Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V5 - General

[QUOTE=Blazyd;52462925]I just got a prescription for Strattera for adhd. Anyone have any experience with it? Also I wonder how my appetite is gonna be because stattera is said to kill your appetite and meanwhile I'm also on seroquel which increases appetite.[/QUOTE] No personal experience for me, but I have administered it before. It's kinda up there with Vyvanse; it'll do its job but seems to be fleeting. Also at what parts of the day do you take these? I know Seroquel is sometimes used as a sleep aid. I'd honestly speak to your doc/prescriber about these unless someone with pharmacology experience can speak up here. Remember! Use for two weeks before judgement calls. Unless you begin vomiting profusely.

[QUOTE=Vaught;52461732] Take a breather! May I ask what the argument was about?[/QUOTE] every time i get into arguments, all of a sudden i can't even speak a word at all like stuck gears, which eventually grow into frustration

[QUOTE=Spectre1406;52463028]every time i get into arguments, all of a sudden i can't even speak a word at all like stuck gears, which eventually grow into frustration[/QUOTE] Ah, I know the exact feeling. I've conditioned myself to take deep breaths when that happens or take a moment to think about what I may actually say. Is this during small debates or full blown "I didn't steal the cookie" arguments?

[QUOTE=Vaught;52463064]Ah, I know the exact feeling. I've conditioned myself to take deep breaths when that happens or take a moment to think about what I may actually say. Is this during small debates or full blown "I didn't steal the cookie" arguments?[/QUOTE] both of them

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[QUOTE=Crpto2007;52463963]Fuck it I'm going to the hospital I'm in so much pain it keeps me up all night [editline]13th July 2017[/editline] I know by going to the hospital my whole family is going to hate me because it's my fault I did it to myself but the pain just gets worse each day. I can't keep it to myself anymore it's been weeks.[/QUOTE] They won't hate you. They will be pissed off but that's because they love you and they don't want you to suffer.

I told myself I would delay any suicide attempts until after I went to a university, because maybe things would be different. Maybe I'd find some actual friends or at least have a future ahead of me in a line of work that I want to be in. The university application results came today and well... I managed to fail to qualify for every single one I applied to. So I'm gonna take the next couple of days to try and think things over. If I don't come up with a good conclusion I just want you guys to know that I wish you all the best, despite not being very active in this thread myself.

[QUOTE=riki2cool;52464583]I told myself I would delay any suicide attempts until after I went to a university, because maybe things would be different. Maybe I'd find some actual friends or at least have a future ahead of me in a line of work that I want to be in. The university application results came today and well... I managed to fail to qualify for every single one I applied to. So I'm gonna take the next couple of days to try and think things over. If I don't come up with a good conclusion I just want you guys to know that I wish you all the best, despite not being very active in this thread myself.[/QUOTE] Why not go for an apprenticeship of sorts? University is pointless unless you're specifically wanting to specialize in something anyway

[QUOTE=riki2cool;52464583]I told myself I would delay any suicide attempts until after I went to a university, because maybe things would be different. Maybe I'd find some actual friends or at least have a future ahead of me in a line of work that I want to be in. The university application results came today and well... I managed to fail to qualify for every single one I applied to. So I'm gonna take the next couple of days to try and think things over. If I don't come up with a good conclusion I just want you guys to know that I wish you all the best, despite not being very active in this thread myself.[/QUOTE] University isn't for everyone! So definitely don't give up, because it may not come immediately to you, but we're all here to talk if you need it. I know a lot of people who are happier because they choose different paths. Suicide is permanent, unhappiness is most likely not.

First day on Modafinil.. Escitalopram and Modafinil double pronged! SSRI & DRI

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[QUOTE=Crpto2007;52467356]Just when I though having severe liver damage was bad enough im getting chest pains nows.[/QUOTE] How did your liver get damaged? :/

I hate this. I ultimately decided to give myself some time away from the source of my issue but I can't stop thinking about it. I can't shake off how I fucked up, fucked up again, and fucked up a third time. I keep getting panicky and taking my benzos to get over stuff so now I'm afraid of getting dependent on those after doing so well. I don't know how to stop thinking about it and just continue with my life and give it some time. I don't know what to do about anything.

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[QUOTE=LordyLord;52467900]I hate this. I ultimately decided to give myself some time away from the source of my issue but I can't stop thinking about it. I can't shake off how I fucked up, fucked up again, and fucked up a third time. I keep getting panicky and taking my benzos to get over stuff so now I'm afraid of getting dependent on those after doing so well. I don't know how to stop thinking about it and just continue with my life and give it some time. I don't know what to do about anything.[/QUOTE] That's one hell of a slippery slope you're treading. Last thing you want is an addiction to cope with stress. Find someone you trust and give them the key. Seen way too many people get hooked on sedatives or opiates.

