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I always think of the worst for everything.
It's amazing that people will fight for freedom of religion and freedom to worship the way they want, but when it comes to freedom of habit and other private freedoms, people aren't willing to stand up and fight. You let them take away any freedom, you let the government have that kind of UNCONSTITUTIONAL power over you and yours, and pretty soon you have nothing. Freedom doesn't come free, even in America. Drug prohibition is unconstitutional. The war we are in is unconstitutional. The patriot act is EXTREMELY unconstitutional in every way. And Obama and Bush should both be treated as war criminals for the murders they committed.
[QUOTE=Meader;33415986]It's amazing that people will fight for freedom of religion and freedom to worship the way they want, but when it comes to freedom of habit and other private freedoms, people aren't willing to stand up and fight. You let them take away any freedom, you let the government have that kind of UNCONSTITUTIONAL power over you and yours, and pretty soon you have nothing. Freedom doesn't come free, even in America. Drug prohibition is unconstitutional. The war we are in is unconstitutional. The patriot act is EXTREMELY unconstitutional in every way. And Obama and Bush should both be treated as war criminals for the murders they committed.[/QUOTE] There's been little 3rd party trials for war crimes against Bush, but all they can really do is lobby to have the government look into it more. Which they're never going to do.
I hate how in my first family holiday that I can remember, all I remember is how my parents had arguments non-stop. I hate how they told me they were "discussing". I hate to remember the feeling when I sat at my window, looking for my father to come back from work to tell him I got a gold sticker for my drawing of my family and he didn't come. I hate how my mum told me daddy won't come back. I hate how every man that enters the family leaves when I grow fond of him. I hate how I only see my father a few times a year. I hate how everybody I know and was once friends with betrays me and leaves me behind. Lonely, lacking somebody to talk to. I hate how I'm having a hard time writng this. And most of all I hate how I try to numb myself to stop thinking about this. Fuck...
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[QUOTE=Mindfuck 2;33419776]I hate how in my first family holiday that I can remember, all I remember is how my parents had arguments non-stop. I hate how they told me they were "discussing". I hate to remember the feeling when I sat at my window, looking for my father to come back from work to tell him I got a gold sticker for my drawing of my family and he didn't come. I hate how my mum told me daddy won't come back. I hate how every man that enters the family leaves when I grow fond of him. I hate how I only see my father a few times a year. I hate how everybody I know and was once friends with betrays me and leaves me behind. Lonely, lacking somebody to talk to. I hate how I'm having a hard time writng this. And most of all I hate how I try to numb myself to stop thinking about this. Fuck...[/QUOTE] I'll be bros with u
[QUOTE=Mindfuck 2;33419776]I hate how in my first family holiday that I can remember, all I remember is how my parents had arguments non-stop. I hate how they told me they were "discussing". I hate to remember the feeling when I sat at my window, looking for my father to come back from work to tell him I got a gold sticker for my drawing of my family and he didn't come. I hate how my mum told me daddy won't come back. I hate how every man that enters the family leaves when I grow fond of him. I hate how I only see my father a few times a year. I hate how everybody I know and was once friends with betrays me and leaves me behind. Lonely, lacking somebody to talk to. I hate how I'm having a hard time writng this. And most of all I hate how I try to numb myself to stop thinking about this. Fuck...[/QUOTE] At least you see him a few times a year. My dad died when I was 12. And real friends are hard to come by. You have to be bound together by something.
i hate how i the littlest stupidest first world problems bug me. I know how stupid they are and how non important they are but it still gets to me. The only thing i want is to get rid of this social anxiety, it really makes life frustrating so go out and do shit. Once im in the situation im good, but the thought of going into it, the anticipation, kills me. Utterly mind destroying and gets to the point of physical pain. I may be a psych major but i still havent been able to help myself.
