Been awake for 3 days on Amphetamine, went to the balcony for a smoke. After I exhaled I thought to myself: "Where the hell is all this smoke coming from?"
hallucinating yet?
Just chugged 350 ml of DXM, gonna light up a bowl and just relax while I wait for it to set in.
Can't find anything! I hate living in a small college town. Once school lets out the drug supply is like 75% diminished.
[QUOTE=Mac2468;39109679]hallucinating yet?[/QUOTE]
Not yet, though I feel as if I'm drifting into a tweaked state where my thoughts are becoming incoherent.
I can feel myself slipping back into insanity. don't know what to do
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or who to turn to
some mates came by and we smoked some hookah in my basement before blazing
going to bed now though, cause i gotta go to work tomorrow, even though i'm not really well yet.
chocolate biscuits are good though
[editline]5th January 2013[/editline]
help
my brain is deteriorating. I can't talk to my friend because all she does is moan and I don't think she can be bothered and she's too naive anyway. My boyfriend's too normal to understand these things
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I'm glad he's normal though. I had a psychopathic one once and that wasn't fun
deteriorating in what way? Ye i like being with normal people, good contrast to my weirdness
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A couple made of 2 weird people is like an entirely different beast, when you people watch you can always pick out the weirdo couple
[QUOTE=babyarm-bat;39110713]deteriorating in what way? Ye i like being with normal people, good contrast to my weirdness
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A couple made of 2 weird people is like an entirely different beast, when you people watch you can always pick out the weirdo couple[/QUOTE]
i think thats what other people think of me and my girlfriend, lol.
just smoked a fat joint anyone up for some gaming?
Tania everything's going to get better,you're a beautiful soul that offers positivity...I think you're ok and just in a harsh enviorment when you were ment for something more,I don't know you but I know that and stand firm to it...maybe you should travel
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Lol I think imma goto work on acid
[QUOTE=babyarm-bat;39110713]deteriorating in what way? Ye i like being with normal people, good contrast to my weirdness
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A couple made of 2 weird people is like an entirely different beast, when you people watch you can always pick out the weirdo couple[/QUOTE]
I stopped taking anti depressants a couple of months ago. It's all out my system now and must have been for a while, and no way in hell am I going back. It's the first time since being 13 or 14 that my mind isn't numbed. It's weird, I can feel myself getting more depressed the past couple of weeks. The same kind of thoughts are coming back. I can't concentrate, everything's weird. I know I've got a different perspective compared to all the "normal" people. I know it's always going to be like that, but. well there's a but, I just don't know what it is. I literally just do not know.
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[QUOTE=tittles650;39110994]Tania everything's going to get better,you're a beautiful soul that offers positivity...I think you're ok and just in a harsh enviorment when you were ment for something more,I don't know you but I know that and stand firm to it...maybe you should travel
[/QUOTE]
I need to get out of here, I'd love to travel. Family are deciding on where to go for a holiday so I'm really really hoping it'll be this year. Just trouble with college getting in the way
Perhaps its because you're not use being off the meds,give it a year maybe to condition yourself
maybe, I was shit at taking them anyway. always forgot, sometimes for a couple of weeks at a time
Maybe you should mention that to your doctor,it may explain your feeling and he should have answers...as far as being the one with a diffrent/indie perspective...not sure how to tie that but its a good attribute to take notice...also imagine being fat and ugly and with the same issues but you ain't...you got the cute and sexy combo,Tania, so keep your chin up
[QUOTE=Fixed;39110905]just smoked a fat joint anyone up for some gaming?[/QUOTE]
yo
I probably should, but I don't really know what they can do since I will flat out refuse to take any sort of long term medication again. I don't think I'm the only one like it, I know others feel exactly the same as me. I just feel out of place a lot of the time. That made me smile, thank you tittles. I don't feel it right now because I have a cold but still. I guess if I were fat I'd have too many chins to keep up
[QUOTE=zach1193;39111229]yo[/QUOTE]
skype?
