Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=metallics;50126427]Chipped in[/QUOTE] Thanks buddy. I appreciate it.

[QUOTE=RoboChimp;50125666]I need to slow down, stop stressing and workout what I should do, rather than stressing about the fact I'm getting closer to 30 and my chosen career path isn't working out. People keep saying I'm not confident enough in own abilities and that's why I'm not getting work. How do you guys deal with stress, lack of confidence and just feeling like everyone else no matter what they do is better than you?[/QUOTE] Your story sound so similar to mine and I know what will happen if you keep down this road.

[QUOTE=Firecat;50128647]Does anyone here have experience with eating disorders[/QUOTE] If it's for overeating, my solution was do the exercise thing and now I can just eat as much as I want. Didn't really get rid of the pleasure eating, at least now though I use up all them extra calories. I did have a problem eating when I was really depressed which was not eating enough at all. Solved that one by forcing it down.

Anyone have experience with impulse control? I always get riled up really quickly with anything really. If someone insults me or makes fun of me I go from calm to 100% mad in like a second, if someone says I did something wrong I go from full confident to "I am the worst person alive" in the same rate. One therapist told me that it's just the way I am, but he didn't understand that this kind of thing constantly affect me in my daily life. I just don't feel like it's healthy when I'm happy one second and then once something goes wrong I'm just sent back into sadness for the rest of the day or when my own thoughts lead me to anger.

[QUOTE=Daysofwinter;50128682]Your story sound so similar to mine and I know what will happen if you keep down this road.[/QUOTE]What will happen?

oh god i cant stop eating sugary foods

[QUOTE=Tobin;50129414]oh god i cant stop eating sugary foods[/QUOTE] Eat fruit, hack the system.

[QUOTE=RoboChimp;50129407]What will happen?[/QUOTE] It will be ruin. I had issues where I just couldn't keep up and and ended up abusing my dd medications to "clear the stupid" almost gained permanent paranoid delusions. A few times I almost cut my self. I had a few shotguns laying around Best advice in clearing things up? Do not be so harsh yourself. Oh and avoid any type of spirituality in hopes of clearing it up. There are people out there who will figure out your vulnerabilities and make your problems worse. If it comes down to it, there is no shame in disability. If you gave your working life your all and gave an honest try, that is.

[QUOTE=Pascall;50126203]Yes but you're still responsible for a deductible. In my case, my deductible is $500. Along with the repair for the ignition switch which will be around $300. On that note, I made a GoFundMe if anyone is interested in helping. [url]https://www.gofundme.com/cnyxbkgk[/url][/QUOTE] sent a couple shekels, good luck

anyone else here feel like they have to fight an urge to express their depressive matters because that only allows you to bathe yourself in it and exacerbate the issue

Recently went on anti-depressants for anxiety/irritable bowel. This week- while not perfect- has been a lot more manageable than any other week. I feel like things are looking up for once.

[QUOTE=Zenreon117;50129428]Eat fruit, hack the system.[/QUOTE] I have a fructose intolerance, fruit makes me throw up

Sometimes it feels like im being punished for being happy. Or either I can predict bad things happening in the future by how happy I get before them. I've had severe sickness, car failures, and more work piled on me if I resist minor bad things, then if that doesn't work, bad things start happening to my close ones. To the point I was at my happiest and then my close friend's dad suddenly died, no warning at all. Am I looking into it too hard, or do I have a suffering detector? (I doubt I'm a suffering detector)

Everytime I get better with my health it quickly becomes a total mess again, and it's so inconsistent I can't figure out why. Never have I been so close to wanting to die in my life than I am at this point.

Another failed fucking test as usual, I don't think anyone can be dumber than me..

I need some advice. I've been tryig to get into work/a job for a while now. But the more I think about my mental and physical health, I wonder if I'm really fit for any sort of work. I was declared mentally unfit for study and had to drop out of college a while back. I've been diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety and Irritable Bowel Syndrome. So, as you can probably guess, even leaving my house for a couple of minutes can lead to hell. I used to be on antidepressants, not on them any longer (long, touchy story involving taking too many and mixing it with other drugs all at once). It's probably easier for other people from the UK to help me answer this. What should be my best possible cause(s) of action?