I have the worst luck with girls. Or I am doomed to stay a virgin, and never even get a kiss. I am 17 years old and have never hooked up with a girl, let alone got with one. So basically first girl I asked out in high school, says yes to me in person, then later says no over MSN a few hours later. I was so fucking happy when she said yes, then absolutely depressed when she said no. Second girl a year later, really quiet, but I really liked everything about her, she liked me back, but she was very shy and couldn't go up to me, I always had to go up to her just to talk to her, which she enjoyed. Eventually I got sick of the fact she wouldn't make the next move in our relationship, so I snapped, this was after 3 months of us, hanging out and stuff. I never talked to her again and I feel so bad and I wish I could go back, if i grow a pair, i might talk to her soon. Third girl, really chill girl, smoked pot, listened to chill music, we connected absolutely 100%, although we were different in many aspects, she's all artsy and free will whatever, while im kind of rules oriented and into nerdy stuff, but whatever, we still had many of the same views on things, about relationships etc, and views on life. Which I thought was absolutely awesome. So I asked her out and she said she still liked the guy (who dumped her), I was fucking shocked, because that's how sure I was she'd say yes. It was devastating for me. Fourth chick, I started talking to her and took her out for lunch and we had a good time just getting to know each other. After lunch i texted her, "have a good day :)" and shes like, "I hope you didnt think t hat was a date", im like, "no, obviously lol just lunch", "k good because I dont like you like that", deleted me on facebook the next day, fucking harsh. Cool, I think this is therapeutic, just telling random people on a forum how sad your life is. I think I feel a bit better.
chill out man, you will get a girl someday, you're only 17 and in college you will have a much wider selection to choose from. Right now im not really looking for a relationship, just not interested in it. Ive always looked at it like this, at first you [I]want[/I] a girl, and once you start going out and start to connect and love each other thats when you [I]need[/I] her. What i mean is, dont go into it thinking its a necessity, have fun with it, enjoy it.
i have extreme social issues( all mental, no real things ). I've lost complete sense in everything, my thoughts are crazy, and all i ever try to do is solve my issues or tell myself i have a strong mind and i can ignore my thoughts, and accept what's actually happening, which is nothing. i wonder if other people think this, but i don't know. i'm failing all my classes in school, and i'll tell myself sometimes, "Once this quarter ends and the grades are reset, i'm going to do my work.". but it always ends up in me smoking instead. i smoke weed every day, and i have for a long time. i was going to say a sentence here describing what i think is going on, but i can find no way to describe anything, because what's really happening isn't happening, it's all in my mind, but the word that describes all my issues, and everything around me. [b][i] I don't know.[/i][/b]
[QUOTE=bull3tmagn3t;33424005]I have the worst luck with girls. Or I am doomed to stay a virgin, and never even get a kiss. I am 17 years old and have never hooked up with a girl, let alone got with one. So basically first girl I asked out in high school, says yes to me in person, then later says no over MSN a few hours later. I was so fucking happy when she said yes, then absolutely depressed when she said no. Second girl a year later, really quiet, but I really liked everything about her, she liked me back, but she was very shy and couldn't go up to me, I always had to go up to her just to talk to her, which she enjoyed. Eventually I got sick of the fact she wouldn't make the next move in our relationship, so I snapped, this was after 3 months of us, hanging out and stuff. I never talked to her again and I feel so bad and I wish I could go back, if i grow a pair, i might talk to her soon. Third girl, really chill girl, smoked pot, listened to chill music, we connected absolutely 100%, although we were different in many aspects, she's all artsy and free will whatever, while im kind of rules oriented and into nerdy stuff, but whatever, we still had many of the same views on things, about relationships etc, and views on life. Which I thought was absolutely awesome. So I asked her out and she said she still liked the guy (who dumped her), I was fucking shocked, because that's how sure I was she'd say yes. It was devastating for me. Fourth chick, I started talking to her and took her out for lunch and we had a good time just getting to know each other. After lunch i texted her, "have a good day :)" and shes like, "I hope you didnt think t hat was a date", im like, "no, obviously lol just lunch", "k good because I dont like you like that", deleted me on facebook the next day, fucking harsh. Cool, I think this is therapeutic, just telling random people on a forum how sad your life is. I think I feel a bit better.[/QUOTE] Kindly tell me to fuck off if I become too preachy or too lecturing here, but I've some advice for you. Roll with the punches, bro. You're probably gonna have two failures for every one success. It's how it is, plain and simple. If you become devastated, it puts you back in a bad place, cuts at your self-esteem. Don't do that. Don't try so hard either. When you're trying to get a girl to go out with you, before you talk to her don't obsess on the fact you just want this goddamn girl so much. If you think about it too hard, you're going to choke. Trust me, I've been down this road maaany times.