I feel like I'm some sort of happiness repellent or something. No significant other now or ever before, my friends and me are drifting apart, I can't find new ones because I'm absolute shit at forming bonds with people, nothing brings me any enjoyment anymore. The people around me don't even notice I'm there. Back at school I was way more social than I am now, but when I moved on to university, it was like social anxiety completely took me over. I've never really bonded with anyone in my 5 years there. Instead of being the guy I used to be at school, who could at least hold a conversation, I became an awkward mess, and I can't stop being an awkward mess no matter how much I try. I was always a bit anxious and awkward around people, but it was never this bad. My voice became shaky, my hands are shaky, I can't stop saying stupid shit, I don't know what happened to the other me from my school days. I feel like he died and I'm his walking empty corpse. I used to like going for walks, even alone. But now it's just meh. Nothing here on Facepunch brings me any enjoyment either, I'm just here to procrastinate. LMAO Pics didn't even make me smile in months, Sensationalist Headlines and Polidicks might as well be called "Depressing News 24/7", the Videos section (and YouTube itself) doesn't have much to offer in terms of interesting content. Video games aren't fun anymore, movies are nothing but trash, TV shows are the same. I'm supposed to be a huge Game of Thrones fan, and the new season starts in a day, but I'm not even hyped for that. Sure, I'll watch it, but I'm not really looking forward to it, it's just a thing that will happen. Basically, I don't even remember what being happy is like anymore, the things that made me feel good either don't make me feel good anymore, or are gone from my life. Also, when I read most of the other posts in this thread, I feel like I shouldn't even post this. Other people have actual problems, like health problems or relationship problems or financial problems, and I'm just complaining about a whole load of nothing. I just needed to vent a bit.

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;52469092]I did something really stupid. I don't know if it's going to recover or if it does it's going to take awhile[/QUOTE] The liver has the greatest regeneration of any organ in the body. It depends on how badly it was damaged though. Has it been over a month?

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Who's got experience with Bupropion/Wellbutrin XL? This is all new for me.

[QUOTE=DuCT;52469716]Who's got experience with Bupropion/Wellbutrin XL? This is all new for me.[/QUOTE] I was on this briefly, but had a bad reaction. Just be very careful not to take too much or be late. Known to cause seizures if overdosed on. Personally I felt manic on it. It wasn't for me, but it seems like it's a common choice and works well for many.

[QUOTE=gustavholst;52469789]I was on this briefly, but had a bad reaction. Just be very careful not to take too much or be late. Known to cause seizures if overdosed on. Personally I felt manic on it. It wasn't for me, but it seems like it's a common choice and works well for many.[/QUOTE] Hmmm thanks. I plan on just following the doctors orders, one time a day. I'll see what happens. I'm kinda worried about the alcohol thing, but that seems to be common with pretty much all antidepressants. Eh, I could cut back anyways, it'll do me good.

[QUOTE=Vaught;52469269]That's one hell of a slippery slope you're treading. Last thing you want is an addiction to cope with stress. Find someone you trust and give them the key. Seen way too many people get hooked on sedatives or opiates.[/QUOTE] You're right, I gave them to my roommate. Been too lenient with them lately.

[QUOTE=LordyLord;52469919]You're right, I gave them to my roommate. Been too lenient with them lately.[/QUOTE] That was a very responsible and brave move you made! I applaud you :smile:

I've just been feeling super garbage lately, my life feels like its in a dead end and I have no real skills or opportunities to get out of it. Doesn't help that my anxiety grows when I try to attempt doing anything no matter how insignificant. But if I do nothing it I also get anxious. It's a vicious cycle.

I've kinda been hit with the realisation that my life is going nowhere, it pretty much happened after I went to a lan meetup with a bunch of my internet friends. I guess being around them and seeing how proactive they were and hearing about one of them getting married and others just talking about real life shit made me look at myself and "wake up". I am pretty sick of what I've let my life become, how I've let the house become a mess, how I've constantly put off studying art. A lot of it is because of my shit health and atrocious depression and mental health issues but it feels like I'm just using them as excuses to get out of doing anything. I know I'm not 100% doing that but on some level I guess I am. I was due for my quarter-life crisis anyway, I guess.

[QUOTE=Weirdness;52471072]I've kinda been hit with the realisation that my life is going nowhere, it pretty much happened after I went to a lan meetup with a bunch of my internet friends. I guess being around them and seeing how proactive they were and hearing about one of them getting married and others just talking about real life shit made me look at myself and "wake up". [/QUOTE] Hey man, I totally relate. All my friends have gone off and found better places to be and things to do, while I'm still in my home state trying to get through all my shit. The worst part, and I know I'm not alone, is how hard I find it to make friends, so I sit around hoping my old ones think of me. I love it when they message me out of nowhere to catch up. Sometimes it feels like my friendships go one-sided, but I tend to overthink things. Don't feel bad about your mental health hindering you, because it's not your fault as long as you genuinely try to try harder the next day.

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A therapist is probably what you're looking for. Alternatively, there are people who are called life-coaches, but they're not generally up to date with psychiatric practices. A combination of the two would probably be a good bet.

[QUOTE=Xenophobia;52474908]Where the heck do I find experts on life who can just steer your life in the right direction? My lifes stagnated, I'm lost in a sea of noise, I'm never going to fit in anywhere, I don't have any ambitions, I'm numb, yet I feel everything. I don't want to be a part of this society, but I would have nowhere to go without it. People are so shallow, but who am I to critcize? Everything seems so uninteresting, but theres so much I haven't tried. I haven't interacted with an actual human being in weeks, i've basically been sitting in my apartent trying to fill my time and head with events that pushes all these thoughts away. Im actually scared of meeting anyone I know because I don't want to end up unloading all of these really heavy thoughts on the wrong person. Theres so much shit to carry, and the weight is soul crushing.[/QUOTE] Like Pascall said, therapists can be what you're seeking. There are also counseling centers, peer specialists, and various other things depending on your location. Your local crisis hotline or a quick google search can also assist you with finding something along those lines. Maybe some local clubs could also be an option too!