Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

get dream water tbh shits dope for emergency sleep 5htp + gaba + melatonin

I never heard of dream water before I'm gonna try that

i don't understand people or their emotions and it's exhausting coming into contact with human beings makes my skin crawl help

pretty sure all of my friends have grown up on an emotional and mental scale past me tbh, it's kind of a wake up call for me to get the fuck over myself and move on but it's still very difficult to do so. everyone i used to know who used to be this troubled has basically moved past it and i effectively feel alone in this now, whether it's my fault because i'm a huge dick or because they're a tad older than me and they've grown past it.

[QUOTE=Pascall;50163878]For the record......... my gofundme is legit I swear............. lmao[/QUOTE] I would have a go fundme but in exchange, I would do dares. Like Dirty frank and jackass type stuff. I wouldn't beg. A dollar for a deed. I m not sure if this is relevant or breaking up the topic. Give me an agree if you think it is relevant, give me a dumb if no.

I just need to make a song, a single song, then I'll have achieved something and can share it and try to get somewhere with my music and I'll have some direction in my life, but I just can't write or produce that song my head just blanks and everything sounds bad and feels bad and it's so frustrating

[QUOTE=MrJazzy;50177811]I just need to make a song, a single song, then I'll have achieved something and can share it and try to get somewhere with my music and I'll have some direction in my life, but I just can't write or produce that song my head just blanks and everything sounds bad and feels bad and it's so frustrating[/QUOTE] Do you need help making lyrics?

[QUOTE=Daysofwinter;50177919]Do you need help making lyrics?[/QUOTE] Actually yeah, lyrics is the main thing I'm really struggling with. Throw me a PM if you wanna talk about it at some point, I'm heading to bed now but I'd appreciate it!

I just wrote a long letter, sort of an apology letter, to my mother and put it by her bed hoping she'll see it tomorrow before she wakes me up.

Please, don't condemn me for this but: There's a guy who has spent the last year constantly dumb stamping my posts and being a general asshole. Recently it's happened again and I just want to be friendly with him, but he hasn't responded to my emails. I can't let it go and I hate to be that guy, but I think it may be my Aspergers kicking in. Any advice? Normally I love posting on these forums and having nice discussions, but goddamn. Sorry if I sound oversensitive BTW.

[QUOTE=blueNES;50181011]Please, don't condemn me for this but: There's a guy who has spent the last year constantly dumb stamping my posts and being a general asshole. Recently it's happened again and I just want to be friendly with him, but he hasn't responded to my emails. I can't let it go and I hate to be that guy, but I think it may be my Aspergers kicking in. Any advice? Normally I love posting on these forums and having nice discussions, but goddamn. Sorry if I sound oversensitive BTW.[/QUOTE] Talk to a mod about this.

I filled out an admissions form to get more info about the university I'm interested in in the mail. My parents are gonna be fucking surprised :v:

It's been over a year since my abusive girlfriend broke up with me and recovery has been long and difficult. I've moved to a new state and started college life, and that's been good, but something has started to bug me. [I]With every girl that I've been emotionally attracted to here, I've found out later on that they're very shut-in and anti-social.[/I] It makes me afraid that I would be trying to spend time with them and they wouldn't want to go anywhere, and I'd get more sad as a result. It wouldn't be ideal but I'm also pretty sad being alone. What does this trend mean? What do I do?

[QUOTE=KennyAwsum;50184088]Talk to a mod about this.[/QUOTE] He wasn't doing it on every post, just very frequently. It was quite annoying, but not really anything I should talk to a mod about. I should've been more specific

went to see a band tonight and pretty much saw the cutest girl i ever met and her ride came early before the show ended so she had to leave. she hugged me and said bye and i'm never going to see her again i'm not sure how to describe my emotions right now. i'm grateful for the very feeling i got but i'm collapsing on the inside that i can't spend any more time with this person

if you see more shows of similar bands, i bet you'll run into her again i've seen the same girls again and again at smaller venues all around town :smile:

daamn I get very unsure about social relations way too fast. I didn't really chat with my friend yesterday which was unusual, she always sends a message or two throughout the day. made me so unsure, felt like I had lost her, that social relations are too unstable, that it's better to isolate myself again to spare myself from this, etc etc. then she sent a message today and I'm feeling better again. ughh. its been like this for soooo long. I need frequent and obvious confirmations that people still like to be with me

