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[QUOTE=Gears of duty;35474386]I have problems taking good criticism to heart. My teacher keeps telling me I'm above average when it comes to grades and general order/behaviour. It only lasts a few minutes until I feel like a worthless underachiever again though. It seems like my teacher knows I have very low self-esteem, but I could use some extra help feeling like someone useful. I study welding and industrial production and I do pretty well in the workshop, but the others just seem so energetic and confident compared to me. It makes me feel like crap. Advice would be much appreciated.[/QUOTE] Ohh I know that feeling, teacher asked me to do something and I shrugged and went all "Can do" next thing I know she wants to talk in private and being all "Yeah you're a cute guy and I spot talent and possiblities". whaaaaat.

Again feeling shitty, even tho hour ago everything was fine and there's no reason for my to be upset (not in angry way). This evening sucks.

my serotonin my precious serotonin :(

[QUOTE=Gears of duty;35474386]I have problems taking good criticism to heart. My teacher keeps telling me I'm above average when it comes to grades and general order/behaviour. It only lasts a few minutes until I feel like a worthless underachiever again though. It seems like my teacher knows I have very low self-esteem, but I could use some extra help feeling like someone useful. I study welding and industrial production and I do pretty well in the workshop, but the others just seem so energetic and confident compared to me. It makes me feel like crap. Advice would be much appreciated.[/QUOTE] Yea i hear ya, cuz it doesn't really mean anything coming from some teacher. I only feel good about compliments when people I care about give them to me

Sometimes I hate who I am and how I act. I hate it so much. I feel that I could kill myself and all would be well.

My girlfriend of almost two years broke up with me today. I don't know what else to say.

[QUOTE=Werem00se;35501171]My girlfriend of almost two years broke up with me today. I don't know what else to say.[/QUOTE] :( I hope you're all right man, that really sucks

[video=youtube;o9mJ82x_l-E]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9mJ82x_l-E&ob=av2e[/video] One of these nights again.. I sit at my computer.. all my friends are somewhere. No one to call, no one to talk to. For months I have felt that my life is totally useless. I can't get anything done, haven't had a job for 2 years now. Last time I talked with a girl.. 2 years ago. Oh god I don't even want to remember. I just feel like stealing some money or car and just driving empty abandoned roads away from everything with a bottle of vodka as my friend.

think i found the root of my problems .. a ridiculous amount of stress

I just fucking love each and every one of you. That is all. Simply. No more no less. Just pure, unequivocal love. You don't have to return it, all I ask is that you accept it and let it brighten up your day (I hope it does at least).

Hmm, just need to share my story for once. I never complain about anything to anyone, or talk about bad stuff, I'm always the happy guy, the one people talk to to get cheered up. Anyway, I have tinnitus (which is basicly a constant beep in your ears) and not a light one. I'm having trouble sleeping lately because of my tinnitus, but also because I quit weed. The reason that I quit is also tinnitus, whenever I was high the beep would get abnormally loud. Once it was so loud that I became sick of the noise and I had to puke and collapsed. ...so I came to realise that weed and tinnitus are not a good combination, same story with alchohol, makes it worse. So basicly I can't do shit anymore when I go out. I don't think people who don't have this realise how life-changing this is. It seriously affects your social life as I'm afraid to go to clubs or concerts, even with my ear-plugs i'm afraid I'll make it worse. My biggest passion is music, but I notice everytime I work on tunes, my ears get very sensitive and high tones hurt like fuck. Felt like sharing this but ah well, I'll have to learn to deal with it, loving life too much. It's just well annoying. [SUB]fucking knobhead beep.[/SUB]

Is there nothing you can do to fix it? Doctors perhaps? I can't even imagine the torment you go through man... For a couple of nights ([I]nights[/I]) I had this annoying fucking beeping in my ears. I only heard it when it was quiet, so it was only a problem when I tried to sleep. It kept me up so fucking much, I couldn't sleep. Violently scratching my ears and probing with a finger to try and make it stop, it drove me crazy. I honestly found it so difficult to sleep. I really hope your situation gets better man because shit like tinnitus sucks and no one should have to put up with it :(

I went to the doctor with my tinnitus (have had it since I was 12 years old, I'm 17 now) and I'm gonna get some stuff I have in my mouth while I sleep. This, over time, will heal my tinnitus because it has something to do with the jaw muscles. I suggest you try this out mello. It's like a plastic shape that's gonna cover my teeth while I sleep. Some people gnash their teeth at night so this might help if that's the case.

