The Addicts' Lounge V - What time is it? Time to get high! - General

had a nice LSD trip but bad tripped towards the end I took another 100uq about 1 hour in because I got cocky and didn't want a mediocre experience. not the best idea when thinking about my bad trips but it worked surprisingly well and good times were had. had to wrestle the anxiety for a bit at the beginning but no biggie. though I decided to see 2001 and I've never seen it before. the existentialism of that movie triggered my own existential anxiety pretty early on so I popped 1mg xanax to calm down since I just wanted to enjoy the movie by then, not wrestle with a bad trip and go deep. which worked but definitely dulled the LSD part of the experience which was kind of a shame since I think I could have pulled through that anxiety without a xanax and fully enjoyed that fantastic movie undulled. but yeah, didn't want to risk anything and I just wanted to watch the movie. holy fucking shit! mindblowing movie really. I don't understand how I've never seen it before because it's a masterpiece through and through. this easily became my favorite movie of all time. made me think that interstellar is some sort of cheap rip off of 2001. which is a good movie too, but 2001 executed everything flawlessly. never seen anything quite like it and I wish more directors would experiment with this kind of stuff. if you haven't seen it then you're doing yourself a massive disservice. go watch this masterpiece but yeah, I was feeling overconfident. I had taken 1mg xanax prior and I was about 6 hours into my trip and I noticed I wasn't where I wanted to be in terms of headspace. understandably really, I had taken xanax after all. so I brought out my vape and thought to myself that I was invincible from any bad stuff and went at it. the idea was that I'd get back up and then watch 2010. huge mistake and I should have known better. I could feel the panic settling in while I was still vaping so I put it away immediately. the feeling grew and grew and I could already tell I had gone to the point of no return in terms of bad tripping. my body begun aching, my heart was racing, breathing became difficult and pins and needles were stabbing me all over my body. it felt like all of the hairs on my body were standing straight up, pure fear. I took another xanax to counteract it but it only made it worse and my body became so, so heavy which didn't help. the anxiety was relived to a certain degree but far from enough as the panic was still there. with my xanax confidence in place, I decided I'd pull through it by letting it do its job. I sat down in my sofa, laid down as comfortable as possible. the less I distracted myself, the more my brain went haywire in an attempt to get me to do something about this "life threatening" situation. but I kept at it and let the adrenaline run unconstrained, looking the panic attack straight into its eyes. oh my god what an uncomfortable experience tbh. it felt like my body was on fire, my heart had ceased to beat consistently and went completely crazy to the point where I only felt vibrating in my chest. a pressure built throughout my entire body and everything tensed up. my body felt like it was being incinerated and it became physically unbearable. at this point, I got legitimately afraid of entering a cardiac arrest since I couldn't properly assess the situation with a clear look so I had to take another xanax. after that, it calmed down and I was able to go to sleep p much as soon as I hit the pillow. today, I'm having some thoughts about the panic attack I felt after vaping weed. I'm thinking that the panic attack happens because I've taken a drug cocktail that pretty much guarantees ego death. I didn't experience ego death so I can't say for sure but that's I'm thinking. the panic got louder and physically unbearable as soon as I let my mind do its own thing and stopped distracting myself. the more I sat there, being assaulted by my brain going through "YOU'RE DYING" anxiety avenue, the more real death started to feel. towards the end of it it started feeling like my brain was literally splitting and I don't know what to make of it. it makes me think that I experienced the panic attack because my ego was dissolving and I wasn't able to truly let go. the question then is, what is the right thing to do in a situation like this? when people say "let the drug guide you", do they literally mean that you're supposed to do what I tried to do? stop hiding from the panic and face it head on? it it supposed to be physically unbearable and feel like you're actually dying? and by doing it this way long enough, will you "break through" the anxiety and experience ego death? since it felt like this would happen if only I had kept going. the less that was on my mind and the deeper I went into my head, it felt like I got closer and closer to my ego which also escalated the panic by the thousandfold. it did become easier to bear mentally since it felt like I was in control of the attack but I still felt all of the physical effects of it which scared me. all in all, wasn't too bad of a trip really. I'm glad I had xanax on hand this time though as it would have definitely gone down the traumatic bad trip route without it like last time. I'm interested to explore this again but I think I need some preparation on how to either make sure the panic doesn't happen at all, or if the panic is bound to happen no matter what if the ego starts to dissolve, I need to know how to combat it and conquer it. I think I'm onto something when it comes to facing it head on and letting the panic engulf you and do its job but since I don't know if that's helpful or not, I'd rather take a xanax than accidentally panic attacking so hard I'd go into a cardiac arrest.

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There's no smarked anymore, so the 'Lucky' tag will have to do. I just spent a while coughing so much in opioid withdrawal that I threw up. Luckily, this stage only ever seems to last about 30 minutes and then I don't get any more nausea throughout withdrawal. It was still rather unpleasant though, but it is my fault for not sticking with my 21 days without any last time, even though I basically felt better by that point. Oh well, hopefully I have more luck this time!

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If I'm lucky I'll be doing mushies this sunday at my friend's, my brain is in a heavy block, meditation doesn't help enough with all the shit I've learnt in the last month about my relationship. I don't think mushies will be the cure-all for my problems, but we'll see. Wish me luck.

Might be a fine opportunity to perform some classical conditioning! Look at the something you want to eliminate from your life before/during your wretching to create an association. I've felt withdrawal once in my life and it was from nicotine and I had NO IDEA why I was getting the shakes/cold sweat. I don't really understand addiction to this day...

