[QUOTE=Cypher_09;35861212]with the way i'm feeling i'd rather be in there today. i had a huge argument with my parents earlier in which they were both shouting at me (at once) telling me how useless and pathetic i am. they killed my brain.[/QUOTE]
what the fuck is wrong with them? have you told them about you wanting to hurt yourself?
also, i'm sure that in a few months you will be really happy that you chose to get hospitalized :)
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;35861189]chilling and playing ARMA cant go in the same sentence, that game makes me rage like a motherfucker :v:[/QUOTE]
have you played DotA yet?
I watched some guy work himself into frenzy because I misclicked and he died because of it. He reported me, told my clan about what I did and banlisted everyone in the game. Good times.
[QUOTE=/B/rother;35861228]what the fuck is wrong with them? have you told them about you wanting to hurt yourself?
also, i'm sure that in a few months you will be really happy that you chose to get hospitalized :)[/QUOTE]
nah i don't really share it with them. they don't understand in the slightest (they say they do but with what they say to me when they're angry then it shows they [b]really[/b] don't).
i'm sure i will be happy about being hospitalised, the one thing i'm not looking forward to is how my parents are going act towards me; they're in huge denial about my illness. infact, to them i don't even have an illness and i just get "stressed". when i'm depressed they think it's nothing (this is absolutely infuriating as how sometimes she tries to "talk me out of it" by telling me at least i don't have a full-time job), like i don't have it as bad as the people who work every day (i.e. my parents basically saying "you think you have it bad? look at me, i work for the family and household i [B]chose[/B] to run"; and when i'm manic she doesn't even notice. i were talking to her the other day and she keeps coming up with these stupid reasons and excuses to why i'm ill at the moment, and telling my college tutor these things!
"sorry he hasn't been in this week, he's been a bit stressed recently. we had some bereavements in the family last year"
i had to send him an email back that day telling him the truth and to pretty much ignore her, she's in her own world of denial.
[QUOTE=rulssi;35857431]Going to get 1500 micrograms of 25i-NBOMe this week. :p[/QUOTE]
I too am going to buy it. It's not illegal yet in Estonia and is cheaper than LSD, which was fine too, but how is 25I-NBOMe compared to LSD? I have worked through whole Erowid vault and read all experiences but still it's quite a mystery.
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;35859428]No matter what I mix or what combinations I take, I have never thrown up from alcohol or other drugs yet I have become comatose, I think if I ever vomit it will mean Im very near death :v:[/QUOTE]
Comatose eh? What was that like?
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[QUOTE=Eluveitie;35861327]have you played DotA yet?
I watched some guy work himself into frenzy because I misclicked and he died because of it. He reported me, told my clan about what I did and banlisted everyone in the game. Good times.[/QUOTE]
I love Dota but the community is a sea of autism rage
[QUOTE=valiant1k;35861763]I too am going to buy it. It's not illegal yet in Estonia and is cheaper than LSD, which was fine too, but how is 25I-NBOMe compared to LSD? I have worked through whole Erowid vault and read all experiences but still it's quite a mystery.[/QUOTE]
Be real careful dosing it man, dont want you to die on us!
Just got a phone call from a number I don't know, it looked odd so I didn't answer uhh
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35861781]Comatose eh? What was that like?
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I love Dota but the community is a sea of autism rage[/QUOTE]
It was like suddenly waking up at home with no idea how i got home and finding dicks drawn on my face and my nails coloured in and "I eat unicorns out" written on my arm
I love having a boyfriend who smokes weed
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Also Cypher I have been lurking and seeing your recent drama. I have to ask are you smoking while this is going on. I get very sad after I get high. Those people who say there is no crash after weed is dead wrong.
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35861933]I love having a boyfriend who smokes weed
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Also Cypher I have been lurking and seeing your recent drama. I have to ask are you smoking while this is going on. I get very sad after I get high. Those people who say there is no crash after weed is dead wrong.[/QUOTE]
yeah late at night
Not dead wrong, they just don't experience it for themself, its wrong to say that noone has a crash but a lot of people do not.
[QUOTE=Stormcharger;35861971]Not dead wrong, they just don't experience it for themself, its wrong to say that noone has a crash but a lot of people do not.[/QUOTE]
Ok thats fair, but I know I do. I get very tired and very sad after I come down thats why I usually smoke at night. So I guess its cypher's decision
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35861994]Ok thats fair, but I know I do. I get very tired and very sad after I come down thats why I usually smoke at night. So I guess its cypher's decision[/QUOTE]
it's the same with me that's why I smoke at night then go to bed when i sober up
trippy music video time
[media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zTNbY8FOK54[/media]
My high always ends in sleep or a policeman talking to me.
