Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V5 - General

[QUOTE=Van.;51764420]So what I'm saying is that I can see people talking about being depressed over very trivial things, some of them do indeed seem mundane and not such a big deal as some of them like to make it out, thinking that they have it worse than others, when in fact I don't think that they actually do. I was happy to share my story in terms of just a few things I've been through and showing it as a sign of strength, not giving up, to keep going and doing things when things are bad, to show that there is a chance of things getting better. I have read just a few stories, skim read them, about people thinking about committing suicide, this is wrong, and I've posted that I could be homeless and have no money, and some people have a house and money and they want to kill themselfs, and even if they haven't ever been in a situation like that, like I have they seem to think they have it so bad. I think a lot of people are over stimulating, looking for issues and problems where there are none. I have to disagree with you on the disagree that you said. No pity for a coward. Suicide is a cowards way out. It's not worth it, and what I said makes sense, go and live your life to the fullest you can, have fun and go out and enjoy it, why would you want to think that just because you post on a forum on the internet that people can't see what you write, or how some people think that their family doesn't care about them or love them, I think some of it is indeed attention seeking for some that just want to see if something will care about them when they say they think about suicide, so they say, no don't do that, and that is something they are seeking. Some of these stories, don't seem to me like any reason for suicide, there is none. From what I've posted just a snip of my life I haven't done that, and I don't want to. Take it as a sign of strength and determination that things can get better.[/QUOTE] Depression is a mental illness, ya goof. It's not always controlled by how good or bad your environment is. It can be agitated by a poor environment sure. But anyone can suffer from depression. Saying that "you don't have it bad so you shouldn't be depressed" is a fundamental misunderstanding of what depression actually is. You should probably do more research on it before offering advice like this that is potentially harmful.

AAA I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE I'VE FUCKING HAD IT. WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN. I HATE MY FUCKING LIFE AND I HATE MYSELF. I CAN'T HOLD ON I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE I'M SORRY FOR BEING WEAK BUT I DON'T WANT TO GO ON ANYMORE IT JUST HURTS TOO MUCH AND EVERYTHING I DO TO FIX IT JUST COUNTERS IT BACK. I CAN'T TAKE THE PAIN ANYMORE AND I'VE JUST LOST EVERYONE. i'm sorry but i can't do this anymore i've had it i just want to lay in bed and cry until i die I just want do die now nothing more I'm sorry but I just lost everything and I want to die so much. I'm SORRY EVERYONE I'M SO FUCKING SORRY I JUST WANT TO be gone. [editline]2nd February 2017[/editline] for fucks sake i don't even have my room to cry to sleep and die anymore WHY CAN'T THE WORLD JUST LET ME AT LEASt CRY IN FUCKING PEACE. NO FUCKING ROOM OR BED TO KILL MYSELF ON PILLS PERFECT TIMING AT LEAST THE BARS ON THE BALCONY ARE STILL THERE AND STRONG ENOUGH TO HOLD ME HOPEFULLY.

You really shouldn't man but I won't judge you if you do. Good luck. I wish I was in a better position to help.

[QUOTE=The bird Man;51757645]First time I showered for one and a half month today, only meet one person a month anyway. Now I should try to eat more than 4-6 meals a week.[/QUOTE] I can't go a day without showering wtf Anyway, I've been crazy disassociating recently, I just lose interest in everything really fast but it zig zags a lot, have zero motivation to go out or do anything right now. Yesterday was basically me in bed all day.

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[QUOTE=Trillo Lillo;51765303]I was about to lose my shit so I tried chlorine but spitted it on the floor the second I tasted it and ended up crying on the floor.... wow, sometimes I don't realize how much of a big problem I have... now that I read it, I hope I can laugh about this in a couple of years.[/QUOTE]Trust me when I say that having your stomach dissolve is not the way you want to die if you are going to kill yourself. There are better methods. Not to try to persuade you to kill yourself or anything but just seriously, for the love of god don't drink bleach. Also don't overdose on any pills either, both are extremely shitty ways to go. Edit: Just realized you said chlorine, not sure if you meant bleach or chlorine, I can't imagine either is pleasant.

