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Dont listen to anybody everyone will just bring you down

I started college and while the teachers are mostly nice and stuff, I feel so inadequate. It's been two years since High School and relearning all this stuff, combined with the work load is insane. My job was easier than this, I think I might be a doer rather than a thinker. It's honestly gotten me pretty depressed, it's a horrible feeling. I haven't felt like this in forever. [editline]4th February 2015[/editline] It should probably also be noted that I can't sleep and don't eat. I need to get my shit together..

95% of all the feelings people experience here are curable with the right diet and lifestyle. I've been there myself. Making yourself depressed or anxious from a neutral sate, by thoughts alone, is pretty hard if your brain chemistry is right. Right diet, lifestyle, and a healthy body, gives you a healthy mind. That in turn leads to correct brain chemistry what allows goods thoughts, beliefs and attitudes to grow.

[QUOTE=Lui2112;47073948]95% of all the feelings people experience here are curable with the right diet and lifestyle. I've been there myself. Making yourself depressed or anxious from a neutral sate, by thoughts alone, is pretty hard if your brain chemistry is right. Right diet, lifestyle, and a healthy body, gives you a healthy mind. That in turn leads to correct brain chemistry what allows goods thoughts, beliefs and attitudes to grow.[/QUOTE] My brain chemistry is all fucked up from 2 KO's and concussions, once coming off a motorbike due to someone not stopping at a junction and the other because someone jumped me from behind and I hit my head off a wall. Safe to say a change in diet and lifestyle won't fix my issues. However I do agree that it helps! Working out and getting up early helps me to avoid feeling like I am wasting away but the anxiety is almost crippling when it comes to going out with mates (which i barely do anymore). I think I am getting better though, mirtazapine 30mg seems to be helping with removing flashbacks and shouting/punching in my sleep

I'm in my apprenticeship and i thought this job was going to be amazingand i'd love it. But i seem to be getting more and more.... i dunno.... lost in life? I'm not sure. I know i love Graphic Design and unfortunately theres like no jobs around me at all involving it. So i decided to go to the next best thing. IT since im good with computers. So i went to an interview for this IT apprenticeship job and i got hired because they liked my side-design stuff. I thought this was perfect, doing something in design and IT. Well i've been here for 8 months now and i like the people i work with and stuff but its all about networking. As in IT Networks, and i can't seem to get interested in it. They ended up employing 2 apprentices and not just 1, they made a job role just for me because of my graphics background and they mainly want me to do web stuff. Tbf, im not terrible at webstuff but i' still just a beginner to average. And barely anybody in this office knows anything about web development or design either so it's not like they can help me when they ask me to do these simple-ish tasks involving HTML, CSS & Javascript. I know im the worst one when it comes to networking here, im the least educated in it. The other apprentice has took it on pretty well and they seem to favor him in the technical part (i dont blame them tbf). I've come to realise that i only really liked the Hardware side to IT not networking. I feel really lost and really want to get into Graphic Design now, i've been feeling this for a good few months now i think and i have found a few Graphic Design places around here.... I'm tempted to just email around places and ask if they're looking for some sort of Junior Graphic Designer. I'd love to learn more about web design too but i can't seem to wrap my head around it without having somebody showing me.

[QUOTE=joshdasmif;47074130]My brain chemistry is all fucked up from 2 KO's and concussions, once coming off a motorbike due to someone not stopping at a junction and the other because someone jumped me from behind and I hit my head off a wall. Safe to say a change in diet and lifestyle won't fix my issues. However I do agree that it helps! Working out and getting up early helps me to avoid feeling like I am wasting away but the anxiety is almost crippling when it comes to going out with mates (which i barely do anymore). I think I am getting better though, mirtazapine 30mg seems to be helping with removing flashbacks and shouting/punching in my sleep[/QUOTE] How can a concussion and KO permanently alter your brain chemistry, and why did if go to the negative side instead of the positive side of effects? It's safe to say Diet/lifestyle is the cure. One being exercise. I know they use tranquillizers for anxiety in the UK. they give that when they wnat put animals in cages for transport.

[QUOTE=Lui2112;47074186]How can a concussion and KO permanently alter your brain chemistry, and why did if go to the negative side instead of the positive side of effects? It's safe to say Diet/lifestyle is the cure. One being exercise. I know they use tranquillizers for anxiety in the UK. they give that when they wnat put animals in cages for transport.[/QUOTE] TBI mate, can cause anxiety which it did to me and I was already suffering from depression since the age of 12

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;47072299]Dont listen to anybody everyone will just bring you down[/QUOTE] Well look you're obviously severely depressed, but telling people in a depression and anxiety thread that no one can help them because you feel that way, does not make it true and is not in the least bit helpful. We can all understand the hopelessness you're feeling, but preaching it is only going to spread your unhappiness, not help it or anyone elses. I'm sorry you're feeling the way you do, but no one can help you but you, and you don't seem like you want to go looking for any. Really it sounds like you need someone to care about you for you, give you an emotional kick in the ass. Maybe talk to some people you get along with if that's possible.

