Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V3 - Discussion, help an - General

Stress can lead to stomach pains aswell as headaches. Have you seen a doc about this kinda stuff? If she's right about you always exaggerating and getting angry over nothing then maybe there's an underlying issue.

[QUOTE=Torjuz;47930606]I guess it isn't normal, but I got huge aching in my stomach's left side when my mom got mad at me for not doing everything properly. She also said I'm always exaggerating, getting angry over nothing. I guess I have tendencies at bipolar, because I just cried and had a really bad fatigue and headache...[/QUOTE] You're not alone in this. I'm often getting put down for not giving everything done that needs doing, and the self-loathing/dissapointment and anxiety of the fact the verbal berating starts at 11 at night always leads to things like stomachaches and just plain full body pain. However the biggest side effect for me is because of how late at night it usually happens, I can go to bed at midnight and not be asleep until 3, causing me to oversleep past 8 when I'm supposed to up well before then.

[QUOTE=MrJazzy;47930653]Stress can lead to stomach pains aswell as headaches. Have you seen a doc about this kinda stuff? If she's right about you always exaggerating and getting angry over nothing then maybe there's an underlying issue.[/QUOTE] It's been a while since I've been here, but last year was pretty rough. Going from school semesters, I was pushed into a trap by some "friend", leaving to a really shitty situation where people thought I was trying to commit suicide. Obviously, this broke pretty much my life cycle and I developed an anxiety that is coming and going. But the main underlying issue is my family. They say I can trust them, but they always nag at me. "You gotta do better at school", and then they say "You are working too hard, you should stop that. But still get good grades." And my mom. I can start by saying that I like her. But fuck, she is a bomb. When something is wrong in her life, she can be mad, sad or furious. But I'm always angry. She thinks that I am that, because of the way I behave. Do you get angry when people tell you are doing stuff wrong,never prioritizing stuff that matters and such? If I ask my mom, I mostly never do anything. So I'm lazy. And she tells me that. She nearly ruined the family and my exam because I ate a cake I didn't know I wasn't supposed to eat. Is it weird that all my huge throw overs happen at home, when my mom is around? Most of my depression comes from anxiety. I have an anxiety for the main door to our house. I'm afraid I forgot to lock it, and everyone is going to kill me because of it. It happened once, and my father went completely apeshit, even though nothing was at stake, or stolen. A mistake can happen, but he completely threw me under and made a huge fit so I have a constant fear for locking all the doors in the house before I leave. Also my mom hates my for not spending time with the family. I don't feel satisfied or remotely accepted anymore, because I'm always "ruining" the moment because I'm either not smiling or thinking about something that I think is more important. Friends I know, know the troubles I have, and really wanted to leave this place. But I'm to exhausted, I need a year after school to relax. I like my family. But I wish they were friends. People I didn't have to live with and spend all my time on. Because in the end, they don't really care, because they got all their own silly problems like a fucking cake. I've been saving up grades, so I can tell them that I got an A or B invade shit goes south. TL:DR - I wanna be alone, or around people I understand...

Dang that sounds so shitty, I hope you can get your own place at some point and get away from all of that annoying shit.

my entire family is against me starting on Zyprexa. they all think it'll make my life a living hell. does anyone here have experience with Zyprexa/Olanzapine? any success stories? could I get some help researching it? [editline]11th June 2015[/editline] I can't stand my mother at times when it comes to discussions regarding mental health. she keeps bringing up her own problems, saying how she has accepted that its part of her forever. I can't stand pessimistic thinking like that, I'm a fighter who fights the illness until it goes away. I believe that if someone thinks that something is going to happen, then it will happen. if you think that an illness will be part of you forever, then it fucking will be part of you forever. if you think you can fight the mother fucker and bring it down, then that's the final outcome as well. optimism is KEY to fighting a mental disorder. god fucking dammit, I'm so sick of people around me like this. why do they need to bring it down on me. [editline]11th June 2015[/editline] I need stable people around me, people who don't constantly talk problems but actually talk solutions as well. I'm so sick and tired of people just talking issues on and on and on.

