Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V3 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=PredGD;39974782]I've always told myself to let things go and just try to forget the past, but it just doesn't work out. Sometmes, I manage to keep that attitude and somehow become a little happier, but I often go back to thinking about the past. It's really difficult for me, as I've grown up in a hostile environment with being overweight, being backstabbed and bullied. As you mention it, I come to think of it. The thing I dislike the most about my girlfriend being with friends is the fact I am afraid she enjoys their company more than mine. I look at myself as a person who wishes control over his girlfriend. Which upsets me, because I don't want to be like that. My girlfriend is fully aware of my past and my disorder(s), and luckily she is supportive and understands why I act like I do. I've never gone to an expert or a hospital, but an expert has been considered. And yes, I'm terrified of losing my girlfriend. To me, it feels like she is the only person in the world who I have been able to trust (this really varies. If she doesn't do things I dislike, I end up trusting her for a while without barraging her with questions. But as soon as something I really dislike happens, all of my trust vanishs, and it becomes terribly hard to build that up again) the only person who have ever cared about me. The only person I feel I could talk to is my mother. She has gone through bullying, drug abuse and anorexia, which probably helps her to understand my situation.[/QUOTE] I'd advise you to go talk to your mother and see if she can ease this anxiety before you go see a mental health expert. You seem to have anxiety that interferes greatly with your life, with a history that seems to invade your life constantly. Try talking to your mother first and see if she can bring you at ease. Then, if need be, seek a mental health expert. Make sure to mention the suicide attempts to both parties when you do.

So, during my first semester of college, I started dating this girl. She was great, had looks (I thought she was an 8/10 at the time, more like a 6/10 now because I'm bitter and not blinded by ~love~), very intelligent, and had the same kind of mindset and worldview that I do (although maybe in reflecting on everything, not as much as I thought). We left for break and everything was amazing, I was falling for her, she seemed to be falling for me and all that great jazz. Then we left on break, and started speaking less and less - she stopped responding to my texts greeting her, trying to open conversations and the likes. By the time we got back to school, we had stopped talking, aside from once when I invited her over but fell asleep - a moment that I will forever regret, but that night she apparently found out that her mother's cancer returned, so I think that's why I never heard from her. We've gotten coffee once this entire semester, and haven't seen each other outside of then. Right before my break two weeks ago, I worked up the courage to send her a message asking her out to coffee again, to which she responded that she'd like to when we returned from break. So, naturally, I asked her out to coffee when we got back, but got no response. Today I decided to try again, so I waited for her around campus trying to find her to no avail, so instead I sent her a message. Again, no response (I saw she had seen it). So, later, I sent her a message asking her what I did wrong and if she could at least have the decency to give me some closure. No response (I saw she had seen that as well). I just want to know what I did, if anything, but it doesn't look like she's even going to have the decency to give me that. I feel so miserable, despite all of the progress that I've made recently, because this situation is an exact mirroring of the situation with my father, who cut me off completely one day, seemingly out of the blue. I'm never one to get angry or upset, but she's actually managed to upset me. I just want to break down, all because she won't give me any closure. I thought there would at least be a discussion, but it doesn't look to be that way. I've returned to exactly where I was about a month ago before I sought therapy and started practicing Buddhism to calm my mind and work out my issues, and the shit thing is that it isn't a problem that I can resolve on my own, because it's completely dependent on her response to me. That's what's so frustrating, that I feel like I'm trapped and chained by someone I no longer associate with. My mind won't stop spinning, I can barely focus, and I have two papers due tomorrow that I don't even want to do because I feel completely ruined. I guess it's worth one last shot to try confronting her in real life, if I can find her, but she never goes to class as it is, so my chances of finding her are slim to none. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Any advice on how I should move forward? I just want to get over her and feel like myself again.

[QUOTE=Vaught;39974431]Maybe people actually don't get the text or do fall asleep[/QUOTE] it happens with so much frequency i'm thinking it actually never happens because these people are by their phones 24/7 and get all the shit they're sent. i know these people.

