Grandfather just passed a few minutes ago, RIP SSgt. Wilbert "Sonny" Kapp, Oct 3 1928-Feb 9 2016
The first few days of adderall for me felt like what I imagine an MDMA high was
After several months of depression it was pretty cool. Everything was awesome and I felt I could bitchslap the fuck out of life and stuff
Working a 4 hour shift at 6 PM is the worst because you're dreading it all day and you aren't able to properly enjoy your day because of it
[QUOTE=cheetahben;49706073]Working a 4 hour shift at 6 PM is the worst because you're dreading it all day and you aren't able to properly enjoy your day because of it[/QUOTE]
Ugh, I feel you. It sucks, because it's just a constant pressure deciding what you invest time in. When I work at the baseball field, most of shifts didn't start until 6 as well ;_;
Gonna try to pull an all nighter, though technically it's an all day-er since I got up at like 9 pm last night :v:
Random selfie time, go.
[t]http://i.imgur.com/K0kejUu.jpg[/t]
I have a poof in my hair pls help.
[QUOTE=DigitalySane;49704917]Did MDMA/Molly last weekend and dear god that was an amazing night, everything was so comfy, I felt so open, I pulled someone who was doing it there with me who was an absolute dreamboat oh god and I just feel a lot more clear about everything also my bff said some very heartwarming stuff to me ❤. 10/10 night would do again but not for a month or so.[/QUOTE]
Welcome to the world of MDMA, tread carefully but enjoy your stay.
[QUOTE=Louis;49705363]Videogames have ruined my life far more than drugs and alcohol[/QUOTE]
Videogames are a gateway drug.
I'm losing interest in video games... Or at least I just can't get as much enjoyment from them like I used to.
This really really blows because my life has turned to just laying in bed all the time staring at my phone in dark silence for hours. Games were my only hobby my whole life and now there's just a hole in my life with entertainment of any sort feeling almost impossible to achieve anymore.
This is worsened by the fact that I'm now jobless and have no real life friends..
Gonna post a pic of my grandfather when he was in the Marines just for the hell of it, helps me cope to share I guess
[t]https://scontent-ord1-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpt1/v/t1.0-9/12717445_543746755786992_8633180414488319381_n.jpg?oh=f8f30a1714258a08d7cf671be14a858c&oe=57692111[/t]
[QUOTE=kalamari13;49709498]I'm losing interest in video games... Or at least I just can't get as much enjoyment from them like I used to.
This really really blows because my life has turned to just laying in bed all the time staring at my phone in dark silence for hours. Games were my only hobby my whole life and now there's just a hole in my life with entertainment of any sort feeling almost impossible to achieve anymore.
[/QUOTE]
Hey I get that too sometimes.
Has it been like that for long? Maybe it'll go away and you'll feel like playing games again soon!
[QUOTE=Deljade;49710291]Hey I get that too sometimes.
Has it been like that for long? Maybe it'll go away and you'll feel like playing games again soon![/QUOTE]
I've been like this for months..
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
Like I physically cannot feel happiness anymore in my current household. And I'm losing more friends rather than finding anybody willing to accept me to move in.
[QUOTE=kalamari13;49710802]I've been like this for months..
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
Like I physically cannot feel happiness anymore in my current household. And I'm losing more friends rather than finding anybody willing to accept me to move in.[/QUOTE]
And what you have done to try to change this? No ones going to change this for you. Its not at all your fault that you feel like this, but you have to pursue your own happiness ultimately.
The only thing that has made me happy for the past year was my ex and drugs. I dont have either anymore and dont really know anymore what makes me happy.
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
Lately I've had 3 guys, including my best online friend say they want to be my boyfriend. Two of them quickly stopped because they realized how helpless I am. But this soulcrushing isolation, not leaving the home for weeks on end, not having anything meaningful happen in my real life; its destroying my emotions and how a normal person should be.
I know I should take babysteps in order to improve my life, and I have already. But I keep crashing down again and experiencing this cycle of job loss, friend loss, and this masochistic reclusiveness.
[QUOTE=kalamari13;49710942]The only thing that has made me happy for the past year was my ex and drugs. I dont have either anymore and dont really know anymore what makes me happy.
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
Lately I've had 3 guys, including my best online friend say they want to be my boyfriend. Two of them quickly stopped because they realized how helpless I am. But this soulcrushing isolation, not leaving the home for weeks on end, not having anything meaningful happen in my real life; its destroying my emotions and how a normal person should be.
I know I should take babysteps in order to improve my life, and I have already. But I keep crashing down again and experiencing this cycle of job loss, friend loss, and this masochistic reclusiveness.[/QUOTE]
And you also keep wallowing in self-pity. The only that made you happy was your ex and drugs, and you think that's a good thing? If the drugs were the medications prescribed to you to fight a mental disorder that is no more your fault than a rainstorm, than thats okay. recreational use, not so much.
