Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V5 - General

I was feeling depressed this morning but the girl I like brought me cake from her 24th birthday yesterday and I felt better. I couldn't make it to her birthday but it was nice that she brought me a slice

[QUOTE=No Party Hats;52063175]Aw man overnights and social lives are shitty mixes, having done overnights for a year and a half now basically you choose sleep or a social life. If you take brief naps throughout the day I've found I can spread my sleep out just far enough to have daytime to see people, but you've also gotta be willing to the whole 6 hours of sleep thing[/QUOTE] I wake up at like noon for my overnights and try to hang out with my friends. I usually last about 3 days before I crash and burn. I'm gonna try that nap thing.

[QUOTE=Redcoat893;52063070]What is so hard about me saying "I don't mind" and you not asking be again 7 times, I've already had 1 major panic attack today, this person knew that but they still kept pressing the issue.[/QUOTE] I think people have a hard time relating to and understanding panic attacks. It is hard to imagine them without actually having one. They might just not know to help. Sorry though, panic attacks are terrifying.

I haven't had a panic attack in a long time now. I used to get them a lot. Most of the time they were triggered by overthinking which I still have a problem with but I don't really get panicked when it happens now

i was sleeping fine these last couple of days, i almost forgot what its like to have anxiety when trying to sleep. until now, i have an appointment in the morning and now im all anxious

Down from 40mg Viibryd to 30mg, and either it has reduced the emotional numbing down to a point where it doesn't really bother me, or it's been so long that I've forgotten what it's like to not be numb :s: Anyway, I know everything's different for everyone, but I just wanted to share that what's been working best for me was a good medication, followed by more frequent and higher quality social interactions. boy does my mood ever hinge on feeling liked.

I don't know where I would be right now if I hadn't of got help for myself. I've been so happy lately.

Decided to stop driving, since I have trouble seeing cars and people, and somehow manages to "disappear" into a some catatonic state. Almost ran over a person today, and then almost drove into a bus, and almost backed into another. I've lost complete consciousness of speed and most traffic rules, and struggle to keep awake. [editline]6th April 2017[/editline] Also got my first meal and 4 hour sleep in 3 days

[QUOTE=LordyLord;52065008]i was sleeping fine these last couple of days, i almost forgot what its like to have anxiety when trying to sleep. until now, i have an appointment in the morning and now im all anxious[/QUOTE] I find that when this is happening to me, that putting on something relaxing really helps. Like a youtube podcast or something and wear your headphones. It really distracts your mind

slept ok, but my appointment went totally different than i wanted it to. they recommended hospitalization or more fast acting drugs to help me, so im getting klonopin. hope it helps, feels like im going in circles with my anxiety.

[QUOTE=LordyLord;52066956]slept ok, but my appointment went totally different than i wanted it to. they recommended hospitalization or more fast acting drugs to help me, so im getting klonopin. hope it helps, feels like im going in circles with my anxiety.[/QUOTE] anxiety is really tough to cope with. I struggle more with anxiety than I do with depression now. My depression is pretty much gone but i don't know what to do about anxiety

I've been taking Prozac and Klonopin for two weeks now and although I feel it's helped me a ton, it tends to make me very drowsy. At first it was pretty manageable and didn't affect my performance in class, but after passing out in my dorm between classes and nearly missing an exam today I don't think I should keep taking the same dose as before. My doc gave me a couple of options for taking smaller doses if need be, I'm probably going to try out those and see if those work any better for me. [sp]I was fine on the exam by the way, my instructors know about my situation and he still let me take it with the normal allotted time when I got there. Scored well too, got a 90% :v[/sp]

well right now im a week into lexapro, which is making me p drowsy too. hopefully i dont have to use as much xanax (doc decided on that instead of klonopin for me) because i still want to get through this semester i just want to go back to not having to fight to live happily

[QUOTE=LordyLord;52068042] i just want to go back to not having to fight to live happily[/QUOTE] Oh, I relate to this so hardcore. Some days are definitely easier than others. Good luck on the Lexapro though!

Got anxious when I got home so I took half of one of my xanax. We'll see how that goes. edit: threw it all up with my lunch, nice.

