[QUOTE=HeavyGuy;49490607]Life was a lot easier when I was just on the hunt for penis but then my mind like broke last June and now I'm focused on the dudes and the ladies.
Now there's so much to choose from and it's overwhelming :v:[/QUOTE]
Who knows if you go from Bi sexual to Pan sexual one day.
I've mentioned this before but I have an irrational fear of my sexuality being fluid
I came out to pretty much everyone when I was 16 and it just seems really scary and weird to just be like "oops never mind lol" if I were to end up with a woman. Idk. Never been attracted to a woman and don't see myself being attracted to one in the future. Probably shouldn't dwell on this too much
snippity
[QUOTE=AtomicSans;49490789]snippity[/QUOTE]
consume more pornography
only people who read his post pre-snip will understand muahaha
The pornography is working
[URL="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTjpkaRd888"]Secret link to my nudes[/URL]
So I cleaned my room with my mother, began to set everything up for my new rig AND!
...It doesn't have an input for the cable of my monitor :cry:
But alas we're just gonna head out tommorow to grab a DVI cable which my monitor has an input too.
But yeah kinda sucks after spending 4 hours cleaning only to not be able to set up my computer just yet.
THE TEAAAASE!
[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;49491062]:glare:[/QUOTE]
Congratulations you saw my fucked up post before I tried to fix it :pudge:
goodnight EST
special thanks to früli for failing to get me even midly buzzed after 3 straight bottles
[QUOTE=paindoc;49486040]I've had zero luck on tinder, not a single damn match in two months its weird. I'm thinking something's broken, because my profile isn't THAT bad and I'm not THAT unattractive. I do wonder if its all confidence based though, like I feel worthless (despite knowing that we're [I]all[/I] equally worthless :v:) which affects my confidence which affects my success. I know that my deepening creative music block got worse the more I worried about it, which fed back into it etc. So I guess try faking it 'till you make it? You were damn fine enough to do well once, and you can be again if you ride that memory and those experiences to boost you. I'm sure you'll manage!
The good news is I'm busy again so that removes all my time to think too much about loneliness and relationship success and the like. Although I've been doing a bunch of reading on [URL="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Attachment_in_adults"]attachment theory[/URL], which has actually helped me understand why I'm the way I am and how I can start to fix it. Like why I have so many problems understanding or comprehending the emotions I feel (thinking too hard about it gives me a wicked headache), and why I am really really terrible at reading emotions in faces and the like. Its fascinating stuff.[/QUOTE]
i read up about attachment theory at sixth form, while we were learning about it i noticed i matched avoidant behaviour a lot
hope it goes well for you too, sex is too fun not to be had
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[QUOTE=geogzm;49492034]i read up about attachment theory at sixth form, while we were learning about it i noticed i matched avoidant behaviour a lot
hope it goes well for you too, sex is too fun not to be had[/QUOTE]
Dismissive-avoidant describes me to a T.
[QUOTE=Pvt. Martin;49493487]:rrerr:[/QUOTE]
*is actually an irl dragon*
Im getting a new pc next week. Im hyped up :D
[QUOTE=refiero;49493574]*car noises*[/QUOTE]
I'm reminded of dragons fucking cars.
I'm also upgrading my computer myself, getting a new GPU in a couple of weeks. Now I can replay Wolfenstein TNO and not play at 20-30 FPS constantly :v
Well, my mom just caught me watching gay shit. She's not mad about it though :s:
[QUOTE=kijji;49493880]Well, my mom just caught me watching gay shit. She's not mad about it though :s:[/QUOTE]
Better than how my brother found out I was gay :v: he heard my ex saying I love you to me over skype. It was the most awkward moment ever.
[QUOTE=Vilusia;49493943]Better than how my brother found out I was gay :v: he heard my ex saying I love you to me over skype. It was the most awkward moment ever.[/QUOTE]
Well, it was still a bit awkward. I can only imagine how she felt tho, barge into your son's room and see a cock shooting its load :v:
[QUOTE=Mr._N;49493366]Dismissive-avoidant describes me to a T.[/QUOTE]
I flip flop between that and fearful avoidant. Most of the time it's fearful. I get shaky and scared thinking of being that close to someone. I talked to my ARNP about it yesterday and she recommended me some things to look into
I guess what gets me is that it's not really my fault I'm like this? I wanted everything wrong with me to be my fault, but instead the people that should have done better by me didn't, at all. I can honestly say there is zero connection between me and my Father- if he died tomorrow it wouldn't affect me. I used to feel bad feeling like this, but anymore idk
I'm also not sure how to work on the whole expressing and understanding emotions better. I think I'm going to try music as my own therapy - make songs representing certain emotions to challenge me.
I also uninstalled tinder. Not working for me, and it was just too disheartening. Going to take a while to work on myself and maybe get in the "secure" golden zone
I haven't used Tinder/Grindr in a while because I'll start talking to a guy and then just...stop because I'm a weird nerd and I don't want anyone to find out
Leaving Egypt today. Kinda glad honestly, there's only so much doing nothing with nothing in between I can take and 2 weeks of it is more than enough.
Guys I need urgent help. My wireless Dynex g isn't being recognized by my new rig. It just says setup incomplete in devices, how fix?
My mom came in to say goodnight and she saw I was playing games. Know what she said?
"Oh, no more spouting penises."
:v:
[QUOTE=kijji;49497602]My mom came in to say goodnight and she saw I was playing games. Know what she said?
"Oh, no more spouting penises."
:v:[/QUOTE]
SHE KNOWS
[QUOTE=Minimal;49497640]SHE KNOWS[/QUOTE]
Well, yeah, she saw the porn when she barged in :v:
[editline]10th January 2016[/editline]
I panicked and forgot how to alt+F4 lol
[QUOTE=kijji;49497652]Well, yeah, she saw the porn when she barged in :v:
[editline]10th January 2016[/editline]
I panicked and forgot how to alt+F4 lol[/QUOTE]
She okay with you liking the schlong?
[QUOTE=kijji;49497602]My mom came in to say goodnight and she saw I was playing games. Know what she said?
"Oh, no more spouting penises."
:v:[/QUOTE]
Your mom sounds super chill.
[QUOTE=Minimal;49497700]She okay with you liking the schlong?[/QUOTE]
Doesn't get why I think I'm bi but besides that, she's p tolerant
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