Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V5 - General

[QUOTE=PredGD;50914332]Speaking from experience, distance yourself from this friend if it's negatively impacting you. I've been through this myself and it put such a large amount of stress on me to the point where my own mental state started falling apart. I'd constantly hear complaining etc and no matter what I said, I'd hear the same complaints over and over. Their struggles are real of course, but what can you do about this when nothing you do helps? If you have the capacity and want to help, then by all means do so. I don't think you can do much more than to just listen though. I just got annoyed responses when I tried to help, not sure if that's a common theme or not. But if you notice that you're sacrificing your own well being while trying to help, put some space between the two of you and come back later. It's not worth it to sacrifice your own mental health when said person you're trying to help won't accept any of it anyway.[/QUOTE] Oldest friend by the way, known him all my life, and it's happened to me before, I've been in his position and fallen out with friends and came back and are on good terms now I'm better. But he's about to basically enter a downward spiral that will effect the rest of his life, there's no coming back from this if his brother is an example to go by. I've been through depression and I was sort of spiralling down and refusing help, it went badly and I can see this happening to him and so can my other friend, but he just won't let us even talk to him.

[QUOTE=The bird Man;50910440]Which city you live in[/QUOTE] Ass end of nowhere, aka. Örkelljunga. [QUOTE=-Ben_Wolfe-;50911691]Truth is, you do have all the time in the world, if you choose to utilize it. You are really all that holds you back; likewise, you are the only one who can change your situation.[/QUOTE] Now, this is part of the problem. I the situation is depending on me & only me, & thats what makes the situation unchangeable. Every time I try, I fail, wich makes the prospect of trying even more imposing & "threatening" because fear of hurting yourself even more. Doesnt help that I have no idea where to start, or even how to help myself.

[QUOTE=AntontheFox;50915182] Now, this is part of the problem. I the situation is depending on me & only me, & thats what makes the situation unchangeable. Every time I try, I fail, wich makes the prospect of trying even more imposing & "threatening" because fear of hurting yourself even more. Doesnt help that I have no idea where to start, or even how to help myself.[/QUOTE] The situation depends on how you deal with circumstances. Circumstances are not always going to be ideal. You can either wallow in misery as life throws shit at you, or you can do what you can with what you've got. There's absolutely no guarantee of success, but not trying guarantees you will be left with nothing. Research online, make phone calls, talk to people around you. Gain as much knowledge as possible. Not only will that improve your ability to socialize but it puts you on some kind of path.

Seriously can't stop thinking about slashing my throat with the new fancy sharp kitchen knife. I'm split between wanting this all to end or pushing through for my family and friends. It's the third night in a row of non stop nightmares of being forced to watch her in bed with another guy. I can't get away from this.

Found out that all my friends are travelling across Europe this summer and I had no idea until a week before they leave. My mum died last year and I know that I've been a bummer ever since and would ruin it for them if I went but to even be asked would be nice. I feel like I will never truly be considered anyone's close friend, I'm an outcast even within my own friend circles; it's things like this that make me want to fucking die. I'm pathetic.

I really want to kill myself. I am 16 how do I get help

[QUOTE=dubste;50916634]I really want to kill myself. I am 16 how do I get help[/QUOTE] Just simply search for a slovenian crisis hotline. Tell them you have depressive/suicidal thoughts (you're 100% anonymous) and they'll refer you to a psychological youth center were you'll talk to an adult about your issues. There are even hotlines were all you do is talking with an adult that had the same experience like you, and he/she gives you advice and let you let all your feelings out, which helps a lot in some occasions.

So I had an urge to follow up in here... don't know if anyone remembers me posting before, but I ended up packing a bag of clothes, grabbing my guitar, and taking a 40hr Greyhound bus trip down to San Antonio to start fresh and stick it to my depression. It worked. I have a full-time job now, just got a car and insurance for it today, and I'm feeling better than ever. I've accomplished more in 2 months than I did the 8 years after high school of giving up anytime I knew there was a chance I could fail. If any of you ever have the chance to change scenery and make a giant, scary step like I did... take it. It could be the best move you ever made in this big game called life.

I personally don't think I'd suicide unless my life was truly fucked, I rate some of you guys in the thread for putting up what you have to put up with. Never let this guy find out though [url]http://wikipunch.com/Dead_Users[/url] 👀 👀

I'm keeping all these depressing thoughts to myself when I wish I could talk to someone about them. I've just been keeping everything bottled up inside. Everyone thinks I am fine and happy when I'm not.