Have to move out of old flat on short notice due to the other 2 people leaving. Barely managed to find a new place after so much stress and a couple of breakdowns. Moved in in the last days of Feb, costing me a lot of money that I don't really have, so I had to have parental help. My new place was great, and was the cheapest I could find, which was amazing. The people here are great too. Hell, I was even managing to improve dramatically on clinical placement too, was doing pretty amazing, and everything was looking perfect. Of course I just got an email saying I have one months notice to vacate as the landlord is selling the property today. I was so close to finishing my course and having everything sorted, I just needed to keep this place until September as the lease I had signed was for. Fuck you reality, and fuck you too landlord, I don't buy that you just decided to sell it now, you have likely been planning for months to sell it, and knew that when you told me it was perfect for a seven month lease or so. The letting agent you used charged me £300 too, for fucking paperwork that was useful for TWO fucking months. I don't want to have to take another interruption of study, but this is a full time course and I am this close to just having a fucking aneurysm. Hopefully my depression is kept in check with the meds, I think I can handle my GAD and stress, maybe.

[QUOTE=Johnny Guitar;50129922]sent a couple shekels, good luck[/QUOTE] Thanks friendo! [editline]14th April 2016[/editline] The post-vacation depression is already hitting me pretty hard. I'm not even at the airport yet but I'm already dreading the colossal amount of shit I'm gonna have to deal with when I get home. I don't want to go home honestly.

I'm so fucking excited for next month. Gonna finally get the fuck out of Ohio, heading to San Antonio. Leaving with nothing but a bag full of clothes and my guitar, going to quit nicotine for good, and get active as fuck. I haven't even had any anxiety attacks or nervous breakdowns for the past few weeks due to being so ready to start fresh again.

[QUOTE=Robman8908;50130893]I'm so fucking excited for next month. Gonna finally get the fuck out of Ohio, heading to San Antonio. Leaving with nothing but a bag full of clothes and my guitar, going to quit nicotine for good, and get active as fuck. I haven't even had any anxiety attacks or nervous breakdowns for the past few weeks due to being so ready to start fresh again.[/QUOTE] It's a good city. Good luck!

[QUOTE=Pascall;50130944]It's a good city. Good luck![/QUOTE] Thanks! Couple years ago I met a few people on League that all live down there and they're helping me get down and keeping me afloat for the first month or so, setting me up with a job and all that. They got tired of hearing me fall deeper into my depression and decided to help me out. Got a lot of stuff lined up, all good for my mental/physical health.

Where you gonna be working at?

[QUOTE=Robman8908;50131054]Thanks! Couple years ago I met a few people on League that all live down there and they're helping me get down and keeping me afloat for the first month or so, setting me up with a job and all that. They got tired of hearing me fall deeper into my depression and decided to help me out. Got a lot of stuff lined up, all good for my mental/physical health.[/QUOTE] What great friends you have! :smile: I hope all goes well in San Antonio!

[QUOTE=Pascall;50131099]Where you gonna be working at?[/QUOTE] One of 'em has it set at Wal-Mart, and I've got experience at Wal-Mart from here awhile ago. So I'll be able to get hired on pretty quick. I'll more-than-likely be looking around for other stuff too, maybe even just work two jobs for awhile, if I can get it to work out. [QUOTE=Ch!ef;50131100]What great friends you have! :smile: I hope all goes well in San Antonio![/QUOTE] Yeah, internet friends that makes my Investigate Discovery-watching mom think I'm going to be brutally murdered the second I get down there, but it's not like I've known them 5 minutes and they begged me to come down lol. Thanks for the well wishes.

Have any experience with kids? Lol. We're hiring people for fall semester starting in August. Part time work but it's every day.

I actually did something productive earlier and looked at a university. Majoring in international studies would be interesting.

[QUOTE=Firecat;50128647]Does anyone here have experience with eating disorders[/QUOTE] yeah i forget to eat often.

i almost want to leave all communities, there's no fucking point being on them since people don't understand what i'm trying to say, it's like talking to a wall that just flings shit back at me and by now i almost get panic attacks just thinking about it fucking hell, being able to think normally must really be something i'm going to bed, and i really hope i don't have to start using benzo and antidepressants again

I swear to god my dad is still going at it. At some point he's going to slip up and my family is going to break up completely or something. I just feel horrible now.

I put a note on my bed. My dad has the keys to my apartment. Phone is on permanent silence. My legs lead the way now.