Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V3 - Discussion, help an - General

My mates from [url=https://www.tafensw.edu.au/about/overview.htm#.U0KGHXnNtR0]tafe[/url] are fighting amongst each other. Two of them are in a de'facto relationship which is slowly falling apart, the other is a mild pervert always trying to ask awkward questions and the other one, he's just the 5th wheel of a fucked up wagon. I'm hearing both sides of the de'facto relationship. The guy likes to make sexual jokes like any other bloke. The pervert encourages it and asks weird questions. My girlfriend talks to the girl to get her side of the story. She's not happy with all the sexual innuendos and the perverted questions but won't say anything about it. Tomorrow during lunch break I've told the group that we're going to sit down and I'm going to mediate the situation and come to an ultimatum. It feels good to have drama in my life again. Am I doing this right or did I miss something?

I have social anxiety. How do you manage to keep eye contact with someone for an extended period? I mean, I can do it but I feel like I'm staring too intently/creepy or something and feel like I need to look away.

jesus christ, I feel attacked way too fast. submitted a question to serverfault.com an hour ago and it was just marked as off-topic. I'm pretty new to the site, so I guess mistakes are made on my side. read some up on it and it's understandable why, but god I feel so attacked for no real reason. it's a simple rookie mistake, yet I feel attacked. feel really uncomfortable, ughhh

My grandmother, who has been dealing with dementia in a Memory Care Unit (nursing home for people with lacking mental faculties) is unwilling to eat her food, drink water, open her eyes, or do anything to help ensure her survival. My parents called last night letting me know they signed a waiver putting her into HOSPUS care and that if she became ill, she would be denied curative treatment. Instead they'll ease her pain until she naturally passes away. Basically, I don't get to see grandma anymore before she dies. I live 500 miles away at college, and my parents and brother cannot visit her for long before breaking down into tears, so they're saying I shouldn't visit. I do get to call her though tonight, but we'll see how that goes. Also, as a result, I've become upset, sad, and moody, which means I'm somewhat snippy around other people. An understandable reaction, I feel, but my girlfriend gets quite sad and upset whenever I'm snippy at her, and now she's trying to cheer me up in some way or complain that I'm being snippy at her and should stop. This, on top of my grandmother and a lack of funds, is really killing my mental fortitude and I'm constantly feeling like I'm about to choke on something, even when there is nothing in my throat. I really don't know what to do now.

I feel like I have to repeat words, phrases and sentences in my head and I can't control it. Does anyone else experience it? My medication has eliminated the physical side of my OCD compulsions but now my OCD has started to plague my thoughts.

[QUOTE=Leader of Me;44487254]I feel like I have to repeat words, phrases and sentences in my head and I can't control it. Does anyone else experience it? My medication has eliminated the physical side of my OCD compulsions but now my OCD has started to plague my thoughts.[/QUOTE] I have OCD too and yeah that's a huge part of it. Thought Intrusion is one of the most annoying things I have and I've found it near-impossible to really stop it.

After doing some self-research, my suspcions are true: I've got social isolation issues. :C I just gotta figure out how to tell my parents in a way they'll take my seriously for once instead of just shrug me off. They never listen to the quiet kid in the back.

Grow a pair [highlight](User was banned for this post ("Unhelpful" - Craptasket))[/highlight]

[QUOTE=Royalpain;44498748]Grow a pair[/QUOTE] You cured my depression gg

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Yeah I had another "vent" today. I said I thought a game was outdated and everyone went in uproar. Some people said some stupid insults to me, I then talked to a few people who were having problems with me. I then got frustrated and told them how I felt about all this. Then on steam I talked to 2 people who were part of it. First person I talked to was someone who was trying to convince me that I deserve to be called Autistic, while calling me a 10 year old when I didn't take what he said seriously (he doesn't understand why I'm not taking him seriously) Second person I talked to was a moderator of a steam group who banned me for a month from the group chat "for the better". We were initially talking about a guy who has been flaming me in the chat since who knows when, the moderator decided after about 6 verbal warnings given to the guy, a series of kicks, a week long ban, and various ban threats all given to that guy; that it was my fault that I'm being called autistic so I get a month ban.

