Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V3 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=fudge blood;40541675]it's been getting worse and worse every for a while... I wanna see for a little over a year, but this week has been baaaad. so bad[/QUOTE] Those are symptoms of depression, and I would suggest you get help immediately. Is there someone you know you can share this with, your parents or a relative?

I've been to a counselor before and I had trouble expressing myself and my feelings. I felt like I was lying to him in a way, but I think I just get so anxious when talking to someone about my problems, or myself in general, that I tend to rant about things that don't really matter that much to me. I honestly don't know a specific reason to why I feel depressed, I can explain my anxiety, but not my depression. I see a therapist now along with a psychiatrist. Have only had one session with each so far. The psychiatrist prescribed me Wellbutrin XL (150mg), it's only been a week since I've been on it, and I feel worse. I've been trying not take my klonopin as much, prescribed to me by my general practitioner, but that is the only pharmaceutical that has ever made me happy (benzos in general). Zoloft helped for a little when I was taking it a couple years ago, but I didn't enjoy the feeling after a while, I felt emotionless almost, "empty", I don't know how to describe it exactly. All I know is that I feel anxiety often without medicine, and my mood changes from depressed and negative towards myself to somewhat happy and not think about myself. I wish I could just write down how I feel and let my therapist or psychiatrist read it. It'd probably be more helpful than me trying to explain it out loud. Thanks for reading if you do. [editline]5th May 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=matt.ant;40535960]I started Citalopram (Celexa) a few days ago for anxiety, does anyone have any experience with it? sorry if it's been covered before. I'm on 10mg for now and I've been told it can take up to 4 weeks to take effect..[/QUOTE] I don't have any experience with that, but is it helping? Also, did a psychiatrist or general doctor prescribe this to you? I told my doctor that I had anxiety and that's when I was prescribed Zoloft (same class of drug as Celexa). If it's just general anxiety you feel I think a benzodiazepine would help more. Doctors don't want to prescribe those first because of how addictive they are and their tendency to abuse the drug. But it all depends on your response to the drug. Celexa might help or not.

another one of those nights, but shit, it'll get better eventually. i guess i just have to steamroll through these hard times and make sure the good never goes undetected. my day was really good up until now, so i'll just be thankful i had that.

I hate that so much. I can have a great day and then all of a sudden everything will catch up to me and sideline me like a fucking freight train. My advice would be to keep busy as much as possible.. I've been doing it, it's definitely not perfect but it works.

[QUOTE=avaz;40542414] [editline]5th May 2013[/editline] I don't have any experience with that, but is it helping? Also, did a psychiatrist or general doctor prescribe this to you? I told my doctor that I had anxiety and that's when I was prescribed Zoloft (same class of drug as Celexa). If it's just general anxiety you feel I think a benzodiazepine would help more. Doctors don't want to prescribe those first because of how addictive they are and their tendency to abuse the drug. But it all depends on your response to the drug. Celexa might help or not.[/QUOTE] It's for social anxiety and it's not working at the moment but then my doctor said it could be 4 weeks before it takes effect, I am getting some of the side effects though.. I have a review in a couple of weeks where they can decide whether to up the dose or not, she admitted she was putting me on the lowest dose to begin with and go from there Also it was a GP who prescribed them, but I was offered therapy or counseling whenever I want if needed

[QUOTE=matt.ant;40547229]It's for social anxiety and it's not working at the moment but then my doctor said it could be 4 weeks before it takes effect, I am getting some of the side effects though.. I have a review in a couple of weeks where they can decide whether to up the dose or not, she admitted she was putting me on the lowest dose to begin with and go from there Also it was a GP who prescribed them, but I was offered therapy or counseling whenever I want if needed[/QUOTE] Well I hope it works for you. It is best to take it for at least 4 to 6 weeks unless the side effects are unbearable or detrimental to your health. But I personally think any benzo would be a better solution for you, having social anxiety. As long as you don't let it get out of hand and abuse them. A side effect of Celexa is anxiety, so I can see this not helping. I wish you all the best though.

So, I feel like on the Internet, antidepressants are bashed relentlessly and claimed to not work. I'm here to say that MEDICATION DOES HELP - at least it did for me. I've been taking Prozac and Welbutrin for about a month, and it's helped a lot. I find myself happy for no apparent reason throughout the day, and when I tell other people about this, they say that it's how they always feel. Most days have been a lot better than when I was depressed. Depression is still there and I still want to sleep a lot, but the antidepressants really do help.

