The Gay Chat Thread - dildo bong edition - General

even if i never get to live out half the things i dream of it makes me very happy to be so optimistic about them i want my own racetrack one day and everybody here is invited

What the heeeeeell. Why am I such a jealous guy. I just want to make friend's and meet other gay dudes. Getting some nearby friends who aren't bigotted right wing metal headed weirdo's would probably help first though. Fuck this cold weather, fuck USA being so big and spread out, fuck plane companies and their overpriced ticket scams. I just want a warm body to snug on to tell me they love me. [IMG]http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c29/kalamari13/emot-smith.gif[/IMG] [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l59cg62wqpY[/media]

[QUOTE=LuihuLeijona;39308460]even if i never get to live out half the things i dream of it makes me very happy to be so optimistic about them i want my own racetrack one day and everybody here is invited[/QUOTE] I share you with the racetrack dream, I want to own a 1/4 track & performance part store at some point in my life.

[QUOTE=WolvesSoulZ;39308656]I share you with the racetrack dream, I want to own a 1/4 track & performance part store at some point in my life.[/QUOTE] i dunno what kind of track i would want or need even i just want to drive cars in circles really fast, or gocarts or bikes or whatever

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39308504]What the heeeeeell. Why am I such a jealous guy. I just want to make friend's and meet other gay dudes. Getting some nearby friends who aren't bigotted right wing metal headed weirdo's would probably help first though. Fuck this cold weather, fuck USA being so big and spread out, fuck plane companies and their overpriced ticket scams. I just want a warm body to snug on to tell me they love me. [IMG]http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c29/kalamari13/emot-smith.gif[/IMG] [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l59cg62wqpY[/media][/QUOTE] You're not a bad looking guy, you'll find someone. Try and be more confident also, People like confidence. Don't confuse it with arrogance though

I live in a household with 6 other people. None of the doors have locks. I'm going to be 21 soon, I'm very out of shape, and my back basically hurts 24/7, I also have a large noticeable slouch. My mom is a biblebelt christian who harasses me all the time. My father was murdered when my mom was 2 months pregnant with me. I've been in juvenile hall twice and put into foster care 3 times because of fights I get in with her. I never have had many real life friends, my childhood friends are just people I get weed from now and forcibly get myself to be near because they want me to. I've been stealing my moms booze which makes her anger at me more furious. My mother and her boyfriend are both violent alcoholics. I dropped out of high school due to social anxiety and a computer addiction. I didn't really do anything but stay on the computer all night and sleep all day for over 3 years until spring of 2012 when I started smoking weed, it was basically my only escape (and still is). I had my first job last summer at Macy's, All of the money went to weed and computer parts that didn't even work. I believe I ended up being fired at the end of last December due to attendance issues. I have a job interview with best buy next Thursday as one of those dudes who walk around trying to sell people shit, I'm worried that I'll be too shy to talk to anybody which will make my boss hate me. I dont even know if I'll get the job because I smoked a ton of weed last night, and best buy requires a mandatory drug check. I want to get in shape and look more attractive but I currently don't have the money for a gym membership, my motivation to work out at home is 0. I got my drivers permit recently but I can't really test drive because no 21+ adults are wanting me to go behind the wheel of their car. I'd want to go to school but the FAFSA requires me to pay like 25 dollars to pay for the mailing of the school application, which I don't have. I basically flunked most of my middleschool and high school, so my education level is tiny for the basic requirements of college, I don't even think I did my ACT or SAT yet. Aaaaagh.

I'm going to be dying my hair blond. What should I do? Streaks or everything?

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;39309051]I'm going to be dying my hair blond. What should I do? Streaks or everything?[/QUOTE]If you're doing it yourself, don't. If a salon is doing it, just go for the streaks. I don't think I've ever seen someone go full brown to blond while still having it look good/healthy.