[QUOTE=PredGD;47932571]my entire family is against me starting on Zyprexa. they all think it'll make my life a living hell. does anyone here have experience with Zyprexa/Olanzapine? any success stories? could I get some help researching it? [editline]11th June 2015[/editline] I can't stand my mother at times when it comes to discussions regarding mental health. she keeps bringing up her own problems, saying how she has accepted that its part of her forever. I can't stand pessimistic thinking like that, I'm a fighter who fights the illness until it goes away. I believe that if someone thinks that something is going to happen, then it will happen. if you think that an illness will be part of you forever, then it fucking will be part of you forever. if you think you can fight the mother fucker and bring it down, then that's the final outcome as well. optimism is KEY to fighting a mental disorder. god fucking dammit, I'm so sick of people around me like this. why do they need to bring it down on me. [editline]11th June 2015[/editline] I need stable people around me, people who don't constantly talk problems but actually talk solutions as well. I'm so sick and tired of people just talking issues on and on and on.[/QUOTE] Chin chin, I like your attitude :downs: [editline]11th June 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=MrJazzy;47923953]Any task or homework that couldn't be finished within an hour in a single sitting or wasn't interesting enough for me and also any kind of assignment that required repetetive practice or memorization I've always had issues with. I got through a lot of school by not studying at all because of good teachers explaining things on the whiteboard, and being interested in a lot of stuff but in the end I did fail school.[/QUOTE] From the other side of the desk I say you didn't fail alone. I'm sorry and frustrated you didn't get the help you needed back then. Some of the responsibility belongs to your teachers. I'm glad to hear you know your way to study. Earlier post you wrote something about your goals. I have learning problems of my own and I know how it feels. I think is my advantage at work :downs: I wrote my final paper quite a long time. Imo you can do everything as do average students but you just need more time and maybe study with somebody - drilling is easier to do with somebody else and then you can't avoid it. I know when we're not interested even household chores are more interesting :v:

Just to follow up, I ruined the plans and trip to the cabin because I literally had other plans. When I stressed, I started to check around to see, but then I waited and they thought I was going to be with them. So I finally get a weekend alone, but they are fucking furious at me. And I feel sick. I just wanna fucking die right now. I'm never good enough, not even passable at this point. I just want to be with my friends that really aren't my friends. I just want to breath out and enjoy my life. But I can't even do that! The fuck is wrong with me!? I was doing so good, and in one day I turned it into shit. Fuck me

I was just told that they found my uncle fucking dead in a ditch about an hour ago. He got drunk and hoped on his bike Tuesday Afternoon. It's wasn't unusual for him to go out and sleep it off in the clubhouse so that night wasn't given too much thought. When he didn't come home the next day my Aunt went and reported it, my mom and the local M.C. (Motorcycle Club) went out looking for him. They found him today after 2 days of lying out there in the hot Georgia heat, his neck was broke and it's assumed that he died instantly. I feel bad for him, but at the end of the day he had no one to blame but himself for dying like that. I feel even worse for my Aunt because this is the 2nd husband she has lost. To go through a shitty week as is and to top it off with this I am absolutely pissed the fuck off.

I feel like every time I try to do something and actually feel good about the progress I've made in it, something rolls along and just outdoes me in every way possible... Literally \everything\ feels like this, and its gotten me into some more shit thoughts recently.

I can't stop fucking eating I'm trying so hard but I just can't stop and afterwards I feel so awful I'm already so fat but I just can't stop I'm getting sick of making the walk of shame from the grocery store holding heaps of junk food

