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Been over 3 months without alcohol and I just feel more miserable these days. I used to drink my depression away but now every time I get drunk I become even more suicidal. I'm failing school and I tried to get sick leave but instead I got another medication and "luck with the studies". Everything is going to hell but well.. I care even less than I used to. I might be living on the streets in 2 months because I will lose all my financial support when I drop from school. Driving car from bridge into ice cold river sounds really tempting. pff 3 more days at my parents place and then I can get back to my own place and be high for next 2 weeks without any contact to other human beings.

bad idea

[QUOTE=rulssi;38938237]Been over 3 months without alcohol and I just feel more miserable these days. I used to drink my depression away but now every time I get drunk I become even more suicidal. I'm failing school and I tried to get sick leave but instead I got another medication and "luck with the studies". Everything is going to hell but well.. I care even less than I used to. I might be living on the streets in 2 months because I will lose all my financial support when I drop from school. Driving car from bridge into ice cold river sounds really tempting. pff 3 more days at my parents place and then I can get back to my own place and be high for next 2 weeks without any contact to other human beings.[/QUOTE] have you tried any prescribed drugs for your depression, at least talked to a professional about your problems?

The chick that I like likes my buddy, but my buddy doesn't like her. What do DD :(

My best friend, who is like a brother to me might be moving away. I can't even convey how bad this saddens me. As Penn Jillette might say, we have a Lennon and McCartney type of relationship. Feel kind of silly getting this upset over it but this really hit my like a brick.

does anyone have some kind of addiction help forum thats very active? i really need some advice and i dont think this place is active enough.

[QUOTE=dongalator;39278251]does anyone have some kind of addiction help forum thats very active? i really need some advice and i dont think this place is active enough.[/QUOTE] [url]http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/[/url] One of the best for information on harm reduction/addiction help. [editline]19th January 2013[/editline] Maybe check out [url]http://drugs-forum.com/index.php[/url] also [editline]19th January 2013[/editline] But the responses aren't always that fast, if you truely need instant addiction help you should seek someone to talk to in person/over the phone/VOIP

[QUOTE=creative;39278651][url]http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/[/url] One of the best for information on harm reduction/addiction help. [editline]19th January 2013[/editline] Maybe check out [url]http://drugs-forum.com/index.php[/url] also [editline]19th January 2013[/editline] But the responses aren't always that fast, if you truely need instant addiction help you should seek someone to talk to in person/over the phone/VOIP[/QUOTE] thanks. i really appreciate your help.

I want to die, I feel like I'm only alive as a support system to my family and what few friends I have

[QUOTE=RAG Frag;39323679]I want to die, I feel like I'm only alive as a support system to my family and what few friends I have[/QUOTE] what would make you want to live?

This thread blows and its irrelevant to the DD

Thanks tittles now im going to kill myself

I suppose you're supposed to post here if you're under the influence and feeling depressed, having a bad trip or somethin I dunno

[QUOTE=tittles650;39325883]This thread blows and its irrelevant to the DD[/QUOTE] it's depressing. i'm embarrassed i made the OP.. oh gawd how pathetic [editline]24th January 2013[/editline] i'm thankful i learned and grew from all my suicidal idealization and episodes though - it made me stronger.

[QUOTE=MrJazzy;39340406]I suppose you're supposed to post here if you're under the influence and feeling depressed, having a bad trip or somethin I dunno[/QUOTE] I would assume it's more that DD feels (from what I can gather) that we're a big "family" for want of a better word and that we can help each other out with helpful insight and support to problems someone is having rather than that person having nowhere to release their feelings/thoughts. Ergo, it's better to vent on a forum you regularly visit than keeping shit that will only make you feel worse keeping bottled up.

really? I always thought this was a comedy thread to laugh at people less well off than you [editline]24th January 2013[/editline] dont rate me dumb bro I was joking

How bout this, go get a joint, walk down the street see if you see a really hot chick. and ask if she wants to share a joint with you or if she has a lighter. best place are bus stops, lol [QUOTE=RAG Frag;39323679]I want to die, I feel like I'm only alive as a support system to my family and what few friends I have[/QUOTE]

I think I've finally started to put my sad story behind me, through all the backstabbing, emotional, bullshit. Through all of the cutting, drinking away my problems..attempted suicide..3 years of this shit.. i finally have actually started to feel better about myself. Happy even. I've started to have deep feelings for a friend of mine, and she's having them as well. My grades have started to come back up to the standards i had before. I'm studying and actually enjoying myself. I..it does start to get better guys.. I'm not just saying this because of the thread, things can [B]always[/B] get better. I mean i don't have a dad in my life, single mother trying to raise me and my sis, and I'm making this better for me. <3 feel better DD, all of you. You always have someone to talk to. Get what you want from this post, but I felt like I needed to say it. Also totally not crying right now.