[QUOTE=SystemGS;39975087]So, during my first semester of college, I started dating this girl. She was great, had looks (I thought she was an 8/10 at the time, more like a 6/10 now because I'm bitter and not blinded by ~love~), very intelligent, and had the same kind of mindset and worldview that I do (although maybe in reflecting on everything, not as much as I thought). We left for break and everything was amazing, I was falling for her, she seemed to be falling for me and all that great jazz. Then we left on break, and started speaking less and less - she stopped responding to my texts greeting her, trying to open conversations and the likes. By the time we got back to school, we had stopped talking, aside from once when I invited her over but fell asleep - a moment that I will forever regret, but that night she apparently found out that her mother's cancer returned, so I think that's why I never heard from her. We've gotten coffee once this entire semester, and haven't seen each other outside of then. Right before my break two weeks ago, I worked up the courage to send her a message asking her out to coffee again, to which she responded that she'd like to when we returned from break. So, naturally, I asked her out to coffee when we got back, but got no response. Today I decided to try again, so I waited for her around campus trying to find her to no avail, so instead I sent her a message. Again, no response (I saw she had seen it). So, later, I sent her a message asking her what I did wrong and if she could at least have the decency to give me some closure. No response (I saw she had seen that as well). I just want to know what I did, if anything, but it doesn't look like she's even going to have the decency to give me that. I feel so miserable, despite all of the progress that I've made recently, because this situation is an exact mirroring of the situation with my father, who cut me off completely one day, seemingly out of the blue. I'm never one to get angry or upset, but she's actually managed to upset me. I just want to break down, all because she won't give me any closure. I thought there would at least be a discussion, but it doesn't look to be that way. I've returned to exactly where I was about a month ago before I sought therapy and started practicing Buddhism to calm my mind and work out my issues, and the shit thing is that it isn't a problem that I can resolve on my own, because it's completely dependent on her response to me. That's what's so frustrating, that I feel like I'm trapped and chained by someone I no longer associate with. My mind won't stop spinning, I can barely focus, and I have two papers due tomorrow that I don't even want to do because I feel completely ruined. I guess it's worth one last shot to try confronting her in real life, if I can find her, but she never goes to class as it is, so my chances of finding her are slim to none. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation? Any advice on how I should move forward? I just want to get over her and feel like myself again.[/QUOTE] Had that happen to me a few times really. One of the more crippling things was that, I spent a year of my life with someone in a relationship (longest, mind you) and they dropped me like a hot bucket, telling me it was a joke or whatever. I honestly couldn't get over them up until I was 21. I just had to shove them out of my head and stop thinking 'what if'. Its in the past, its nothing I can change. They were a cunt, they aren't worth the trouble. If they see your questions/texts and willingly ignore them, perhaps its better to just shrug and move on. Maybe it was all just a fling of sorts. Maybe something happened over break. Maybe she has a boyfriend/ex/whatever that she's falling for and is trying to shut away the other possible candidates, so on. It could be a lot of things. If confronting her straight up won't get an answer, then you may as well just shrug and move on. Thats the thing in life; you're going to meet a lot of people you might hit it off with. More often than not, you don't. If she isn't biting, then whatever, plenty of other folk to talk to. I can't tell you the amount of people I felt a connection with, only to be greeted with a 'oh, its you' or 'who are you?' or 'If I dont look at them they won't talk to me' kind of approach. I've been asked out for coffee only to find out the other party was just 'being nice'. Heh. I've gotten used to the bullshit, though that isn't really a good approach to this. Try to find a way to approach her. Don't go overboard and track her mailing address or what have you. And if you can't, so be it, ignore her. General rule of thumb, for me, is that if they don't respond after school week (5 days), then fuck 'em. [editline]20th March 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=NeoSeeker;39975333]it happens with so much frequency i'm thinking it actually never happens because these people are by their phones 24/7 and get all the shit they're sent. i know these people.[/QUOTE] If that's the case, perhaps the context of the messages make them uncomfortable. Can you confront these people face to face or is this strictly long-distance messaging?

I've never been direct with women about liking them because of my insecurities and for this I feel like I've missed out on so much. I know what I want, I just want to be with someone and make them happy, because that would make me happy. I'll admit that most of the women I've liked were beautiful but I only saw that as a plus, I just want to be with someone who I think I could be with for a long time. I don't really like the idea of plowing everything in a 5 foot radius of ones self, which is why I've never tried to "score". Is it really so bad that I want a relationship with a woman that I viewed as right for me? Or, should I have just done what everyone else around me did and stick it in the every nearest hole? Why do nice guys finish last?