Hey all I really don't post much in this thread but I'm just posting here to get some advice from others who may suffer from it as well. Lately I've been suffering from alot of anxiety and paranoia, like really fucking badly, to the point to whereas I'll start losing my breath and sweat alot. I've always had abit of anxiety but it's never been this bad before. I'll try to make this as short as possible but roughly a month ago or so I met this girl online who I'll refer to as "S" (only reason why is because I have other nosy friends who like to browse Facepunch as well and lurk for my posts) through my close friend Jesse (we've been friends since middle school) and Jesse's own girlfriend is friends IRL with S and they both attended and graduated from the same school and hang out with eachother on a daily basis. At first we just spoke to eachother normally as friends, we share the same interests and things like that so it was incredibly easy to speak to her. After awhile I learned through Jesse's girlfriend that S loved speaking to me ALOT and she wanted to get to know me better, so I was like [I]"Sure why not, I've never really gotten closer to a person before and you seem nice" [/I] At first I still treated and spoke to S as if we were friends but jesus christ she grew on me quickly. Before I knew it we were speaking to eachother over the phone and via Skype, spending long hours talking to eachother about many things. (which we both still do now) After this I began to get paranoid for some reason, perhaps as a coping/defense mechanism not to sound too autistic or something but you know were I'm getting at here. I kept thinking in my mind, [I]"No no no they're lying to you, she doesn't actually like you and she probably finds you fuckin annoying and just speaks to you purely out of spite" [/I] Which lead to me asking Jesse, [I]"Hey man uh...Does she REALLY like me at all? Like really?"[/I] and everytime he and even his own girlfriend told me that [I]"Yes, she fucking loves speaking to you and literally talks about you every day when I hang out with her" [/I] Then S eventually found about this and even she told me personally how she felt, [I]"Anthony I fucking love you please don't be like this!"[/I] etc Even after all that, I still was fucking paranoid about all of it and I kept thinking to myself "No no no! They're still lying to you! Don't believe them!" so my paranoia and anxiety continued. Truthfully, I think that I kept having this mindset because I had never really been this happy in my life before and I was scared that the tiniest thing would cause it all to topple down and I'd lose it all. So I kept over analyzing everything and my mind ALWAYS assumed the worst [I]"She's probably going to block you soon because you speak to her too much probably!!!!" [/I]and thoughts like that in general. I'd lose countless nights of sleep over thinking of all this, and would immediately wake up the next morning and still be thinking of it. But now I finally realize that I was just being overly paranoid this entire time and needed to relax. I knew this was true as well because for example back in HS there was a point where I thought literally all my friends fucking hated me because I/they didn't speak to me much. Turns out since I didn't really sit with them at much during lunch because I had to do other things, they never spoke to me that much as a result because they knew I was busy, but whenever I did sit with them at lunch they'd speak with me the entire time and all was good, they never hated me at all, I just always assumed the worst over the tiniest thing. But now, I'll be going to therapy starting next week and hopefully it'll help me with these anxiety/paranoia issues that have been plaguing me.

Sounds like it boils down to very poor self-esteem, therapy sounds good to get some insight and help!

[QUOTE=Egon Spengler;47939597]Hey all I really don't post much in this thread but I'm just posting here to get some advice from others who may suffer from it as well. Lately I've been suffering from alot of anxiety and paranoia, like really fucking badly, to the point to whereas I'll start losing my breath and sweat alot. I've always had abit of anxiety but it's never been this bad before. I'll try to make this as short as possible but roughly a month ago or so I met this girl online who I'll refer to as "S" (only reason why is because I have other nosy friends who like to browse Facepunch as well and lurk for my posts) through my close friend Jesse (we've been friends since middle school) and Jesse's own girlfriend is friends IRL with S and they both attended and graduated from the same school and hang out with eachother on a daily basis. At first we just spoke to eachother normally as friends, we share the same interests and things like that so it was incredibly easy to speak to her. After awhile I learned through Jesse's girlfriend that S loved speaking to me ALOT and she wanted to get to know me better, so I was like [I]"Sure why not, I've never really gotten closer to a person before and you seem nice" [/I] At first I still treated and spoke to S as if we were friends but jesus christ she grew on me quickly. Before I knew it we were speaking to eachother over the phone and via Skype, spending long hours talking to eachother about many things. (which we both still do now) After this I began to get paranoid for some reason, perhaps as a coping/defense mechanism not to sound too autistic or something but you know were I'm getting at here. I kept thinking in my mind, [I]"No no no they're lying to you, she doesn't actually like you and she probably finds you fuckin annoying and just speaks to you purely out of spite" [/I] Which lead to me asking Jesse, [I]"Hey man uh...Does she REALLY like me at all? Like really?"[/I] and everytime he and even his own girlfriend told me that [I]"Yes, she fucking loves speaking to you and literally talks about you every day when I hang out with her" [/I] Then S eventually found about this and even she told me personally how she felt, [I]"Anthony I fucking love you please don't be like this!"[/I] etc Even after all that, I still was fucking paranoid about all of it and I kept thinking to myself "No no no! They're still lying to you! Don't believe them!" so my paranoia and anxiety continued. Truthfully, I think that I kept having this mindset because I had never really been this happy in my life before and I was scared that the tiniest thing would cause it all to topple down and I'd lose it all. So I kept over analyzing everything and my mind ALWAYS assumed the worst [I]"She's probably going to block you soon because you speak to her too much probably!!!!" [/I]and thoughts like that in general. I'd lose countless nights of sleep over thinking of all this, and would immediately wake up the next morning and still be thinking of it. But now I finally realize that I was just being overly paranoid this entire time and needed to relax. I knew this was true as well because for example back in HS there was a point where I thought literally all my friends fucking hated me because I/they didn't speak to me much. Turns out since I didn't really sit with them at much during lunch because I had to do other things, they never spoke to me that much as a result because they knew I was busy, but whenever I did sit with them at lunch they'd speak with me the entire time and all was good, they never hated me at all, I just always assumed the worst over the tiniest thing. But now, I'll be going to therapy starting next week and hopefully it'll help me with these anxiety/paranoia issues that have been plaguing me.[/QUOTE] I had the exact same problem, dude. Glad to see you're finally coming to terms with it and actively trying to overcome it. The whole "only talks to you out of spite" thing is complete bullshit, let me tell you. I've had that same thought before but I've come to realize that to be honest, if a person doesn't like you (especially a girl) then they won't go out of their way to talk to you.