[QUOTE=elevate;44501904]You do get called out and when you respond, people lash out at you for attempting to create drama, even though the other one started it. While I understand why they do it, it's not right (I'm guilty of this crap myself), but at the same time, you need to work out your own tendency to provoke people. Leaving for a while would definitely be beneficial. You could actually work on bettering yourself while people begin to forget about the old you, and you can come back a changed man! You can be all like "Hi, I'm Roflburger and I used to weigh 400 pounds, but through hard work and dedication, I managed to slim down and now I'm beautiful!" Then you'll hold up your old pair of baggy pants, stretch them out to show how big you used to be, then everyone will applaud! How long do you think you'll be able to keep it up though?[/QUOTE]

Yeah I read that. I'm complete aware that I seem to offend people so easily. I'm trying not to do it but it's difficult to improve when people are on your back like that.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44502412]Yeah I read that. I'm complete aware that I seem to offend people so easily. I'm trying not to do it but it's difficult to improve when people are on your back like that.[/QUOTE] People aren't on your back, it's just you've never changed. I'd recommend taking a break from forcing yourself and opinions on people online for a while and soon you'll see how little it matters and it let things you disagree with slide instead of creating a shitstorm. Even if you think the kind of situation you've got yourself caught in is something you "win" then still take a break because running away is often the only thing you can do in these situations (believe me I've been in them). After a day without talking to people online you'll realise "wow, I literally don't care any more".

[QUOTE=Roll_Program;44502489]People aren't on your back, it's just you've never changed. I'd recommend taking a break from forcing yourself and opinions on people online for a while and soon you'll see how little it matters and it let things you disagree with slide instead of creating a shitstorm. Even if you think the kind of situation you've got yourself caught in is something you "win" then still take a break because running away is often the only thing you can do in these situations (believe me I've been in them). After a day without talking to people online you'll realise "wow, I literally don't care any more".[/QUOTE] I don't understand how I'm forcing my opinions

[QUOTE=Roll_Program;44502489] I'd recommend taking a break from forcing yourself and opinions on people online[/QUOTE] Err...he was just stating his opinion and people jumped into his asshole over it. It's not really fair to do that to someone all the damn time. I think [I]you[/I] could take a step back too.

[QUOTE=Roll_Program;44502489]People aren't on your back, it's just you've never changed. I'd recommend taking a break from forcing yourself and opinions on people online for a while and soon you'll see how little it matters and it let things you disagree with slide instead of creating a shitstorm. Even if you think the kind of situation you've got yourself caught in is something you "win" then still take a break because running away is often the only thing you can do in these situations (believe me I've been in them). After a day without talking to people online you'll realise "wow, I literally don't care any more".[/QUOTE] Yeah I think I calmed down enough to answer this. To say "people aren't on your back" is probably the most misinformed thing I've ever heard. To say that And To say I'm forcing my opinions on others is a massive fucking over-exaggeration, and when you say "how little it matters" when people are going batshit insane over an opinion. I'm not going to run away from my problems like some people. I'm not a coward. I like to confront my problems. And I'm almost at the stage of "I don't care about what people think of me anymore" [t]http://i.imgur.com/dv2ObtF.png[/t] Figure 1: Average shit I have to deal with

