[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953743]well, i keep stumbling upon people that make me choke up online; ex-friends, people that have removed me, people that i am paranoid of because i think they hate me or something. that's a big one right there
there's also me just getting into a self-loathing mood where i nitpick everything about myself, which brings me even further down. like, i'm not good at drawing, i waste my money on dumb shit like art and games and food, i'm fat, etc.
my parents are an issue too, they constantly destroy my self-esteem. my mom passive-aggressively mocks me and belittles me for nearly everything i do, whilst my dad is more direct and yells at me, sometimes knocking the headset off of my head, pulling my hair and talking right into my ear. shit's terrifying.
honestly, out of those three issues i'm having, i think my parents are the biggest one. call it teenage angst, but i really don't like them and they are legitimately terrifying people[/QUOTE]
online people: sounds like you want to say something but something internal is preventing you from doing so. you need to talk to them more to get a better idea of what sort of relationship you have with them and if it's worth having.
self hate: every time you get into that mood, reverse it. try and make a list of things that you're good at or things that are just good qualities to have that's longer than a list of what you would consider "bad". (you draw fine btw)
money: set a very expensive goal, it's that simple. if buying mundane things bothers you then save it for something big and awesome.
parents: if you have aunts or uncles that you wouldn't mind living with, try to get with them asap. if you don't then you need to have some "serious talk" with your parents. try to make it sound like group effort to help solve family communication/behavior issues, use the phrase "help me help you". whatever you do don't try to retaliate, antagonize, or ignore their anger towards you.
if anything here doesn't sound like it will work we can talk on steam.
i've tried to have a serious talk with my parents. it seems like they listened to me and cared about me, but then they do a complete 180 and went back to their usual ways
remind them about what you established in the talk. if that still doesn't work: seek refuge.
[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953669]ey yo gaypunch
how do y'all stay undepressed? every night i have free i expect that i'll feel all fine and dandy because i can dick around and play games uninterrupted, but i always feel so depressed and unmotivated to do anything, be it videogames, masturbating, drawing, anything.
it sucks a lot. what do you guys do to cope?[/QUOTE]
play videogames or masturbate
also listening to nice energetic music and having a bf to talk to helps
[QUOTE=latin_geek;38953849]play videogames or masturbate
also listening to nice energetic music and having a bf to talk to helps[/QUOTE]
i had a boyfriend but he utterly crushed my everything by saying our relationship didn't amount to anything
he still tries to talk to me like nothing happened and it just kills me :c
[editline]24th December 2012[/editline]
i really wanna get into a relationship but online relationships usually result in terrible with me, and i'm not openly gay in real life :v
[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953912]i had a boyfriend but he utterly crushed my everything by saying our relationship didn't amount to anything
he still tries to talk to me like nothing happened and it just kills me :c
[editline]24th December 2012[/editline]
i really wanna get into a relationship but online relationships usually result in terrible with me, and i'm not openly gay in real life :v[/QUOTE]
Depends on who you do get with online, some can be complete failures and oftentimes the entire relationship environment is tragic, as you'll have everyone here tell you.
But it's worth having someone who cares for you and listens to you, and outside of real life, that's nearly perfect.
It may be me, but i don't feel the christmas spirit anymore. Its just another time of the year.
[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953669]what do you guys do to cope?[/QUOTE]
prozac
[editline]24th December 2012[/editline]
i'm serious, shit's great
[QUOTE=DainBramageStudios;38954918]prozac
[editline]24th December 2012[/editline]
i'm serious, shit's great[/QUOTE]
Alcohol, weed, shrooms and speed. They fix everything. [B]EVERYTHING[/B]
[QUOTE=Ray-The-Sun;38954964]Well, except your liver. Woo, Cirrhosis![/QUOTE]
My liver understands.
relaxtion drug combo of choice is a bong and a 6pack lol
[editline]24th December 2012[/editline]
ps drugs are bad mmkay
dont rely on antidepressants they might work for some but sertaline and fluoxetine have both done nothing but make me feel worse
in all honesty i dont have a clue about how to feel better but i know now not to pin hopes on people and drugs
[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953669]ey yo gaypunch
how do y'all stay undepressed? every night i have free i expect that i'll feel all fine and dandy because i can dick around and play games uninterrupted, but i always feel so depressed and unmotivated to do anything, be it videogames, masturbating, drawing, anything.
it sucks a lot. what do you guys do to cope?[/QUOTE]
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Am i the only one that just has a good long cry to feel better?