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39309026]I live in a household with 6 other people. None of the doors have locks. I'm going to be 21 soon, I'm very out of shape, and my back basically hurts 24/7, I also have a large noticeable slouch. My mom is a biblebelt christian who harasses me all the time. My father was murdered when my mom was 2 months pregnant with me. I've been in juvenile hall twice and put into foster care 3 times because of fights I get in with her. I never have had many real life friends, my childhood friends are just people I get weed from now and forcibly get myself to be near because they want me to. I've been stealing my moms booze which makes her anger at me more furious. My mother and her boyfriend are both violent alcoholics. I dropped out of high school due to social anxiety and a computer addiction. I didn't really do anything but stay on the computer all night and sleep all day for over 3 years until spring of 2012 when I started smoking weed, it was basically my only escape (and still is). I had my first job last summer at Macy's, All of the money went to weed and computer parts that didn't even work. I believe I ended up being fired at the end of last December due to attendance issues. I have a job interview with best buy next Thursday as one of those dudes who walk around trying to sell people shit, I'm worried that I'll be too shy to talk to anybody which will make my boss hate me. I dont even know if I'll get the job because I smoked a ton of weed last night, and best buy requires a mandatory drug check. I want to get in shape and look more attractive but I currently don't have the money for a gym membership, my motivation to work out at home is 0. I got my drivers permit recently but I can't really test drive because no 21+ adults are wanting me to go behind the wheel of their car. I'd want to go to school but the FAFSA requires me to pay like 25 dollars to pay for the mailing of the school application, which I don't have. I basically flunked most of my middleschool and high school, so my education level is tiny for the basic requirements of college, I don't even think I did my ACT or SAT yet. Aaaaagh.[/QUOTE] I hope you know that you make me want to hit you. [editline]21st January 2013[/editline] I only live three hours away, so it's a possibility.

[QUOTE=Seiteki;39309186]I hope you know that you make me want to hit you. [editline]21st January 2013[/editline] I only live three hours away, so it's a possibility.[/QUOTE] [I]"Haha, yeah. Laughing at depressed people sure is 'lulzy', huh guys? I sure want to violently assault another human because they're currently in the low point in their life. Look how successful I am. I got a grin on my face and all the ass in the world. Sad people and their 'tear ducts' disgust me."[/I]

no, you're really just the kind of person that complains about their life all day every day and won't do anything to change it

[QUOTE=RedBlade2021;39309150]If you're doing it yourself, don't. If a salon is doing it, just go for the streaks. I don't think I've ever seen someone go full brown to blond while still having it look good/healthy.[/QUOTE] This thing is only for completely dying hair. Oh well I'm going to do it completely

What TehWhale said.

[QUOTE=TehWhale;39309299]no, you're really just the kind of person that complains about their life all day every day and won't do anything to change it[/QUOTE] I've been doing more for myself this month than I have the past 3 years. It's just more problems begin to arise. It's hard to socially change who I am, I'm naturally awkward and shy, I can't force myself to talk to people, not everybody is as capable of picking up from their past mistakes.

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39309281][I]"Haha, yeah. Laughing at depressed people sure is 'lulzy', huh guys? I sure want to violently assault another human because they're currently in the low point in their life. Look how successful I am. I got a grin on my face and all the ass in the world. Sad people and their 'tear ducts' disgust me."[/I][/QUOTE] Dude I think he means, and don't take this the wrong way but, you're not really putting in that much effort in life. I know that sounds really mean but if you tried hard you would have most of that stuff sorted. Like you don't [I]need[/I] a gym membership to work out. Just jog, run, bike, do push ups in your rooms etcetera. And dude, 25 dollars isn't a lot, like, seriously. If you're able to currently have weed then what are you doing, Pay for school. [editline]22nd January 2013[/editline] shower me with clocks I guess

[QUOTE=| Liam |;39309356]Dude I think he means, and don't take this the wrong way but, you're not really putting in that much effort in life. I know that sounds really mean but if you tried hard you would have most of that stuff sorted. Like you don't [I]need[/I] a gym membership to work out. Just jog, run, bike, do push ups in your rooms etcetera. And dude, 25 dollars isn't a lot, like, seriously. If you're able to currently have weed then what are you doing, Pay for school.[/QUOTE] It's easier to seek short-term pleasure on the internet than to just get up and begin awkwardly working out. I'd have to deal with my brothers going all like "haha, look its shotacon trying to be fit" and then take a picture of me and upload it on their facebooks. Or my mom would be a sarcastic jerk and treat me like an infant who just learned how to walk, and then take a picture and upload it on facebook. It's too cold to go outdoors for any long amount of time. I don't have weights. And I don't have privacy. I don't even understand anything about FAFSA, all the questions related to my tax history, exact family income, etc. The questions are beyond my understanding and there's nobody I know that can help me. I don't know anything about how to sign up for college, what the fuck a credit is, and all the mandatory major minor calculus uppity crap. I'm putting effort into my life but it's happening at a disgustingly slow pace. I said earlier I'm a jealous person, and reading up on all of your guys' successes actually just makes me feel worse. I hate it and wish I could somehow make myself better.