You got antidepressants once, why haven't you communicated with your prescribing physician? Unless you went out and just found antidepressants laying around, you must have spoken to a professional at some point. Why not again? Why not communicate everything with them, tell them what you've done/not done, etc? You avoided this question last time. Hell, you seem to avoid a lot of what people say to you or suggest to you and instead go for this sort of post.
I said it last time, you are ultimately responsible for your own happiness. Sometimes there are people in your life that will try to help you find this, or push you in that direction but this isn't a constant and they can't really make you do anything. Nor do they hold any real power over you.
We all have these cycles of terrible experiences from time to time, but so long as you can learn and grow from the experience it doesn't matter. These experiences don't define you, or your future, or your worth. You may need more professional pyschological and medical help, but thats so you can live a better life moving forward.
But hey, what the hell do I know. I can't really understand what you feel and I can't really influence you, tbh. But waiting for someone to save you isn't going to work, trust me.
in other news omg this is too damn cute
[t]https://i.imgur.com/eb0cphL.gif[/t]
[QUOTE=greeley;49704944]Don't get hooked!
Someone i used to know was like that, wasn't that confident to begin with, then did MDMA/Molly and gained a load of confidence and slept with this girl he liked for ages. He then realised he didn't have the confidence without it and rapidly turned into a downward mess even though we all tried to help him.
I don't know what he does now but last time i saw him, he was a wreck.[/QUOTE]
I'll be fine I was still just as confident the next day with the guy, am seeing him again soon and I really don't have an addictive personality and mdma isn't something you can take back to back anyway.
But I appreciate the concern, I wouldn't do recreational drugs if I was ignorant of them, didn't have friends around me and had an addictive personality.
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
Oh has anyone got ideas for a Slutty costume I could wear to a party, I'm stumped on ideas.
I wish my avatar could look better than this :(
[QUOTE=Ac!dL3ak;49712139]I wish my avatar could look better than this :([/QUOTE]
cut some frames and play it a little faster
reducing the amount of colours helps too! 64 or 32 is usually ok but you have some bright ones in yours so idk
i didn't have to make mine lossy at all by doing those things, and it doesn't look too bad imo...
[QUOTE=Ac!dL3ak;49712139]I wish my avatar could look better than this :([/QUOTE]
What gangleider said will work. There are online tools that will do this for you, and with a bit of work you can also reverse the gif and make it loop perfectly. I have a bunch of Fox gif avatars that I had to cut down to fit, and reducing colors plus compressing worked wonders.
It is already at 32 colors, I've cut the animation in half, removed every other frame (and slowed the whole animation down), and it's still quite bulky; so I had to add lossiness.
[QUOTE=Ac!dL3ak;49713234]It is already at 32 colors, I've cut the animation in half, removed every other frame (and slowed the whole animation down), and it's still quite bulky; so I had to add lossiness.[/QUOTE]
[img]https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/6601025/Avatars/FP/eb0cphL2.gif[/img]
i dunno if you like it more or not but it comes in just under the limit
[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;49713407][img]https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/6601025/Avatars/FP/eb0cphL2.gif[/img]
i dunno if you like it more or not but it comes in just under the limit[/QUOTE]
I love it, but it isn't as long as I would like
Gif avatars are a balancing act between getting what you want and uttering "fuck Garry and his upload limits". No real way to win it all.
[QUOTE=Ac!dL3ak;49713452]I love it, but it isn't as long as I would like[/QUOTE]
[img]https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/6601025/Avatars/FP/eb0cphL3.gif[/img]
how's this?
filesize says 200kb but the limit is 200.1 so it should just make it
[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;49713506][img]https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/6601025/Avatars/FP/eb0cphL3.gif[/img]
how's this?
filesize says 200kb but the limit is 200.1 so it should just make it[/QUOTE]
Too big :(
[QUOTE=Ac!dL3ak;49713521]Too big :([/QUOTE]
by 0.1 kb too
just a moment
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
try it again
same file, i replaced it because i am lazy
[QUOTE=TheBrokenHobo;49713524]by 0.1 kb too
just a moment
[editline]10th February 2016[/editline]
try it again
same file, i replaced it because i am lazy[/QUOTE]
oh snahp
[QUOTE=Ac!dL3ak;49713541]oh snahp[/QUOTE]
hope ya like it
it's about as long as i could get it without having to drop the quality a ton
even chopping that single pixel off the border make it 10kb bigger :U
Why TF do I keep getting messages on dating sites from straight guys who talk about how they're looking for a girlfriend in their profiles? This is the third time its happened....
Going out with this girl on friday so fingers crossed this works out
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