[QUOTE=jp_rsardeto;49606553]It's just the architecture course all over again, it's just the publicity course all over again... [B]I feel like I'm a spoiled useless baby and just slow people down. Plus, I'm not fit for having any human relationship besides casual sex.[/B][/QUOTE]
Welcome to my world. Depression and shit like that will always make you default to thinking things like this. I feel like I'm holding everyone down; my friends and my family, both. I definitely don't think I'm a good friend to anybody, let alone boyfriend material.
What you have to recognize is that even if you think these things a lot, it doesn't make them true. How you see yourself in your minds eye is usually drastically different that how everyone else sees you. If you DO truly think that, then you do have the power to change that perception of yourself. Everyone does. I don't believe anyone is useless or not fit for any kind of relationship. I hope things change for you soon enough to see that.
[QUOTE=Mysterious;49606609]Welcome to my world. Depression and shit like that will always make you default to thinking things like this. I feel like I'm holding everyone down; my friends and my family, both. I definitely don't think I'm a good friend to anybody, let alone boyfriend material.
What you have to recognize is that even if you think these things a lot, it doesn't make them true. How you see yourself in your minds eye is usually drastically different that how everyone else sees you. If you DO truly think that, then you do have the power to change that perception of yourself. Everyone does. I don't believe anyone is useless or not fit for any kind of relationship. I hope things change for you soon enough to see that.[/QUOTE]
I don't even know how to think positive thoughts anymore, I'm just a big ball of negativity. Me thinking that I'm worthless etc may not be true, but it is to me and it sucks
[QUOTE=kijji;49606629]I don't even know how to think positive thoughts anymore, I'm just a big ball of negativity. Me thinking that I'm worthless etc may not be true, but it is to me and it sucks[/QUOTE]
Yeah. This is something I'm still working on myself. I'm pretty sure I need to talk to someone about this, but I can't until I get insured somehow. For now, I deal with it the only way I know how. Music and vidya.
I do honestly feel that all of you have worth to the world, whether you think so or not. Out of the billions of people on this Earth, there are bound to be more than a few who need you.
I'm a college dropout who wants to essentially abandon his friends and family for a better life in a country he's never been to yet, how does that give me any worth?
[QUOTE=kijji;49606677]I'm a college dropout who wants to essentially abandon his friends and family for a better life in a country he's never been to yet, how does that give me any worth?[/QUOTE]
None of that is relative to your worth. I hate when people put a value on someone based on education/career history instead of the content of their character. From what I've seen, you're a pretty nice guy. You don't need to be Mother Theresa or anything to have worth, either. Just be good to others and yourself.
Any time I question my worth, I say all the exact same stuff you say. It's nitpicking and it's just your mind trying to justify the illusion of you being worthless. It's very overpowering and at times, I simply can't stop it, but at the end of the day, it's mostly conjecture.
It's very hard to combat these automatic thoughts, as my therapist calls them. I can't find any logical counters to them.
Also I had to double-check what thread this was :v:
My bobblehead came in the mail today!
It's P'neat on my desk.
[QUOTE=Mysterious;49604275]Too scared to try any kind of those, to be honest.
Don't even have a lockbox so :v[/QUOTE]
Good thing, too, because you might lose both your set of keys and the backup set for the lockbox containing all of your gay possessions.
<---- :v:
[QUOTE=Fhenexx;49607708]Good thing, too, because you might lose both your set of keys and the backup set for the lockbox containing all of your gay possessions.
<---- :v:[/QUOTE]
i'm sure the locksmith will understand
I can't stop reading about integrators and approximation methods help
All I wanted to do was make space stuff that's not terrible - now I've done at least two whole maths. Hope I don't die.
[QUOTE=paindoc;49605091]Oh, neat. I dunno where I would have applied. I know what FPGAs are but not sure how to program them. I'm trying desperately to use MATLAB to work on computing various orbital dynamics stuff, since that'd be my primary interest in avionics (controls, I guess).
I'm still hoping that I do end up getting a shot at the plasmas lab Friday, as it'd be a lifelong dream come true to finally work on a reactor (and the UWs is a super unique design). The larger model that's going to be doing plasma containment tests is being right now too, and the old ion engines are being rebuilt as well.
Otherwise tomorrow we have some Diversity career thing going on. I'm terrified of going, my GPA is terrible and despite it being the result of untreated depression+ADHD I don't want to bring that up. Pretty sure I shouldn't, either but that sort of social etiquette does not compute tbh. Between that, not getting invited back to the ballpark this summer, and my choice to not write articles because "it's pointless anyways" I'm sorta stressed right now. No income, rip.[/QUOTE]
keep at it dude. iirc you were talking about working at a lab on campus and you had some personal projects that you were really enthusiastic about. you could probably hit a hair under the minimum gpa and there'd still be a chance that they'll take you
also fpgas are cool as shit. but verilog is a little bit awful and fpga boards are (generally) more expensive than a microcontroller. if you don't have a class that teaches you about them i'd suggest picking up a cheap one and messing about with it. or ask a cool prof if they had some that you could mess with
[QUOTE=elitehakor;49608012]keep at it dude. iirc you were talking about working at a lab on campus and you had some personal projects that you were really enthusiastic about. you could probably hit a hair under the minimum gpa and there'd still be a chance that they'll take you
also fpgas are cool as shit. but verilog is a little bit awful and fpga boards are (generally) more expensive than a microcontroller. if you don't have a class that teaches you about them i'd suggest picking up a cheap one and messing about with it. or ask a cool prof if they had some that you could mess with[/QUOTE]
Man, fuuuuck verilog. I looked at some of the documentation and just gave up up. I've thought of getting a TI MSP430 board but for now I'd rather get a parallella or Tegra board for vectorized math and general scientific computing work. If I use an FPGA, I'd like to try to make a synth or something.
