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I feel dumb. All my freinds are in A.p. classes and im still in algebra ab as a sophmore. They treat me like shit but i cant seem to stop hanging out with them. They call me just so they can smoke my weed and be a verbal punching bag for them. I cant stand it. I am alot stronger than them and they know i can hurt them alot. But I wanna be less violent than i already am.They tell me to shut up even if i am asking a question like every fucking time i open my mouth. They only keep me around because i am unpredictable. I dont know anymore. I dont fucking know if i am gay or straight. I jerk off everyday cant stop. I am loud and expressive and speak my mind when nobody cares. And nobody ever cares. My grades are horrid and cant get it through my head that being lazy isn't getting me anywhere. I pretend to scream at the mirror as if i was yelling at my friends and how i would tell them off. I never do in fear that I will be lonely. I am over worked and under appreciated from my friends. I am way too nice and giving for the shit i get thrown back at me. (Sorry if this doesnt make any sense its just thoughts i havent really put anywhere other than my own head.)
uh stop hanging out with them
[QUOTE=skynrdfan3;35478895]uh stop hanging out with them[/QUOTE] Ok well mabee i worded that wrong ,of the three freinds i do have one freind started treating me like shit and it kinda rubbed on the other two so when he isnt around (which is rare) they treat me like an actual friend. I like the other two and me and him were bros like first semester but then his personality turned sour towards me.
one up them whenever they shit talk you. shit talk em back
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;35478009]Your mum gives you 154 euros a month, I think she does give a fuck about you, 154 euros a month is awesome for free.[/QUOTE] It isn't her money to be honest, here in germany, parents get child support, around 184€ for each child under the age of 25. The thing is, said money is usually used for buying stuff childs need for school, clothes, or simply for freetime activities, yet I haven't seen a single cent from that before getting that jobcoach. It's just because he told her he'd get a lawyer and sue her ass if she didn't pay me the money. Also from those 154€, I have to pay 33,50€ for a monthly train ticket and about 50€ to pay off my debts, so I have left about 70€ a month, from which I mostly try to buy something useful, like food or clothes, or to simply have some fun with mates. Now I don't really know how much money my mom gets and all, but I can tell you that she only cooks 1 meal a day and smokes about a pack of cigarettes a day, when I ask her why she's only cooking 1 meal a day she tells me "because we need to save money", yeah right, save at food? Seriously, most the times I feel hungry all day, if I wouldn't have such awesome mates, who offer to help me out when in need, I'd propably be even more skinnier than now(60kg(132lbs) at like 1.87m(6' 1.6")). As if that won't be enough, she also plays an MMORPG the whole time and whenever I try to talk to her, she just ignores me. It's like I'm talking to a fucking wall, but then I found out that when she's talking behind my back(with my sister over phone or my brother), she says that I won't talk to her anymore and stuff like that. Actually the talking behind my back drives me insane, because I don't get how someone can do this? Why can't she just simply say that stuff directly to me? If she doesn't want to hurt my feelings, then she's doing a pretty bad job, because she already hurted them for too long... Too much stuff happened in my life I guess, I don't really want to think about all that again. Also the youth welfare office(is that right or is it just youth care?) already knows about this whole situation, they're actually who got me the jobcoach and stuff. But they can't really do much besides, because said reasons aren't "serious" enough. And I also don't want to get my parents in trouble, I may hate them right now, but they're still my parents and will ever be...
Maybe you could try and get a job? That might help with the money situation.
What if the universe is not expanding as we assume, could it be that all matter in the universe is getting smaller? Please tell me I'm not the only one whose mind was blown.
if everythings been getting smaller for billions of years wouldn't it be nonexistent (or at least the size of an atom) at this point?
My mind was not blown because if everything was getting smaller we would notice as everything would have less mass. Also if everything was getting smaller and we didn't notice, then it wouldn't seem like the universe is expanding it would seem like nothing was happening at all.
Oh, never mind.
[QUOTE=skynrdfan3;35472788]did you play speedball? speedball > woodsball erryday. what equipment did you get?[/QUOTE] Sorry for my delayed reply, I got speedball gear! Yeah I like speedball better than woodsball too. I got the Dangerous Power E1 (black) with a Halo Too hopper and Ninjapaintball air tank. I also picked up a Digi camo Sly mask.
