Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V5 - General

[QUOTE=Mysterious;51669566]Awesome. I tried to explain something in front of a bunch of people in Discord and ended up sounding like the gibbering idiot I truly am. If those guys don't see how literally pants-on-head retarded I can be, I'll be amazed. I'm truly worthless lmao[/QUOTE] Chill Mysterious. We all do fuck ups. It's fine :v:

[QUOTE={TFS} Rock Su;51669578]Chill Mysterious. We all do fuck ups. It's fine :v:[/QUOTE] I knew exactly what I meant, but the way I worded it was fucking stupid. This is one of many fuck ups, it's not like it's just some isolated incident. When you constantly fuck up, it stops being a mistake and starts being just being a complete failure.

Anyone with ADHD have this happen? A lot of the time, when I'm speaking, my brain has like, 6 different ways to articulate a sentence, and when I try and speak, my speech seems to cycle through each one and I stutter for a good few seconds before I can actually get a proper sentence out of my mouth. Makes me sound like a fucking idiot :/

[QUOTE=darksoul69;51668888]So my moms in the hospital for COPD and (probably, not biopsied yet) lung cancer - I'm not handling it very well so my doctor doubled my Fluoxetine dosage and then gave me trazodone for my insomia. It turns out trazodone is also an antidepressant.[/QUOTE] I feel you, my father has COPD too and he recently had a pneumonia. We had to call an ambulance and he wasn't home for like 3-4 weeks. I wasn't sure if he'd come back and the doctors told us that he'd be a nursing case. When I visited him regularly, you could tell how the lack of oxygen affected his brain. He's very intelligent, well, normally. But at one point the lack of oxygen was so severe that he forgot how to use a telephone, so he couldn't call us when he wanted to. Fortunately he recovered. He's like he was doing before the pneumonia now and is still independent. But seeing your father like that, mentally confused lying there not sure if he's gonna be fine. God, that was horrifying. I really hope I have some time left with him, since I'm only 17. But judging by bis age and health, I think he has like 5 years left if he doesn't get a pneumonia or a severe cold again.

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Last couple of years I felt no joy in doing whatever I've been doing in past. I'm having difficulties with controlling my emotions lately. It's becoming a struggle to keep a smile on my face. Chatting with other people is difficult. Game feels tasteless... books feels like a temporary escape. Music helps just a little. I did consider a suicide once.

[QUOTE=Kolmala;51669588]Anyone with ADHD have this happen? A lot of the time, when I'm speaking, my brain has like, 6 different ways to articulate a sentence, and when I try and speak, my speech seems to cycle through each one and I stutter for a good few seconds before I can actually get a proper sentence out of my mouth. Makes me sound like a fucking idiot :/[/QUOTE] Right there with you. I always end up saying things in really confusing ways that only I can understand.

[QUOTE=coyote93;51675528]I recommend everyone who feel like shit to take a walk up the nearest mountain. By the time you reach the top, you either feel a little better for a little while, or you got a great place to jump from.[/QUOTE] What about places that don't have any mountains?

I've read running magazines and books these last few months... And considering that it "works wonders" for your mental health, boosts your immune system, and many other health benefits, I thought I should give it a go. FINALLY had the motivation to take up running today... That didn't go down so well :v: Thought I should start with the local shop for good measure. Managed to run a third of the way. A THIRD! My heart is hammering out of my chest and now I'm an absolute wreck :v: I think I've earned myself a well-deserved nap... But hey, baby steps and all that! :dance:

Honestly taking a walk is what works best for me. It's such a simple thing but it does wonders to your psyche and mental health. If I could I would probably live in a house next to a beach or forest just so I could take a breather from time to time. It helps you appreciate the little things in life.

[QUOTE=coyote93;51675584]Then I would recommend a walk in the forest, or to go urbex, if there ain't any forests around. The chances of high places to jump of goes down, but at-least there is still the chance that you might feel better after a walk.[/QUOTE] I've taken walks around the lake nearby, which is about 14km trip when I've felt the worst. It made me feel bit better for sure.