That might be good advice - I'll think about that when the Restless Leg Syndrome kicks in tomorrow. :P Addiction is caused by receptors in our brains becoming less sensitive in order to return to equilibrium, meaning that when you stop stimulating those receptors with the drug, those receptors are suddenly running way *under* their optimum, meaning the opposite effects tend to be exhibited instead.

Had a sesh with my dealer the other day. It was pretty cool me and a mate rocked up and got shouted free weed, free drinks and free nangs (Nitrous) immediately; bought some bud too, was a good sesh. I ended up turning down the nangs due to potential adverse effects, any of you guys do nitrous?

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Wassup everyone! Hope everyone has been good last couple of weeks, I have been! Everything has been going great with my new gf, never connected this well with anyone and the sex has been amazing too haha blazing and playing fortnite and kingdom come together has been great, and we have been going on awesome day (and night) trips all the time. Going for 1am picnics at surf beaches in the pitch black while blazed is a surreal experience. Had some cool blaze spots, thought Id share some photos of a sunset smoke we had on one tree hill (a park in New Zealand) This is the monument at the top: https://i.imgur.com/iZFv5Yx.jpg Creeping on random people walking the trail https://i.imgur.com/UxCyi5n.jpg Smoking with that beautiful view https://i.imgur.com/2yGe5HI.jpg One more photo before the sun dissapeared https://i.imgur.com/Qy0Z0vC.jpg Take it easy everyone!

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Just so you know it might be a bad idea. Not because its furcon but because there will be a lot of people. Quite a few people I know get kinda freaked out and anxious when theyre around large amounts of people when they are on Acid, if you are used to tripping on other things in public id say go ahead though. If not and you are adamant on doing this, make sure you have an easy escape to like a hotel room or house or something, just so you know you can chill out away from everyone easily.

Personally never had a problem with this. I love taking acid on Bonfire Night and going to the fairground/fireworks. But definitely worth considering, stick with a low dose & have an escape plan.

Yea I have no problem either but I've had friends who have really gotten scared so its definitely something to think about, especially on your first time.

Yeah, I've got a room in the casino the con is in (that isn't in the con block so there's not gonna be any room parties), there's a few places around the venue that are mostly open empty space and there's a really chill arcade if I need to get away from people. I'm planning on taking it in the room and seeing how I feel before I go out anywhere, and I've got a few good friends with me that I'm gonna let know so if it's not going good it's not out of nowhere for them, I've had to deal with trying to help someone who's freaking out that you didn't know was on anything before and that was not a fun couple of hours for anyone.

any of you folks tried mescaline? saw some of it for the first time in Norway and feeling excited to try it. I heard it's somewhat lighter on the headspace than LSD and more of a cross between an empathogen and psychedelic.

My mate is on acid, 2 hours in. Just dropped ~25 mg 2C-B and I'll go join him once the come-up has passed

if you're comfortable with the use of the darknet then I could point you to the vendor who sells it. I hope it's not too similar to 2C-B. 2C-B is a fun substance but I've found it to be very hit and miss. either I'm laughing at everything and overall having a good time, or the experience is simply mediocre with a slightly uncomfortable bodyload along with nausea. I hope mescaline is different enough to provide a different kind of experience.

ho boy, I found about 70mg~ of ketamine in my stash. snow in my nose, vapor in my lungs, I feel fantastic

Man You know what feels better than taking vyvanse? Not taking vyvanse

SMOKE WEED EVERY DAY until you have to have emergency wisdom tooth surgery because the roots of one of them are tangling themselves in one of my jaw nerves! then don't smoke for at least 10 days, just like me

holy shit dbonglord is not dead. hes got a stream planned https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pw7gJInG1Ls

You can just buy Peyote cacti. They're legal, at least in the UK. I have had my three for 6 years now and they were 4 when I got them.

Yea man its a real easy headspace and everything is great. The visuals are awesome as well, just dont get the powder on your tongue it tastes like death.

sweet dude, can't wait to give it a go. I tested that speed that I confirmed to not be speed again after educating myself more on the use of testkits and I'm pretty damn sure it's PMA/PMMA. I used the mandelin testkit only so it's hard to confirm 100% but judging by the color reaction then it could very well be it. it started out as yellow, aka no reaction. it gradually switched into green and then became a brownish color which seems to match up with PMA/PMMA. reaction from start to finish https://imgur.com/a/DuvCW last gradient is mandelin test. https://pred.me/pics/chrome_2018-03-25_13-52-13.png test yo drugs. don't be like me who might have accidentally eaten PMMA which is deadly as fuck

does it actually fuck up your brain to the point of no return? I've suspected that I suffer from ADHD myself (p much convinced at this point) and I'm nervous about potentially taking amphetamines everyday if the diagnosis is correct. I hear stories of people who take it every single day and have for years and they function much, much better than before they were medicated. but they also say that going off the medication for a few days is miserable. I've read people write that they're unsure if the medication is still effective so they take a day off only to face the miserable life of being sober and then they pin it on "yeah, this is what my life was like before I got medicated and this is why I need it". idk about that, it could be true but it also sounds like dependence. I imagine that the ADHD symptoms will be worse if you take stimulants everyday and then not take it. but what do I know. there is a reason why they prescribe it to people for everyday use, right? surely they wouldn't do that if there were long term consequences of such use?

Imo it's fine as long as you take breaks from it. Definitely don't take it if you have an addictive personality though, that's just asking for trouble

Well I'm glad you stopped taking it at least.

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I tried to take a week long T break from bud and it only ended up to be about 3 days. My main problem is I get bad stomach cramping, no appetite (usually eat 2300 cal a day) and insomnia. It seems that weed in some way has been medicating me physically so when I stop my body chucks a shit. Anyone else experience these problems? I'm looking to take a month off in May