[QUOTE=DJK;35862062]My high always ends in sleep or a policeman talking to me.[/QUOTE]
what about a dream about a policeman talking to you?
I twitch a lot when stoned. My friends almost convinced me I was having a stroke one time because I was twitching almost solely on my right side.
Too much smoke in right lung, try smoking on your side
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35862142]Too much smoke in right lung, try smoking on your side[/QUOTE]
is this true?
[QUOTE=Cypher_09;35862179]is this true?[/QUOTE]
Joke
So I smoked weed a second ago...
[editline]7th May 2012[/editline]
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35862296]Joke[/QUOTE]
Are you really a sloth?
[QUOTE=steven688;35862341]
Are you really a sloth?[/QUOTE]
Yes
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35862372]Yes[/QUOTE]
Do sloths smoke weed?
hey guys, I like weed.
is this the 12 step program for smoking even more weed
[editline]7th May 2012[/editline]
i'm playing guitar with a matchstick
[editline]7th May 2012[/editline]
haha i'm gonna play with an unused one and see if it lights up
[editline]7th May 2012[/editline]
no it just snaps :(
Ninja!
[QUOTE=Potato-Pugilist;35862142]Too much smoke in right lung, try smoking on your side[/QUOTE]
I wanna try this now just to see how hilarious it is.
[QUOTE=Eluveitie;35861327]have you played DotA yet?
I watched some guy work himself into frenzy because I misclicked and he died because of it. He reported me, told my clan about what I did and banlisted everyone in the game. Good times.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, I couldn't imagine playing DotA 2 while high. It's so complex, it's almost like a second job...item builds, heroes, ganking vs. pushing, laning against certain heroes, jungling, etc.
I couldn't play it while high, I just know it.
[QUOTE=Cypher_09;35861677]nah i don't really share it with them. they don't understand in the slightest (they say they do but with what they say to me when they're angry then it shows they [b]really[/b] don't).
i'm sure i will be happy about being hospitalised, the one thing i'm not looking forward to is how my parents are going act towards me; they're in huge denial about my illness. infact, to them i don't even have an illness and i just get "stressed". when i'm depressed they think it's nothing (this is absolutely infuriating as how sometimes she tries to "talk me out of it" by telling me at least i don't have a full-time job), like i don't have it as bad as the people who work every day (i.e. my parents basically saying "you think you have it bad? look at me, i work for the family and household i [B]chose[/B] to run"; and when i'm manic she doesn't even notice. i were talking to her the other day and she keeps coming up with these stupid reasons and excuses to why i'm ill at the moment, and telling my college tutor these things!
"sorry he hasn't been in this week, he's been a bit stressed recently. we had some bereavements in the family last year"
i had to send him an email back that day telling him the truth and to pretty much ignore her, she's in her own world of denial.[/QUOTE]
some people just dont understand mental illness. Its not as simple as a broken arm, where you can 1) show how the injury/disease happened 2) show that it is an injury/disease 3) have a clear cut way of treating the clear cut injury/disease and 4) cure it. My family knows about mental illness as almost all of them have had gone to therapy in their past. My sister's bf didnt really understand her depression and thought it was something he could help her out of himself by just being there for her and try to 'snap' her out of it (over time they talked it over and he slowly got it). And most people who dont know think that, that mental illness/disorders are something you can just come out of, but in reality it takes a lot more work than that. If its biological (in the sense that their is damage to the brain or an chemical imbalance) then you need meds, along with cognitive therapy to combat the years and decades you have been thinking this way about yourself. Thats the problem with depression treatment these days, people think drugs is all they need, when in reality what happens is that you eliminate the shit feeling but you never get the feeling of joy back. Its mending the mindset and the way you think that is the final step that meds cant help. Hope you get better and the sooner you get started the better, i learned the hard way as my anxiety and depression amplified over the years as i didnt get it treated and fucked myself over. I feel a bit better now that ive started, just knowing you are getting help adds to it.
[QUOTE=cheetahben;35862664]Yeah, I couldn't imagine playing DotA 2 while high. It's so complex, it's almost like a second job...item builds, heroes, ganking vs. pushing, laning against certain heroes, jungling, etc.
I couldn't play it while high, I just know it.[/QUOTE]
I have played Dota high. It was an all you can eat buffet for the enemy team becuase my brain has all 12 herbs and spices.
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