[QUOTE=purvisdavid1;39976430]I've never been direct with women about liking them because of my insecurities and for this I feel like I've missed out on so much. I know what I want, I just want to be with someone and make them happy, because that would make me happy. I'll admit that most of the women I've liked were beautiful but I only saw that as a plus, I just want to be with someone who I think I could be with for a long time. I don't really like the idea of plowing everything in a 5 foot radius of ones self, which is why I've never tried to "score". Is it really so bad that I want a relationship with a woman that I viewed as right for me? Or, should I have just done what everyone else around me did and stick it in the every nearest hole? Why do nice guys finish last?[/QUOTE] if you dont take the time to "score" or even just meet random women you'll never find anyone that you consider "right" for you nice guys finish last because nice guys never explore, they expect to find someone special with the least of effort and time, and that's never gonna work

[QUOTE=thisispain;39976457]if you dont take the time to "score" or even just meet random women you'll never find anyone that you consider "right" for you nice guys finish last because nice guys never explore, they expect to find someone special with the least of effort and time, and that's never gonna work[/QUOTE] Sad to say, but this is 100% true. I'm a fairly shy guy at a college filled with ~alpha-males~, and even though I'm considered attractive, I don't approach many girls. I've seen the ugliest looking men pick up the most ridiculously attractive girls, and then I've seen them hit it off and end up dating. It's all a matter of having some self-confidence and actually approaching women. It's kind of strange initially, but once you get going, it becomes a lot easier. Being drunk at parties is a great way to meet people, actually.

[QUOTE=thisispain;39976457]if you dont take the time to "score" or even just meet random women you'll never find anyone that you consider "right" for you nice guys finish last because nice guys never explore, they expect to find someone special with the least of effort and time, and that's never gonna work[/QUOTE] I think the expectation that you need to "score" is why so many people are alone People see making friends with anyone they're attracted to instead of having sex with them to be a failure of socializing and that's total bull. people are throwing away great friendships all the time just because they expected sex but didn't get it go make friends and have a good time and stop worrying about sex, it'll just happen, and it'll be more fun than when you make a project out of it

And if sex never happens, you still have friends!

[QUOTE=thisispain;39976457]if you dont take the time to "score" or even just meet random women you'll never find anyone that you consider "right" for you[/QUOTE] Subjective but still true. Life didn't help me at all. My mom's death made it hard for me to function in Elementary school, to which that dysfunction carried over to Middle School and then High School. Then to reiterate, I am 5 foot 6 inches, 130 pounds, pale white as fuck, in school I had teeth problems so I was insecure about smiling, and because that and everything else, I felt like I couldn't approach any woman and make them like me enough. That and when every attempt to be with a woman in some way fails, it makes me want to just give up. [QUOTE=Zeke129;39977027]I think the expectation that you need to "score" is why so many people are alone People see making friends with anyone they're attracted to instead of having sex with them to be a failure of socializing and that's total bull. people are throwing away great friendships all the time just because they expected sex but didn't get it go make friends and have a good time and stop worrying about sex, it'll just happen, and it'll be more fun than when you make a project out of it[/QUOTE] I don't even want sex, I just want to be with someone I could love. Fuck my life.

My parents think it will make me feel better if they keep reminding me how the end of school is closing in and how I need to set up or I won't get into a proper school and then no job and then a shitty life. [editline]21st March 2013[/editline] I have a heavy weight in my chest which won't dissapear. I am having these thoughts of hurting and killing myself more frequently and games are losing their appeal, I have nothing to do to keep the thoughts away. Damn schools.

Got a response from that girl I mentioned in my previous post - she told me that her friends would get jealous if she talked to or hung out with anyone other than them, and so it would be in our best interest to stop speaking. I got a hearty chuckle out of it with my friends, because it was complete bullshit. I'm not even upset anymore - if anything, I feel as if a weight has been lifted from my chest. Of course, the unintentional comicality of her response only exacerbated that feeling. I got played pretty hard by her, and when she saw that I was getting emotionally invested, she pushed me away, albeit awkwardly. My only regret is not asking her for a straight-up answer sooner, because then I would've been able to move forward more quickly. Admittedly, I'm somewhat bitter about the fact that I put emotional effort into a hookup, but I'll get over it. In my own reflections, I've come to realize that she was very different from me, and definitely not someone who could actually be worth my time in a relationship. Blinded by young love once more, I suppose. Consequently, I've decided to make more positive changes in my life by taking action. I'm drawing up a workout regimen after I finish this film paper, and I'm putting it into effect tomorrow after I get out of class. I'm also becoming more serious about my spirituality, which I've placed in the realm of Buddhism. On a happier note as well, I've gotten a good amount of interviews/job offers for the summer, and it's looking like I'll be living on an island resort as a waiter for a pretty ritzy hotel/restaurant, which I'm SO psyched about. Finally, I'm continuing to see my therapist at school, and I'm making the best of it. I've also decided not to date for a while, not until I've figured out my own problems and I'm feeling 100% healthier. Who would've known that a breakup (if you can even call it that?) would do so much for my motivation?