[QUOTE=Cha;47933080]From the other side of the desk I say you didn't fail alone. I'm sorry and frustrated you didn't get the help you needed back then. Some of the responsibility belongs to your teachers. I'm glad to hear you know your way to study. Earlier post you wrote something about your goals. I have learning problems of my own and I know how it feels. I think is my advantage at work :downs: I wrote my final paper quite a long time. Imo you can do everything as do average students but you just need more time and maybe study with somebody - drilling is easier to do with somebody else and then you can't avoid it. I know when we're not interested even household chores are more interesting :v:[/QUOTE] The weird thing is that at some things I was great at, I was for the most part considered a very bright and intelligent person, got really into reading some thick fantasy books as a kid and therefor was good at swedish and english was always second nature to me, did mostly well in math because I picked up on stuff easily though I hated working through the same stuff over and over again in math textbooks. I had a big interest in WW2. And my essays pretty much always recieved high grades even though they were spontaneous moments of inspiration that I scribbled down in haste. On the other hand I was terribly bored with science related classes, practical work like wood/sewing crafts, home economics and barely made it through those. I've also been good at piano and music in general, though I didn't care much for sheet music and learned mostly by ear and experimenting and found practicing for my piano lessons very boring. It wasn't until school got a lot more demanding that I began failing, with my grades all over the place ranging from top grades to failed, and in the end I didn't get a "you passed school" evidence thing. So I don't know, so much of my life can be explained by ADD but I was never very hyperactive or necessarily impulsive, though I have an addictive personality and has had a hard time keeping stress and frustration in check. I am constantly late to things, forget things, has a hard time focusing on things, get easily bored, don't like being around a lot of people, zone out a lot especially in conversations and can't keep a routine or prioritize and am constantly overwhelmed by things that I should be able to deal with. But maybe that stuff just hasn't been recognized cause I've found ways of coping to some extent and I've never asked for help and always been a very introverted person.

[QUOTE=CobaltCrysis;47936707]I feel like every time I try to do something and actually feel good about the progress I've made in it, something rolls along and just outdoes me in every way possible... Literally \everything\ feels like this, and its gotten me into some more shit thoughts recently.[/QUOTE] I'm sorry I don't understand. Can you explain more? [editline]12th June 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=Tobin;47939094]I can't stop fucking eating I'm trying so hard but I just can't stop and afterwards I feel so awful I'm already so fat but I just can't stop I'm getting sick of making the walk of shame from the grocery store holding heaps of junk food[/QUOTE] How are you feeling? It's easier to make life changes when you're happy with other areas of life. What do you think is it good timing of losing weight right now? The secret is - all of us fail. :v: We just have to learn how get us together the day after. [editline]12th June 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=MrJazzy;47939729]The weird thing is that at some things I was great at, I was for the most part considered a very bright and intelligent person, got really into reading some thick fantasy books as a kid and therefor was good at swedish and english was always second nature to me, did mostly well in math because I picked up on stuff easily though I hated working through the same stuff over and over again in math textbooks. I had a big interest in WW2. And my essays pretty much always recieved high grades even though they were spontaneous moments of inspiration that I scribbled down in haste. On the other hand I was terribly bored with science related classes, practical work like wood/sewing crafts, home economics and barely made it through those. I've also been good at piano and music in general, though I didn't care much for sheet music and learned mostly by ear and experimenting and found practicing for my piano lessons very boring. It wasn't until school got a lot more demanding that I began failing, with my grades all over the place ranging from top grades to failed, and in the end I didn't get a "you passed school" evidence thing. So I don't know, so much of my life can be explained by ADD but I was never very hyperactive or necessarily impulsive, though I have an addictive personality and has had a hard time keeping stress and frustration in check. I am constantly late to things, forget things, has a hard time focusing on things, get easily bored, don't like being around a lot of people, zone out a lot especially in conversations and can't keep a routine or prioritize and am constantly overwhelmed by things that I should be able to deal with. But maybe that stuff just hasn't been recognized cause I've found ways of coping to some extent and I've never asked for help and always been a very introverted person.[/QUOTE] Yes, it's not about intelligence :downs: If I get it right ADD is more about finding balance between rest - doing something you like and routines (to learn a way go around your difficulties - like you said you already know some ways) that help you do what you have to do and want to do (reach your goals).

