Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V3 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=Rexxasaurus;46038551]Sorry to quote this but I was just wondering if there's any advice for what I should do. I get told constantly to get over it which doesn't help much.[/QUOTE] Manning up isn't right, but you certainly stop comparing yourself to other artists. You're the best "yourself" and no one is as good as you when it comes to that. Just stop caring and evolve your own style.

I woke up in hospital after going apeshit, stuck to a billion different machines, i've just been let out. Apparently i went apeshit and took a bunch of everything and drowned myself in alcohol and was found like passed out, had to have a stomach pump, all this shit. Fuck this.

[QUOTE=MxOAgentJohnson;46040140]I woke up in hospital after going apeshit, stuck to a billion different machines, i've just been let out. Apparently i went apeshit and took a bunch of everything and drowned myself in alcohol and was found like passed out, had to have a stomach pump, all this shit. Fuck this.[/QUOTE] Get help dude

I'm done team.

[QUOTE=MxOAgentJohnson;46040140]I woke up in hospital after going apeshit, stuck to a billion different machines, i've just been let out. Apparently i went apeshit and took a bunch of everything and drowned myself in alcohol and was found like passed out, had to have a stomach pump, all this shit. Fuck this.[/QUOTE] [QUOTE=Thaard;46041410]Get help dude[/QUOTE] Why do you think this post is dumb? He's trying to help.

Well, I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow about depression. Hopefully it'll go well, I've been doing everything I can to sort out my issues lately. The worst part about it how unmotivated I feel when it comes to almost everything. And then when I get round to doing something and feeling better about myself as a result I end up relapsing hard and feel like I was worse off by doing it in the first place. It's a mess. I just can't wait to sort things out tomorrow.

[QUOTE=realtaylers;46025959]I am sorry if this is the wrong thread, but I don't know where else to ask! I've got depression and anxiety, although lately I've been having trouble with my appetite even when I'm not feeling anxious or depressed. I hate how thin I am, yet I can't bring myself to eat, and even thinking about food when I'm like that makes me feel like throwing up. I hate it, and it really messes with me since I constantly feel like I have no energy even when I'm not feeling depressed just because I haven't had anything to eat. My therapist thought it was to do with the anxiety and just recommended forcing myself to eat so I had some energy, but it's so hard to do when I constantly feel like throwing up.[/QUOTE] Its really hard to gain appetite and weight the important thing is just having something rather than nothing. Don't fret too much about having 3 proper meals just get to having food regularly at 'meal time'. Even if its a slice of bread or half a fucking grape when you wake up as long as its something and not skipping entirely.

been at the ward for about 4 hours now, and god daamn, I'm so exhausted. pretty much been no breathers up until now, but other than that, it's actually going okay. brought my desktop so at least I have something to escape to if stuff gets too rough. only downside is that the internet here is heavily restricted and blocks facepunch, and pretty much anything related to games, image boards and forums. I set up a VPN on my server though, so it shouldn't become too much of an issue. slightly upset as I think I'm the only one stuck in my room with the others downstairs. suppose that'll straighten itself out once I get more familiar with the place. not only that, but I forgot to bring my guitar so that sucks. in the end, here's hoping this will be a game changer!

[QUOTE=PredGD;46046898]been at the ward for about 4 hours now, and god daamn, I'm so exhausted. pretty much been no breathers up until now, but other than that, it's actually going okay. brought my desktop so at least I have something to escape to if stuff gets too rough. only downside is that the internet here is heavily restricted and blocks facepunch, and pretty much anything related to games, image boards and forums. I set up a VPN on my server though, so it shouldn't become too much of an issue. slightly upset as I think I'm the only one stuck in my room with the others downstairs. suppose that'll straighten itself out once I get more familiar with the place. not only that, but I forgot to bring my guitar so that sucks. in the end, here's hoping this will be a game changer![/QUOTE] That's good, but don't lock yourself to the computer. You need to face your fears and not escape from them via the computer screen. That's exactly what I did for years, when I was being bullied at school and couldn't cope. You need to let your feelings/fears/uncertainties out, or you'll become like me who has to fix this shit now with psychologists, drugs and paying for it. You need to "want to get better".

[QUOTE=PredGD;46046898]been at the ward for about 4 hours now, and god daamn, I'm so exhausted. pretty much been no breathers up until now, but other than that, it's actually going okay. brought my desktop so at least I have something to escape to if stuff gets too rough. only downside is that the internet here is heavily restricted and blocks facepunch, and pretty much anything related to games, image boards and forums. I set up a VPN on my server though, so it shouldn't become too much of an issue. slightly upset as I think I'm the only one stuck in my room with the others downstairs. suppose that'll straighten itself out once I get more familiar with the place. not only that, but I forgot to bring my guitar so that sucks. in the end, here's hoping this will be a game changer![/QUOTE] Hope this works out well for you. Good luck man.

