I love my mom but hate my dad. My mom is nice and supportive of me being gay and wanting to be a femboy, while my dad is an extremely conservative cuntish conspiracy theory nut. Both are Canadian but my dad tries his hardest to come off as Texan for whatever reason.
[QUOTE=Pascall;53103148]My parents have some really outdated views and I have no idea what would happen if I came out as bi AND trans so who knows... but I can’t stop caring about them tbh. They've provided for me forever, even now that I’m well into adulthood. It’s a hard place to be in sometimes.[/QUOTE]
I didn't really clarify in my post but my relationship with my family is complex as fuck and I can't spend too much time trying to think about it or understand it or I just kinda shut down tbh
Like the big upsides are that my Dad payed for my school before I dropped out, and helped with rent for a while while I was getting on my feet. But monetary stuff is about the most positive my father has brought into my life, because he used to have a real penchant at best never doing anything with me and at worst just being abusive. I still don't hate him because after all I've been through the past years I eventually just kinda realized that's a dead-end road. Our relations are cordial by all means, but its mostly because I know it's best for my mother and sister that I do my best to get on with him.
Also I stopped posting here mostly, been stupid busy with work. Actually been considering quitting for most of this week, for various reasons. Went back into going hard into dating, got my profile a once-over by a couple of people to keep it presentable, took new pics, and sent plenty of messages. No responses though, and I actually got unmatched by the one Tinder match I've gotten in months so that was confusing. Online dating kinda sucks cus there's no way to get a vibe for people and it restricts your pool of potentials to only those you find immediately physically attractive. For me, I've always come around to finding people that I think are attractive for other reasons to be physically attractive, and online dating forces the opposite
I don't take it personally, I just assume it's my chronically bad luck. And I know that relationships aren't [I]that[/I] vital but it's one of the few thing I haven't got figured out yet so it's some sort of unbeatable challenge to me rn it feels
I'm still on good terms with my family and vice-versa. I'm still worried about when I come out to them (and they've been talking about coming down to visit at me and my SO's apt. Ofc I've always told them I'm just living with a close friend but yeah that'll get sticky..)
My dad doesn't inspire confidence in me based upon some of his views but he loves me and is proud of me for just about everything else. My mom is a similar story except her cousin is a lesbian and it seems that my mom and most of my mother's side are pretty chill about it so beacon of hope.
Time will tell.
[editline]2nd February 2018[/editline]
[QUOTE=paindoc;53103896]
[...]
Also I stopped posting here mostly, been stupid busy with work. Actually been considering quitting for most of this week, for various reasons.[/QUOTE]
I hope everything else is going well for you though. Has work just become a slog?
How do I meet people? Ones with a penis? Bars/clubs are awful, I'm too conservative for that.
Some ideas include classified ad but there has to be a better way.
WANTED:
Human, with penis.
Entry-level position req min 20 years penis ownership and maintenance, responsibilities include horizontal thrust modelling, culinary prep, Excel, HVAC/R, other duties as assigned.
CDL and Sec+ preferred.
Must be willing to relocate.
Salary: Up to 15k depending on experience.
[QUOTE=Metalcastr;53104285]How do I meet people? Ones with a penis? Bars/clubs are awful, I'm too conservative for that.
Some ideas include classified ad but there has to be a better way.
WANTED:
Human, with penis.
Entry-level position req min 20 years penis ownership and maintenance, responsibilities include horizontal thrust modelling, culinary prep, Excel, HVAC/R, other duties as assigned.
CDL and Sec+ preferred.
Must be willing to relocate.
Salary: Up to 15k depending on experience.[/QUOTE]
Just do what I did, get very lucky and get a boyfriend without really meaning to do it. Can't be [I]that[/I] hard!
[QUOTE=LoneWolf_Recon;53104156]
I hope everything else is going well for you though. Has work just become a slog?[/QUOTE]
Five months of a slog through 40k lines of code written 28 years old with no communication from my CEO about deliverables or objectives has done it. He has come to me 6 times asking for data less than a day before he needs it. Sometimes it's 15 minutes before
[QUOTE=paindoc;53103896]
Also I stopped posting here mostly, been stupid busy with work. Actually been considering quitting for most of this week, for various reasons.[/QUOTE]
Man i wouldn't. It seemed like exactly where you wanted to be, and gives you an avenue to where you intend go to. I wouldn't throw something like that away for short term relief. I'm sure if you're reasonable enough a short unpaid leave wouldn't be out of the question.