[QUOTE=LauScript;33424454]i have extreme social issues( all mental, no real things ). I've lost complete sense in everything, my thoughts are crazy, and all i ever try to do is solve my issues or tell myself i have a strong mind and i can ignore my thoughts, and accept what's actually happening, which is nothing. i wonder if other people think this, but i don't know. i'm failing all my classes in school, and i'll tell myself sometimes, "Once this quarter ends and the grades are reset, i'm going to do my work.". but it always ends up in me smoking instead. i smoke weed every day, and i have for a long time. i was going to say a sentence here describing what i think is going on, but i can find no way to describe anything, because what's really happening isn't happening, it's all in my mind, but the word that describes all my issues, and everything around me. [b][i] I don't know.[/i][/b][/QUOTE] You better start knowing. Life just gets harder the older you get. Sorry. That came out mean. I'm as confused as you are :)
[QUOTE=LauScript;33424454]i have extreme social issues( all mental, no real things ). I've lost complete sense in everything, my thoughts are crazy, and all i ever try to do is solve my issues or tell myself i have a strong mind and i can ignore my thoughts, and accept what's actually happening, which is nothing. i wonder if other people think this, but i don't know. i'm failing all my classes in school, and i'll tell myself sometimes, "Once this quarter ends and the grades are reset, i'm going to do my work.". but it always ends up in me smoking instead. i smoke weed every day, and i have for a long time. i was going to say a sentence here describing what i think is going on, but i can find no way to describe anything, because what's really happening isn't happening, it's all in my mind, but the word that describes all my issues, and everything around me. [b][i] I don't know.[/i][/b][/QUOTE] Well if your example is as bizarre as it gets, I think you're in the clear. I do the same thing sometimes, I refocus and decide god damn it I'm going to turn shit around this time, for sure. And then I'm met with hardship right off the bat and say 'fuck it' and go get drunk. Yeah, it ain't healthy but it's not really abnormal either. I've decided not to plan or think too much about my problems, when it comes time to deal with them head on, well I'll worry about it then. You can't cross a bridge when you're still a mile away from the river. Don't worry about it until you can actually amend the situation.
[QUOTE=SilverHammer;33424557]You better start knowing. Life just gets harder the older you get.[/QUOTE] people tell me this all the time. i'm too foolish to stop something by knowing i need to. I need to want to. sounds stupid? it is. the thing is i want to stop, but not enough to really stop. i really don't know what to think or do anymore.
And on that note, everyone has to writhe around in that same puddle of uncertainty at some point, some never really make it out. Uncertainty will follow you until the day you return to the worms. Accept it, deal with what you know is going on right here, right now to the best of your ability. That is really all one can do. [editline]24th November 2011[/editline] The Wu reached out and contacted me just now, through last.fm: "Neglected, but now, but yo, it gots to be accepted That what? That life is hectic." Solid advice, you should really listen to Wu Tang Clan's CREAM. Great song, I find it relatable too.
[QUOTE=Mindfuck 2;33419776]I hate how in my first family holiday that I can remember, all I remember is how my parents had arguments non-stop. I hate how they told me they were "discussing". I hate to remember the feeling when I sat at my window, looking for my father to come back from work to tell him I got a gold sticker for my drawing of my family and he didn't come. I hate how my mum told me daddy won't come back. I hate how every man that enters the family leaves when I grow fond of him. I hate how I only see my father a few times a year. I hate how everybody I know and was once friends with betrays me and leaves me behind. Lonely, lacking somebody to talk to. I hate how I'm having a hard time writng this. And most of all I hate how I try to numb myself to stop thinking about this. Fuck...[/QUOTE] I'm not close with any of my parents. My mom got into crack and pills, my dads a douche to me so i don't really call or talk to him. It kinda sucks not having anybody really trustworthy to go to when you need help with anything. I found this girl, and she makes things alright, except i rarely get to see her.