[QUOTE=Tobin;47939094]I can't stop fucking eating I'm trying so hard but I just can't stop and afterwards I feel so awful I'm already so fat but I just can't stop I'm getting sick of making the walk of shame from the grocery store holding heaps of junk food[/QUOTE] If you want to change this, and it sounds like you do, I really seriously think that it is time to ask for help. I don't necessarily mean a therapist or doctor or even a professional. If you want professional help there are a lot of options including therapists, personal trainers, dieticians etc. If you don't want professional help then you can ask your friends and family. They can help you a few ways including exercising with you, going with you to the store to make sure you buy healthy things, and helping you cook and clean out your house of junk food. I believe you can make this change, and I believe that it will be much easier if you don't try to do it yourself.

When doing what you were told to do doesn't work, it makes you wonder why you even bothered. Like basically I stopped going to my counsellor a couple months ago because he didn't have a spare appointment for the 2 weeks I could book online and I was too scared to phone up. So, after a breakdown where I start going back to him thanks to help from my uni, we get to the stage where he tells me to phone up if I can't get an appointment back when I'm in placement. So, today I check online to try to make an appointment 3 weeks in advance (very good warning, you can normally book within the week), and manage phoning up just to be told "afraid not, will another day do?". Well I suppose that means I won't bother - I am literally only free on the one day, that's why I tried booking it so early. I cannot shift my stuff around. Suppose I'll just snap and break down again over being asked "how are you doing?" or something, I don't care anymore. It sounds really petty and stupid I know, "guy can't get appointment on day he needs it", but basically my lecturers, counsellor and occupational health all tell me to go to counselling while working in placement, then the only free day when I am NOT in placement and counsellng is open, it's fully booked. If I look online, there are free appointments for the next 2 weeks, it is literally the one day I need in THREE weeks that is fully boooked. I phone up as instructed because the counsellor said they might be able to book ahead if I had this problem, they just ask if I can go another day. It's not like I can go from placement to the counselling, counselling is at uni, placement in my hospital, 2 hours away from it. gg no re Term, no way for you to win. This is like the one tiny little thing that just pushed me too far. I can handle my student loan and my bursary fucking around after I had to take a break for mental health reasons and trying to demand back money for a period of time I was actually in uni for (In addition to not resuming my payments). I can just about handle losing every day of my summer holiday to make up placement, that is ok. I can handle the portfolio work that comes with placement, and I can handle day to day life, washing, cooking, cleaning and such. I can sorta handle revising for an exam while doing all of this. I cannot handle a 9000 word dissertation over this period too, in addition to the fact my citalopram feels like it stopped working a few weeks ago. Meanwhile, everyone else literally just has the next few months to do a dissertation, none of the other stuff (ok housework but whatever). Maybe the doctor will help on Monday, she's really nice, but I don't know if anyone can fix all of this, I don't have time or energy, I just want to sleep forever. Man I spilled a lot of sorta personal stuff but I don't care, I think that little vent helped.

Welp - my best friend isn't speaking to me anymore because of a petty argument we had. I didn't think it was a big deal at all, but she refuses to have anything to do with me now. She was basically my whole support system and the person I trusted most, and that's all gone now. So I've got nowhere to turn and nothing I can rely on. I'm getting scared because I almost don't have anything to live for at this point - my future seems bleak no matter how I try to make myself look at it and I have no real friends now. Some people'd be upset if I killed myself but that seems to matter less and less by the day. I know this thread is more for venting and less for getting advice, but I'll ask anyway: what should I do? I'm getting closer and closer to killing myself by the day and it's getting terrifying. I just really want to avoid telling my parents about what's going on; I've kept up this facade for two years and I can't undo that now.