[QUOTE=Blazed.I.Stay;39340780]it's depressing. i'm embarrassed i made the OP.. oh gawd how pathetic [editline]24th January 2013[/editline] i'm thankful i learned and grew from all my suicidal idealization and episodes though - it made me stronger.[/QUOTE] Man, I thought you were dead :suicide: I'm glad you overcame you moment of feeling down. There are many different sides of life, the thing is - surviving. No one said it was easy. Just keep on keeping, all of you! Suicide, is weak. It's going to take a MAN to tough it out, something that a boy(influenced by whatever drug)will never be able to do. BTW, I specifically came to the last page to see if you were still alive:rolleyes:

[QUOTE=Ripvayne;38994258]My best friend, who is like a brother to me might be moving away. I can't even convey how bad this saddens me. As Penn Jillette might say, we have a Lennon and McCartney type of relationship. Feel kind of silly getting this upset over it but this really hit my like a brick.[/QUOTE] I'm in the same situation. It really hurts.

[QUOTE=Joseph Smith;39367399]I'm in the same situation. It really hurts.[/QUOTE] Man I went through that with my only true friends it was us 5 and we went through everything together and did everything together. Im the only 1 left now everyone else lives like 4 hours+ away now and 1 of them moved all the way to washington state. It sucks and yea it hurts but thats life man, something we all endure and wind up going through.

Man fuck females and their bull shit games...I didn't even look for a girlfriend for the past 4 years because I didn't want to deal with the bull shit. The last girl I dated moved away and has now moved back and hinted very clearly that she was interested in starting off where we left off. Her, another mutual friend of ours and this dude brian came to get me but the whole time she and brian were all over each other. WHAT THE FUCK. Im an individual who falls in love all to easily and was so happy that I would have another shot at love with her only for it to be shot down in a blaze of glory. GOD DAMNIT why do girls do that shit to me. I have the biggest heart of anyone I know, I always give my all to everything only to be treated like shit. [editline]27th January 2013[/editline] Does that bitch not have feelings or what? Im just so pissed that someone could disregard someone's feelings with such ease and not even give the slightest of a fuck.

she probably didn't think it would hurt you that much [editline]27th January 2013[/editline] learn to pretend you care more than you actually do, and only really care about a girl a lot to the point where you will be really upset that if you break if you've been dating them for a decent amount of time

Unfortunately bro, [I]she might be a ho. Yo. Fasho.[/I]

[QUOTE=acer8;39375396]Man fuck females and their bull shit games...I didn't even look for a girlfriend for the past 4 years because I didn't want to deal with the bull shit. The last girl I dated moved away and has now moved back and hinted very clearly that she was interested in starting off where we left off. Her, another mutual friend of ours and this dude brian came to get me but the whole time she and brian were all over each other. WHAT THE FUCK. Im an individual who falls in love all to easily and was so happy that I would have another shot at love with her only for it to be shot down in a blaze of glory. GOD DAMNIT why do girls do that shit to me. I have the biggest heart of anyone I know, I always give my all to everything only to be treated like shit. [editline]27th January 2013[/editline] Does that bitch not have feelings or what? Im just so pissed that someone could disregard someone's feelings with such ease and not even give the slightest of a fuck.[/QUOTE] Uhhh, not to be a dick but did you actually state that YOU were interested in taking another shot with her? Did you specify "Hey, I kinda like you, I want to take this seriously" or even hint at it? If you didn't give her a notion that you were reciprocating the feelings she apparently showed in you she could have taken it as a sign you weren't interested and that she could move on.