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44504063]And To say I'm forcing my opinions on others is a massive fucking over-exaggeration, and when you say "how little it matters" when people are going batshit insane over an opinion. I'm not going to run away from my problems like some people. I'm not a coward. I like to confront my problems.[/QUOTE] it sounds more like [I]their [/I]problem instead of yours - and there's not a lot you can do to change an entire audience's attitude over the internet... "running away" may not sound like a pleasant option to you, but the other option: constant confrontation with a group who goes "batshit insane over an opinion"? That's probably not what you want either, especially given your reaction to their response. Yes, it's not your fault that people can't take your opinion on things without throwing a fit, but it's also not something you can fix.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44502379]Yeah I had another "vent" today. I said I thought a game was outdated and everyone went in uproar. Some people said some stupid insults to me, I then talked to a few people who were having problems with me. I then got frustrated and told them how I felt about all this. Then on steam I talked to 2 people who were part of it. First person I talked to was someone who was trying to convince me that I deserve to be called Autistic, while calling me a 10 year old when I didn't take what he said seriously (he doesn't understand why I'm not taking him seriously) Second person I talked to was a moderator of a steam group who banned me for a month from the group chat "for the better". We were initially talking about a guy who has been flaming me in the chat since who knows when, the moderator decided after about 6 verbal warnings given to the guy, a series of kicks, a week long ban, and various ban threats all given to that guy; that it was my fault that I'm being called autistic so I get a month ban.[/QUOTE] decided to take a look at the posts you made regarding it, and to be honest they're not [i]that[/i] bad as it seems to be portrayed, but perhaps a unneeded thing to say? tossing on "in my opinion" or something similar would have probably changed the way that situation went. it feels a little forced onto others since it's stated like a fact (may be looking a little deep into it). [URL="http://facepunch.com/showthread.php?t=1326877&p=44500016&viewfull=1#post44500016"]this post[/URL], I think you handled it well. I really don't know your history, nor do I read the gay cheat thread so I'm not really able to see the full picture. judging from those posts though, they seem to be on your back from earlier events.

Sort of had a weird moment the other day which involved me throwing all my lithium tablets into the river and packing up shop and crashing with my (not blood related) uncle in london. I needed to just get away, from being that person on the meds cause he cant control his emotions because of being bipolar, just needed to be around someone like my uncle who really has no care in the world and lives happily as a single dad, his daughters awesome, we've been playing round after round of sf4 the past few days. Feels nice to get out of a town like this and into somewhere else where you're just a nobody and noone needs to know shit about you/

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44504063]Yeah I think I calmed down enough to answer this. To say "people aren't on your back" is probably the most misinformed thing I've ever heard. To say that And To say I'm forcing my opinions on others is a massive fucking over-exaggeration, and when you say "how little it matters" when people are going batshit insane over an opinion. I'm not going to run away from my problems like some people. I'm not a coward. I like to confront my problems. And I'm almost at the stage of "I don't care about what people think of me anymore" [t]http://i.imgur.com/dv2ObtF.png[/t] Figure 1: Average shit I have to deal with[/QUOTE] People aren't on your back, you're just not aware of what you're doing, it happens, you're not always conscious of how you're acting and how you're appearing to others, from these pictures, I do actually feel like you've been a bit forceful rather than simply "stating your opinion", you're also being fairly aggressive in this post for no apparent reason which says a little something about your attitude. Here's my invitation to you, take a step back or maybe several steps back, ignore these people for a bit and take a good look at yourself and how you appear to others with your attitude and the way you talk. As I said before, the world is a bit of a mirror to yourself, what is reflected back to you is who you are. If everyone's on your back, it's not because the very fabric of reality is conspiring to have everyone's souls on your back, it's simply because you're doing something to have all these people on your back. If you didn't do that as-of-yet-unknown something, nobody would be on your back. I wouldn't say if it was an isolated case, if it was, it's probably just the random asshole, however since it seems to be widespread, the balls in your court. Seriously, take a step back, look at yourself, find what you're doing wrong and change that.

