The Addicts' Lounge V - What time is it? Time to get high!
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Can a mod move this thread to the Durgs section? I don't feel the need to make a new addicts lounge thread in there if this can just be shifted over.
Hezzy changed his policy, he wants to discourage megathreads but won't get rid of them. So long as there's more individual discussion threads it should be ok.
@Pascall could this thread be moved to the proper section please?
Moved!
Thank you!
So, is the lucky rating the closest thing to smarked?
It makes me unfathomably happy that we have the sub forum back
ahh man, there's nothing better than the amphetamine come-up dump
We got our sub forum back
This is amazing
I'n glad it's stayed Durgs, that became how I say drugs.
I feel like I've written this a thousand times by now but I really should take a break from drugs. idk if I'm not trying hard enough to maintain a break, if I'm even trying at all, or if its me not being able to let go. no matter what I'm taking it ends up becoming a shitty experience. MDMA feels 'okay' but the love is completely gone. amphs don't motivate me or cause any euphoria anymore, I just feel restless and anxious. weed is straight up panic attack in a joint and psychedelics scare me after my bad experience. nothing works like it used to and I often find myself wondering why I took drugs at all. every time I get high I regret it, every single time. but once I'm sober again and a few days has passed, I remember all those beautiful, cool and euphoric experiences I've had before and I try again. and again. and again. I'm always able to rationalize why I should take something and the end result is pretty much the same every single time. except for ketamine tho, that's always a joy.
I'm not able to fully commit to taking a break because "what if the next experience will be like the old times?". like fuck, all I ever look forward to is using drugs even though it makes me hate myelf. I'm not using drugs to have a good time anymore, I do drugs because I honestly don't know what else I'm supposed to do. everything else is boring as shit and drugs are one of the only things that make me feel anything at all these days, even though its not what it once was. all I want right now is for the drugs to feel amazing again. which makes me think that maybe I should take a break because I don't think I have a very healthy mindset towards life and drugs right now. but I don't want to quit either, I want to fix my shit so I can use drugs for fun instead of a way to treat boredom, like before. I enjoy using drugs and I know I'm staying safe, all I'm worried about is what if end up going down a dark path? am I already walking that road if I keep breaking my own promises about responsible use?
sorry for the downer post, I hope you guys don't mind. I've got no one to rant to who would understand this sorta thing.
If you've reached that point, it'll be a year plus to get the magic back - if ever. MDMA's probably the worst for that.
With regards to dopaminergic stimulants, tolerance will reset fully within about 2 weeks but downregulation of receptors can take up to a couple months.
So yeah, definitely take a break. I've been there, 6 months of nothing except the occasional alcohol did me wonders. Never quite got the MDMA magic back but everything else works well again.
alright, thanks. I've been so indecisive on what to do with this so I appreciate the nudge towards a break. I think I'll plan out one final trip on mescaline before I put the drugs away, never tried it and apparently it's supposed to be nice and light on the head.
I've been going through the same shit. I took a much more spiritual route of acceptance though, completely sober but with some meditation on ket afterwards to help it forward.
Let me say this, ego death is a romanticised concept. You can look at it in a more deeply spiritual aspect, related to chakras and the subtle body, connecting to ones true self and letting kundalini dance her way through you. Which is what I did, and at the risk of sounding like a fucking crazy person, I felt her work her way through me, all the way up to my crown, and I was in pure bliss when she did.
But my ego is still intact. I understand that I am something much more to this universe, that after I die I never truly die, because I've heard my true self speak to me, but I still allow myself to regress in some ways and fall back on old concepts. My awakening is a partial one at best, but even still, my true self shines through when it's needed the most.
Balancing yourself means balance of all aspects of yourself, including your ego, not the complete destruction of it. When we leave this life we leave our egos behind, that is when we are free of it. But so long as we are physically tied here, we all have our egos, and they help drive us through this life and this world. A good chunk of our personality is tied up with the ego, that's why when you see people who abandon it to feel so lost and without purpose.