[QUOTE=tittles650;39111159]Maybe you should mention that to your doctor,it may explain your feeling and he should have answers...as far as being the one with a diffrent/indie perspective...[B]not sure how to tie that but its a good attribute to take notice...also imagine being fat and ugly and with the same issues but you ain't...you got the cute and sexy combo,Tania, so keep your chin up[/B][/QUOTE]
Funny enough, my psychologist gave me similar advice. I have social anxiety and I was telling him how it was feeding my depression (thinking how i will never be able to go out, have a decent relationship, do things in life, over thinking negative crap like that) and he told me straight up. "Listen, you may feel anxious when it comes to certain situations, but its not like there is anything else stopping you. Look, you arent obese, covered in zits, horribly disfigured, or have terrible social skills. In your case im confident that you wont have a problem going out in the future. However, i have had cases where someone has social anxiety along with being socially inept, and the other things i said before. So even though i try to help them, there really isnt much i can do for them. You'll be fine, just focus on extinguishing the behavior and you should be good."
[QUOTE=Fixed;39111447]skype?[/QUOTE]
yeh
[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;39111462]Funny enough, my psychologist gave me similar advice. I have social anxiety and I was telling him how it was feeding my depression (thinking how i will never be able to go out, have a decent relationship, do things in life, over thinking negative crap like that) and he told me straight up. "Listen, you may feel anxious when it comes to certain situations, but its not like there is anything else stopping you. Look, you arent obese, covered in zits, horribly disfigured, or have terrible social skills. In your case im confident that you wont have a problem going out in the future. However, i have had cases where someone has social anxiety along with being socially inept, and the other things i said before. So even though i try to help them, there really isnt much i can do for them. You'll be fine, just focus on extinguishing the behavior and you should be good."[/QUOTE]
that's pretty awesome.
did he tell you "you got the cute and sexy combo" ?
The Holidays at home in a nutshell:
"Are you burning a candle?"
"Yes mom, I'm burning a candle"
"Why?"
"Seriously?...Because I like burning candles."
"..."
*Resume toking*
[B]Edit[/B]
Also propranolol (inderal) is awesome.
It's great for anxiety, in a way that doesn't take forever or have the side effects of ssris, and isn't anywhere near as alcohol like as benzos.
Also, if you're not socially inept or ugly (it's always hilarious to have a therapist make a note that you're neither, onetime I had a counselor laugh out loud when I said I thought I was ugly) it really seems to be all you need to get out there.
I hope any of this makes sense, I am too damn high...
(OH right! [B]propranolol[/B] (inderal) is great with weed, it doesn't diminish the effectiveness, but it gets rid of the anxiety/freakouts you can get by being too high.)
[QUOTE=TaniaTiger;39111650]that's pretty awesome.
did he tell you "you got the cute and sexy combo" ?[/QUOTE]
yeah, he also said i had a nice ass. Anyway, he was a total bro. He was telling me a story of how when he was young he was a 'carpe diem' kinda guy who would go for anything. Like once he was staying in a hotel for some psych convention and he went to the restaurant at the hotel and a really hot waitress was his server. He figured, ah what the hell let me ask her out to a drink and asked when her shift ended, she was kind and said that she couldnt go out with guests and declined. He was saying how it didnt matter what her response was, if she said yes, awesome. If she said no, oh well he was there for one more day, she either had a legitimate excuse or wasnt interested in him, but he didnt care. It was all a assurance to not give a shit if you get rejected, you didnt know the person and they dont know you and all this other stuff, you get the idea.
Dude...anyone have a month of xbox live? Dusted off this old thing... will trade for 100,000 internetz
[QUOTE=TaniaTiger;39111650]that's pretty awesome.
did he tell you "you got the cute and sexy combo" ?[/QUOTE]
No because the doctor doesn't want to fuck his brains out you stupid cunt
3 months for a unused 1600 ms points card. I was so young, wastin moneys.
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