Today was my first day taking Prozac. After only a minute from my dose, I started to feel hyper. The entire day I laughed more often, I felt empowered and in a good mood just walking to places, and for the first time in months, I never stopped to think about things that make me anxious and depressed. I was told that I might start feeling better the second week of medicating, and that I wouldn't experience anything beyond mild nausea the first week. I wouldn't doubt if I gave myself a placebo. I'm starting to feel power and control for myself and my feelings, but I don't think I've regained my motivation that I need to finish up high school and discipline myself. If I need to wait on anything to improve, I'd assume that would be it. If I can manage that, then I could see myself reaching the dreams that I had before depression. Or maybe I should just shut the fuck up because I'm only on day one.

"after only a minute from my dose, I started to feel hyper" Hate to break it to you, but prozac doesn't work like that. But look at it this way, you were happy/hyper/upbeat, which shows that where ever you are in life, that things can change, regardless if it is with medication or not. Keep taking your prozac, it takes a good few weeks for it to start to work. [editline]21st March 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=purvisdavid1;39980644]Subjective but still true. Life didn't help me at all. My mom's death made it hard for me to function in Elementary school, to which that dysfunction carried over to Middle School and then High School. Then to reiterate, I am 5 foot 6 inches, 130 pounds, pale white as fuck, in school I had teeth problems so I was insecure about smiling, and because that and everything else, I felt like I couldn't approach any woman and make them like me enough. That and when every attempt to be with a woman in some way fails, it makes me want to just give up. [/QUOTE] I was 115 lbs two months ago, im 5'7, pale as fuck as well, im currently 125 (thats 10 pounds in two months), so you can change your weight. Get a gym membership, add on an extra 500-1000 calories into your diet, increase your intake of protein. You'll also feel better overall, sleep, confidence etc. For the teeth? I had a similar problem, but I got braces, which i understand not everyone can afford/get at the current moment, but would you really want to go out with a girl whose main reason for dating you is because you have nice teeth?

[QUOTE=purvisdavid1;39980644]Subjective but still true. Life didn't help me at all. My mom's death made it hard for me to function in Elementary school, to which that dysfunction carried over to Middle School and then High School. Then to reiterate, I am 5 foot 6 inches, 130 pounds, pale white as fuck, in school I had teeth problems so I was insecure about smiling, and because that and everything else, I felt like I couldn't approach any woman and make them like me enough. That and when every attempt to be with a woman in some way fails, it makes me want to just give up.[/QUOTE] im sorry to hear about your mum's death, i know someone whos 21 and still struggles daily because of that traumatic experience but the first thing you have to do is just give yourself a fucking break dude. the idea isnt to make a woman like you, if you have to make someone like you its not worth it trust me. just be you, flaws and all, because only by being you and embracing those flaws can you even begin to understand and maybe even improve on them. i have failed so many times in life and im only in my early 20's, but because of that im aware of my flaws in every way, and sometimes i have to convince people that im not really crazy and weird its ok to have insecurities we all have them, but you have to embrace them and learn how to pretend they arent there. that might sound like a contradiction, but its not. understand and be okay with your insecurities and by doing that youll develop coping mechanisms over time which make up for those insecurities. my sense of humour only exists because its my way of dealing with my insecurities, as a result people think im funny and thats a positive personality trait that i got out of being incredibly anxious and full of insecurities. just watch Woody Allen and youll understand how that works.