Ok, so I'm not sure if I'm going to be suffering from schizophrenia or something else that causes voices (More than likely because from what I believe I've heard about my ancestors there were a couple that did too, and my brother suffers from bi polar disorder). My thought patterns have been pretty fucking negative lately, as in I'll get random thoughts that just pop out for a second like "Kill them all" as one morbid example. This has only happened extensively in short periods of times when I'm high, the first time from spice and now after smoking weed. With spice it was rather gibberish but I was pretty sure the words were something along the above lines and when I got high last night with pot it was damned obvious what the words were. Now that I've sobered up the voice isn't there but the random thoughts that bubble up for a split seconds but still stick there in my conscious thoughts. I'm having constant battles telling myself it's completely in my head and I can control my actions and thoughts accordingly to go against what I think. I'll get in these thought loops where I hear one thought for a second and somehow my own thought process grabs it and starts thinking with that idea. It's hard to explain what having another thought train in your mind is like while at the same time you can think right along with the other one at the same time, overlapping your thinking voices. And it hurts your head, physically, your brain shouldn't be using its energy for two trains of thought, you get pretty bad headaches when this kicks in. So literally imagine a conversation and one person talking louder than you and won't stop no matter what you say, and then imagine them throwing frightening little snippets like "I stop for no mortal" into the train. You can't grab this voice and tell it to quiet down or anything, and it's as loud as your own thoughts but multiplied by a factor of what seems like 100. I never was a "right headed" kid, I always was the morbid kid. I just kept that facade over myself I guess, everyone thought I was a good kid in school, just quiet. I don't know how to "wrap this up" or anything. I just needed to type out what's going on. My situation runs alot deeper than just smoking weed, I was always distant from everyone I knew and still am to this day. TL;DR go fuck yourself. [editline]25th November 2011[/editline] Then again I've been taking meds called Claravis (isotretinoin) for some acne for about 5 months now and a known possible side effect is temporary psychosis and a there's a large warning about previous patients having thoughts of suicide (check), troubles concentrating (check), start hearing things or seeings things that aren't real (check). I'm going to stop everything (medicine and weed) and see if this stays, I'm really hoping it's the medicine counteracting with the weed or just the medicine. I'd feel kinda bad to have to stop smoking because of this, seems really terrible that something I thought was potentially harmless brought the worst of it out (I knew the risk of quickening a predisposed mental condition, just had that "It can't happen to me" thinking state.)
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;33423821]i hate how i the littlest stupidest first world problems bug me. I know how stupid they are and how non important they are but it still gets to me. The only thing i want is to get rid of this social anxiety, it really makes life frustrating so go out and do shit. Once im in the situation im good, but the thought of going into it, the anticipation, kills me. Utterly mind destroying and gets to the point of physical pain. I may be a psych major but i still havent been able to help myself.[/QUOTE] You're not alone man, social anxiety is a pain in the ass to the extreme, but it's so hard to explain to anyone who doesn't have it how frustrating it can be, even your parents ya know?
[QUOTE=Pirate Jok3r;33433031]stuff[/QUOTE] My friend had this, he took medicine to make his morale higher for school. But he also smoked a lot of weed( not a LOT but enough ), and he had the same exact thing. But he stopped, after a month it entirely went away. [editline]25th November 2011[/editline] [QUOTE=zach1193;33436366]You're not alone man, social anxiety is a pain in the ass to the extreme, but it's so hard to explain to anyone who doesn't have it how frustrating it can be, even your parents ya know?[/QUOTE] how do you people explain shit to your parents? I hardly ever talk to mine and i live with them. Explaining my problems with them would be like explaining them to another person, impossible. that's what facepunch is for, chances are i'll never meet any of you guys. and if I did, it wouldn't be different than a forum conversation
Without drugs I can't function right.
[QUOTE=Teal Moose;33424544]Kindly tell me to fuck off if I become too preachy or too lecturing here, but I've some advice for you. Roll with the punches, bro. You're probably gonna have two failures for every one success. It's how it is, plain and simple. If you become devastated, it puts you back in a bad place, cuts at your self-esteem. Don't do that. Don't try so hard either. When you're trying to get a girl to go out with you, before you talk to her don't obsess on the fact you just want this goddamn girl so much. If you think about it too hard, you're going to choke. Trust me, I've been down this road maaany times.[/QUOTE] Good advice man, thanks. Edit: The reason I find my situation as a problem is that a lot of my friends have no problem just hooking up with chicks, or getting girlfriends, but I know a lot of other people who have the same problem too, so i'm not saying i'm alone, I just look at other people and how happy they seem, and that I want what they have. (jealousy).