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I wouldn't suggest any other methods

I've been so tired lately, I've been falling asleep really early. What can I do for more energy?

[QUOTE=Trillo Lillo;51765409]yeah, it was bleach, (sorry- english not first language) If there are better methods... what would you suggest?[/QUOTE] Pooping so hard your head explodes

Such a petty reason why I'm pretty low and stressed out, but hey ho :v: I've been creating content for YouTube twice a week since May last year, never missing a week, always have been on schedule. Today, I realise that there are no videos in my "back stock" of footage for me to upload tonight (I usually film in bulk). Plus I've been feeling really tired and disgusting lately, so therefore I don't feel like filming anything... So no video for tonight I guess. BLAH :frown:

[QUOTE=Pascall;51764724]Depression is a mental illness, ya goof. It's not always controlled by how good or bad your environment is. It can be agitated by a poor environment sure. But anyone can suffer from depression. Saying that "you don't have it bad so you shouldn't be depressed" is a fundamental misunderstanding of what depression actually is. You should probably do more research on it before offering advice like this that is potentially harmful.[/QUOTE] I know what depression is, don't call me a goof cunt. I have bipolar affective disorder axis I the first diagnosis was a non-organic psychosis, [QUOTE=a-k-t-w;51764719]You know nothing about depression, don't speak on it again. Like are you fucking trolling?[/QUOTE] I know what depression in, don't tell me what to do you, idiot. I know quite a lot about mental illness and health over working with different social workers, psychiatrists, doctors, case managers, case workers, occupational therapists, psychologists, trainees, and youth workers. Don't try to tell me what I know, or don't know, when you have no idea. Fuckwit, and if people think me telling people not to kill themselves is dumb, then the people here are fucking stupid, if you think it's dumb to try and save a life, why not walk in front of a car then. [highlight](User was banned for this post ("Take a chill pill" - Blazyd))[/highlight]

Can you like go fuck with people that aren't mentally ill this is a serious thread.

Telling people not to kill themselves because it's a "cowards way out" is not how to talk to a suicidal person. Suicidal people need encouragement and reassurance, as well as an understanding for their circumstance and a person who is a good conversationalist and negotiator. Belittling them does absolutely nothing to convince them to step back from that ledge. Flaming someone when your outdated methodology is challenged is dumb. Make a better argument or don't post.

Suicide is a tragedy for the most part, upon anything else. Suicide is a cunt and is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

That's also a misconception in a lot of cases. Some problems like other mental illness or physical/mental disabilities are absolutely permanent. Temporary problems are not always the leading cause of suicide. Things like abusive parents cannot always be easily remedied. Things like a drug addiction are not always so easy to solve without expensive professional help. Things like terminal illness cannot be solved at all. To label everyone's issues as temporary is just as much of an outdated statement as the earlier one. Even if that one is nicer put. "Temporary" does not always make things easier to bear in the moment.

[QUOTE=a-k-t-w;51766676]Can you like go fuck with people that aren't mentally ill this is a serious thread.[/QUOTE] This is a bad message you give for people who even they aren't depressed or mentally ill, they trying to give some helpful advises [in their opinion of course].

I got really depressed when I started thinking about my ex girlfriend. I was thinking of all the good times we had and it made me happy and sad at the same time.

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;51767637]I got really depressed when I started thinking about my ex girlfriend. I was thinking of all the good times we had and it made me happy and sad at the same time.[/QUOTE] I feel ya my dude. Sometimes my brain will just go - Hey remember this gal you had great times with(even though there were some shit times) and it just wrecks me. I'm in a state of not knowing what to do. I want a job, but there's really nothing I can apply too. Even the general labour is out of distance for my shitty car. I also am having an insane amount of trouble deciding on what to do with my life in general. Career? Don't know. Goals? None. Even though I'm not ENTIRELY depressed, it just feels like.. It just feels like there's nothing there that draws my attention to. I barely even feel like going for walks around my neighbourhood. Not because I don't feel like it, but I just don't see the point in it.

