted attack on someone" apparently. so at this point amy things im a monster for doing this. im in trouble with the police and my friends are going to kick the shit out of this poor guy regardless. i eventually got them to snap out of it and said just leave it, but now ive lost the person i love and if i step foot in her town her friends will kick the shit out of me.. she told me she still loves me. but you have no idea what it feels like to still be in love with eachother but her parents, her friends, and the police stopping you from seeing eachother. ive tried everything Facepunch. nothing is working. ive tried to move on, i cant.. so ive resorted to smoking weed and drinking. and ive been having major suicidal thoughts, which is the reason for this thread. im sorry if it was boring to read and half of it probably didnt make sense. its hard to type with tears in your eyes. on top of it all, im stuck in a job where i dont want to be but have to to pay my phone contract. If you have been through this yourself then please contact me, i would do anything to get rid of this pain. i dont know how to fall out of love with her when i know she still loves me back.. s pro-tip: dont fall in love facepunch, it hurts way too much. also inb4 kill youself.[/QUOTE] Bro I want you to know I've been in this before =( something similar. Idk what happened but I decided to leave the country I was in, things are starting to get good and you will keep close with your friends where you are. But dude believe in yourself if you truly loved her and want her back. I realized for a hard reason why she wasn't for me.. But dude if all else fails, I took this quote from somewhere, think google. - When there is an end there is always a new beggining" Goodluck

I'm sorry you're down on your luck, OP. I really do wish the best for you. SHITSTORM- [sp] I'm praying for you [/sp]

Thanks for praying, i just got the night off work, yay :)

I think you should keep trying to contact her and keep her parents out of it.

Spartacus quote: "What will you do to hold your wife again? I will kill them all!" Hope this helps

That's terrible dude.

Don't let the only girl you like get away from you. Specially not before finding out where things could possibly go.

I hope he works it out, i sent him a small PM Also OP how many people are helping you if they are ?

thanks for the PM itsjustguy i will write back to you now, and facepunch have been awesome people. ive had around 10 PM's giving me advice and support. and alot of people in the tread have to, you guys are great.

If i had a ticket to england, i would help you.

When the world turns on you because of mis-understandings you kick the world in the balls and spit in its face. Give her mother a piece of your mind and a pie of your fist. [editline]21st January 2011[/editline] Violence works.

violence has worked this far in life, but i dont want to upset or scare amy, just think of it this way if someone come to your house and punched your dad in the face, or your mum for that matter, its going to affect you quite badly. thats what was going to happen at first and what got me here in the first place. im going to learn to drive next week with my wages.

Violence will get you into deeper shit and jail. Verbal all the way. If you use violence on her, she will have a legit court case against you. DO NOT ATTACK ANYONE.