[QUOTE=Bordellimies;53104785]Just do what I did, get very lucky and get a boyfriend without really meaning to do it. Can't be [I]that[/I] hard![/QUOTE]
someone at work jokingly called my life a "series of unfortunate events" and that stuck and that sentence also sums up why it can be [I]very[/I] difficult to pull a bf.
it's not working for me so im just going to spend some time having fun with hookups, and finding out what good sex can be like before i try to settle down or anything
[QUOTE=Trilby Harlow;53105858]Man i wouldn't. It seemed like exactly where you wanted to be, and gives you an avenue to where you intend go to. I wouldn't throw something like that away for short term relief. I'm sure if you're reasonable enough a short unpaid leave wouldn't be out of the question.[/QUOTE]
I could get paid twice what I make now (putting me into the six figures, comfortably) working for MS. I'm not eager to leave by any means, and I found a fix by just telling my boss explicitly how I feel and what I'm going to do if things don't change. So that helped a bit. But it was getting testy there.
[QUOTE=paindoc;53105894]someone at work jokingly called my life a "series of unfortunate events" and that stuck and that sentence also sums up why it can be [I]very[/I] difficult to pull a bf.
it's not working for me so im just going to spend some time having fun with hookups, and finding out what good sex can be like before i try to settle down or anything
I could get paid twice what I make now (putting me into the six figures, comfortably) working for MS. I'm not eager to leave by any means, and I found a fix by just telling my boss explicitly how I feel and what I'm going to do if things don't change. So that helped a bit. But it was getting testy there.[/QUOTE]
That's some ass communication from upper management. I hope they start fixing that lack of communication from your notice.
What seems to be the standard (atleast where I'm working at), any project starts out with a meeting or two to cover the Project Requirements (PRM) and set an initial timetable of deliverables. Then a critical path of deliverables (i.e. dependencies between disciplines) is set. Then there's weekly stand up meetings to say where one is at, what one's blockers are and what one is waiting on in order to do their job.
[QUOTE=paindoc;53105894]I could get paid twice what I make now (putting me into the six figures, comfortably) working for MS. I'm not eager to leave by any means, and I found a fix by just telling my boss explicitly how I feel and what I'm going to do if things don't change. So that helped a bit. But it was getting testy there.[/QUOTE]
Yeah i was gonna say, 99/100 times simply reasonably asserting concerns makes everything better.
Though a complete lack of directives or objectives for a company putting really expensive shit in space seems like a pretty fundamental failure. That seems incredibly bizarre.
[t]https://puu.sh/zgddc/17ee515b15.JPG[/t]
In other news, I started really pulling apart Sketchy Bob. I can't paint anything until at least june, so sheet metal or frame/running gear work has to wait. Decided to just strip everything i can to fix up in a heated building, and make the truck ready for wiring later on etc.
Pulled apart the hood hinges and latch, stripped out most of the wiring under the hood, cleaned all the crap out from every little crevasse i could, and started stripping the doors down. Most of it i can save, but the right side window mechanism appears to have been brutalized by someone at some point, so oh boy, i get to spend 200 bucks on a new unit i guess.
[QUOTE=LoneWolf_Recon;53105954]That's some ass communication from upper management. I hope they start fixing that lack of communication from your notice.
What seems to be the standard (atleast where I'm working at), any project starts out with a meeting or two to cover the Project Requirements (PRM) and set an initial timetable of deliverables. Then a critical path of deliverables (i.e. dependencies between disciplines) is set. Then there's weekly stand up meetings to say where one is at, what one's blockers are and what one is waiting on in order to do their job.[/QUOTE]
Oh we do that for everything else, but I'm on the CEO's pet project and he's just not very communicative. I could say more, but it'd just be easy for someone to spread my comments around and get me fired I guess. The gist is that he should've been going through my actual manager, and communicating with him more.
[editline]4th February 2018[/editline]
[QUOTE=Trilby Harlow;53106661]Yeah i was gonna say, 99/100 times simply reasonably asserting concerns makes everything better.
Though a complete lack of directives or objectives for a company putting really expensive shit in space seems like a pretty fundamental failure. That seems incredibly bizarre.
[/QUOTE]
you'd be surprised lol
[QUOTE=paindoc;53106668]you'd be surprised lol[/QUOTE]
Well that's alarming
I'm currently barrelling through college, with v card firmly in hand. I may yet emerge from undergrad unscathed by the sinful improprieties of this godless age. Soon I will be more powerful than you can possibly imagine.
meanwhile im sitting here, no bf, but I have started drawing again and this time doing commissions. Also drawing (sometimes) gay lewds.
