Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V3 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=Metherat;42718361]The only person I really cared about in my life has disappeared. I have no idea when or IF they're coming back. I feel like that moment when you've been shot, but the pain hasn't hit yet- still in denial. How do I deal with the crash and spiral into depression when it comes? I might have just lost the one person who brought me back up every time I was down, the one person who taught me to be confident in myself and that I wasn't a failure, that my life is a heap of possibility, and that I can do what I want... I just lost the person who taught me how to be happy. Somebody. Help... [/QUOTE] I know this might sound dumb, but try to occupy yourself. I used exercising and music as keyfactors to stop thinking I was useless. There is not so much you can do, after all, he could be gone any second, he have already done his job. You just gotta stay your ground and don't fall. It's not easy, but I'm sure you can do it.

[QUOTE=Raxas;42719559]I'd be down for that.[/QUOTE] Yeah but who else. We need like at least 10 people because it might be just 2 people talking to eachother.

I really need some help so i came here. Basically randomly I get really depressed and suicidal (for example this always happens when I hear someone talk about relationships or sex life). Also I literally have no self confidence and self esteem, I think I'm worthless, I have no hope for my future (I will probably end up as a trainwreck of a person), I cannot remember things that are actually important (which makes me angry at myself and depressed) and think that everyone hates me. And an hour ago I probably made some of my few friends hate me (or at least very pissed) because of my problem with memory making me feel depressed and acting like a whiny bitch. So please some just help me with this because I feel like a worthless, heartless asshole right now and I don't want to loose friends which I barely have any. This post will probably get ignored anyway so what am I hoping for...

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;42722593]Yeah but who else. We need like at least 10 people because it might be just 2 people talking to eachother.[/QUOTE] I'm game. Can't promise I'd be in there a whole lot, though.

[QUOTE=Darth_Kris;42722985]I really need some help so i came here. Basically randomly I get really depressed and suicidal (for example this always happens when I hear someone talk about relationships or sex life). Also I literally have no self confidence and self esteem, I think I'm worthless, I have no hope for my future (I will probably end up as a trainwreck of a person), I cannot remember things that are actually important (which makes me angry at myself and depressed) and think that everyone hates me. And an hour ago I probably made some of my few friends hate me (or at least very pissed) because of my problem with memory making me feel depressed and acting like a whiny bitch. So please some just help me with this because I feel like a worthless, heartless asshole right now and I don't want to loose friends which I barely have any. This post will probably get ignored anyway so what am I hoping for...[/QUOTE] You're not worthless, you're amazing! You're Darth_Kris! There's no one else like you. If you want to get more confidence and self-esteem, find a hobby. Preferably something physical. That's the best way to get confidence. Just focus on making yourself better, your body healthier, and your mind great, and you'll get confidence in no time. You're going to go far in life, I know it. You'll be happy and satisfied and you'll only have yourself to thank. So, go out and do things. Be Darth_Kris. Be AMAZING!

Would post this in the gay chat thread but they would probably rip me a new one, no pun intended. But is anyone here gay or bisexual who wishes they were not?

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;42722593]Yeah but who else. We need like at least 10 people because it might be just 2 people talking to eachother.[/QUOTE] *shrug* I'll try it I guess.

[QUOTE=Jookia;42726907]*shrug* I'll try it I guess.[/QUOTE] Same. I'm more of a skype person but I'll try popping in when I get a chance.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;42725492]Would post this in the gay chat thread but they would probably rip me a new one, no pun intended. But is anyone here gay or bisexual who wishes they were not?[/QUOTE] me

[QUOTE=Dacheet;42726932]Same. I'm more of a skype person but I'll try popping in when I get a chance.[/QUOTE] A skype group would be fine too. If we had Skype and stuff. It could also mean you'd need to whitelist people which might be nice. Private groups. If you can't do that in Steam.

Skype or Steam would work for me.

Someone responsible should make the steam group [editline]1st November 2013[/editline] I guess I'll make it then? [editline]1st November 2013[/editline] [url]http://steamcommunity.com/groups/FPDODC/[/url]

I'm in the chat. This surely will go well.