I didn't go to my program or therapy today because I wasn't feeling that good. I should of at least went to therapy there but I've been feeling sick these past few days

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;52068769]I didn't go to my program or therapy today because I wasn't feeling that good. I should of at least went to therapy there but I've been feeling sick these past few days[/QUOTE] Some days you just need to just slow down and not do much to recharge. Hopefully you feel better and can try again tomorrow!

My meds are slowly beginning to stop working. I don't wanna slip back into the hell I was in for two years but it's looking that way.

I feel very numb and strange, I don't know if I can continue like this. Seriously considering the hospitalization route, will talk to my counselor about it tomorrow.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;52068960]My meds are slowly beginning to stop working. I don't wanna slip back into the hell I was in for two years but it's looking that way.[/QUOTE] I had this happen to me too after taking Lexapro for maybe two or three years. The best thing to do is get to a psychiatrist/doctor right away and address the issue. Your body changes over the years, it makes sense your medication might have to be altered too. Definitely do it sooner rather than later. Personally, I felt I changed my medication far too late and looking back I have some regrets about how I handled things. [QUOTE=LordyLord;52069173]I feel very numb and strange, I don't know if I can continue like this. Seriously considering the hospitalization route, will talk to my counselor about it tomorrow.[/QUOTE] Definitely talk to somebody, maybe hospitalization is the best option? Stay safe.

Every now and again my boyfriend makes a joke or a comment somewhere along the lines of "wait until your parents die" as a means of telling me that I'll understand how he feels regarding a certain subject or topic when that happens since both of his parents are gone. And it kinda. Bothers me. But I'm not sure how to tell him that. He uses humor to cope and I get it but when he talks about my parents like that it's a little uncomfortable.

[QUOTE=Pascall;52069479]Every now and again my boyfriend makes a joke or a comment somewhere along the lines of "wait until your parents die" as a means of telling me that I'll understand how he feels regarding a certain subject or topic when that happens since both of his parents are gone. And it kinda. Bothers me. But I'm not sure how to tell him that. He uses humor to cope and I get it but when he talks about my parents like that it's a little uncomfortable.[/QUOTE] There's a middle ground to it that's gotta be met, of course address that you find it insensitive but I can't say I don't crack my fair share of 'well at least your dad didn't abandon you and steal over two thousand dollars worth of photography and music equipment from you' jokes

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[QUOTE=Pascall;52069479]Every now and again my boyfriend makes a joke or a comment somewhere along the lines of "wait until your parents die" as a means of telling me that I'll understand how he feels regarding a certain subject or topic when that happens since both of his parents are gone. And it kinda. Bothers me. But I'm not sure how to tell him that. He uses humor to cope and I get it but when he talks about my parents like that it's a little uncomfortable.[/QUOTE] You could try talking it out with him and setting a middle ground after explaining it makes you feel uncomfortable.

Yeah we talked for a little bit. He was kinda upset that I wasn't having appropriate emotional responses when he would talk to me about his dead parents and I was upset that he was making jokes like that about my parents so we agreed to both do better. My emotional responses were basically like "oh that's interesting" cuz I wasn't really sure what to say about it. but I told him I'd try better to formulate actual meaningful responses even if it takes me a bit to actually find the words for it.

[QUOTE=Pascall;52070455]Yeah we talked for a little bit. He was kinda upset that I wasn't having appropriate emotional responses when he would talk to me about his dead parents and I was upset that he was making jokes like that about my parents so we agreed to both do better. My emotional responses were basically like "oh that's interesting" cuz I wasn't really sure what to say about it. but I told him I'd try better to formulate actual meaningful responses even if it takes me a bit to actually find the words for it.[/QUOTE] That's all that's important, that you recognize that and are trying. Having someone you're with who doesn't seem to get who you are and why you act a certain way about things kills you inside but it's hard to say out loud because at least personally I don't want them to think I want them to 'change'. Glad you guys are ironing it out!

goin to the hospital

[QUOTE=LordyLord;52071349]goin to the hospital[/QUOTE] Good luck! Hope you feel better soon I've been waking up kinda nauseous these past few days but end up feeling slightly better as the day goes on. I dunno what's wrong with me

Heard something walking outside the room and it ran straight into the door, giving a large bashing sound. My heart is pumping like crazy, and there wasn't even anything there. How am I supposed to sleep now

I promised to kill myself in my birthday, through hanging or another fatal method in case the first one fails.