I just realized I haven't eaten in about a day and a half and I tried to eat, but I almost threw up. Oh well, I'll just go to bed. I might be better in the morning. [editline]12th June 2015[/editline] I have had this same fucking cold for two months

Damn, I feel more and more asocial. Every opportunities (which are rare) to hang with people, I kinda freak out, trying to find weak excuses and avoid contact. I can't imagine myself having a conversation with someone without it turns awkward. Maybe it's just depression that makes you wanna stay away from social relations. Or is it just my weirdo mind. I'm such a mess.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;47941844]So I've got nowhere to turn and nothing I can rely on. I'm getting scared because I almost don't have anything to live for at this point - my future seems bleak no matter how I try to make myself look at it and I have no real friends now. Some people'd be upset if I killed myself but that seems to matter less and less by the day. I know this thread is more for venting and less for getting advice, but I'll ask anyway: what should I do? I'm getting closer and closer to killing myself by the day and it's getting terrifying. I just really want to avoid telling my parents about what's going on; I've kept up this facade for two years and I can't undo that now.[/QUOTE] Since you are literally asking for advice, I will tell you straight up that I want you to get help. [QUOTE=AtomicSans;47944132]I just realized I haven't eaten in about a day and a half and I tried to eat, but I almost threw up. Oh well, I'll just go to bed. I might be better in the morning. [editline]12th June 2015[/editline] I have had this same fucking cold for two months[/QUOTE] These things you are saying are very big red flags. You are hurting and your hurt is real and you might be in real danger. Now is not the time to "tough it out" or "man up" and deal with it by yourself. "I just really want to avoid telling my parents about what's going on; I've kept up this facade for two years and I can't undo that now." Yes you can. I know it's hard, but please keep that option on the table. Even if you don't tell your parents, I want you to go to a doctor. One more thing: Even if you think nobody else in the world would care, [I]I do not want you to kill yourself.[/I] I believe that things can get better for you even if you don't think that's true right now. I hope that this helped at least a little bit.

How could I ruin this even more? My family went to the cabin and I went to town for some drinks. And I came home late and woke up to my family totally freaking out, because I couldn't answer the telephone when I was asleep. Now I ruined even more and my anxiety just set in full force. I can't get out of bed, because my heart hurts and I'm scared I'm going to do something wrong like this again. I probably have to cancel everything I had in mind, because of my feeling like total shit.

I ate today, so that's good.

so like i think im over my ex, its at the point where i dont miss her, like as a person i couldnt really give any less of a shit, the only thing i miss is being that close with a person, not her personally. like i want to know my way around another person's kitchen, i want things to be like that.

[QUOTE=despair3173;47950928]so like i think im over my ex, its at the point where i dont miss her, like as a person i couldnt really give any less of a shit, the only thing i miss is being that close with a person, not her personally. like i want to know my way around another person's kitchen, i want things to be like that.[/QUOTE] Although it's not a person, try getting a pet. The main thing that helped me get over depression was my purchase of a Betta Fish. The feeling of seeing it race to the top of the bowl just to see me was like no other.

i always get a lot more depressed around my birthday but having to go celebrate someone else's when nobody cares about me on mine really sucks i know that's pretty whiny but even taking antidepressants doesn't help and i just don't know what to do anymore

I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to quit Abilify (Aripiprazole) this Monday. I'm still not sure if it's a good idea or not as I know Abilify is great at taking care of positive schizophrenia symptoms like hallucinations, delusions, etc. I don't know how much Abilify has helped me so I'd love to give it a shot with no meds to see how it'll affect me. will I get better or will I start hallucinating and have delusions? right now I'm not bothered at all by either delusions or hallucinations. I'm currently on 30mg Abilify, the max dose. will there be a withdrawal, for those of you who may be familiar with the drug? how will quitting Abilify most likely affect me?

[QUOTE=Radical Rebel;47951573]Although it's not a person, try getting a pet. The main thing that helped me get over depression was my purchase of a Betta Fish. The feeling of seeing it race to the top of the bowl just to see me was like no other.[/QUOTE] i would but its not really an option for me at the moment, and then ill just be sad when that dies. for the moment im just going to distence myself from the idea of having another relationship, and just focus on my hobbies and what makes me happy

It's moments like this one, where I feel completely fine, that make me really reluctant to get help.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;47956539]It's moments like this one, where I feel completely fine, that make me really reluctant to get help.[/QUOTE] Well that's bullshit because it can swing. If it gets quite severe it's still worth getting help for, even if it varies from time to time. My depression and anxiety still swing in and out, but I see mych less of their extremes since starting medication