[QUOTE=dvsilverwing;33436580]Without drugs I can't function right.[/QUOTE] This. Sorta.. Doing drugs boosted my social life in many ways, i used to never leave my house cause i hung out with total straight edges that only played games. I hated it so much,i felt like such a loser in mind so i luckily managed to chill with some old friends and blaze. I'm never gonna regret it. Everyday i get to do the things i love, socialize, go outside, blaze in stoner circles, meet new people and share ideas. There are so many more things to appreciate then being some super hard worker or smart person. The satisfaction of a job well done has never won me over. Meeting people that understand you 100% and like you for being honest and inquisitive is the one thing i love. Doing drugs had brought me closer and closer to that feeling. Could i have just done something else to get attention?, yes. I could have expressed myself more or act less shy, but i almost felt like it wasn't my fault, I know i live with some kind of disorder. Maybe its just teenage depression or my inability to focus. People used to think i had ADD but i never wanted to believe it (namely teachers). Seems like in this society you gotta has some sort of excuse to do drugs, mostly health problems, not so great experiences from family or childhood. What the hell am i doing though i have a nearly great pair of parents that nearly have the same ideas like me, not be dependent on big ideas like religion. My whole family of four has no understanding of religion but they prefer to have their our semi serious beliefs to follow and guide all of us though life. They provide me with so much that most of my friends don't have. It makes me feel like a poser i got no reasons to through my life away and do potentially more ethical things. Read, socialize without depending on drugs to be able to. I'm just truly not comftable with it, I can never preforn the same repetitive tasks everyday, i feel like it drives me insane more than others. Things like studying things in the same exact fashion, having nerdy friends that never seemed to have a good sense of humor or never had an interesting life beyond chatting to local schoolmates and never contacting them out side of the place. Its wrong and kind of rude. You always share attention among your friends. I'm not saying what social clique a person is in describes them entirely. I did speed and i feel like the person i wanted to be. I have no paranoid feelings in me and i feel the most confident ever. Normally id be too shy to post on fp about my personal life and feelings. I cant go on anymore, this drug made me feel complete, I'm definitely gonna feel awful tomorrow. I already feel awful because of my Dad just finding out i do drugs. Oh man im spewing out so much i gotta take a break.
[QUOTE=Limpid;33440024]This. Sorta.. Doing drugs boosted my social life in many ways, i used to never leave my house cause i hung out with total straight edges that only played games. I hated it so much,i felt like such a loser in mind so i luckily managed to chill with some old friends and blaze. I'm never gonna regret it. Everyday i get to do the things i love, socialize, go outside, blaze in stoner circles, meet new people and share ideas. There are so many more things to appreciate then being some super hard worker or smart person. The satisfaction of a job well done has never won me over. Meeting people that understand you 100% and like you for being honest and inquisitive is the one thing i love. Doing drugs had brought me closer and closer to that feeling. Could i have just done something else to get attention?, yes. I could have expressed myself more or act less shy, but i almost felt like it wasn't my fault, I know i live with some kind of disorder. Maybe its just teenage depression or my inability to focus. People used to think i had ADD but i never wanted to believe it (namely teachers). Seems like in this society you gotta has some sort of excuse to do drugs, mostly health problems, not so great experiences from family or childhood. What the hell am i doing though i have a nearly great pair of parents that nearly have the same ideas like me, not be dependent on big ideas like religion. My whole family of four has no understanding of religion but they prefer to have their our semi serious beliefs to follow and guide all of us though life. They provide me with so much that most of my friends don't have. It makes me feel like a poser i got no reasons to through my life away and do potentially more ethical things. Read, socialize without depending on drugs to be able to. I'm just truly not comftable with it, I can never preforn the same repetitive tasks everyday, i feel like it drives me insane more than others. Things like studying things in the same exact fashion, having nerdy friends that never seemed to have a good sense of humor or never had an interesting life beyond chatting to local schoolmates and never contacting them out side of the place. Its wrong and kind of rude. You always share attention among your friends. I'm not saying what social clique a person is in describes them entirely. I did speed and i feel like the person i wanted to be. I have no paranoid feelings in me and i feel the most confident ever. Normally id be too shy to post on fp about my personal life and feelings. I cant go on anymore, this drug made me feel complete, I'm definitely gonna feel awful tomorrow. I already feel awful because of my Dad just finding out i do drugs. Oh man im spewing out so much i gotta take a break.[/QUOTE] Its nice that your life turned around man. Don't over do it though. We dont want you going all methhead and shit man If you get caught, just tell your parents the truth. You said that doing drugs has helped you with your life. so say that man