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39308504]What the heeeeeell. Why am I such a jealous guy. I just want to make friend's and meet other gay dudes. Getting some nearby friends who aren't bigotted right wing metal headed weirdo's would probably help first though. Fuck this cold weather, fuck USA being so big and spread out, fuck plane companies and their overpriced ticket scams. I just want a warm body to snug on to tell me they love me. [IMG]http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c29/kalamari13/emot-smith.gif[/IMG] [media]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l59cg62wqpY[/media][/QUOTE] It'll get better :) I used to be very similar, wasn't until I was 19/20 that things started to turn around for me. I have a wonderful BF and my sister is awesome and I have plenty of freedom to do things. But I'm still semi-lonely in the sense that I don't really have real "friends" unless i count my BF. I can't complain though, I'm a pretty introverted guy so it comes with the territory. As such I'm pretty picky on when I feel like hanging out with people on an individual level. I just don't know anyone else other than my BF who is similarly minded and shares similar enough interests to hang out with on a friend level, and even then my BF doesn't really share all of my interests (like the great outdoors and winter hehe). Even tho I know a lot of folks who are genuinely good people to hang around with, I wouldn't consider them close friends or anything. I can't really connect with them except for casual conversation and fun for a night. Still though, it could be worse. Its fun to go to work and socialize with my co-workers even if we have nothing in common and I have no interest in wanting to hang out with any of them. I'd love to just graduate from school and move out west where I know some people who I'm already kinda friends with and have met once before. I just love the idea of living around like minded people who I know are gay and etc to have as friends :) I mean its nice to have the aquanteces I have now but I don't really have anything in common with any of them. It makes them more interesting in a way of course but its hard for me to really form a legit connection that makes them "friends" rather than just good company.

[QUOTE=KorJax;39309446]It'll get better :)[/QUOTE] I hope so. I never even met another gay guy in real life. I'm still in the closet too. I just want a hero to let me sleep on their couch for a while so I can pick myself up and gather any fragment of motivation I can find. My family did the same for somebody and he's going to be leaving here for the military soon.

Shotacon I know how you feel about not having someone to cuddle with. I sometimes catch myself pondering about it. But cheer up, you'll probably find someone one day. I tend not to think about it and work on current issues, such as school and work. Just don't be desperate and date the first guy who hits on you.

[QUOTE=ROFLBURGER;39309546]Shotacon I know how you feel about not having someone to cuddle with.[/QUOTE] I always sleep hugging the pillow at night trying to get over being lonely, I've always wanted another guy to keep me company and to cuddle with :c

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39309438]It's easier to seek short-term pleasure on the internet than to just get up and begin awkwardly working out. I'd have to deal with my brothers going all like "haha, look its shotacon trying to be fit" and then take a picture of me and upload it on their facebooks. Or my mom would be a sarcastic jerk and treat me like an infant who just learned how to walk, and then take a picture and upload it on facebook. It's too cold to go outdoors for any long amount of time. I don't have weights. And I don't have privacy.[/QUOTE] that's why you go ahead and get buff, and then you beat them up as revenge. just think about it, when the police come you can be like "there was two of them, they was midgets. i wasn't scarred tho, i took em right here" and then you can reenact beating them up. But in all seriousness honey now that you've listed all your problems I'm sure you can figure out how to fix them. Of course it's going to be difficult, but to get shit done you have to stop pussyfooting around. Once you do that you'll be the king honey; go get what you want.