Still depressed, have been having counselling for around a month but it is just school counselling. Went for a mental health appointment a few weeks ago and haven't heard anything back. They haven't said if i need meds. Well, a positive is that I do not think about killing myself a lot anymore. ADHD referral appointment thing on the 14th, see how that goes.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;42725492]Would post this in the gay chat thread but they would probably rip me a new one, no pun intended. But is anyone here gay or bisexual who wishes they were not?[/QUOTE] I wish I was gay or a straight lady. I wouldn't have been in this thread then. Not like I don't like the thread but my life wouldn't be a complete shitpile.

i'm lonley. (besides from internet stuff)

so after taking the last flakes of chips from my bag of chips a thought suddenly struck me "my ex usually did this when she came home to me when I was sick. she would grab whatever chips I had and devour it all" I miss her. sudden realization struck me, yet again, that I'm all alone. no reason to live. sob

fucking shoot me already, I don't have the will to live anymore. I'm too much of a pussy to do it myself, and that alone says a lot about me, huh? I'm THAT pathetic, can't even end my own life. how am I supposed to be a happy person? one being sucked all the fucking happiness out of me and left me, and now I'm an empty shell. the one person who helped me climb out of my depression and out of my suicidal thoughts left me 6 months ago. I treated her like shit, why did I do that to her? she deserved so much better... not a fucking idiot like me... we should've never met, she should have left me in the hole she found me in and let me kill myself then. I have no one... I'm all alone... no one cares that I don't show up anywhere... I'm like trash to other people... the only person I truly care about to this day gives me the depression she doesnt want to see me... kill me, please... [editline]3rd November 2013[/editline] I'm so fucking pathetic, I feel that I have a slight hope that she reads this and feels pity for me and talks to me again... how fucking far fetched can I get? I'm worthless

[QUOTE=PredGD;42738961]fucking shoot me already, I don't have the will to live anymore. I'm too much of a pussy to do it myself, and that alone says a lot about me, huh? I'm THAT pathetic, can't even end my own life. how am I supposed to be a happy person? one being sucked all the fucking happiness out of me and left me, and now I'm an empty shell. the one person who helped me climb out of my depression and out of my suicidal thoughts left me 6 months ago. I treated her like shit, why did I do that to her? she deserved so much better... not a fucking idiot like me... we should've never met, she should have left me in the hole she found me in and let me kill myself then. I have no one... I'm all alone... no one cares that I don't show up anywhere... I'm like trash to other people... the only person I truly care about to this day gives me the depression she doesnt want to see me... kill me, please... [editline]3rd November 2013[/editline] I'm so fucking pathetic, I feel that I have a slight hope that she reads this and feels pity for me and talks to me again... how fucking far fetched can I get? I'm worthless[/QUOTE] I may not be very good at it, but if you want, you can talk to me. But, if you want to be friends with the girl again, I say go for it. Just talk to her. Apologize to her for whatever you might have done. Also, you're not pathetic, you're AWESOME! [editline] November 2 2013 [/editline] Just realized that the girl was your ex. Hmm, I don't know about that. Well, if you want to talk anyway, just add me on steam. Always happy to help. :)

[QUOTE=Emugod;42739011]I may not be very good at it, but if you want, you can talk to me. But, if you want to be friends with the girl again, I say go for it. Just talk to her. Apologize to her for whatever you might have done. Also, you're not pathetic, you're AWESOME![/QUOTE] thanks buddy I've tried to talk to her, asked if she wanted to meet up and talk a little. told her that our break up was horrible and I'd love to fix things and make things easier emotionally. she qquickly declined my offer, saying that it'd be awkward considering we used to be together. told her again that I wanted to resolve the awkwardness between us, but she was determined to not meet up. sighed and said that was sad to hear, and let her carry on with whatever she was doing. I'm not looking for a relationship damnit, I just wanted to talk about our break up, what she's been doing, and excuse myself for my immature behaviour during our relationship.

[QUOTE=PredGD;42739075]thanks buddy I've tried to talk to her, asked if she wanted to meet up and talk a little. told her that our break up was horrible and I'd love to fix things and make things easier emotionally. she qquickly declined my offer, saying that it'd be awkward considering we used to be together. told her again that I wanted to resolve the awkwardness between us, but she was determined to not meet up. sighed and said that was sad to hear, and let her carry on with whatever she was doing. I'm not looking for a relationship damnit, I just wanted to talk about our break up, what she's been doing, and excuse myself for my immature behaviour during our relationship.[/QUOTE] Curious, who exactly broke up with who?