[QUOTE=SystemGS;39984825]Got a response from that girl I mentioned in my previous post - she told me that her friends would get jealous if she talked to or hung out with anyone other than them, and so it would be in our best interest to stop speaking. I got a hearty chuckle out of it with my friends, because it was complete bullshit. I'm not even upset anymore - if anything, I feel as if a weight has been lifted from my chest. Of course, the unintentional comicality of her response only exacerbated that feeling. I got played pretty hard by her, and when she saw that I was getting emotionally invested, she pushed me away, albeit awkwardly. My only regret is not asking her for a straight-up answer sooner, because then I would've been able to move forward more quickly. Admittedly, I'm somewhat bitter about the fact that I put emotional effort into a hookup, but I'll get over it. In my own reflections, I've come to realize that she was very different from me, and definitely not someone who could actually be worth my time in a relationship. Blinded by young love once more, I suppose. Consequently, I've decided to make more positive changes in my life by taking action. I'm drawing up a workout regimen after I finish this film paper, and I'm putting it into effect tomorrow after I get out of class. I'm also becoming more serious about my spirituality, which I've placed in the realm of Buddhism. On a happier note as well, I've gotten a good amount of interviews/job offers for the summer, and it's looking like I'll be living on an island resort as a waiter for a pretty ritzy hotel/restaurant, which I'm SO psyched about. Finally, I'm continuing to see my therapist at school, and I'm making the best of it. I've also decided not to date for a while, not until I've figured out my own problems and I'm feeling 100% healthier. Who would've known that a breakup (if you can even call it that?) would do so much for my motivation?[/QUOTE] Looks like you got the bright end of the tunnel, but I'm glad things turned out for the better for yourself.

I feel like I'm destined to just sit inside and play games all day, which in turn reinforces my depression. That, and I've been inside recovering from my surgery, and everyone else is enjoying their spring break.

[QUOTE=cheetahben;39987419]I feel like I'm destined to just sit inside and play games all day, which in turn reinforces my depression. That, and I've been inside recovering from my surgery, and everyone else is enjoying their spring break.[/QUOTE] Just seems like a set of unfortunate circumstances. What was your surgery about? Are you recovering well? Have any friends that can come over to visit you and just bullshit around? Sometimes a change of pace can really alter one's outlook or mood. Trying something new or doing something small yet productive. You don't have to be good at it. Stuff like playing console games that are pretty casual or looking at/watching funny things. Sometimes reading a book can bring about that bit of change. I just finished Brave New World. I really didn't want it to end, but it was damn worth it. Is the depression constant or a rollercoaster of sorts (up and down and up and...)? Ever spoken to someone about it?

parents just got divorced [I]again[/I] fuck man, why do I care so much? i saw it coming from miles away, why didn't i step out of the way? can i get some pointers on how to avoid my suicidal tendencies?

[QUOTE=Neat!;39988407]parents just got divorced [I]again[/I] fuck man, why do I care so much? i saw it coming from miles away, why didn't i step out of the way? can i get some pointers on how to avoid my suicidal tendencies?[/QUOTE] Same boat here, dad cheated a year back and then tried to repair the damage he did over the years with my mom. One year later, we're in the same shithole with dad remaining untrustworthy, and mom still sad and angry. Suicidal as well. Would also like to know how to drive off those feelings.

Make me feel sad how times are just quickly passing... I feel like my whole life is wasted with stupid video games.. I wish the i can return my childhood. And anothers. I forget everything quickly i even forget my neighbor names.. I feel like empty.. I even fall love with cartoon character... I dont know what to do... I am really sorry for bad english guys...

just when i thought i was getting ahold of my anxiety problems, out of nowhere i get depressed and suicidal and shit i dont even know whats going on, im a rollercoaster of being absolutely fine one minute, the other feeling like absolute shit and wanting to die, the other going crazy and yelling for no reason and shit. im fucking weird.

I went with one of my friends to Labor Ready, a temporary labor contractor, so we could try to get jobs at a nearby solar field. He wasn't qualified to fill out an application because he didn't pass a 73 question survey, and somehow I was. I was able to get everything rolling, and all I got to do now is call around 5pm and I might be hired. I kinda feel bad for my friend though because honestly, he's way more qualified for a job like what I'm going for, and I would have liked to work around friends instead of random people.

[QUOTE=ScoutKing;39985011]"after only a minute from my dose, I started to feel hyper" Hate to break it to you, but prozac doesn't work like that. But look at it this way, you were happy/hyper/upbeat, which shows that where ever you are in life, that things can change, regardless if it is with medication or not. Keep taking your prozac, it takes a good few weeks for it to start to work.[/QUOTE] Right, that's why I think I gave myself a placebo. My reaction definitely wasn't as strong on my second dosage, if noticeable at all. I'll wait and see if there's a more authentic change with time.