[QUOTE=Tophat;35500997]Sorry for my delayed reply, I got speedball gear! Yeah I like speedball better than woodsball too. I got the Dangerous Power E1 (black) with a Halo Too hopper and Ninjapaintball air tank. I also picked up a Digi camo Sly mask.[/QUOTE] thats some noice starter gear. if you wanna learn 2 play good watch Dynasty Dysected: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAKTtmFemxQ[/media] dynasty's one of the best teams right now and has been around since the start of competitive paintball, so this video is a really good watch. if you ever need paintball help or stuff you can talk to me. i really like paintball.
[QUOTE=skynrdfan3;35501530]thats some noice starter gear. if you wanna learn 2 play good watch Dynasty Dysected: [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAKTtmFemxQ[/media] dynasty's one of the best teams right now and has been around since the start of competitive paintball, so this video is a really good watch. if you ever need paintball help or stuff you can talk to me. i really like paintball.[/QUOTE] Oh wow thanks man, I really appreciate that! Do you have steam/skype by any chance?
boomheadshot100 on steam. hit me up anytime
I am taking care of baby hens hnn they are adorable
[QUOTE=:smugspike:;35516429]I am taking care of baby hens hnn they are adorable[/QUOTE] smoke em out
one of them got pooped on and I cleaned the poop off of her then let her sit in my lap in the sun so she could dry off she is now attached to me she is my shadow chicken
fuck, now i want some chicks to raise.
[QUOTE=skynrdfan3;35516930]smoke em out[/QUOTE] Only if you have a vape, smoke is really harmful to birds.
vape em out
[QUOTE=Torekk;35474899]I don't know where I should start... I still live at home with my parents and currently share my room with my older brother who moved back in 2 years ago. Back then, everything was fine, but lately, things get worse. Somehow my mom thinks I'm a drug addict and alcoholic and that my bro is a fucking saint, which just isn't true. He smokes weed on a daily basis, I even told that my mom, but she won't believe me, because he "did a drug therapy". Well if he really did a drug therapy, then why comes he tells me about every night he can't sleep because he hasn't smoked weed? Which is pretty dumb in my eyes... Anyways, about 2 months ago I got a jobcoach which helps me to find an apprentice, my own flat and sort out my debts, which basically resulted because my mom refused to pay me pocket money, because of the drug addict thing. My jobcoach managed to get her to pay me 154€ monthly, which is the child support she gets for me. Now I'm cool with that, but she wants me to buy food from that money as well, which isn't possible, because when I paid off my debts and monthly train ticket, I got like 80€ left, which I rather use for buying clothes or having some fun with my mates. So basically, everyone in my family thinks I'm the "black sheep" now, but actually it's been my brother the whole time. Back when I was younger, he already smoked weed in our room and stole money from my mother, but somehow she believes he changed. I also sometimes hear how she talks behind my back, that she thinks I won't be able to live alone and stuff like that, because I never help at home. But why should I help my mother when she gives no fuck about me? I just don't understand how my mom can do this to me, I've always been a good child, but due to the situation lately I've smoked more weed and drank more alcohol than ever before. And I actually hate my mom for doing this shit to me... Now, my jobcoach helped me to find a flat and if everything works out, I can move out in may. But I don't want to leave my mom without her realizing that I'm not the guy which she thinks, I just can't find a way to convince her. I told her I found a flat and stuff, but all she worries about is how she's gonna pay the rent when I move out.[/QUOTE] I'm not sure I understand the situation very well... why exactly are they angry at you? Are they angry that you simply smoke weed and drink alcohol, or are they angry that you're spending money on drugs when you should be spending money on something else? You mentioned that you had debts, maybe that's why they are angry. While you said that you do spend part of your monthly money on paying off those debts, maybe you should explain to them that a person can't simply devote his life to work; he has to have time to do what he wants, and what you want to do is smoke a joint with some friends and have a good time every now and then. [editline]11th April 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=oyotnas;35478866]I feel dumb. All my freinds are in A.p. classes and im still in algebra ab as a sophmore. They treat me like shit but i cant seem to stop hanging out with them. They call me just so they can smoke my weed and be a verbal punching bag for them. I cant stand it. I am alot stronger than them and they know i can hurt them alot. But I wanna be less violent than i already am.They tell me to shut up even if i am asking a question like every fucking time i open my mouth. They only keep me around because i am unpredictable. I dont know anymore. I dont fucking know if i am gay or straight. I jerk off everyday cant stop. I am loud and expressive and speak my mind when nobody cares. And nobody ever cares. My grades are horrid and cant get it through my head that being lazy isn't getting me anywhere. I pretend to scream at the mirror as if i was yelling at my friends and how i would tell them off. I never do in fear that I will be lonely. I am over worked and under appreciated from my friends. I am way too nice and giving for the shit i get thrown back at me. (Sorry if this doesnt make any sense its just thoughts i havent really put anywhere other than my own head.)[/QUOTE] I wouldn't tell them off, I'd talk to them rationally and attempt to understand where they are coming from, while at the same time getting them to understand where you're coming from. If you believe they show disrespect because you aren't in AP classes like them, maybe you should try to convince them that there's more to a person than simply how they do academically. And if they continue to be assholes afterwards, then tell them off.