[QUOTE=Emugod;42739125]Curious, who exactly broke up with who?[/QUOTE] she broke up with me, sob

[QUOTE=PredGD;42739141]she broke up with me, sob[/QUOTE] I'm not exactly sure what you should do. I've never been good with relationships and the like. I myself have only been in one relationship, and it was pretty terrible. Honestly, the best advice I can give is to go out and do stuff. That's the only thing that's ever helped me. I started being more active in my life. I worked out and found new hobbies and made new friends. I felt better about myself and I started to look better.

[QUOTE=Emugod;42739247]I'm not exactly sure what you should do. I've never been good with relationships and the like. I myself have only been in one relationship, and it was pretty terrible. Honestly, the best advice I can give is to go out and do stuff. That's the only thing that's ever helped me. I started being more active in my life. I worked out and found new hobbies and made new friends. I felt better about myself and I started to look better.[/QUOTE] yeah, I need to get out more. problem is that my anxiety screams not to. I don't want to see people, I want to be alone.

[QUOTE=PredGD;42739285]yeah, I need to get out more. problem is that my anxiety screams not to. I don't want to see people, I want to be alone.[/QUOTE] Don't worry about the social aspect now. That will come later. First, do something that makes you happy and keep doing it.

thanks man for all the comforting words. I'll have a look about doing something with my day tomorrow. can't really think straight right now, having a manic episode. so mad, suddenly crying my tears out, suddenly so happy that I'm singing and repeat. Fucking bullshit that I'm having this now, 4 am in the fucking morning

[QUOTE=Torjuz;42732853]I wish I was gay or a straight lady. I wouldn't have been in this thread then. Not like I don't like the thread but my life wouldn't be a complete shitpile.[/QUOTE] Trust me, you would never want to be gay. [editline]2nd November 2013[/editline] One of the reasons why I'm depressed is because I'm gay. I don't want to go into too much detail, or cause a shitstorm from it so I'm just going to leave it at that.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;42740787]Trust me, you would never want to be gay. [editline]2nd November 2013[/editline] One of the reasons why I'm depressed is because I'm gay. I don't want to go into too much detail, or cause a shitstorm from it so I'm just going to leave it at that.[/QUOTE] The reason why I am depressed is because I'm a straight man. I enjoy hanging around with girls but they are usually having "girls-nights" and so on, you know the deal. I ended up "falling in love" with one girl because I wanted to spend more time because she is really great. And then shit hit the fan, lost it because I was really vulnerable and fell completely apart. Now she won't talk about her feelings and generally things that matter to her after what happened, I became anxious as hell, I can't shine with myself and now after that incident I actually fell in love with her, and I know it will probably not work after what I did. I should be happy that she didn't throw me away and still treats me as someone more then just a regular person. I miss the time when I was actually meaning something to her and them, I don't enjoy being with boys that much either. They are so simple most times. "Hot chicks, good musicians, cars and sports." Nothing more then that means something, they had a huge fight about who was the better drummer with Buddy Rich and Steve Gadd, because both can't be good. They are so simple it's usually frightening me. At this point I wished I was a girl, even though they say there are a lot of drama, but at least they don't sit at home, feeling like everything they did ruined for everyone and being useless, not achieving anything and basically living a dead mans life.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;42740787]One of the reasons why I'm depressed is because I'm gay. I don't want to go into too much detail, or cause a shitstorm from it so I'm just going to leave it at that.[/QUOTE] Whaaat I didn't know this. I had some suspicions when I saw some of your first posts on this site, but... Yeah I won't talk about that if you say so. Hi I just kind of came into this thread on a whim.

[QUOTE=Loofiloo;42741529]Whaaat I didn't know this. I had some suspicions when I saw some of your first posts on this site, but... Yeah I won't talk about that if you say so. Hi I just kind of came into this thread on a whim.[/QUOTE] Wait did I really display homosexual tendencies that much lmao