[QUOTE=ep9832;39309558]that's why you go ahead and get buff, and then you beat them up as revenge. just think about it, when the police come you can be like "there was two of them, they was midgets. i wasn't scarred tho, i took em right here" and then you can reenact beating them up. But in all seriousness honey now that you've listed all your problems I'm sure you can figure out how to fix them. Of course it's going to be difficult, but to get shit done you have to stop pussyfooting around. Once you do that you'll be the king honey; go get what you want.[/QUOTE] They both already have a 5 year head start.

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39309339]I've been doing more for myself this month than I have the past 3 years. It's just more problems begin to arise. It's hard to socially change who I am, I'm naturally awkward and shy, I can't force myself to talk to people, not everybody is as capable of picking up from their past mistakes.[/QUOTE] I'm pretty introverted and if you are the type of person that is shy and concerned about it and feel awkward because of it, trust me when I say you aren't shy, you are just introverted and inexperienced with it in social situations. I was very shy/awkward a few years ago but through a trial-by-fire and simply learning by being around people I learned more about myself. Once you know yourself and are confident in yourself you end up no longer being shy around others, but you might still be introverted around others. There's a big difference. An introvert is someone who likes social contact but can't really take too much of it at once and has limits to it. Someone who is shy is usually a introvert who simply isn't confident in one-self making them judge themselves constantly around the presense of other people. In other words, Shyness is simply a fear response of one's own introverted tendencies, and fear comes from the unknown. We live in a very extroverted world, and even introverts need social contact. When you are shy, it's important to realize that its not a personality trait - it is quite literally a basic fear response of not knowing enough about yourself from the core, to not know how social situations will work out. Knowing its an instinctual fear response goes a long way to helping yourself beat "shyness". There is a cure, because the cure worked for me. It's simply knowing that you need to learn more about yourself and how you work, you need to get out there more and expose yourself to more social situations, and you need to avoid worrying about how stupid you might seem while doing it. After a while you'll have enough confidence that you are rarely shy without any control on your part. I don't like walking up to people and being chatty at all, but that's not because I'm shy and awkward its just how my introverted personality type is. It's hard to really learn what your limits are and how you interact with others without getting out there and learning, even if it ends up with some embarassing moments on your part. As for everything else there is a solution. Some might have to be drastic, some might not have to be. Point is, there is much better you could be doing for yourself right now, even if it involves literally taking a look at your life, recognizing the problems in it, recognizing the problems with yourself, and then taking action. Writing about it helps too. If you feel like you waste your days away, make every day a struggle and work twoards something, ideally addressing some of your problems, or just something to take your mind off things. There is nothing worse than having issues and doing nothing about them, or having issues while having no "struggle" - because it magnifies the negative effects of such issues. Even if it means literally walking out of the house and starting on your own somewhere. It could be stupid mistake or it could be the best thing you'd ever done for yourself. Its up to you to decide and you won't be able to make the right choice until you take a good look at your situation and understand the problems in your life. Everyone has the capability to better themselves, and the only way to do it is to work on it yourself and be aware, especially of your inner self. It's a personal struggle and life always has one to give you. Right now that struggle is trying to find a purpose in life, your own identity, I'm going to assume. When I was struggling with my identitiy, I found this website really helpful to read on partiucarly bad days: [url]http://thinksimplenow.com/[/url] . Keep in mind though I'm an introverted-feely type of thinker so that was something that I found really helpful in solving personal issues on my worse days a few years back. It'll probably be cheesy or dumb to anyone else lol

I like you, KorJax.

And how am I supposed to go to college if I don't have most of the prerequisite education requirements? It would take me like 5 minutes to do your average single digit multiplication problem. My grammar is horrible. I don't have anything else for the college to look up for other than "dropped out of high school, has criminal record, has been fired from a job due to attendance issues, tested positive in a job drug test" Can't colleges easily just throw away applicants with a bad background? If I somehow pass Best Buys drug test then I'd have to go through the anxiety of talking to complete strangers who don't want to talk to me. This was basically one of the reasons I dropped out of school in the first place. My mind tells my mouth what to say, and then I quietly mumble out some sentence as if I have cerebral palsy in the mouth.

