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Anyone else deal with chronic fatigue? I don't suffer from insomnia but I do have problems staying asleep throughout the night and even if I get a decent 7-8 hours, I'm still exhausted in the morning and throughout the day and feel like I need a nap, even if I'm not even actually DOING anything during the day. I feel like it might be a symptom of depression because I know I've suffered from other depression symptoms as well so I'm not sure.

[QUOTE=Levithan;48261180]welp the mental hospital I was working up the nerve to go to for an entire month is apparently [url=https://plus.google.com/109227975343452860091/about?hl=en&gl=us]horrible to their patients.[/url] i dont know what to do anymore, and i wish i left more painkillers from my wisdom teeth removal so i could take them all at once[/QUOTE] I would take it with a big grain of salt. googling the mental hospital I go to brings up the same result, but it turns out its pretty alright. only those who had a negative experience will bother writing about it while those who had an alright experience won't bother in most cases. you're going in voluntarily as well, so you can always ditch it if it turns out to be a terrible place after all

[QUOTE=Terminutter;48262007]I already feel dead, so why not just be dead? I don't know. I mean I meet my counsellor again tomorrow for more advice that basically makes me feel better for 5 minutes.[/QUOTE] It's a lot of work but eventually it goes away.

[QUOTE=Pascall;48262015]Anyone else deal with chronic fatigue? I don't suffer from insomnia but I do have problems staying asleep throughout the night and even if I get a decent 7-8 hours, I'm still exhausted in the morning and throughout the day and feel like I need a nap, even if I'm not even actually DOING anything during the day. I feel like it might be a symptom of depression because I know I've suffered from other depression symptoms as well so I'm not sure.[/QUOTE] it sounds like a depression symptom. I struggle with this a lot as well. I sleep for 12 hours, sometimes more, everyday, yet I still feel exhausted when I wake up.

Sucks because I don't wanna rely on medicine but I'm not sure what else there is to do. I feel like going to the doctor will just yield the "just get more sleep" diagnosis. It's also why I wanna get a lock on my door though. People like to come in and out of my room since I still live with my parents and I wake up at the smallest noise. It's frustrating.

[QUOTE=Pascall;48262015]Anyone else deal with chronic fatigue? I don't suffer from insomnia but I do have problems staying asleep throughout the night and even if I get a decent 7-8 hours, I'm still exhausted in the morning and throughout the day and feel like I need a nap, even if I'm not even actually DOING anything during the day. I feel like it might be a symptom of depression because I know I've suffered from other depression symptoms as well so I'm not sure.[/QUOTE] Try to get exercise in every day, it should balance that out after about a week or two. Coffee too if its not paradoxical with you. I have found, that you want to avoid napping and forcing yourself to keep a decent sleep schedule helps quite a bit as well.

Coffee's gross, so I'm not a fan. And time for exercise every day is nonexistent, unfortunately. I exercise every now and again, but I certainly can't do it every day.

[QUOTE=Pascall;48262058]Coffee's gross, so I'm not a fan. And time for exercise every day is nonexistent, unfortunately. I exercise every now and again, but I certainly can't do it every day.[/QUOTE] Not talking going out for a run, it can just be as simple as cleaning every day, walking to places instead of driving, pretty much just do anything that involves a decent amount of movement. Even just speed walking in your daily life should help.

[QUOTE=DELL;48262085]Not talking going out for a run, it can just be as simple as cleaning every day, walking to places instead of driving, pretty much just do anything that involves a decent amount of movement. Even just speed walking in your daily life should help.[/QUOTE] I'll try my best to get more active in day to day life, but I'm not sure what more I could do. Whenever I'm at home, I usually get up and wander around and go outside for some time with my dog so I'm not sedentary all day. And when I'm at work, I'll occasionally get up and wander for a few minutes before returning to my computer. Can't walk anywhere as transport since I live in a giant city. Also apparently, what I have is called "sleep-maintenance insomnia". Go figure.

I suppose while I am posting about things I dislike about myself, yesterday I waited for 45 minutes in a corridor outside a major department in a hospital because I was too scared to introduce myself to the staff members there and tell them I was meant to be there for the week. It was only when someone asked me if I was ok that I managed to tell them I was meant to be there for the week. I basically stood perfectly still without wasting time on my phone, trying to get myself to go through a doorway. It's pathetic. Then today I bunk for the first time ever because of a combination of massive delays due to a person hit by a train, and me not being willing to sit at a station for 2 hours, having already spent two hours to get halfway to the hospital. (normally just over a 1 hour journey total, I had had to take 3 alternate trains and then gave up at the last leg as the train to my destination was cancelled and wouldn't come until 2.5 hours later, which would have brought me from a 1 hour trip to a 4.5 hour trip and also made me so late that continuing would have been pointless) They will all hate me at this placement site probably. I mean I was too scared to introduce myself monday, and all they get is an email from me apologising as to why I can't come in today. I've only got thursday and friday there then it's done and I am back to my usual place I feel safe at, but I feel terrible about it. They were nice people on monday. Ehh I dunno. I have 0 progress on my dissertation too, leaving me at a grand total of like 100 words and 1 reference, despite being several weeks in and promising my counsellor I would try to have 10 references by the time I meet him tomorrow. It is like I want to prove that I am a failure so I can have an excuse to finally kill myself?

