[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31187131]no i said i had a surprise for her. she was excited because she hadn't done it in a while. We split it (i did a bit more) and we started coming up together fast.
we hung out for a good 2 hrs, 45 mins and she had puked 3 times and i didn't even feel THAT high. so i took a full 12mg orally.
dropped her off at the edge of the block (she didn't want me in front of her house because her parents can't know she is with me, and my car is noisy as fuck) so i turned on my lights and watched her. she was staggering a bit, and then i saw her stop and puke so i got out and ran to her and rubbed her back and talked to her exclaiming how i'm irresponsible, i'm an idiot, i should have confirmed you didn't drink, why did i do this, etc. and she just kept saying 'no, i wanted to do it. i like the way i feel i just did a tiny bit too much'. Finished off with a hug and a kiss and an 'i love you' and then i watched her walk into her house. (she stopped to puke in front of her neighbors).
I texted her the whole way home until i got home and we talked on the phone for 50 minutes. her puking almost the whole time and her nodding out hardcore. I cried on the phone and many times threatened to call 9-1-1 or her parents when i would have to repeat myself 3 times for her to finally answer. i kept worrying she would faint.
when we were walking back to my car at the end of the night she suddenly hugged me and i thought she fainted and i instantly grabbed her back and yelled '[name] WHATS HAPPENING?!' and she just said 'im just hugging you' and i burst out in tears because i had the most terrible panick attack i've ever had when i thought she fainted.
fuck why did i give her 6mg? i should have just given her 4 like she did the last time. I should have confirmed she didn't drink. I should have been more responsible. UGH fuck how could i let something like this happen to her. Fuck me! I am a fucking wreck, still trying to fight back the tears. I've never been so anxious in my life. i'm so scared she's choking to death right now, or already has. OH MY GOD. what if i get a call tomorrow for her parents or the police saying she's died? I will literally drive to the bridge and fucking jump off without thinking twice. I feel so low. My own fucking girlfriend at risk of OD because of ME?!?! i can't believe 2 more mg's than she had last time would have such a dramatic difference. UGH.[/QUOTE]
That's one tricky thing with drugs is just a little bit more can do such a dramatic effect. I'm sure she is fine, like I said. Don' think the worst, because if you think them, than the more likely they will happen.. If she lives, which she will, just this will be a life lesson. Always double check what other drugs your friends have done that day so they don't get fucked up.. I think you should have gone with her, or had her make an excuse so you could have taken her back to your place, but at this point its futile.. Just hang in there man. <3
believe me there is no way i could have gone with her nor allowed her to come here.
[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31187229]believe me there is no way i could have gone with her nor allowed her to come here.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, and that's what I had assumed. Just, think the best thoughts. Trust me, it'll be worth it. I also recommend you trying to sleep, if you can. What I would do is set your alarm for 8 am..
i should just stay up. the phone is right by her head, and her parents are drunk and passed out so they prob wont wake up and answer when i call. I'll call in 6 hours when it is 8am
[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31187324]i should just stay up. the phone is right by her head, and her parents are drunk and passed out so they prob wont wake up and answer when i call. I'll call in 6 hours when it is 8am[/QUOTE]
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i texted saying 'if anything happened i will kill myself' and she replied with 'nothing happened :)'
[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31187520]YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i texted saying 'if anything happened i will kill myself' and she replied with 'nothing happened :)'[/QUOTE]
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just stick to a safe drug like weed or something are you ever going to try the drug again forgot what its called
[QUOTE=Alternativ;31187610]just stick to a safe drug like weed or something are you ever going to try the drug again forgot what its called[/QUOTE]
Is your avatar the guy from the WKUK... Trevor?
Happy everything is okay man
[QUOTE=FuckStephenHarp;31187520]YEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i texted saying 'if anything happened i will kill myself' and she replied with 'nothing happened :)'[/QUOTE]
good to hear man
[editline]18th July 2011[/editline]
[QUOTE=FreeHugs;31187835]Is your avatar the guy from the WKUK... Trevor?[/QUOTE]
lead singer of neutral milk hotel, i can see how he would look like him though
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