So apparently i'm suffering from Persistent Postural-Perceptual Dizziness. Yay. A new diagnostic to add on top of six other diagnostics, including generalized anxiety, and a neurologist that told me it's myasthenia gravis but she's not sure yet. What in the fuck. Man, i wish this shit to none of you guys. What the fuck.

does anyone else feel like having friends takes everything out of you and leaves you completely emotionally drained but you also feel the pressure to act happy around them so they don't think you're a sad loser so you have to fake emotions and that takes a toll on you even more [editline]20th August 2016[/editline] not even just acting happy just hiding your true feelings in general 100% of the time

[QUOTE=NixNax123;50920778]does anyone else feel like having friends takes everything out of you and leaves you completely emotionally drained but you also feel the pressure to act happy around them so they don't think you're a sad loser so you have to fake emotions and that takes a toll on you even more [editline]20th August 2016[/editline] not even just acting happy just hiding your true feelings in general 100% of the time[/QUOTE] Not always, but yeah, pretty often. Feel like I'm stuck between two hard spots. I can't stand not being with people for long, but when I finally am with someone I just end up feeling drained and not that interested in what's going on. Then when I get back home, I'm already starving to get back out despite not really being up for it. Sometimes it makes me feel great, to be with people that is, but they only happen every now and then. I suppose I'm just hanging out with the wrong people who don't really satisfy my social needs. I clearly want to be social but just not with my friends. I don't feel that connected to any of them, I don't feel like I can trust them with stuff about myself, nor am I comfortable enough with them to really show off what's behind my "facade".

I need to stop thinking about her. She's not worth the heartache. I don't miss her in the slightest its just the anger doesn't go away no matter how much time has passed. I should be over the anger by now but I'm still not. I used to love her but now I can't stand the thought of her

Hurt myself again for something incredibly petty and stupid. It accomplished nothing. fuck

Bleh, I think the only reason I haven't offed myself is there are people who I care about. Kind of a reason it's taking me so long to move out. If something were to happen that cut me off from everyone I'd probably likely at least attempt to off myself. God I bounce back and forth between happy and hyproductive to a useless wreck so much...

I don't even know why I haven't tried killing myself again. I guess I don't want to go through the hassle of doing it. [editline]21st August 2016[/editline] And because I don't want to get sick

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You won't be as depressed when you are constantly putting all your attention to the headaches.

[QUOTE=Slav Krebs;50923692]Does anyone find antidepressants effective or is it just a business to give everyone constant headaches[/QUOTE] Never had any issues with headaches, just gotta find the right thing.

So tired of people right now. I just want moments where I can be 100% alone. I want to chill out at home but there's people here too so I don't wanna be home. Sister blaring off music, the others watching a movie upstairs, I want silence. When I first go out, my mother sends messages all the time asking if I'm okay or not, just let me chill out. People are stressing so much all the time. I don't feel at home when at home at all. I need to move out ASAP. I don't care if my economy will be bad, as long as I'll survive and can afford my essentials / some left over for whatever then I'm OK. Just so tired in general of never having a moment of peace. The closest I get is to sit all shut in on my room (which is not preferable) with sounds coming from everywhere, be it music or someone running around. [editline]21st August 2016[/editline] I'm just so tired of 'negative' emotions in general. Stress, depression, those negative emotions that come from others that end up affecting me. It's fine to feel either of these but as soon as I get involved into it I just want to run. Unless it's a good reason of course, but right now I'm thinking specifically about people stressing for all the wrong reasons. Like my mother, I'm 20 years old yet she wants to know where I am at all times and constantly send messages asking if I'm okay despite always answering the same thing, "yes". Like chill the fuck out. [editline]21st August 2016[/editline] Why can't everyone I'm with just chill the fuck out and give stuff some more thought into what they're saying before spouting out a ton of bullshit. [editline]21st August 2016[/editline] Seems like a majority of the people I run into lack the ability to think forward.

[QUOTE=Slav Krebs;50923692]Does anyone find antidepressants effective or is it just a business to give everyone constant headaches[/QUOTE] I stopped taking medication but antidepressants used to make my hands shake more than usual

[QUOTE=Slav Krebs;50923692]Does anyone find antidepressants effective or is it just a business to give everyone constant headaches[/QUOTE] Last time I took some, I became incredibly aggressive and irritable, almost to the point of losing my job.

i can't imagine a fate worse than being diagnosed with schizophrenia. naturally, as an anxious person, as my mental condition deteriorates, my mind jumps to the worst case scenario of which mental disorder i have. i mean, if i end up having that i'm basically going to have to kill myself. no offense to any sz people here.