[QUOTE=coyote93;51675584]Then I would recommend a walk in the forest, or to go urbex, if there ain't any forests around. The chances of high places to jump of goes down, but at-least there is still the chance that you might feel better after a walk.[/QUOTE] however, the risk of hanging yourself goes up e: this is probably inappropriate I'm sorry e2: I just clicked here from front page by accident and saw that comment first

I prefer going to space

[QUOTE=The bird Man;51675779]I prefer going to space[/QUOTE] What if I don't have any space nearby?

Jump as high as you can

No matter how long I have been close to people, I am always, constantly, daily terrified of losing those I care about. Be it death or they grow bored of me or we become distant for whatever reason.

I've had a huge sense of urgency, restlessness, and hyperactivity the past few days/week or so, and I've been sleeping very little even though my medication usually makes me sleep like a baby for 10 hours straight. I've also not been eating as much. And I feel just fine on the little sleep I'm getting, weirdly. I just started school again Wednesday last week, and this urgency feeling made me literally get done 90% of my math homework for the month and I haven't even had 1 actual lecture in that class yet. I just did the hw online and figured it all out myself because the feeling was telling me not to wait. I also basically finished studying for 2 quizzes in different classes next week already. Knowing me, I think I've been in some kind of manic episode the past few days that's been making me feel this way. If that's the case, I gotta make use of it while it lasts before the inevitable shift to depression, hopelessness, and emptiness comes around.

[QUOTE=coyote93;51675584]Then I would recommend a walk in the forest, or to go urbex, if there ain't any forests around. The chances of high places to jump of goes down, but at-least there is still the chance that you might feel better after a walk.[/QUOTE] In general, just take a walk or workout.Then taking a shower will do the trick. Also taking regularly showers is a must of course. [editline]16th January 2017[/editline] [QUOTE=Steam-Pixie;51675587]I've read running magazines and books these last few months... And considering that it "works wonders" for your mental health, boosts your immune system, and many other health benefits, I thought I should give it a go. FINALLY had the motivation to take up running today... That didn't go down so well :v: Thought I should start with the local shop for good measure. Managed to run a third of the way. A THIRD! My heart is hammering out of my chest and now I'm an absolute wreck :v: I think I've earned myself a well-deserved nap... But hey, baby steps and all that! :dance:[/QUOTE] Just remember if you started just now, in the first days you will, for sure, feel VERY VERY tired. But eventually the body will learn this daily pressure and it will become easier for you. [editline]16th January 2017[/editline] [QUOTE=Rapist;51675777]however, the risk of hanging yourself goes up e: this is probably inappropriate I'm sorry e2: I just clicked here from front page by accident and saw that comment first[/QUOTE] But then you will become a ghost and you will start haunting the forest, so is cool.

[QUOTE=coyote93;51675528]I recommend everyone who feel like shit to take a walk up the nearest mountain. By the time you reach the top, you either feel a little better for a little while, or you got a great place to jump from.[/QUOTE] last time I walked up a mountain it was in colorado up to 10k feet and all the other kids went on ahead of me because I was slow and not as fit as them what a shit trip that was, and the boy scouts was supposed to be a place where you made friends and learned something certainly taught me that bullies and shit people aren't just in school, they're everywhere

Has anyone here been prescribed an anti depressant and seen any improvement in mood/motivation? The ones I'm on work great for anxiety but I my mood/thoughts are still pretty negative most of the time. Unrelated to meds but I've feel like I've lost touch with reality. I've been depressed for a long time and didn't even know. I would stay good for months and then fall, doing nothing because I would tell myself I would get better. I didn't know that I didn't have to live this way. I took to drugs because that kept me happy for a while, but it was a bandaid solution that has its own issues. My mother told me real happiness is way better than any drug. Oh true I thought. But is it?? I mean what is happiness? I'm really confused. When my mood is low, I think everything is shit. I'm a loser failure and I've ruined my life. When my mood is up everything is great, there's a solution to all my issues and I have hope. These thoughts flip flop so often I don't know what is real. I'm bored of playing video games but in a good mood I can do the same thing over and over and be content. If I can meditate and be content with anything then whats the point oh shit i just realised im going through an existential crisis [editline]17th January 2017[/editline] thank fuck I got hooked up with free counseling.