-snipped because I think KorJax's responses are better- [editline]21st January 2013[/editline] [QUOTE=Shotacon;39309674]And how am I supposed to go to college if I don't have most of the prerequisite education requirements? It would take me like 5 minutes to do your average single digit multiplication problem. My grammar is horrible. I don't have anything else for the college to look up for other than "dropped out of high school, has criminal record, has been fired from a job due to attendance issues, tested positive in a job drug test" Can't colleges easily just throw away applicants with a bad background? If I somehow pass Best Buys drug test then I'd have to go through the anxiety of talking to complete strangers who don't want to talk to me. This was basically one of the reasons I dropped out of school in the first place. My mind tells my mouth what to say, and then I quietly mumble out some sentence as if I have cerebral palsy in the mouth.[/QUOTE] You don't necessarily need to go to Uni either. It's not for everyone! People get caught up in the idea that college is the only way, when in actuality it isn't. Why not sign up for the military? That might help. It'd give you a decent salary, work experience, discipline, get you away from home, put you in a new environment, they'll help you get fit, and if you decide you do want to uni, you can use the GI Bill to pay your way through. Shoot! With DADT repealed, you might even find somebody if you're lucky. :3 Honestly, I think it might really help you and you should definitely consider it.

Life is to much fun to be depressed.

[QUOTE=Seiteki;39309186]I hope you know that you make me want to hit you. [editline]21st January 2013[/editline] I only live three hours away, so it's a possibility.[/QUOTE] go have pity sex with him (oh wait that requires you to have pity on him donnit)

[QUOTE=Shotacon;39309674]And how am I supposed to go to college if I don't have most of the prerequisite education requirements? It would take me like 5 minutes to do your average single digit multiplication problem. My grammar is horrible. I don't have anything else for the college to look up for other than "dropped out of high school, has criminal record, has been fired from a job due to attendance issues, tested positive in a job drug test" Can't colleges easily just throw away applicants with a bad background? If I somehow pass Best Buys drug test then I'd have to go through the anxiety of talking to complete strangers who don't want to talk to me. This was basically one of the reasons I dropped out of school in the first place. My mind tells my mouth what to say, and then I quietly mumble out some sentence as if I have cerebral palsy in the mouth.[/QUOTE] Don't worry about college right now is the solution really. I know its not want you want to hear, but there is no way you should try to pursue college if you don't feel like you need or are ready for it. Don't do college, blow a lot of money, only to find that you don't really know why you are in college or what you even want to do. It's much cheaper, and smarter, to start college at 26-28 years old with a strong foundation of knowing what you want to do and were you want to see yourself, and having a good educational foundation to make you ready for college than it would be to try and force yourself into college only to end up being 26-28 years old completely broke and dropped out. That said, there are plenty of colleges out there and classes that make it so its really not a big deal if you have trouble in certain areas. Community College is a great (and cheap) way to get devleopmental courses out of the way before handling higher level ones, and its a great way to get the first "2 years" of a 4 year degree out of the way on the cheap with reasonably little cost. Community college is there for people who are like you, for people who want to save money, and for people who simply can't afford a 4 year yet, or who are working full time and still want an education. The only thing a community college will require is a GED/high school education. If you don't have high school edcuation completed, you can work on getting your GED. Most state universities will recognize work you did in a community college and it pretty much garuntees you'll get into a university unless you planned on doing something like MIT/Yale/Etc. Again, even if you find yourself being anxious around others its great experience. I really relished working at target when I was younger because it really helps to beat shyness and introvertedness around people when you are only required to interact with them for a couple minutes at the most. Working retail is great in learning how to better cope with shyness, because you pretty much interact on a daily basis with people in small bite-sized levels, meaning you can work on being less shy without having to give two shits if its a person you really care about or are hanging out with. I started working at target in the backroom because I thought I might not be good in the front interacting with people regularly. 6 months into my job I ended up liking working up front more because I legitimiately enjoyed helping people and interacting with them. Also, not to get your hopes up, but if you really smoked a bunch of weed right after a successful interview with best buy, I wouldn't be surprised if you failed a drug test. It was a pretty stupid decision on your part, but hey - you'll be all the wiser the next time around.