The blocks are probably there for a reason.

My mental health has deteriorated alot since I last posted. I was put on prozac but it made me 1000x worse. I've been off it two weeks and am still having debilitating mood swings, paranoia, delusions and a few hallucinations. I've told my parents about the mood swings but not the psychosis. I ended up throwing a glass bottle out of my window into the street when psychotic. I had to go to the emergency room but the on-call psyche couldn't do anything so I was sent home. I'm off the anti-depressant but I haven't told my doctor that I'm having worse delusions and paranoia so I've just been given Zoloft. What do I do? The next appointment I have with my psych is in a month and I can't wait that long.

[QUOTE=xVENUSx;46050217]My mental health has deteriorated alot since I last posted. I was put on prozac but it made me 1000x worse. I've been off it two weeks and am still having debilitating mood swings, paranoia, delusions and a few hallucinations. I've told my parents about the mood swings but not the psychosis. I ended up throwing a glass bottle out of my window into the street when psychotic. I had to go to the emergency room but the on-call psyche couldn't do anything so I was sent home. I'm off the anti-depressant but I haven't told my doctor that I'm having worse delusions and paranoia so I've just been given Zoloft. What do I do? The next appointment I have with my psych is in a month and I can't wait that long.[/QUOTE] Why the heck aren't you telling them the truth? They're there to help, not to judge or hurt you?

Those of you who have no idea where to go and feel like you are finished, go make an appointment with a doctor and tell them that you have lost the ability to cope. Write down all of the important stuff beforehand so you do not forget. Ask them about specific outpatient programs that may be in your area. A close friend of mine was into drugs and alcohol along with serious mental and emotional problems. She had hit serious rock bottom and was almost placed in a psyche ward,but thankfully was put in a strict out patient program and has her life together. She is a completely different person. Her entire life is focused on recovery, and I mean that. She has morning meetings and evening meetings and pretty much only hangs out with other people in recovery. Trust me, in order for things to get better you NEED HELP. You can not do everything on your own, but YOU have to find people and resources that will assist you and YOU have to accept the responsibility of working with and trusting these people to assist you. It doesn't happen over night. My biggest fuck-ups are when I miss an appointment or ignore a doctor's/therapists's suggestions and get myself into shit. Recovery starts and ends with you. Ironically it is not something you can do alone. Edit: [QUOTE=xVENUSx;46050217]My mental health has deteriorated alot since I last posted. I was put on prozac but it made me 1000x worse. I've been off it two weeks and am still having debilitating mood swings, paranoia, delusions and a few hallucinations. I've told my parents about the mood swings but not the psychosis. I ended up throwing a glass bottle out of my window into the street when psychotic. I had to go to the emergency room but the on-call psyche couldn't do anything so I was sent home. I'm off the anti-depressant but I haven't told my doctor that I'm having worse delusions and paranoia so I've just been given Zoloft. What do I do? The next appointment I have with my psych is in a month and I can't wait that long.[/QUOTE] Dude, I cannot stress enough how this kind of behavior will just prolong or make worse your suffering. Your Prosac needed time to kick in, and when you cut it cold turkey it probably fucked with your nerves even more than before you had taken it. TELL YOUR DOCTOR EVERYTHING. His job requires that he knows EVERYTHING. A good doctor cannot perform to his/her best ability unless they are told everything. How are they supposed to make informed decisions about you if they don't know something as important as you not taking your meds and seeing hallucinations!? If your dick got bitten by some sort of unholy spider then by God you had better take that shit to the ER and be willing to whip it out in front of some RNs and a doctor or you are fucked. They need complete transparency from you, mental health or dick-wise. You need to get an appointment NOW and spill your guts about everything. Write it all down beforehand so you can give them detailed information about how you feel and when things happened. Ask if there is additional help you can seek. Trust me, I've done this every single time in the past I had gone for help. I fucked it up and wondered where the time went and why I still felt like shit. So I started over. I went to the doctor, told him I had fucked up and that I was willing to do whatever he told me to to the letter. He gave me the best response I could have gotten from anyone. He is an older straight-forward physician who told me that he would do his best to help me get over this, but ultimately it was my responsibility to continue to seek help and if I wasted his time he would boot my ass out the door. You need to want to get better and I know you do, but you don't know how to on your own. You need a professional's guidance, but if you ignore that, you won't go anywhere.