i used to not have a lot of friends, but over the last three years that really changed. at the moment i've got loads of friends and quite a few people actually look up to me. for the past ten days i have been avoiding pretty much everyone i know, just because i realized that i don't like how they look up to me and how they act in certain ways just to please me. sure, it's not [I]everybody[/I], but it's like 75% of my friends who does it. i would just like them to be themselves around me, cause it makes me unable to chill when they start to act all weird. i mostly notices it when i'm high, but recently i just haven't been able to ignore it. people fucking suck.
"People suck because they look up to me" Also lol you only notice it when your high which is when lots of things seem weird anyway :v:
"people suck because they feel that they have to act in a certain way to get accepted." recently haven't been able to ignore it, even when i'm completely sober.
Fucked up my uni. I love what I'm learning but I'm having trouble handing in assignments on time due to my anxiety disorders. I have serious issues going into a public place most of the time, and it's pretty random when the extreme versions of it will decide to hamper me from actually doing shit. I mean, I enjoy photography so much and I can find excellent photo spots wherever I am, but I don't have the money for a quality camera and the uni only rents out like 20 cameras for a class of 130+, so they're never available. Plus I was expecting an arts course with lots of outgoing and friendly people, so far what I've been shown is lots of people who have 3 or 4 friends from high school just keeping to themselves, which is fucking stupid since I was hoping to meet some cool people, something which scares the fuck out of me, but I really want to do.
[QUOTE=/B/rother;35521589]"people suck because they feel that they have to act in a certain way to get accepted." recently haven't been able to ignore it, even when i'm completely sober.[/QUOTE] But people do have to act in a certain way to get accepted, I mean you wouldn't be friends with someone who did stuff you don't like.
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;35521852]But people do have to act in a certain way to get accepted, I mean you wouldn't be friends with someone who did stuff you don't like.[/QUOTE] of course i wouldn't, but why would they go through all that trouble just to call themselves a friend of mine? - they're making up a whole new personality. why would they want to be my friend if we have nothing in common and can't just chill together? it makes hanging out with them awkward for me, because i can see that they're not [I]really[/I] enjoying themselves. is it really worth it, just to be accepted? my best friends are all people who does whatever the fuck they want and doesn't care for my approval at all. they have no problem disagreeing with my opinions and it just make it way more interesting to be hanging out with them.
Are you sure that you are reading them correctly? because i remember reading a study that until a certain age its very easy to misread how people are feeling, you should try talking to them.
i know a lot of people who started smoking weed, just because they knew that i did. also, at least ten different people have been telling me about how they planned on buying expensive cameras, just because they knew i was into photography. [editline]11th April 2012[/editline] automerge. [editline]11th April 2012[/editline] [QUOTE=Stormcharger;35522221]Are you sure that you are reading them correctly? because i remember reading a study that until a certain age its very easy to misread how people are feeling, you should try talking to them.[/QUOTE] i have been talking with my brother and one of my best friends about this and they both have agreed that people act different around me. [editline]11th April 2012[/editline] maybe i should just smoke some more weed and just not care about it, idk?
theres also the fact that you guys are adolescents. There is a phenomenon called 'imaginary audience' where teens think they are being watched and the things that happen around them are results of their actions or presence (easiest example is having a zit and thinking everyone sees/cares about it or walking past a group of girls and they laugh and you think they are laughing about you). So you could think they are trying to please you when they are just trying to make an honest joke or action. At the same time cliques are a huge part of a teens identity so it could be a few kids trying to fit into your group. So its either you're misinterprating their actions or them attempting to become accepted into a group in order to form an identity.
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