Loopoo, there's currently no cure for the kind of tinnitus I have. :/ and Gears of Duty, Well, there's different types of tinnitus. In your case, it's because your Jaw Muscles are too tense. In my case however, it's becuase I've been exposed to too much loud sound for too long. It happened by my own dumb fault really, standing at the front row in a tent on a festival with electronic artists. The volume was no doubt way over 100db and this for 4 hours whitout a break. First month after the festival I couldn't hear shit, the beep was so loud that when someone talked i only heard sharp noises like an "S" or a "T". Then luckily, after a month that was gone and the riniging noise developed to a beep,like the ones you get when you turn on an old TV, but a tad louder and constantly in my head. I've been to multiple doctors and it has nothing to do with my jaw muscles or any other physical reasons. It's purely because my ears have been bombed with sound too much. Basically, The sound destroyed some of the higher frequency receptors (little hairs) in my ears, my brain notices it can't hear any high frequency sounds so it sends out a beep on the frequency that i can't hear anymore and thinks it's helping.. Had it like that for almost a year now, obviously I learnt living with it, I have to. But the fear of going to gigs or clubs is still there. I'm starting to sleep better and better but the fact that this is going to stay and will get worse and worse frightens me.

Oh that happened me to too, thank god it was only for a week or two. My own stupid fault at a gig, in the front row for the whole night. Hopefully you get better too!

Hi, recently after taking a load of drugs I've been feeling really down and lonely. I sometimes have rushes of excitement and I feel normal, but 20 minutes later I'm down again. I contemplate life and over analyse everything, what are thoughts memory, how everything works. It sounds crazy I know haha, I don't know if I've just become abit more philosophical about life, but it sometimes worries me and I work myself up into a panic attack. I wish I could just go back to being normal, I'm fed up of feeling like shit all the time and like nothing could make me happy.

found out a family friend died last week due to cancer. He was our pediatrician, had me and my sis as patients when we were young. Him and my dad were good friends too. Shame he smoked so much, my dad tried to help him quit, but i guess he never did.

[url]http://www.reddit.com/r/trees/comments/s3v3y/too_many_problems_warning_long_post/[/url] This is something I wrote on Reddit's /r/trees. Not sure if your guys like /r/trees or not

[QUOTE=Jah Mason;35519064]Hi, recently after taking a load of drugs I've been feeling really down and lonely. I sometimes have rushes of excitement and I feel normal, but 20 minutes later I'm down again. I contemplate life and over analyse everything, what are thoughts memory, how everything works. It sounds crazy I know haha, I don't know if I've just become abit more philosophical about life, but it sometimes worries me and I work myself up into a panic attack. I wish I could just go back to being normal, I'm fed up of feeling like shit all the time and like nothing could make me happy.[/QUOTE] I am like this all the time. Just more bi-polar 'style',a week up, a week down, usually my 'downtimes' are hm, 'bigger' than up's, usually questioning reality, the point of life, and those random crazy thougths like how would walls look if they could rot (which i imagined really). Sometimes i feel i have little impact over my thougths, and sometimes i do.

Ah guys, don't let it get you down too much. Lately, I've realized we're all just sacks of meat and the only thing that is "us" is our brains. I've realized we're all nothing but animals and we'll all end up dead sooner or later. Don't let it get you down. That's all I can give in the way of advice. I just philosophise a lot about it but I don't ever let it make me upset. Live life and enjoy it :)

[QUOTE=loopoo;35528491]Ah guys, don't let it get you down too much. Lately, I've realized we're all just sacks of meat and the only thing that is "us" is our brains. I've realized we're all nothing but animals and we'll all end up dead sooner or later. Don't let it get you down. That's all I can give in the way of advice. I just philosophise a lot about it but I don't ever let it make me upset. Live life and enjoy it :)[/QUOTE] But, what is 'we will', future is abstract. Look, i wanted to type that in few seconds, but i've just done it, so there's no future, and no now , there is just past, when you read it, you've done it in past, what you do, is past as we speak, what you wanted to do will be past. And death, death is nothing but another stage in life. Worms feed on our rotting bodies, that shit out our minerals, that plants can use to create life giving, SUGAR, that cows, and other animals eat, and animals eat animals, and humans eat animals, so basically when we die, we are being eaten by future generations, by our death we give life. Nothing has true meaning, what we do, what we have, everything will die, it feels as if we are in mad mans experiment, trying to create the best natural killer, and from what i see, we win, and fail at same time, since we need to relay on 'enslaved' kinds of animals like cows.

[QUOTE=Amic;35528640] Nothing has true meaning, what we do, what we have, everything will die, it feels as if we are in mad mans experiment, trying to create the best natural killer, and from what i see, we win, and fail at same time, since we need to relay on 'enslaved' kinds of animals like cows.[/QUOTE] Nothing has to have true meaning, that's not what it's about. Being bi-polar is something you can help, when you get down, lift yourself up again.. easier than you think. Go out, have fun, try on girls, get completely wasted. It will all be against your will cause you feel like utter shit in downstate but force yourself. Give meaning to stuff for yourself instead of generalizing the word "meaning" as something that is universal and the same for everyone. Not knowing what the future brings is a good thing, I constantly look forward to surprises, alltho those surprises are caused by my own behaviour, I don't stay at home when I'm down, I go out. I force myself to go out. Move and fuck yourself up in a good way. Then, eventually, you die, knowing you did the illest shit you can achieve. You'll be happy and meaning will be irrelevant.