[QUOTE=cheetahben;40563042]So, I feel like on the Internet, antidepressants are bashed relentlessly and claimed to not work. I'm here to say that MEDICATION DOES HELP - at least it did for me. I've been taking Prozac and Welbutrin for about a month, and it's helped a lot. I find myself happy for no apparent reason throughout the day, and when I tell other people about this, they say that it's how they always feel. Most days have been a lot better than when I was depressed. Depression is still there and I still want to sleep a lot, but the antidepressants really do help.[/QUOTE] It's been about two months since I've started Prozac. I notice the difference, but it's not helping me gain motivation. My psychiatrist is suggesting Welbutrin in addition if I don't notice a difference after upping the dose, which I started two weeks ago to no avail. Did you start taking both at the same time, or did you start with one?

Do guys have any advice for those kind of nights when you have nothing to do and no one to talk to? I'm sitting here freaking out and starting to get scared of what the rest of my life will be in my condition..

I'm hesitant to take meds because it doesn't really solve my problem, I'm sad for a reason, and I know I can't change anything. I just can't get over it, no matter how hard I try to forget. If I take meds the problem is still going to be there, I'm still going to have feelings and those feelings are still going to be hurt. I really really really don't know what to do.

Don't know how relevant this is, but there's a new Hyperbole and a Half up (on depression) [url]http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.html[/url] [editline]9th May 2013[/editline] also part 1 if you've never read it [url]http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.co.uk/2011/10/adventures-in-depression.html[/url]

I somehow broke through a few months ago and got hooked on a daily exercise and diet routine. It's been about 3-4 months now and I've lost over 10kg. I've gone from being depressed every moment of every day to being depressed very very rarely. I guess the combination of exercise and new diet has changed the chemicals in my body and now I feel better in every way and have gained new confidence. Just thought I'd post this here as it might help someone :smile:

the boy who i am pretty sure i wanted to spend a good deal of my life with just told me he wants to be a she now at least i know how to make her feel better about herself :D if she survives the next year, her remaining thirty will be amazing when she gets back to the states

This is more of me venting, and not really any true ailment. But i feel like I have nowhere to go regarding relationships/friendships right now, and no one to talk to. I feel void of having any intellectual conversations or any real conversations at all. Everything just seems to be just talk, re-hashed conversations that has been done before, going over something that was talked about in prior exchanges.

[QUOTE=ScoutKing;40613398]This is more of me venting, and not really any true ailment. But i feel like I have nowhere to go regarding relationships/friendships right now, and no one to talk to. I feel void of having any intellectual conversations or any real conversations at all. Everything just seems to be just talk, re-hashed conversations that has been done before, going over something that was talked about in prior exchanges.[/QUOTE] I know how you feel buddy. Anybody have a great prescription pill for bipolar disorder they can recommend? I'm on Olanzapine and Lomotrigine (spelt phonetically, don't feel like getting up), and my Lomotrigine prescription ran out and I want to try something else.

[QUOTE=Scoooooby;40613412]I know how you feel buddy. Anybody have a great prescription pill for bipolar disorder they can recommend? I'm on Olanzapine and Lomotrigine (spelt phonetically, don't feel like getting up), and my Lomotrigine prescription ran out and I want to try something else.[/QUOTE] Well bipolar disorder is very different from person to person, just like many other psychological diseases. It would be better to know what your bipolar disorder is like before recommending another pill. If you don't mind, explain what your moods consist of, how often they change, and if there is something that causes them to change or if it's just at random with no causal source. It's fine if you'd rather not explain it, I just wouldn't recommend anything, personally, without knowing what the problem is first.