I think the last time I cried was my first girlfriend leaving me after 2 years lol
[QUOTE=DigitalySane;38955393]Am i the only one that just has a good long cry to feel better?[/QUOTE]If something manages to bring me to tears, it's usually something serious enough that'll leave me feeling shit for months, if not years. It's not that i'm tough or some shit, I just don't emote very strongly normally.
[QUOTE=DigitalySane;38955393]Am i the only one that just has a good long cry to feel better?[/QUOTE]
Nope.
A good cry about something something upsetting that has recently happened usually makes me feel better.
[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953669]it sucks a lot. what do you guys do to cope?[/QUOTE]
We don't.
[QUOTE=DigitalySane;38955393]Am i the only one that just has a good long cry to feel better?[/QUOTE]
Sometimes I wish I could just do that.
[QUOTE=Contron;38955724]Nope.
A good cry about something something upsetting that has recently happened usually makes me feel better.[/QUOTE]
Yep, dopamine. The same reason fights and doing lots of stuff at once make you feel better.
Sssh, no tears, only christmas now.
Merry christmas, fags
[QUOTE=H4ngman;38956513]Sssh, no tears, only christmas now.[/QUOTE]
Sorry but because you're rapeman in disguise all i can picture is you saying that while having sex /w someone :v:
[QUOTE=DigitalySane;38956621]Sorry but because you're[B] rapeman in disguise[/B] all i can picture is you saying that while having sex /w someone :v:[/QUOTE]
Jingle-lang time?
[QUOTE=milkandcooki;38953912]i had a boyfriend but he utterly crushed my everything by saying our relationship didn't amount to anything
he still tries to talk to me like nothing happened and it just kills me :c
[editline]24th December 2012[/editline]
i really wanna get into a relationship but online relationships usually result in terrible with me, and i'm not openly gay in real life :v[/QUOTE]
I have exactly the same problem, I've been in at least 4 gay internet relationships throughout my life and I've only been comfortable getting together with close friends online and it never lasts :c makes me feel sad sometimes. I'm hoping to leave the UK in 2-3 years time to be with good friends in Canada, I feel I have more opportunities there and nearly every good online friend I have lives there, I know I won't regret it.
Well its 2am and so far I've got Far Cry 3, a 30 pack of Coke, a 10 pack of Dr Pepper, a bottle of black label, a carton of pale ale, a couple pairs of jeans, 3 belts, and 1k cash because mum didnt know what to get me lol
Today might turn out alright after all
1k cash? That's about five times the amount I got in the last 2 years from all my relatives combined
best present I ever got was a bottle of my favourite brand beer from my ex, clumsily wrapped along with a tiny cheap leather bound (paper) notebook from the dollar store. Those were just things that carried personal meaning, things that showed that this person knows how to make me happy without spending lots of money or getting something straight from my wishlist of convenient goods I would buy myself sooner or later.
I have a feeling I'm about to get such a present again. One of my closer mates gave me a package that looks suspiciously like a tin of pipe tabacco and knowing him it's gonna be a good one a pipe conisseur such as me would appreciate
I'd be surprised if my aunt doesn't match it tomorrow, They've always had a soft spot for me for some reason.
The earliest memory I have of me and their children was me belting my cousin with a rake handle because of something to do with the trampoline lol
[editline]25th December 2012[/editline]
Though due to our aboriginal traditional crap (I dont follow it so much), in her eyes I am her son.
[editline]25th December 2012[/editline]
Actually she may not [I]match[/I] it, its xmas not my birthday..
we'll see
good christ that's a lot of money for a gift
I spent a bit beyond $700 on tickets for Cirque Du Soleil, and then I bought dinner for 4 like, Sunday night.
That was my gift to my siblings though, idk
This is the part where I get jealous of people who are spoiled.
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