[QUOTE=joshdasmif;47074296]TBI mate, can cause anxiety which it did to me and I was already suffering from depression since the age of 12[/QUOTE] TBI? So you already had mental imbalances before the incident. Now hold onto the incident as a 100% bullet proof reason not to feel non-anxious. The drugs they give you for anxiety/depression essentially change your brain chemistry. Diet and lifestyle have total say over brain chemistry from where it evolved from nature.

I don't know how you can just say that. I've never gotten help for myself, changed my lifestyle drasticly but it didn't help unless I had social interaction. But I feel like everything is out to haunt me because people I think people believe I'm schizofrenic and paranoid. Now I'm paranoid and one wrong step can ruin the day for me, so how can you say that most things are curable? That's like saying "Walk it off" when you break an arm. Everyone before us didn't have hospital, is only natural that it heals. Does that sound right? It depends on the person, which is a thing that grinds frata. Why do people everyone with depression is either insane/mad or just flat out a psychopath? I don't know what I'm ranting about anymore...

[QUOTE=Lui2112;47074186]How can a concussion and KO permanently alter your brain chemistry, and why did if go to the negative side instead of the positive side of effects?[/QUOTE] You are talking as if there is no such thing as brain damage.

[QUOTE=Lui2112;47074186]How can a concussion and KO permanently alter your brain chemistry[/QUOTE] what is Chris Benoit [editline]4th February 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Lui2112;47074356]TBI? [/QUOTE] traumatic brain injury

[QUOTE=zach1193;47074349]Well look you're obviously severely depressed, but telling people in a depression and anxiety thread that no one can help them because you feel that way, does not make it true and is not in the least bit helpful. We can all understand the hopelessness you're feeling, but preaching it is only going to spread your unhappiness, not help it or anyone elses. I'm sorry you're feeling the way you do, but no one can help you but you, and you don't seem like you want to go looking for any. Really it sounds like you need someone to care about you for you, give you an emotional kick in the ass. Maybe talk to some people you get along with if that's possible.[/QUOTE] I never said that nobody could help them. All I said was people can bring you down.

[QUOTE=Lui2112;47074356]TBI? So you already had mental imbalances before the incident. Now hold onto the incident as a 100% bullet proof reason not to feel non-anxious. The drugs they give you for anxiety/depression essentially change your brain chemistry. Diet and lifestyle have total say over brain chemistry from where it evolved from nature.[/QUOTE] There is no one cause of depression. A change in anything in your brain, from ABI/TBI to a lack of a single neurotransmitter can cause a whole range of symptoms classic of depression. Of course diet has a role to play but to say that diet is the end-all of depression is ridiculous. Additionally it's important to exercise and have a healthy diet sure but to stave off medication because it "changes your brain chemistry" is stupid. There's a ridiculous amount of things in both diet and nature that can change and influence our neurotransmitters every day, and you act as if only medications do that. You're scaremongering people who need help the most to avoid the very things that will get them through.

My mom decided to throw a surprise "go out for dinner" tomorrow because she felt like it. Problem is, I'm going to a concert. Now she is upset on me because I planned this since November and she is furious that I can't be in the family when I get little to no time to react to things happening. She just wants me to sit around and when she wants I can come along. Fuck, she even cursed me out to be the whole meaning behind why it shouldn't go, because I couldn't post-pone the concert for more then an hour. How the hell I'm a supposed to enjoy the concert now? I feel like a piece of shit that is there for no one and I'm just a waste of space. I ruined that for her and my brother now... This day started so good, now I just wanna hang myself because I'm just ruining the family, I don't care about my family and fuck everything... I seriously just want to leave this place now. I tried my best but it isn't good enough. I'm going to attend for some schools tomorrow, I can't be at home. I won't make it. I'm going to kill myself if I stay home...

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;47075670]I never said that nobody could help them. All I said was people can bring you down.[/QUOTE] You never said "can" you said "will" implying it's impending, bit of a difference there.

Does anyone else [i]really[/i] hate talking on the phone? My anxiety gets so bad I can barely concentrate and talk properly if I'm talking with a stranger on the phone, but face to face for some reason I'm okay[sp]ish[/sp]

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I have this weird anxiety when I try to do school work. It's like I'm avoiding it and that's not good at all.

[QUOTE=Citrus705;47077206]Does anyone else [i]really[/i] hate talking on the phone? My anxiety gets so bad I can barely concentrate and talk properly if I'm talking with a stranger on the phone, but face to face for some reason I'm okay[sp]ish[/sp][/QUOTE] I don't like phoning people or numbers I don't know too but if they phone me first it's fine

[QUOTE][video=youtube;LFb9tiK0hVo]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFb9tiK0hVo[/video][/QUOTE] I'm having some really grim and shitty thoughts that I probably shouldn't be having at this age. I feel the safest when I'm home alone, in my room, with the lights off. I'm a social train-wreck, feeling nervous whenever I'm around someone I don't know (hell, sometimes even when I'm around my friends). I'm sure some of you have gone through shit like this, and some of you lived to tell the tale. How did you do it? How did you get over it? 'Cause I can't for the life of me figure out a way.