[QUOTE=mello;35532837]Nothing has to have true meaning, that's not what it's about. Being bi-polar is something you can help, when you get down, lift yourself up again.. easier than you think. Go out, have fun, try on girls, get completely wasted. It will all be against your will cause you feel like utter shit in downstate but force yourself. Give meaning to stuff for yourself instead of generalizing the word "meaning" as something that is universal and the same for everyone. Not knowing what the future brings is a good thing, I constantly look forward to surprises, alltho those surprises are caused by my own behaviour, I don't stay at home when I'm down, I go out. I force myself to go out. Move and fuck yourself up in a good way. Then, eventually, you die, knowing you did the illest shit you can achieve. You'll be happy and meaning will be irrelevant.[/QUOTE] I don't say it's sad that nothing has meaning. I don't think it has impact on anyones life, after all, it doesn't matters eh? And not knowing what future brings is the greatest thing, because it is you and other people who bring the future.

[QUOTE=mello;35505805]Hmm, just need to share my story for once. I never complain about anything to anyone, or talk about bad stuff, I'm always the happy guy, the one people talk to to get cheered up. Anyway, I have tinnitus (which is basicly a constant beep in your ears) and not a light one. I'm having trouble sleeping lately because of my tinnitus, but also because I quit weed. The reason that I quit is also tinnitus, whenever I was high the beep would get abnormally loud. Once it was so loud that I became sick of the noise and I had to puke and collapsed. ...so I came to realise that weed and tinnitus are not a good combination, same story with alchohol, makes it worse. So basicly I can't do shit anymore when I go out. I don't think people who don't have this realise how life-changing this is. It seriously affects your social life as I'm afraid to go to clubs or concerts, even with my ear-plugs i'm afraid I'll make it worse. My biggest passion is music, but I notice everytime I work on tunes, my ears get very sensitive and high tones hurt like fuck. Felt like sharing this but ah well, I'll have to learn to deal with it, loving life too much. It's just well annoying. [SUB]fucking knobhead beep.[/SUB][/QUOTE] That really sucks dude, I was thinking a couple weeks back after I saw an ad for medication for people that are born with tinnitus about how terrible it would be.. I have a knack for empathizing with people because I can really make a mental picture of what its like to be in their shoes, and I can really see how bad it is for you. When I was an early teen I had a firecracker blow up next to my ear while holding it and my ear rang for like 3 days, that really sucked and it was only a short, thank god, temporary thing.

I hope stayblazed isnt dead :(

saw doc again today. Talked about weed for a good bit and some of the psychology behind it. Today he just answered some of my questions and in the end i really felt good. It was something about how to maximize the good of a quality at the same time as minimizing the bad of it. Said how my psychological/perceptive over sensitivity can be a good thing if you control it, something about that made me feel good since i hold that gift very high. Next week i start the real therapy of learning control over my anxiety (on 4/20 lol, def gonna be relaxed that day).

good therapy is good. people you just pay to talk to suck. i like the kind of therapy that's balls out, tough love, straight to the point type shit. and it's what i get and it helps shitloads. and that guy above who posted a week ago. i'm going to comfirm what zach said about it being a panic attack. i've had the exact same feelings and it was all due to panic. i'd ask your doctor for some benzos or something. but start off with describing the panic attacks and the severity and ask about kinds of treatment. say you're losing sleep over this shit even if it's a lie. just make sure they understand how fucking severe it is. then lean towards benzos benzos saved my fucking life. even though it took me a fucking year to get them even though i pretty much needed them then but they didn't give them to me cause i was "abusing" them even though it was staff's job to regulate my consumption of meds. incompetent fucks

Again feeling shitty, sad, dropping a tear or two from time to time. I hate myself for not being able to study as good as others, and actually being again in risk of failing this year. Every evening i feel down, shitty. Almost every day, no matter how 'happy' (or rather how much i try not to think about it when i am with people) i have headaches in morning (9-13 AM). Sometimes even imagining my own death. Atleast i am certain that i won't or want to suicide. Actually been like that for quite few years, with few months of relief. I know some of you may tell me i should go for therapist or atleast talk about it with parents. The reason i didn't do that is my fear, of someone else knowing, that infact i even had a nightmare about it, sounds stupid i know, and for therapist, i don't have money or really will to see one, alteast not at this time.

[QUOTE=Amic;35719816]Again feeling shitty, sad, dropping a tear or two from time to time. I hate myself for not being able to study as good as others, and actually being again in risk of failing this year. Every evening i feel down, shitty. Almost every day, no matter how 'happy' (or rather how much i try not to think about it when i am with people) i have headaches in morning [b](9-13 AM).[/b]Sometimes even imagining my own death. Atleast i am certain that i won't or want to suicide. Actually been like that for quite few years, with few months of relief. I know some of you may tell me i should go for therapist or atleast talk about it with parents. The reason i didn't do that is my fear, of someone else knowing, that infact i even had a nightmare about it, sounds stupid i know, and for therapist, i don't have money or really will to see one, alteast not at this time.[/QUOTE] well look on the brightside you get an extra hour in your day compared to everyone else

Fucking typos. And reados. Tried to read some pages, but when i read 'unicorn' instead of 'union' i gave up.