I was diagnosed Bipolar Type 2. This is accurate of me, it's almost like astrology. [QUOTE]What Are the Symptoms of Bipolar II Disorder? During a hypomanic episode, elevated mood can manifest itself as either euphoria (feeling "high") or as irritability. Symptoms during hypomanic episodes include: Flying suddenly from one idea to the next Rapid, "pressured," and loud speech Increased energy, with hyperactivity and a decreased need for sleep People experiencing hypomanic episodes are often quite pleasant to be around. They can often seem like the "life of the party" -- making jokes, taking an intense interest in other people and activities, and infecting others with their positive mood. What's so bad about that, you might ask? Hypomania can also lead to erratic and unhealthy behavior. People in hypomanic episodes might spend money they don't have, seek out sex with people they normally wouldn't, and engage in other impulsive or risky behaviors. Also, the vast majority of people with bipolar II disorder experience significant depressive episodes. These can occur soon after hypomania subsides, or much later. Some people cycle back and forth between hypomania and depression, while others have long periods of normal mood in between episodes. Untreated, an episode of hypomania can last anywhere from a few days to several months. Most commonly, symptoms continue for a few weeks to a few months. Depressive episodes in bipolar II disorder are similar to "regular" clinical depression, with depressed mood, loss of pleasure, low energy and activity, feelings of guilt or worthlessness, and thoughts of suicide. Depressive symptoms of bipolar disorder can last weeks, months, or rarely years.[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=Scoooooby;40620463]I was diagnosed Bipolar Type 2. This is accurate of me, it's almost like astrology.[/QUOTE] This is what I am afraid I have... I have a doctor's appointment soon and I am going to ask about this, it's scaring me.

[QUOTE=PyroCraz3d;40621551]This is what I am afraid I have... I have a doctor's appointment soon and I am going to ask about this, it's scaring me.[/QUOTE] It isn't bad with medication. Don't deny your problems, try to get treatment. I take Zyprexa and Lamictal. Each are known for treating type 1 and 2 bipolar disorder. The medication is good enough, and will do an efficient job at eliminating hypomania and/or full-blown mania. I would have auditory hallucinations, mood swings, hypomania and since taking (Zyprexa) it has been for the most part eliminated. I'm going to ask my psychiatrist if he can recommend an upper to the Zyprexa as my Lamictal prescription renewal ran out. Since a year ago, where I was in over my head with delirium, poor sleep. I was physically active last year, God I miss having a gym membership. I took an extra pill of Zyprexa tonight. That'd put me at 40-50 milligrams. I just wanted to see if I could notice the effects, so I could decipher which prescription helps the most. Kind of like... wanting to take another pill of Lamictal, which I've taking 2 of before. I want to know how I feel when I talk to my therapist. Whom I don't really discuss my problems with. :/ I just re-read my post... really depresses and scares me as well. Didn't notice I am likely to switch between hypomania and depression all the time. I was just praying this was a phase. Bless ya, I hope everything calms down for you. Makes me emotional, I remember having a boyfriend, loving relationship and great sex (sorry lol), but now it's all gone and he's gone, because he didn't know how to deal with my falling out last year. I feel emotionally prepared for another boyfriend, I just pray I don't have a loss of interest/pleasure in life as it described, I don't want this to be a relationship problem I have to worry about. "Life is suffering." - Gautama Siddhartha. I'll talk more about my experiences if you wish, in detail, only if you need somebody to relate with. Only in private messages though.

Alot of those symptons is what I feel alot. But I am not sure if it is just a sad mood or depression... Never thought of suicide before though so hopefully it are just sad and good moods.

Well my depressions back and I feel even more worthless and hated than before.

I'm suicidally depresed and have been for 2 years. But cant talk to anyone about it for fear of being percieved as an attention seeker. If I could find a way of doing it without anyone ever finding out I'd have done it years ago. One day I'll just do it. Came close to just jumping in the canal the other day. just straight up inhale the water

I'm gonna post another time. Just to say I recommend Zyprexa if you struggle with hypomania, auditory hallucinations (voices), mood swings and psychotic episodes. I suffered these symptoms for a year, and four months ago I started Zyprexa, and my life is back to normal and I love it. If I hadn't gotten a prescription, I'd probably be dead by now, or commit suicide this year. I couldn't handle those problems and it amazes me that all of those problems can come out of nowhere. As for some who are worried, or don't think they have these problems, it shows up 19-21. Going to see my therapist Friday. I still haven't found a drug that could replace the Lamictal.