[QUOTE=Covalent;51768434]I also am having an insane amount of trouble deciding on what to do with my life in general. Career? Don't know. Goals? None. [/QUOTE] Yeah, I can relate to this, I recently lost my job in graphic design which was what I thought I'd be ok with doing since I'm alright at it but I kinda realized I don't actually like doing it and honestly don't really know what I want to do. Right now I'm just in this weird place where I've basically become a recluse and pretty much have disassociated with what's going on around me, don't really have much motivation to even do anything to occupy my time. On top of trouble finding a new gig I genuinely really have no clue what I want to do with my life.

I don't know what to do with my life other than end it

please dont actually end it

[QUOTE=mchapra;51768524]please dont actually end it[/QUOTE] i won't, i have too much anime i haven't yet watched

[QUOTE=Headhumpy;51768538]i won't, i have too much anime i haven't yet watched[/QUOTE] I have so many Videogames to play which I will die by only trying...

USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED WHY IS THIS FUCKING HAPPENING TO ME I JUST WANT TO END MY FUCKING LIFE BEING REPLACED YET AGAIN OBVIOUSLY I NEVER MEANT ANYTHING TO ANYONE NEVER WILL I'm so sorry.. Since yesterday A FUCKTON of bizzare and terrible things just keep happening and I keep losing fucking everything. Everyone I care about is gone GONE WHY MUST THIS FUCKING HAPPEN WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID TO LET THEN GO I CAN'T DO THIS ANY LONGER I can't even just lay down and cry I want to kill myself very much, that's the best thing that can happen to me and I really want to do it and I'm excited about killing myself it'll end all my pain and stop all the shit that's coming to get me soon. Will taking a shitload of many different pills work? Maybe mix it with some alcohol and bleach? I JUST WANT TO FUCKING GO NOTHING MORE I FEEL LIKE I'M AT THE POINT OF NO RETURN I'M SO FUCKING SORRY

So it occurred to me that the RDA recommendation for iodine is 150mcg/day. However, most professionals feel that's too low. Also, more then 74% of Americans apparently have iodine deficiency. After reviewing my own diet, I'm only getting around 70mcg/day - and most of that is from my sport multivitamins. Started to supplement at 500mcg/day and I'll see how it affects my depression and anxiety.

[QUOTE=SweetShark;51767560]This is a bad message you give for people who even they aren't depressed or mentally ill, they trying to give some helpful advises [in their opinion of course].[/QUOTE] What? His advice is dumb he may as well be saying "just cheer up like get over it'

[QUOTE=GoldAssassin;51769266]USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS USELESS REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED REPLACED WHY IS THIS FUCKING HAPPENING TO ME I JUST WANT TO END MY FUCKING LIFE BEING REPLACED YET AGAIN OBVIOUSLY I NEVER MEANT ANYTHING TO ANYONE NEVER WILL I'm so sorry.. Since yesterday A FUCKTON of bizzare and terrible things just keep happening and I keep losing fucking everything. Everyone I care about is gone GONE WHY MUST THIS FUCKING HAPPEN WHY AM I SO FUCKING STUPID TO LET THEN GO I CAN'T DO THIS ANY LONGER I can't even just lay down and cry I want to kill myself very much, that's the best thing that can happen to me and I really want to do it and I'm excited about killing myself it'll end all my pain and stop all the shit that's coming to get me soon. Will taking a shitload of many different pills work? Maybe mix it with some alcohol and bleach? I JUST WANT TO FUCKING GO NOTHING MORE I FEEL LIKE I'M AT THE POINT OF NO RETURN I'M SO FUCKING SORRY[/QUOTE] I'll be ur friend :yarr:

Felt kinda depressed today. I'm stuck in the past and I thought about talking about it with my social worker and get advice but I haven't brought it up. Maybe Monday if it's still bothering me

You guys got any tips on how to deal with loneliness when living alone? And boredom? I've gotten more used to it now so I don't have panic attacks anymore but the loneliness is still there. It's just more sad than panicky I guess. I feel so bored all the time but at the same time I can't be bothered to do anything with it / come with any ideas for it. I could send a message to a friend, but I don't wanna. I could go for a walk, but eh. I could play a game or do some programming but that too sounds like a bad idea so I don't want to. It gets tiring to sit in the same, small apartment for weeks on end but I don't know what to do with it.