I guess a speedy treatment for mental health issues in my area is non existent. Today wasnt a therapy session. It was the second consultation........ And now we wait 3 weeks to even see a doctor.....

My mother said that melatonin helps her sleep throughout the night because she also suffers from maintenance insomnia, but hers is likely because of her mild PTSD. But I figure it can't hurt to try it.

[QUOTE=Pascall;48262509]My mother said that melatonin helps her sleep throughout the night because she also suffers from maintenance insomnia, but hers is likely because of her mild PTSD. But I figure it can't hurt to try it.[/QUOTE] It can be mostly used to reset sleep cycles or tell your brain its time to go the fuck to sleep. It can't hurt anything, so give it a shot.

Hey guys, I'm just stopping in to say that if you ever need to talk, I'll try to help out. I'm typically busy as fuck, but I really don't mind when I'm free. I have depression, pretty severe anxiety, and insomnia, so Im not gonna be talking out of my ass. I know how it can be. Having gone from suicidal wreck to someone who generally enjoys life has given me a view I think many people need know is possible. Just hit me up on steam or send me a PM.

Many people I know us melatonin. Give it a shot!

I'm 17 and i still have to do 3 years of high school Fuck

[QUOTE=Pascall;48262509]My mother said that melatonin helps her sleep throughout the night because she also suffers from maintenance insomnia, but hers is likely because of her mild PTSD. But I figure it can't hurt to try it.[/QUOTE] Melatonin is like the safest thing you can take, and for a lot of people it works wonders. I used to take it for a while, but it didn't help me much, but I think that's cause of my issues besides my sleeping problems.

Tomorrow I'm going to see a psychologist for a consult and I'm wondering how I should prepare? Also is there anything I shouldn't mention?

How does one cope with intimidation? I have bad anxiety and really bad social anxiety, whenever I have to go somewhere by myself, I get very intimidated, I have this illusion that everyone is perfect and flawless, completely confident and smooth and they have so much conviction, while I don't. So I get nervous and I can't look people in the eyes, if I do it's only for a quick second, at worse I don't even look in their general direction. The thing is the second I See someone be nervous or shy (something I see as a flaw because I have it) my illusion breaks and I realize everyone isn't perfect and I gain confidence back, which is why when I go somewhere with friends I'm fine. I just feel intimidated by a lot of things, even a negative comment irks me all day, not even a serious one and it can be by a total stranger I'll never see again but it will still bother me.

[QUOTE=DELL;48265403]Tomorrow I'm going to see a psychologist for a consult and I'm wondering how I should prepare? Also is there anything I shouldn't mention?[/QUOTE] No, you should mention everything. My psychologist started out by attempting to get to know me and asked leading questions to figure out what he needed to know. His goal apparently for the first few sessions was to help my organize.my.mind and figure out what we wanted to attack first. Its helped a lot and even today after the second session (more organization and background) I felt really serene and loads better. And my mind was organized, which for someone with ADHD is impressive and new :D [editline]22nd July 2015[/editline] Probably why I felt serene since I didn't have fifteen chains of thought I was trying to juggle. If you want to prepare maybe write down what stressing you the most and bring it up ifnhe asks what's getting to you. In my case, the getting to know my psych process along with his questions made me feel right at home and led to what I needed to say. If anyone's in the Seattle area and wants a great psychotherapist pm me and I'll give you his name

Anybody else have severe problems with bruxism? My dentist told me I've lost about a third of my crowns on all my teeth thanks to that. When I'm awake I'm usually clenching my teeth as well so that's not helping too much. They told me I should relax more but it's pretty much the best coping method I've got for my social anxieties. The teeth grinding usually gets at its worst when I'm sleeping next to somebody, even somebody I'm comfortable with like my girlfriend too.

it drives me nuts that I'm unable to properly read my own feelings. right now I'm feeling pretty distressed but I haven't got the slightest clue why. my thoughts are going in 10 different directions at once, it's impossible for me to single them out. at the same time it feels really empty which I assume is because I can't really lock onto the thoughts. I feel a fairly strong need to vent but I have no idea what's bothering me. [editline]22nd July 2015[/editline] I miss being able to write my feelings out in this thread. I still do to an extent, but it's nothing like it used to be. like right now I can't figure out what's bothering me when I usually was able to before. by writing I was able to figure out what was bothering me, I could come with some ideas of what I could do to fix it, etc. now I can't properly read my own thoughts anymore, let alone my feelings. feels like someone stole 90% of my brain and put a cap on my thought "river".