My problems seem to pale in comparison to some of the things you guys are going through, but I'm hoping someone can help me out here. My life has essentially reached a point of stagnation for quite some time. I don't do anything worthwhile with my life, and I'm not smart, creative, or strong enough to really do anything I'd want, and even if I was, I'm not sure if I'd even try to do anything since my thought process is riddled with paranoia and self-doubt. This ends up vastly exacerbating my lack of motivation. Thankfully I still have some time to sort things out, since I haven't quite graduated high school yet, but I had been way behind in work for quite a while, and ever since my best friend died in November, I couldn't even find the motivation to go to school anymore, opting to be home-schooled instead. However, being the spectacular champion of the people I am, I'm managing to fail that as well, despite the work being quite simple. Also, because I'm now home-schooled, I rarely leave the house anymore, even if it's just to be somewhere just outside, like in my yard. I only have a handful of people I can call friend, and most of them I don't even really talk to. Mostly everyone I've known has left my life through one way or another. Basically every acquaintance I've made are people I'm simply on good terms with, but there's no real connection anymore. Not that they aren't good people, I just can't seem to put my time and focus into more than a handful of people at a time. It's gotten to a point where people I love dearly make me angry simply being present. That's where the mood swings come in. One moment I can be having a really good time, and suddenly within a minute I feel this overwhelming spite for myself and my surroundings. I can't seek professional help. In fact, I can't really seek help of any sort, besides perhaps assistance from you guys. I definitely can't commit suicide either, since it's such a huge no-no. My death would cause more problems than me being alive anyways, and I really hate to think of how it would affect my mother. If nothing else, I can count on my mother's love. If not for that, I probably would have left a long time ago. At the same time, I really don't desire life anymore. Another reason I won't commit suicide though is my immense fear of death. I'm not sure where I stand on faith and beliefs, but I can count on the fact that I'm either going nowhere or I'm going to hell when I go. I don't like being here much, but it's better than those places, I suppose. Doesn't give much comfort though. Is there anything I can do to alleviate any of this? Sorry if any of this is nonsense or mixed up, and thank you for reading.

Be sure to go to your general doctor and get blood work done. Issues with the thyroid can cause depression and social anxiety.

Fuck it returned i guess. I can't trust anyone to speak my feelings to... again. Medical personel i can't talk to because i feel like they are just doing their jobs and not giving two shits if i live or not. And for others... it's not even a question. I cannot. I must not. I have trouble even figuring out how i feel about things. It's horrible. More i think about things more confused i become. Who to blame? Who to hate? Yes myself... but for past few months it hasn't been enough i know i can blame all it on myself but i keep finding people to blame. And hate... i dont know!? I can feel all the hate inside of me. But i can't do anything about it. It's horrible i am completely torn apart from inside.

[QUOTE=ripsipiirakk;40658669]Fuck it returned i guess. I can't trust anyone to speak my feelings to... again. Medical personel i can't talk to because i feel like they are just doing their jobs and not giving two shits if i live or not.[/QUOTE] No. Ive done a lot of volunteering in hospitals, the ER mostly, and i can tell you one thing. They care.

[video=youtube;HsixXCnYVfA]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HsixXCnYVfA[/video] [editline]16th May 2013[/editline] [video=youtube;qs5wIJlUK1o]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qs5wIJlUK1o[/video] [editline]16th May 2013[/editline] It's been three years and I can't let go, can't move on or really find someone new. That scene from the Royal Tenenbaums, I'm so close to that, the fact that I want to do it, the fact that I know how he feels... Just...

Hi, so first time posting here. Basically I just need to vent. I'm fed up. I'm nineteen, I've already been fired from two jobs and I'm having real difficulty finding another. I was also just rejected from an apprenticeship that I tried really fucking hard to get (would've been great for me). It's kinda hit me that pretty much everything I've ever attempted, I've fucked up. I fucked up school, I fucked up work. I'm incredibly fucking mediocre at everything I do. I'm scared of spending the next 50 years of my life in a job I'll hate. I'm just failing to see the point to be honest. This is probably just me feeling sorry for myself, but it's how I've been feeling for the past week.

All I want and have wanted, is for the days to stop feeling like a giant countdown. Every day is exactly the same now- school, homework, videogames, and then rarely, happy dreams that just remind me of the fact that I can't be happy in normal life anymore. I just want it to be summer, so I can have my pet rat, and play videogames, and explore the woods near my house, make a bow and arrow, and just do whatever I want. I want to have adventures again, like I did when I was younger. Now, there is no time for anything- I work until sundown, and then use my computer until its time to go to sleep.