I'll just quote what I put in the other thread. I've been played just to fulfil her dumb need for a fuck and she'll play me off as another one of those 'creepy guys' when she is done. [QUOTE=orcywoo6;39377502]So I'm dealing with a suicidal emotional girl that constantly has breakdowns and mega anxiety issues and can't make up her mind with feelings or anything that in the nicest way possible is a bit of a slut when it comes to guys. She'll tell me I'm the sweetest guy ever but at the same time she'll be saying that to four others whilst screenshotting our conversations to make me look like a creep like she does to the others. Essentially pitting us against each other. She'll say she hates her body and etc etc, yet she'll constantly take provocative pictures and pictures of herself to reap the attention that she claims she hates. She's honestly fun to be around and everything but these issues she has are crazy. We're probably going to have sex, if I get it out of the way I can probably stop dwelling on this so much. I've got my feelings under control its just a damn shame that I can't help her with her issues, its horrible to see someone so destroyed. I really started coming to like her until I snapped out of it and woke up. I don't want to go through any inevitable hurt so I'll just quit whilst I'm still ahead and my feelings can be controlled. I'm sure she could try harder to fix her problems though, really. I've tried to help how I can but this is up to her now. All I want is someone to appreciate me as much as I appreciate them, someone that I can genuinely care about without having to worry about being fucked over. Someone genuine. I always seem to get in with the wrong kind of people, I have no idea how I always end up attracting the wrong ones. I'm really worried all this shit I get from people that I actually give a fuck about is turning me cold, because it is.[/QUOTE] [IMG]http://25.media.tumblr.com/737e107f41c701e32b69c876355c638f/tumblr_mgzyment1F1rq5liro1_250.gif[/IMG][IMG]http://24.media.tumblr.com/b347eaf0ad49be14d49d6e732b777465/tumblr_mgzyment1F1rq5liro2_250.gif[/IMG][IMG]http://24.media.tumblr.com/cea48cb1b4403673427bfcdb83e0f12f/tumblr_mgzyment1F1rq5liro3_400.gif[/IMG] I've been struggling with so much anxiety problems too lately for no fucking reason and feeling shitty, I was actually feeling amazing only last week. I need a fucking joint or something.

I think i have the flu again

[QUOTE=Arkay;39376649]Uhhh, not to be a dick but did you actually state that YOU were interested in taking another shot with her? Did you specify "Hey, I kinda like you, I want to take this seriously" or even hint at it? If you didn't give her a notion that you were reciprocating the feelings she apparently showed in you she could have taken it as a sign you weren't interested and that she could move on.[/QUOTE] Yea I made it pretty clear that I was ready to continue what we had as well. That's when she was all like "Yea I would really enjoy that, I haven't seen you in forever and it would be absolutely GREAT to see you again ;p" her words exactly right after I told her that I wanted to hang out with her sometime just me and her like old times. I told her I still had feelings buried deep down for her and that she was the last girl I had dated since she had moved.

[QUOTE=acer8;39379583]Yea I made it pretty clear that I was ready to continue what we had as well. That's when she was all like "Yea I would really enjoy that, I haven't seen you in forever and it would be absolutely GREAT to see you again ;p" her words exactly right after I told her that I wanted to hang out with her sometime just me and her like old times. I told her I still had feelings buried deep down for her and that she was the last girl I had dated since she had moved.[/QUOTE] [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmqpQb6x74M[/media]

[QUOTE=orcywoo6;39378179]I'll just quote what I put in the other thread. I've been played just to fulfil her dumb need for a fuck and she'll play me off as another one of those 'creepy guys' when she is done. [IMG]http://25.media.tumblr.com/737e107f41c701e32b69c876355c638f/tumblr_mgzyment1F1rq5liro1_250.gif[/IMG][IMG]http://24.media.tumblr.comb347eaf0ad49be14d49d6e732b777465/tumblr_mgzyment1F1rq5liro2_250.gif[/IMG][IMG]http://24.media.tumblr.com/cea48cb1b4403673427bfcdb83e0f12f/tumblr_mgzyment1F1rq5liro3_400.gif[/IMG] I've been struggling with so much anxiety problems too lately for no fucking reason and feeling shitty, I was actually feeling amazing only last week. I need a fucking joint or something.[/QUOTE] Seen something like this before, if it's at all similar she is either sociopathic or borderline. She plays up her isssues as a tool, and has been since she was 13. Expect her to demand violent sex, and to make you feel guilty/blackmail you with the bruises from it. Does she cut? Were all of her old boyfriends irredeemable assholes or somehow pathetic? Does she show you the screenshots from other guys to make it clear to you that if she doesn't get her way she'll get revenge however she can? Does she cut and use threats of hurting herself to reprimand you? Does she insult you and then immediately take her back. I learned the hard way from giving in, having sex with her will only give her more power over you and opportunities for revenge once the relationship goes sour. Don't act like you hate her if it does, just aboid talking to her in person at all costs. Sorry, this probably doesn't apply to you, I just reexperience a lot of that shit mentally (dont know if that makes ssense if I think about her/when she tries to get back together with me, even after ruining my life and being the reason my group of friends split up and so many of them dropped out. Is a good day with her when she doesnt find some way go threaten/hurt you? oDo you find yourself feeling enormously thankful to her when such a rare day occurs? Sorry, this post is far more about me than you....I need to friggin get over it already. [editline]27th January 2013[/editline] Edit All of my friendships seem hollow nowadays, I'm just too scated of other people anymore to enjoy their company.