Is there anything specific I can do to help someone with depression and anxiety? There's a guy I know online, and the conversation often ends up about his life. I've got a lot of personal experience with mental illness, but am still never sure I'm saying the right things. Usually, I just try to be supportive or steer him in directions that helped me (or we end up talking about anime for hours instead). It's never awkward or anything, I just wish I knew how to help him more. A few years ago, I had a friend in a similar situation who developed a drug problem and ended up getting arrested. I really cared about him and don't want to see anything like that or worse happen to this other guy. He already self-medicates with alcohol and weed, and his IRL friends do hard drugs, which worries me. Sorry if this is a vague question. I'm not even sure what kinda answer I'm looking for.

He know he's depressed? Just tell him to see his GP, best thing I ever did.

Do any of you rely on your friends a lot to help out? I don't like putting pressure on my friends, but at the same time, I want someone to talk to about things just to get my mind off of everything going on.

[QUOTE=a-k-t-w;51681471]Has anyone here been prescribed an anti depressant and seen any improvement in mood/motivation? The ones I'm on work great for anxiety but I my mood/thoughts are still pretty negative most of the time.[/QUOTE] It took my doctor quadrupling my dosage and putting me on a second antidepressant at the same time before I noticed any difference in my mood. Speaking of antidepressants I asked my father why he never renewed my prozac prescription or took me back to therapy when I was 11 - he said (I'm not kidding) "Do you like having sex". The sex drive of an eleven year old was more important then my mental health. Just to give some backstory this is when I was completely suicidal & hospitalized. When I was six I was diagnosed with several axis I disorders that went untreated as well. Some people should not be parents.

[QUOTE=LieutExcalibu;51682645]Do any of you rely on your friends a lot to help out? I don't like putting pressure on my friends, but at the same time, I want someone to talk to about things just to get my mind off of everything going on.[/QUOTE] I rely on my best friend and when she needs someone there she can rely on me. I understand not wanting to burden people with your issues but it can really help to have someone you can talk to about anything. Talk with any of your close friends and I'm sure they'll be more than willing to help you. It's an important part of close personal relationships.

Thank you guys for your input. I've been a long time lurker in these threads, and I don't pop in much. I don't know how much longer I have, but I want to say thank you. Thank you for being an outlet Stay safe, stay happy.

[QUOTE=gtanoofa;51682201]I keep waking up at night and it's really annoying at times. It all started 2 weeks ago when i fixed my messed up sleep schedule so i can sleep at night. I keep waking up at like 12 am and 4 am then think for a bit and sleep again but sometimes i can't fall asleep again and in result i'm very tired for they day. I don't know what to do. Anyone have a suggestion? I don't want to feel dead 24/7 :/[/QUOTE] Don't worry, I think that's normal. It takes a little while to fix a broken sleeping schedule if it's badly broken. I experienced the exact same thing for a few weeks after I went from going to sleep at 4-6am to 10pm everyday, I kept waking up once or twice (sometimes even thrice) every single night. Eventually it stops, you just gotta keep going. I think it's related to our circadian rhythm, takes a while for it to return to normal. I believe there's some things you can do to promote a healthier rhythm, like exposing yourself to sunlight when you're supposed to wake up, eating at regular times and reducing blue light a few hours before bed.

I messed up, thought I was working an evening shift today and not lunch. Woke up 2 hours late for the actual shift, hurried to work and was scolded and told to go home and come back tomorrow when I actually have my evening shift. I just don't know how to deal with my clumsiness, forgetfulness and just straight up stupidity. Its one thing when I am the only one affected by it but its too much when it affects co-workers. Fucking hell I feel bad...

Holy crap I'm so lonely losing your friends sneaks up on you, one day you feel like you have all the friends you could ever want and then the other you realize you've just lost your last friend and now you're alone again and in desperation for any contact you pull up your steam friends list and you realize you don't even have any online friends to talk to anymore either, or that maybe you have one person you kind of know so you shoot them a message but you can't carry a conversation and it's just awkward and it dies right out the gate

[QUOTE=a-k-t-w;51681471]Has anyone here been prescribed an anti depressant and seen any improvement in mood/motivation? The ones I'm on work great for anxiety but I my mood/thoughts are still pretty negative most of the time.[/QUOTE] My moods still pretty bad but I was almost pretty much in a extremely numb distant state before I started taking them, so I consider that an improvement.