[QUOTE=Neat!;39988407]parents just got divorced [I]again[/I] fuck man, why do I care so much? i saw it coming from miles away, why didn't i step out of the way? can i get some pointers on how to avoid my suicidal tendencies?[/QUOTE] [QUOTE=Villar-Perosa;39988754]Same boat here, dad cheated a year back and then tried to repair the damage he did over the years with my mom. One year later, we're in the same shithole with dad remaining untrustworthy, and mom still sad and angry. Suicidal as well. Would also like to know how to drive off those feelings.[/QUOTE] Sorry to hear about this. Splitting parents can be quite the negative experience for anyone. First step is to always separate yourself from the situation. Get away if you can. If you have close friends you can totally confide in, seek them out and try to talk to them about what you're experiencing. If they're super generous, ask if you can hang around their place for a bit until things die down. If not, try to find ways to distract yourself when you're away. Draw, hang out, long walks. Anything really. Make sure to keep tabs on the affected parent. If possible, see if you and the other can go places together. Might be a good time to bond. Make your parent feel loved, especially after they've been cheated on by someone else. [editline]22nd March 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=efecanefe;39989886]Make me feel sad how times are just quickly passing... I feel like my whole life is wasted with stupid video games.. I wish the i can return my childhood. And anothers. I forget everything quickly i even forget my neighbor names.. I feel like empty.. I even fall love with cartoon character... I dont know what to do... I am really sorry for bad english guys...[/QUOTE] Sounds like anxiety and lack of direction in life, or one of those 'down' moments on the rollercoaster of life. How often do you feel this way and at what time of the day? Are you alone or surrounded by peers? [editline]22nd March 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=purvisdavid1;39993296]I went with one of my friends to Labor Ready, a temporary labor contractor, so we could try to get jobs at a nearby solar field. He wasn't qualified to fill out an application because he didn't pass a 73 question survey, and somehow I was. I was able to get everything rolling, and all I got to do now is call around 5pm and I might be hired. I kinda feel bad for my friend though because honestly, he's way more qualified for a job like what I'm going for, and I would have liked to work around friends instead of random people.[/QUOTE] That's just shitty luck on his part. And that's the weird quality of jobs: Gotta work with random folk. Sometimes you'll make new acquaintances, sometimes you won't. Can he take the quiz again or is there a long wait period before he can do it again? And if he's feeling pretty down about it, try to cheer him up or just hang around and help him find a job too.

I need to stop falling in love with girls I could never have, it just makes it so much more devastating to find out that they can't stand you.

[QUOTE=Vaught;39997102]That's just shitty luck on his part. And that's the weird quality of jobs: Gotta work with random folk. Sometimes you'll make new acquaintances, sometimes you won't. Can he take the quiz again or is there a long wait period before he can do it again? And if he's feeling pretty down about it, try to cheer him up or just hang around and help him find a job too.[/QUOTE] He can't apply at this place again for a year. He doesn't seem upset but he does realize that that route is gone. What's the fucking kicker is that it was his idea to go down there and get a job to begin with he even paid gas, and I just wanted to work around a friend, now because of random dumb luck I get a job and he doesn't. [editline]22nd March 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=OficerHonkHonk;40003659]I need to stop falling in love with girls I could never have, it just makes it so much more devastating to find out that they can't stand you.[/QUOTE] Story of my life.

[QUOTE=OficerHonkHonk;40003659]I need to stop falling in love with girls I could never have, it just makes it so much more devastating to find out that they can't stand you.[/QUOTE] try being in a relationship with one then learning she was just cheating on her bf with you and blah blah it was complicated, ended badly got [I]really really[/I] drunk

[QUOTE=purvisdavid1;40006017]He can't apply at this place again for a year. He doesn't seem upset but he does realize that that route is gone. What's the fucking kicker is that it was his idea to go down there and get a job to begin with he even paid gas, and I just wanted to work around a friend, now because of random dumb luck I get a job and he doesn't. [/QUOTE] Yeah, just seems like one of those weird situations of life. Why not return the favor to him and go out job hunting with him when you have some time? It may not be the same as working with a friend, but it may put you at ease after this situation.

Does any body listen to Seether?