[QUOTE=bull3tmagn3t;33424005]I have the worst luck with girls. Or I am doomed to stay a virgin, and never even get a kiss. I am 17 years old and have never hooked up with a girl, let alone got with one. So basically first girl I asked out in high school, says yes to me in person, then later says no over MSN a few hours later. I was so fucking happy when she said yes, then absolutely depressed when she said no. Second girl a year later, really quiet, but I really liked everything about her, she liked me back, but she was very shy and couldn't go up to me, I always had to go up to her just to talk to her, which she enjoyed. Eventually I got sick of the fact she wouldn't make the next move in our relationship, so I snapped, this was after 3 months of us, hanging out and stuff. I never talked to her again and I feel so bad and I wish I could go back, if i grow a pair, i might talk to her soon. Third girl, really chill girl, smoked pot, listened to chill music, we connected absolutely 100%, although we were different in many aspects, she's all artsy and free will whatever, while im kind of rules oriented and into nerdy stuff, but whatever, we still had many of the same views on things, about relationships etc, and views on life. Which I thought was absolutely awesome. So I asked her out and she said she still liked the guy (who dumped her), I was fucking shocked, because that's how sure I was she'd say yes. It was devastating for me. Fourth chick, I started talking to her and took her out for lunch and we had a good time just getting to know each other. After lunch i texted her, "have a good day :)" and shes like, "I hope you didnt think t hat was a date", im like, "no, obviously lol just lunch", "k good because I dont like you like that", deleted me on facebook the next day, fucking harsh. Cool, I think this is therapeutic, just telling random people on a forum how sad your life is. I think I feel a bit better.[/QUOTE] Well, I have a problem with connecting with people, I don't have an urge for sex, and I don't have or understand emotions. I've had a couple girlfriends in my life but I just lived as if they didn't exist anyways. Now I have two girls I hang out with which people say they both like me, but I have no idea what to do with that. Might ask the one out soon. Her birthday is coming up, wondering what I should get her. She's turning 19, so she wants us to come to a club heh. But, I have no social skills really, I don't know how to approach asking her out, just while in a discussion do I ask "Would you want to go out with me?"... I don't want to throw her off.
I have a stutter that I've had pretty much my entire life, it started when I was 5-6 and I have no idea of what caused it. It's not as bad as it was ~8 years ago, but it still has quite an effect on me today. I would be a very social and outgoing person, if it wasn't for my stutter. It's pretty much the only thing holding me back from doing everything, it's at the point of where I'm afraid of talking to strangers because I think I'll fuck up and start stuttering. Its had quite a big effect on my social life, and it's put me in the anti-social area. It is really infuriating for me, I've tried countless times to get rid of it but nothings worked. Imagine wanting to say something, but not being able to. As a result talking to girls, especially ones I like, is pretty hard for me. Because of this stutter I haven't been able to get a girlfriend, and my self-confidence is really low. I wish there was a way to get rid of it, at this point I would do [b]anything[/b] to get rid of it, even if it took months and months of my time, money, and effort. Weed kinda helps alleviate it, but the day after I smoke it gets twice as bad as it usually is. That's been on my mind for months now, feels good to finally release it all
drugs make everyone put spaces between their sentences
[QUOTE=Glitch360;33440439]I have a stutter that I've had pretty much my entire life, it started when I was 5-6 and I have no idea of what caused it. It's not as bad as it was ~8 years ago, but it still has quite an effect on me today. I would be a very social and outgoing person, if it wasn't for my stutter. It's pretty much the only thing holding me back from doing everything, it's at the point of where I'm afraid of talking to strangers because I think I'll fuck up and start stuttering. Its had quite a big effect on my social life, and it's put me in the anti-social area. It is really infuriating for me, I've tried countless times to get rid of it but nothings worked. Imagine wanting to say something, but not being able to. As a result talking to girls, especially ones I like, is pretty hard for me. Because of this stutter I haven't been able to get a girlfriend, and my self-confidence is really low. I wish there was a way to get rid of it, at this point I would do [b]anything[/b] to get rid of it, even if it took months and months of my time, money, and effort. Weed kinda helps alleviate it, but the day after I smoke it gets twice as bad as it usually is. That's been on my mind for months now, feels good to finally release it all[/QUOTE] i feel, son. i have a lazy eye that isn't as bad as it used to be(seems to get better with age), but am sometimes afraid of making extended eye contact with people i don't know too well. i've come to learn that people who think negatively of something small like a lazy eye or a stutter aren't worth your/my time.
[QUOTE=stupid10er;33440520]i feel, son. i have a lazy eye that isn't as bad as it used to be(seems to get better with age), but am sometimes afraid of making extended eye contact with people i don't know too well. i've come to learn that people who think negatively of something small like a lazy eye or a stutter aren't worth your/my time.[/QUOTE]It's not that I'm afraid of other people knowing I stutter, but more of where I feel hatred for myself for stuttering. I want it gone, but so far I have no way of doing that. I can't really explain it well enough, it's something that people with speech impediments will know
smoking weed is a wheelchair for me when I feel like I need someone else to babysit my body while I take a break
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