Overall on the up and up because I am talking to more people and making a bit of money, but still nowhere near independent and within a year I want to be on track for something more long term.
[QUOTE=mecaguy03;53120561]meanwhile im sitting here, no bf, but I have started drawing again and this time doing commissions. [B]Also drawing (sometimes) gay lewds[/B].
Overall on the up and up because I am talking to more people and making a bit of money, but still nowhere near independent and within a year I want to be on track for something more long term.[/QUOTE]
You can't just say something like that without linking to your work :v:
I have a boyfriend but it's hard for us to make time, since we're both in school and working and live quite a ways apart. Just wish I could muster the motivation to continue creative work, but mostly I'm focused on school/work and it's just uuuugh.
Also yeah now you have to explain that mess ^
and im just sitting here slowly dying and trying to get a dead end job so I can make at least something of my life
I wonder how one would get started drawing ludes for money, and whether i'd even be able to make money on it when my art is:
A) pencil on paper only
B) absolutely NO furries/scalies/animes
[QUOTE=inebriaticxp;53121269]I wonder how one would get started drawing ludes for money, and whether i'd even be able to make money on it when my art is:
A) pencil on paper only
[b]B) absolutely NO furries/scalies/animes[/b][/QUOTE]
you'll be making no money
[QUOTE=elitehakor;53121306]you'll be making no money[/QUOTE]
Thats what i'd figured
Yea, spoilers
[sp]its all furry trash[/sp]
surprise surprise
[QUOTE=Trekintosh;53120701]You can't just say something like that without linking to your work :v:[/QUOTE]
Well here is my SFW where I rarely post, venture deeper only if you dare [URL]https://twitter.com/CosmicFur?lang=en[/URL]
I was surprised it wasn't vore.
[QUOTE=mecaguy03;53121556]Yea, spoilers
[sp]its all furry trash[/sp]
surprise surprise
Well here is my SFW where I rarely post, venture deeper only if you dare [URL]https://twitter.com/CosmicFur?lang=en[/URL][/QUOTE]
oh wait shit, that's you??? :dogwow:
Also yeah man, furries have the deepest pockets, gay men are too busy spending it on good wine and the newest polo. :wink: /s
well furries have like a 50% chance of being gay, so the demographics overlap quite a lot
Honestly im still pretty amateur tier, but I think this demographic are such huge patrons of art that I was till able to get commissions pretty early on despite that. Im still doing a lot of gifts for bigger artists to tap into their follower bases (and because its nice) and probably next week im going to start streaming as well as open commissions to anyone. Right now its kind of behind closed doors and whoever asks about it kind of deal because I did not expect people to want commissions yet.
yea I mostly just draw overly huge dicks
[QUOTE=Grim2o0o;53121565]
Also yeah man, furries have the deepest pockets, gay men are too busy spending it on good wine and the newest polo. :wink: /s[/QUOTE]
Don't forget old sheet metal, car parts and cheap scotch
[QUOTE=mecaguy03;53121556]Yea, spoilers
[sp]its all furry trash[/sp]
surprise surprise
Well here is my SFW where I rarely post, venture deeper only if you dare [URL]https://twitter.com/CosmicFur?lang=en[/URL][/QUOTE]
You draw really well
I need to rant a little more than anything but my boyfriend is really bad at keeping plans and it's kinda frustrating. Like we were supposed to hang out today and then he says he has plans with his friends because he couldn't hang out with them a couple days ago due to car issues. Now he's asking me not to be mad for cancelling on me but this has happened a few times now. Am I being unreasonable?
[QUOTE=JerryK;53122230]I need to rant a little more than anything but my boyfriend is really bad at keeping plans and it's kinda frustrating. Like we were supposed to hang out today and then he says he has plans with his friends because he couldn't hang out with them a couple days ago due to car issues. Now he's asking me not to be mad for cancelling on me but this has happened a few times now. Am I being unreasonable?[/QUOTE]
I've dealt with the same thing but for different reasons, You're not being unreasonable in my eyes probably best to just tell him how frustrating it is.
Man I gotta set up my schedule better, or at least follow what I actually put down. I have an hour each weekday i dedicate to creative work and i haven't done shit with it yet. I just sit on my ass and surf on tf2 :(
When are we gonna have humanoids like in I, Robot?
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