[QUOTE=Fhenexx;39309725]Dude, dude, dude, it's ok. Take things one step at a time. You're letting all the problems fall on you like a pile of bricks, instead of taking each problem, fixing it, and moving on to the next. That's a big reason why I was never motivated. But lemme give you itemized advice... You don't need a fancy gym membership or weights to get a decent workout, and why don't you have any motivation to work out at home? Because you're afraid your brothers are going to post something on Facebook? Screw them. Seriously. Who the fuck cares what they think, because at the end of it you'd be the one laughing as you'd be in better shape at the very end. As far as your back is concerned, it can fixed with stretches. Check [url=http://www.spine-health.com/wellness/exercise/stretching-back-pain-relief]this[/url] out. I'm not sure if it's an incredibly good source, but it's a place to start.[/quote] I tried this recently, but the ridicule is too much. It's too difficult for me to just make myself stop caring. I tried to work out last week a little bit but I just couldn't continue when there's a perfectly accessable computer right here, I don't have the motivation and I don't have the will to motivate myself. [QUOTE=Fhenexx;39309725] Secondly, you need to get off the weed. Now, there really is nothing horribly wrong with weed if you use it in moderation, but you sound like you're only using it for escapism, and that is not going to help you. That will be difficult to do, I admit, but the fact of the matter is you're going to have to if you're going to get anything done. Stop depending on substances to cope, because it is obviously going to be a drain on your salary, as you probably know.[/quote] It makes me feel good. It's only bad in that it's illegal, I'm careful about my usage of it. It makes me feel more energetic, it helps me gather my thoughts and can sometimes help my motivation issues. I stopped now that I don't have money. [QUOTE=Fhenexx;39309725] Third, if your family is a huge issue like that, move out. Simpler said than done, but if your family is becoming such a huge burden on you, then take them out of the equation. To do this, you need to be safe with your money and get another job. You've already got one before, so you probably have some experience applying and stuff, so don't sweat the thing with Best Buy. If the drug test is getting you really nervous, check Drug Discussion. They have a guide on passing drug tests, it might help. Then, try to find an apartment and maybe a roommate to help you pay rent. Then, boom, you've gotten rid of your family problems and your privacy problems.[/quote] There is no way I could have 2 full time retail jobs and remain sane. There's a very little chance of me actually testing negative in the test. I can try, but it will probably end up being useless anyways. [QUOTE=Fhenexx;39309725] As far as Uni goes, I would start with saving up money for the SATs and ACTs before moving on to the FAFSA, since a lot of Unis require it. Also, by the sounds of it, you might not have your diploma, so I would suggest getting a GED. It would help bolster your requirements a bunch and lessen the chance of rejection. You may want to wait, too, until a university actually accepts you before you decide to apply for federal aid, but I don't know much about that, honestly, to say for sure. When you do apply, be sure to do the optional essay, it will definitely help. In the case that you DO get rejected, be sure to write a letter asking them to reconsider. I have heard that sometimes universities will accept rejected applicants if they decide to do that because it shows motivation or something.[/quote] I have my GED already. I remember going through one of the two major tests (ACT and SAT) and not being able to finish it, I do remember most of the questions being hard. I'm not educated. [QUOTE=Fhenexx;39309725]I'm not sure how much this has helped you, but I reckon it's better to say something than to not. Remember, though, that you ARE still young and you have a long way ahead of you. You have plenty of time to correct the wrongs of your past, so don't let all the problems fall on you. Just take it one step at a time. Slow progress is better than no progress. Worse comes to worse, hop on a boxcar with nothing but a harmonica and an old style suit and spend the rest of your days singing the blues in back alley clubs :v: [editline]21st January 2013[/editline] You don't necessarily need to go to Uni either. It's not for everyone! People get caught up in the idea that college is the only way, when in actuality it isn't. Why not sign up for the military? That might help. It'd give you a decent salary, work experience, discipline, get you away from home, put you in a new environment, and if you decide you do want to uni, you can use the GI Bill to pay your way through. Shoot! With DADT repealed, you might even find somebody if you're lucky. :3 Honestly, I think it might really help you.[/QUOTE] College IS a necessary requirement if you want to be not-poor in this country. Nobody can support themselves on a single retail close-to-minimum-wage job. More and more employers are becoming picky, and there's a big lack of entry level jobs now days.