I feel the same way, I know I've posted some grim shit in here but I'm not really feeling any of it right now. I just feel kind of empty but not full blown suicidal atm. My biggest problem at the moment is how lonely I feel in my life. I've kinda lost touch with my two best childhood bros that I used to play video games and hang out with all the time when we were kids, one because he moved to another school during middle school and became a pretty different person (we are now in the same high school but we mostly just say hi when we pass each other in the corridor), and the second because I was a huge ass to him and everyone else during middle school in a way that is too lengthy and embarassing to say here. We still consider each other friends, but I feel like our recent history has strained our relationship and I don't think he really wants to have anything to do with me anymore. I know I deserve it, doesn't make it feel less shit though. I'm nearly 18, but I've only ever had one relationship and it didn't even last a year. I'll never know what it feels like to have a high school sweetheart, or to have someone spontaneously message me or contact me in any way without any particular reason other than to just talk to me. Literally everyone around me has a fantastic life, a huge social circle and lots of charm, and then there's me. Going to school in my social environment makes me feel like I've failed as a person. I do have some friends that I've made over the past two years, but because I live so far away from everyone, I can't just "hang out" with them - I have to plan it all and check if it works with the shitty public transportation system we have around here, I can't spend an hour on a bus just to hang out with someone. It has to be something substantial like seeing a movie or something. Part of this problem is that I always feel like I'm bothering anyone that I talk to, so the only times I ever meet people is when it's arranged by others. I don't really have any bros that I can just spontanteously ask to hang out with after school, which is one of the things I feel that I'm really missing. Not having all of these things makes me feel like I don't live up to the expectations people would have of a person in my situation. It's almost like my life is objectively bad. TL;DR I feel lonely in my life, I've almost lost contact with two childhood friends because I'm a massive fuckwit, I miss having a girlfriend and I feel like it's too late to get one, being surrounded by my successful peers makes me feel like a lesser human being, and I have no real close friends to communicate with after school.

So the girl I liked just wants to be friends. Okay... sure. I'm sure we'll be good fri- And now she's ignoring me... great. That's a summer talking to a depressed girl who feels alone wasted. Now we're going to be in the same city feeling completely alone and isolated, with so much in common it hurts. I hate my life. [editline]23rd July 2015[/editline] Because behind the veil of a thin smile I put on everyday is an alone, depressed, scared individual who would give anything to just have someone to be there for. And it hurts. The fact that I sit on Facebook all day hoping someone will talk to ME for once, instead of having to send out the "hey"s and "how are you"s every time. Though at this point, it'll take more than a message every once in a while to convince me I still have friends.

[QUOTE=loco;48267441]Anybody else have severe problems with bruxism? My dentist told me I've lost about a third of my crowns on all my teeth thanks to that. When I'm awake I'm usually clenching my teeth as well so that's not helping too much. They told me I should relax more but it's pretty much the best coping method I've got for my social anxieties. The teeth grinding usually gets at its worst when I'm sleeping next to somebody, even somebody I'm comfortable with like my girlfriend too.[/QUOTE] I do it when I'm stressed. Which is a lot. I usually give myself headaches because of it. Its better to find a different coping mechanism. I would say try keeping gum on you and if you're feeling anxious chew some. It might help

The temptation running through my head to tell a family friend about what she has said she's going through is going to take hold soon. Because that way, she'll get proper help instead of depressing me and not acting on any advice I give. I can't take the fact she's ignoring me. I just can't. She TRUSTED me with all of this, I want to help even now. I think I should just forget she exists, because that would be easier than dealing with the fact that she does.

I would recommend that at least for now. It seems to me she doesn't want to deal with her situation but rather br distracted by it. If what you're saying is right and she isn't taking your advice. I would try not to over think anything about it

I've been overthinking it for months. I'm stopping, now.

[QUOTE=ChicagoMobster;48271486]I do it when I'm stressed. Which is a lot. I usually give myself headaches because of it. Its better to find a different coping mechanism. I would say try keeping gum on you and if you're feeling anxious chew some. It might help[/QUOTE] Yeah, I used to get bad headaches with it as well but it just kinda stopped after awhile. I might try the chewing gum though thanks!

loneliness gnaws at my very core and i dont want to hurt anymore