[QUOTE=Heigou;44507270]People aren't on your back, you're just not aware of what you're doing, it happens, you're not always conscious of how you're acting and how you're appearing to others, from these pictures, I do actually feel like you've been a bit forceful rather than simply "stating your opinion", you're also being fairly aggressive in this post for no apparent reason which says a little something about your attitude. Here's my invitation to you, take a step back or maybe several steps back, ignore these people for a bit and take a good look at yourself and how you appear to others with your attitude and the way you talk. As I said before, the world is a bit of a mirror to yourself, what is reflected back to you is who you are. If everyone's on your back, it's not because the very fabric of reality is conspiring to have everyone's souls on your back, it's simply because you're doing something to have all these people on your back. If you didn't do that as-of-yet-unknown something, nobody would be on your back. I wouldn't say if it was an isolated case, if it was, it's probably just the random asshole, however since it seems to be widespread, the balls in your court. Seriously, take a step back, look at yourself, find what you're doing wrong and change that.[/QUOTE] I sounded aggressive in that post because he's been acting like a dick to me. I acted like a cunt in that steam chat because he was being a moron Idk what to say. All I can think of is people are upset over non-personal opinions.

You're not helping your case by being aggressive and acting like a cunt. As I said, take several steps back and take one big look at yourself first, you're the common denominator here.

All i see is people fed up of trying to be friendly and helping and are now giving you the honest truth and you're acting agressively like everyones against you. Before you say i'm tryna be a dick, i went through exactly the same stage before i realised the problem.

[QUOTE=Heigou;44507766]You're not helping your case by being aggressive and acting like a cunt. As I said, take several steps back and take one big look at yourself first, you're the common denominator here.[/QUOTE] If they're going out of their way to act like an idiot then then it's pretty much pointless to try and convince said idiot otherwise. No one deserves my respect if they claim they're trying to help when they haven't even helped in the slightest. [QUOTE=MxOAgentJohnson;44508251]All i see is people fed up of trying to be friendly and helping and are now giving you the honest truth and you're acting agressively like everyones against you. Before you say i'm tryna be a dick, i went through exactly the same stage before i realised the problem.[/QUOTE] Where have people even been friendly to me, I must be blind. [editline]10th April 2014[/editline] Yeah "all you see" You clearly haven't seen everything it seems

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[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44508576]If they're going out of their way to act like an idiot then then it's pretty much pointless to try and convince said idiot otherwise. No one deserves my respect if they claim they're trying to help when they haven't even helped in the slightest. Where have people even been friendly to me, I must be blind. [editline]10th April 2014[/editline] Yeah "all you see" You clearly haven't seen everything it seems[/QUOTE] There's a line between not respecting someone and just being a total cunt. It's alright to not respect someone as long as you stay the better man in all this, but you're just stooping down to their height and being as much of a cunt that deserves no respect as they do. I don't know man, I understand you have problems but the first step is to acknowledge them, as I said, balls in your court big guy, if you're not going to acknowledge that and change things about yourself first, you're shit out of luck and there's nothing me or anyone else can do. Help yourself first and then people will be able to help you. It's impossible to help someone that won't help himself.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44508576]If they're going out of their way to act like an idiot then then it's pretty much pointless to try and convince said idiot otherwise. No one deserves my respect if they claim they're trying to help when they haven't even helped in the slightest. Where have people even been friendly to me, I must be blind. [editline]10th April 2014[/editline] Yeah "all you see" You clearly haven't seen everything it seems[/QUOTE] This a thread to come for advice and act civilized, all i've ever seen from you on this forum is you replying viciously to everyone, even people that do try to help. You expect people to give a fuck yet you reply like this?

[QUOTE=MxOAgentJohnson;44509061]This a thread to come for advice and act civilized, all i've ever seen from you on this forum is you replying viciously to everyone, even people that do try to help. You expect people to give a fuck yet you reply like this?[/QUOTE] I'm just pretty flustered that you're assuming that you've seen everything when it shows that you haven't. To make a claim like that based on what you've only seen is ridiculous. Do you think I just act like a cunt just because?

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;44509300]I'm just pretty flustered that you're assuming that you've seen everything when it shows that you haven't. To make a claim like that based on what you've only seen is ridiculous. Do you think I just act like a cunt just because?[/QUOTE] To be honest, right now yes.