The only problem i have is that my dad is a dick

[QUOTE=nagachief;50926486]Last time I took some, I became incredibly aggressive and irritable, almost to the point of losing my job.[/QUOTE] Um, hopefully I'm not reaching too far, but have you considered that you might have bipolar disorder? Antidepressants often cause (hypo)mania in people with bipolar disorder. There are also some people who only get symptoms when they're induced by antidepressants, but if you've ever had any symptoms of mania outside of that I'd strongly suggest you look into it. Symptoms of mania are roughly: very high energy; talking a lot; poorly thought out and rushed decisions, like spending a lot of money or hooking up or doing (hard) drugs; not sleeping but feeling fine; high anxiety, or a high desire to "move" and "DO SOMETHING"; inappropriately optimistic outlook; inflated ego or self worth...

[QUOTE=ECrownofFire;50927286]Um, hopefully I'm not reaching too far, but have you considered that you might have bipolar disorder? Antidepressants often cause (hypo)mania in people with bipolar disorder. There are also some people who only get symptoms when they're induced by antidepressants, but if you've ever had any symptoms of mania outside of that I'd strongly suggest you look into it. Symptoms of mania are roughly: very high energy; talking a lot; poorly thought out and rushed decisions, like spending a lot of money or hooking up or doing (hard) drugs; not sleeping but feeling fine; high anxiety, or a high desire to "move" and "DO SOMETHING"; inappropriately optimistic outlook; inflated ego or self worth...[/QUOTE] what if i have mania that isn't brought on by antidepressants? i've had nights where i've felt [I]exactly[/I] the way you described [editline]22nd August 2016[/editline] i'm not looking to self-diagnose myself with anything, just curious

[QUOTE=ECrownofFire;50927286]Um, hopefully I'm not reaching too far, but have you considered that you might have bipolar disorder? Antidepressants often cause (hypo)mania in people with bipolar disorder. There are also some people who only get symptoms when they're induced by antidepressants, but if you've ever had any symptoms of mania outside of that I'd strongly suggest you look into it. Symptoms of mania are roughly: very high energy; talking a lot; poorly thought out and rushed decisions, like spending a lot of money or hooking up or doing (hard) drugs; not sleeping but feeling fine; high anxiety, or a high desire to "move" and "DO SOMETHING"; inappropriately optimistic outlook; inflated ego or self worth...[/QUOTE] What if I say all of the above (well, minus the drugs part)? I've in the past constantly taken on huge projects without thinking and end up abandoning them afterwards. I've gotten a rather unreliable reputation because of it.

[QUOTE=NixNax123;50927439]what if i have mania that isn't brought on by antidepressants? i've had nights where i've felt [I]exactly[/I] the way you described [editline]22nd August 2016[/editline] i'm not looking to self-diagnose myself with anything, just curious[/QUOTE] If it's just a night or two, well, sometimes you get in a weird mood I guess. Strictly speaking, according to the DSM the symptoms have to either be present for a minimum of seven days, or they have to result in hospitalization. Really it's the sort of diagnosis that... bipolar is not fun to have. And everybody mislabels it as some sort of bullshit about mood swings. Or even worse, confuses it for borderline personality disorder. They're not even [I]close[/I] to the same thing. Bipolar disorder is just episodic depression and episodic mania, and that's it. No sudden mood swings. Most of the time you're a just another normal person going about their day. The episodes don't even necessarily alternate, there's no "pendulum". The one and only exception is that mania is often immediately followed by depression. [editline]22nd August 2016[/editline] [QUOTE=nagachief;50927674]What if I say all of the above (well, minus the drugs part)? I've in the past constantly taken on huge projects without thinking and end up abandoning them afterwards. I've gotten a rather unreliable reputation because of it.[/QUOTE] I would strongly suggest you talk to your psychiatrist/therapist about it then. Mania is something that can easily lead to extremely dangerous situations because of that lack of self control.

[QUOTE=pith_;50926520]i can't imagine a fate worse than being diagnosed with schizophrenia. naturally, as an anxious person, as my mental condition deteriorates, my mind jumps to the worst case scenario of which mental disorder i have. i mean, if i end up having that i'm basically going to have to kill myself. no offense to any sz people here.[/QUOTE] Keep in mind that if you end up diagnosed with it, that means you were already suffering from it. Its just a way to describe your issues, not add more. If life is okay enough right now and you get the diagnosis, so what? Nothing is gonna change other than you getting proper help and closure on what's wrong.