I need somebody to love, that is all. [video=youtube;5Jj3wZVc7nw]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Jj3wZVc7nw[/video]

[QUOTE=realtaylers;46025959]I am sorry if this is the wrong thread, but I don't know where else to ask! I've got depression and anxiety, although lately I've been having trouble with my appetite even when I'm not feeling anxious or depressed. I hate how thin I am, yet I can't bring myself to eat, and even thinking about food when I'm like that makes me feel like throwing up. I hate it, and it really messes with me since I constantly feel like I have no energy even when I'm not feeling depressed just because I haven't had anything to eat. My therapist thought it was to do with the anxiety and just recommended forcing myself to eat so I had some energy, but it's so hard to do when I constantly feel like throwing up.[/QUOTE] Take the appetite medicine

So recently I've finally realized that I have a serious problem with people, especially friends, laughing at me. This is called "Gelotophobia", or the fear of being laughed at (literally fear of laughter). I didn't really think I had a problem until recently when I had a deep talk with one of my closest friends and I brought the subject up about how my most hated feeling is being laughed at, and how I'll purposely avoid social activities or getting involved in conversations just so I don't get laughed at, and how I get filled with deep sadness or anger when I do get laughed at. Does anyone know how to get over this, even if it takes a long time?

[QUOTE=huntingrifle;46071015]So recently I've finally realized that I have a serious problem with people, especially friends, laughing at me. This is called "Gelotophobia", or the fear of being laughed at (literally fear of laughter). I didn't really think I had a problem until recently when I had a deep talk with one of my closest friends and I brought the subject up about how my most hated feeling is being laughed at, and how I'll purposely avoid social activities or getting involved in conversations just so I don't get laughed at, and how I get filled with deep sadness or anger when I do get laughed at. Does anyone know how to get over this, even if it takes a long time?[/QUOTE] Oh man, I think I might have this too. This might explain a lot of things.

sitting around doing nothing all day is not good for your mental health! sometimes its the only thing you can do though

im too much of a pussy to do it

Just got to know that one of my bestfriends have bulemia. Got really sad for her, but I'don't know what to do to help her. Also everyone where out drinking yesterday again, no one invited me again...

just came home from the ward after my first week, and I haven't felt as depressed as this for ages. it's not open during the weekends so I have to come home every friday, but I think I'll speak with them there and see if it's possible to just move to another ward during the weekend. I've done more things in those 5 days than I have in an entire year, and coming back to isolation like this hurts I was lucky to be sort of kickstarted into it. on tuesday, one of the girls there decided to come visit me and said hi. got to know what the others were usually up to which helped a ton. ended up eating all meals down with the others after that, and I usually spend my day playing guitar or sitting in the living room. I also rode a horse for 15 minutes for the first time in my life on wednesday in the middle of Oslo! yesterday when we were all sitting down in the living room watching TV, the girl who was first to introduce herself to me sat in the sofa with me, pretty much glued onto me. she keeps talking about how she has gotten in much better contact with me compared to the others since she came in around april. I have a strong feeling there's some interest on her side, and while I'm not sure how I think about that just yet, it's a veeery good feeling. hopefully I'll talk some more with the others next week and get to know them too very good feeling to be separated from Facepunch and various other internet related stuff! I posted a few times on monday, but other than that I've been mostly occupied. just gonna have to cope with the weekend and it's back again. I can't wait

Just stay busy until you get back. Buy a camera and go out in the streets or the nature. Just be wary of the girls you meet though, since many of them may have other reasons to get to know you. Especially if they're victims of certain things(personal experience).

+1for cameras Probably the only thing keeping new alive.

I've always been interested in photography, but I'm not sure if I want to put so much money into something I'm not sure I'll stick with or not. in the limited experience I've had with it, half the fun lies in the equipment. not to mention it sounds very silly to take pictures using your phone :v: [editline]26th September 2014[/editline] [QUOTE=Thaard;46081903] Just be wary of the girls you meet though, since many of them may have other reasons to get to know you. Especially if they're victims of certain things(personal experience).[/QUOTE] you lost me here, what do you mean if you don't mind me asking?

You can probably rent a camera for not too much money.

[QUOTE=PredGD;46081947] you lost me here, what do you mean if you don't mind me asking?[/QUOTE] Lot's of issues, trust me. You need to find someone stable if you're looking for a stable relationship. It can be really self-destructive to be in a relationship with someone who is a lot like yourself.

I've never had any depression problems before, now I've had a baby and have postpartum depression. I've had it for almost three months and it doesn't get any better at all, but I'd rather not see a doctor about it. It just makes me more crazy every day. I really hope it passes soon cause I so do not know how to handle any kind of depression!

[QUOTE=Thaard;46083941]Lot's of issues, trust me. You need to find someone stable if you're looking for a stable relationship. It can be really self-destructive to be in a relationship with someone who is a lot like yourself.[/QUOTE] yeah, I'm not really looking for a relationship at the moment. I don't feel safe enough to enter a new one after my previous one ended so badly

[QUOTE=PredGD;46087878]yeah, I'm not really looking for a relationship at the moment. I don't feel safe enough to enter a new one after my previous one ended so badly[/QUOTE] Yeah, when you're sensitive/a bit unstable, it's good to find someone who is a bit more stable. A bit more difficult if you're straight, but the best way to look is to not look. Just don't fall in love with someone who is just like you. That's what I've learned, although it seems right/easier in the start.