Sorry if I was being irrational in my previous posts. These phobias have really been stressing me out lately. I fear it's having a negative impact on my health.

[QUOTE=Citrus705;47077206]Does anyone else [i]really[/i] hate talking on the phone? My anxiety gets so bad I can barely concentrate and talk properly if I'm talking with a stranger on the phone, but face to face for some reason I'm okay[sp]ish[/sp][/QUOTE] I'm the same. Tbf im not as bad as i was since i got this job. But i still hate talking to people on the phone, especially if i don't know exactly what im saying or what is going to happen in the phone call.

I'm not a big fan of talking on the phone either, and I actually believe it's more common than you might think. I don't like talking on a phone since it gets rid of a face and body I can read, there's only words

[QUOTE=PredGD;47078958]I'm not a big fan of talking on the phone either, and I actually believe it's more common than you might think. I don't like talking on a phone since it gets rid of a face and body I can read, there's only words[/QUOTE] Exactly, i'm a lot better at reading expressions and body language, also sometimes phone calls are really bad quality and accents are hard to understand over the phone and its the awkwardness of having to ask them to repeat what they said 4 times which is the problem for me. I find it hard to retain information on the phone too. I forget almost instantly when i try to relay a message to someone.

I have a bit of an odd question. Last year I had a root canal job done at my dentist, what followed was two months of depression (lack of a better word). I couldn't be arsed to do anything, my mind felt so heavy and clogged that I couldn't do anything. I went to a therapist, fixed it a bit and I continued with life. Ever since I have felt a nagging feeling in my mind. I can't concentrate as good as I used to and my motivation has fallen that low that I can't be moved to do stuff I used to love. There are moments where my mind feels clear, but that just lasts a day at most. To make matters worse I went into a complete meltdown a few days ago. I felt like a big claw just took hold of me and I just got very panicked and anxious. I have asked my dentist and my doctor as well, but they never heard of a reaction like that from a simple dental procedure. Has anyone ever gotten something similiar?

[QUOTE=Kaelnukem;47079525]I have a bit of an odd question. Last year I had a root canal job done at my dentist, what followed was two months of depression (lack of a better word). I couldn't be arsed to do anything, my mind felt so heavy and clogged that I couldn't do anything. I went to a therapist, fixed it a bit and I continued with life. Ever since I have felt a nagging feeling in my mind. I can't concentrate as good as I used to and my motivation has fallen that low that I can't be moved to do stuff I used to love. There are moments where my mind feels clear, but that just lasts a day at most. To make matters worse I went into a complete meltdown a few days ago. I felt like a big claw just took hold of me and I just got very panicked and anxious. I have asked my dentist and my doctor as well, but they never heard of a reaction like that from a simple dental procedure. Has anyone ever gotten something similiar?[/QUOTE] Were you really nervous for this root canal? Did it scare you when you were getting it done? Its possible that you had some sort of scare when you were having it done and it triggered a bad memory or experience that you have blocked out for a while, sometimes even if you don't know what the bad experience was or is, your body remembers and you get the horrible feeling from it which could have caused the grogginess of depression you had? Thats just a theory though/

[QUOTE=greeley;47079545]Were you really nervous for this root canal? Did it scare you when you were getting it done? Its possible that you had some sort of scare when you were having it done and it triggered a bad memory or experience that you have blocked out for a while, sometimes even if you don't know what the bad experience was or is, your body remembers and you get the horrible feeling from it which could have caused the grogginess of depression you had? Thats just a theory though/[/QUOTE] I used to be a very anxious person, literally sick from going to school. I pretty much fixed that. It does feel kind of similiar, but it never continued after I would come home. Now I just feel shit 24/7.

I hit the wrong lottery. Psychiatrist put me through 4 different antidepressants, last visit he says "I don't know what else to try" then it felt like he got an attitude with me when I asked for low dose prescriptions so I can taper off the stuff I was on(frequent withdraw effect nightmares since I started medication so I worry). then I misunderstood his instructions and he talks to me like a fucking child. Once I'm off drugs I'm done with psychiatrists, I'm a peg down from where I started with even less hope.

So tonight I found out that one of the people I had known for harassing me from when I was in grade 4 all the way to graduation took his life in 2012. Near the end apparently he began to invest heavily in drinking and drugs and was suffering from severe depression. Several days before the end he approached one of my friends to apologise. I can't say I ever had the same interaction for him but I understand what he went through and I wish I had been given the chance to tell him this. Jordan, you caused me a number of problems, large amounts of anxiety and even tried stealing liquor from our backyard cooler, but I can assure you that you will be missed.