I was lucky that I came to my realisation sober, but like you it was due to a really bad emotional experience. Most awakenings/existential crisis' are like this. It's a terrible time to have it happen, as you're without support, no knowledge of what the hell is happening to you, you can't talk to anyone about it, so you suffer alone.
My honest opinion, I would stop with the LSD. Psychedelics usually brute force these kinds of things, and if you brute force something without understanding the ramifications or how to handle what arises, then you're going to end up in the shit. I bruteforced mine with chanting and deep meditation, I went in knowing what was going to happen, and I still struggled and bailed.
You need to stay sober, analyse the feelings that are arising out of you, ask yourself tough questions and give yourself tough answers, and accept what you learn. This is the safest way to clear your chakras.
Acceptance is key here. It's not defeatism, it's moving on from old feelings and grudges, past hurts and loves lost. Getting back into spiritualism, when kundalini awakens, she works her way through every single one of your chakras, uplifting all of your deep feelings, regrets, hurts and wrongs. She does it because the only way to heal is to face, accept your deep issues and move on. "Tough love".
During such a shit period, at least right now, honest to god stay sober. Drink plenty of water, eat well, sleep well, get out into nature and don't overthink. Just take it all in.
The lite version of my own personal realisation of the world is that it is far too ego driven. That people keep running from their true selves and the voice in their head that tells them something is wrong. Because we're all scared about where the world is heading, and escaping it is the most lucrative option. Everyone is hurting.
But I know that letting it affect me too much affects my own progress in life. It's fine to be selfish, it's not fine to be selfish constantly and at others expense. It's a beautiful thing to reach out to others in need, it's something else entirely when it comes at the cost of your own happiness.
Balance is the key here. Don't bother with bullshit guides to "open your chakras" or "supercharge" them. Working through your issues is the safest, healthiest way to heal and clean your chakras. Talk to a therapist or good friend, write down your frustrations and thoughts, make contact the people who you've hurt and let them know how you've hurt them and how you feel and vice versa, meditate with metta/loving kindness. Accept, love yourself, move on.
And I know most of what I said sounds insane to most posters here. It's insane if you haven't felt it yourself. I'm happy to speak it because it is the truth. Take care of yourself.
Stop with psychedelics in general for a good while, honestly.
My fucking picket-fence mom just came home at 2 in the morning and straight faced, said to me "Wanna try shrooms?"
I was honestly just beyond shocked.
I wish i could find Ket around here, been chasing it for too long.
Did some 1P a couple days ago, all I could think is "this is easy compared to shrooms" for some reason.
my guy gave me a free brownie with my purchase. It feels like a free sample from the store. I cant wait for nj legalization, i can totally see stores giving you something free with a large purchase.
My dude when california started its medicinal referall program there was such competition that merely signing up to be a member to a specific dispensary entitled you to several grams worth of bud..
..But now that it's completely legal for recreational use you get nothing but fat ass taxes! Careful what you wish for.
Don't know how legislation is going to be in NJ but in Nevada they can't "give away" weed products. You can get it for a penny but you have to purchase the product. Sucks but getting a gram J for a penny is kinda funny.
Makes sense, buy one get one half off deals and all that. I just find it funny seeing weed behind a counter at a legit store, in Las Vegas I felt like a kid in a candy store. My favorite thing was easily the edibles.
Is Lucky the new smarked? Are sub-forum specific ratings going to come soon? They Even planned?
I personally use it as Smarked just because it looks like it.
It also works because people rate you smarked when you post about being high and that's inherently p lucky
Does anyone have any tips for DMT? Me and my friends attempted to freebase it but the heat caught me off guard and I fucked it
I fart darts
Right into your hearts
You fear the shit wizard
and try to escape in your carts
but I fart darts
I also roll and smoke darts
The Addicts' Lounge V - What time is it? Time to get high!