Also, I'm not a hair under the min. My cumulative right now is a 2.75, if not lower. My engineering GPA is a 2.46, and Im actually not allowed in the program. I want to drop the class I failed as a hardship withdrawal, but I can't afford to that right now so my GPA is just fukt. I'm hoping University research this summer. Maybe I'll charm the socks off one of the employers tomorrow, I seem to be strangely good at sliding my way into places by making friends lol
[QUOTE=paindoc;49608220]Maybe I'll charm the socks off one of the employers tomorrow, I seem to be strangely good at sliding my way into places by making friends lol[/QUOTE]
That's basically 50% of getting good jobs :v:
A degree helps you get past HR, but a lack of qualifications don't mean shit if they want to hire you
I have like bowel pains or something, feel like I need to use the [I]toilet[/I]
farting didn't help ease the pain :scream:
[QUOTE=kijji;49608962]I have like bowel pains or something, feel like I need to use the [I]toilet[/I]
farting didn't help ease the pain :scream:[/QUOTE]
Take a shit, pain like that usually means something inside you wants out :v:
Booked a table for bae for Valentines day in a nice pub. I want to sort something out or do something before hand aswell though, any ideas?
[QUOTE=kijji;49608962]I have like bowel pains or something, feel like I need to use the [I]toilet[/I]
farting didn't help ease the pain :scream:[/QUOTE]
Seems like you need a take a DOOMP.
[QUOTE=greeley;49609988]Booked a table for bae for Valentines day in a nice pub. I want to sort something out or do something before hand aswell though, any ideas?[/QUOTE]
Who wouldn't like a massage? Always seemed like a safe bet, and they're not terrible expensive (afaik). Bf gets pampered, feels great, and you can use that time to get other things ready or something.
[editline]26th January 2016[/editline]
Totally forgot valentine's was coming up tbh
[QUOTE=kijji;49608962]I have like bowel pains or something, feel like I need to use the [I]toilet[/I]
farting didn't help ease the pain :scream:[/QUOTE]
That's called constipation.
my plans for the future are completely falling apart heh
everything is going wrong simultaneously like can i get a break pls, thanks
[QUOTE=gangleider;49610264]my plans for the future are completely falling apart heh
everything is going wrong simultaneously like can i get a break pls, thanks[/QUOTE]
Eugh truly hate it when that happens. I get "bad luck weeks" which is where i have a week just full of bad luck and shit just non-stop happens, one bad thing a day. Its horrible when the monday starts and shit happens are you're just like "oh for fuck sake..."
My last one happened like this:
Monday: Car tire burst
Tuesday: Work project failed and had to work late to fix it
Wednesday: Can't get car tire fixed until weekend
Thursday: Had to spend £70 on getting something fixed in the house
Friday: Stuck in traffic for 2 hours & partner accused me of doing nothing in the house
I'm not sure browsing fp at work is safe. Coworker just texted me asking if i'm into guys :v:
[QUOTE=LNKFAN;49605970]Yea it should be fine. Depends on how soft you got the silicone; I'm guessing a 3. The softer it is, the more 'pliable' it is and likely it will try to stick to you. You'll find it also conducts static electricity, so tiny cloth fibers can stick to it if you try drying it with a regular cloth.
Boil it in a pot or put it through the dishwasher before&after use to sterilize it and you're good to go
[editline]25th January 2016[/editline]
how did i get here[/QUOTE]
Yeah it's a 3.
My tiny, shitty room dorm lacks a dishwasher and I don't own a big enough pot to boil it so I guess I'll just stick with rinsing it with warm water and soap as suggested in the care instructions.
[QUOTE=Fancy Godgineer;49610487]Yeah it's a 3.
My tiny, shitty room dorm lacks a dishwasher and I don't own a big enough pot to boil it so I guess I'll just stick with rinsing it with warm water and soap as suggested in the care instructions.[/QUOTE]
Honestly boiling toys isn't really necessary unless you're gonna give it to someone else (or it has to be as clean as possible for where it's going)
Can do it every once and a while if you want but soap and warm water is good enough
Is this the gay chat or depression thread? I'm starting to feel like a max payne character with all the negativity
Maybe we should start wearing Hawaiian shirts
Sometimes you need to bitch, but bitching then not thinking of some way to to try to change the situation is not just annoying for everyone else, it's unfair to you. The world can be a dick, life can suck, but you gotta think of some way (even tiny ways) to improve things
[editline]26th January 2016[/editline]
I stopped trying to help in depression/anxiety thread, few seem to be willing to listen and everyone would rather hug box it out
Truthfully you're not gonna get anything done if all you do is self-pity and continue to reinforce your bad habits
Getting a job and exercising regularly help me with my depression because sometimes it forces me out of the house when I'd rather stay at home, and I'm slowly but surely learning how to save money even though it's always been difficult for me (and, hell, still is)
[editline]26th January 2016[/editline]
this of course doesn't mean you can't be upset about situations, but dwelling on them gives you zero benefits
that's the hard thing about depression, it makes it hard to accept solutions as viable. You have a hard time seeing hope as valid. So I understand why that happens. It's a difficult thing to fight within yourself.
[QUOTE=suppertime;49611220]Is this the gay chat or depression thread? I'm starting to feel like a max payne character with all the negativity
Maybe we should start wearing Hawaiian shirts[/QUOTE]
all these rainbows but such little optimism
I offer you a dog, in this trying time:doghidden:
:dog:
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