I find my main problem with life is that I am addicted to the computer to an unhealthy degree, this computer has been on since waking up and whilst that's not unique at the same time it's also leaving me with basically nobody to be friends with in real life, the thing is it's also not so simple for me to just turn it off because my phone acts as a second computer. I just want to be able to talk to some of my friends on steam and this one friend who wants to move over here or work something out where we live together, I am sure that as soon as I move out of my parents house all the hand holding stuff will go away and I can actually feel like I am a responsible and functioning adult instead of this adult-child rip-off that has to accept help from the family. Although my job is arse and I mention this frequently on the forum as it's my only outlet to rant about it's awfulness, it's also the only ticket I might have left to get me out of the house so I have a bit of an ultimatum to decide what to do with my life which is mostly to gear myself up and prepare to move out to another accomodation (preferably not another situation exactly like this one either) it's a goal so whilst it's not exactly going to improve things right away, it'll give me some freedom as to what to do with my life and perhaps let me pick up some healthy and more normal habits to occupy my time instead of just wasting away at a desk forever (which I'll still do at work but whatever). The only thing I would have that ties me down however is I won't have a car anymore, but I see this as a bit of an advantage because if I am still going to be working at the same place then it's going to just make me too stressed out and I kinda want to get back into walking/cycling as a habit again. I feel so pathetic that my situation has been like this for 2 years and I've done practically NOTHING to change it, I could very well leave my situation as it is and reap the benefits of saving money but for the sake of my health as an adult I feel like I must leave the house to make my own life whilst still keeping in contact so as not to go mad from loneliness. I could also wait for that friend to arrive but that's not a gaurantee that they'll want to or even be able to move into a house with me so I think by moving out early which is a bold move I might be able to make it easier for them to transition to living in a place or heck even just pack up bags and move over to where they want to live because at this point I'd really like to just have my own place for my own things and to be able to do what I want in there without the distraction of my brother and the rest of my family constantly monitoring me and hovering around me without letting me have any control even if I do know how to behave etc. Yeuch, I just feel like such a child typing this but again there's not much I can do right now until either my first couple plans fail in order to give me time to actually decide to and bring up the courage to tell my parents that I'm moving out of the house for once. I somewhat even doubt I could leave the house even if I wanted to though, I always feel criticised and embarrassed by my parents and just in general feel like everyone's watching and judging any decision I make which makes me want to move far away, it's the reason why I want to move out with this friend too and not because I blindly believe that it'll solve all the problems but it'll just be such a refreshing moment trying to live without having our parents hover above us and decide for us what will be done for the day.

[QUOTE=Nightscout;50184207]It's been over a year since my abusive girlfriend broke up with me and recovery has been long and difficult. I've moved to a new state and started college life, and that's been good, but something has started to bug me. [I]With every girl that I've been emotionally attracted to here, I've found out later on that they're very shut-in and anti-social.[/I] It makes me afraid that I would be trying to spend time with them and they wouldn't want to go anywhere, and I'd get more sad as a result. It wouldn't be ideal but I'm also pretty sad being alone. What does this trend mean? What do I do?[/QUOTE] Well ask yourself if that matches to who you are? They could just introverted which doesn't mean they are anti-social they just prefer to avoid people as they find it takes a lot of energy to deal with all of it. Ask yourself why you're sad being alone is it because you're lonely or because you want to be in a relationship. If it's because you're lonely then I recommend finding some good friends as that would help with that and figuring out if you're even ready to try a relationship again or not. It's been over two years since my abusive girlfriend has been out of my life and I'm just now starting to get back to the I want to try dating again. Abuse can take a long time to get over, on the plus side though you now know what to look out for. [editline]23rd April 2016[/editline] [QUOTE=PredGD;50187691]daamn I get very unsure about social relations way too fast. I didn't really chat with my friend yesterday which was unusual, she always sends a message or two throughout the day. made me so unsure, felt like I had lost her, that social relations are too unstable, that it's better to isolate myself again to spare myself from this, etc etc. then she sent a message today and I'm feeling better again. ughh. its been like this for soooo long. I need frequent and obvious confirmations that people still like to be with me[/QUOTE] You could take my method of fuck them, people come and go yet their are always going to be people who want you around. Well drunk I've said some things that are very unpleasant to say the least yet the people I've told still invite me out every now and then.

Hey can I ask if anyone here has been prescribed citalopram, been put on it and just wanted to know how other people reacted to it because its sort of kicking my ass at the moment.

the thing I hate the most about the depression kicking back in is this insomnia, holy shit. there was a period where I did relatively well, I still had a lot of problems with sleep, but this is out of this world. I just don't understand how my body can manage to stay awake for as long as it is without instantly falling asleep the second my head hits the pillow. think I woke up 3pm 2 days ago? or more precisely, 36 hours ago. I'm still kicking, I've tried to sleep but sleep? what is sleep? my brain doesn't know of this term anymore. I'm so exhausted, I want to sleep. I want to sleep so badly but I won't fall asleep. [editline]24th April 2016[/editline] can someone just hit me with a hammer or something until I get knocked out?

[QUOTE=Most wanteD;50186382]if you see more shows of similar bands, i bet you'll run into her again i've seen the same girls again and again at smaller venues all around town :smile:[/QUOTE] prob not tbh a lot of people go to the venue i was at trying to move onward from it

cool i have 2 people on the internet to frequently talk to anymore. cant complain that much when i removed and was being a total piece of shit to a lot of them but i removed a lot of them because i would rather save them the embarassment as well i just had a close friend of mine outright stopped talking to me because her boyfriend is insecure that im gonna ruin their relationship. i literally do not give a fuck u both live in europe/south america, i live in north america, fuck off

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[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;50192260]parents have already ruined my day. they're discussing trans laws and saying "men" and how "those trannies are probably just going to rape the kids anyways" "How the fuck could these things be considered normal?" "Why can't I identify as the president?" "why do we have to accommodate for freaks?" "goddammit with these minorities pushing us to the side" i want to kill myself. they would never accept me if i were to come out. why shouldnt i just fucking end it[/QUOTE] Don't let bigots destroy your life. Just because they're your parents doesn't mean you have to deal with their garbage forever.

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Hi guys. I've been thinking about this recently I think I might have had depression the last 9 years of my life. when I'm not with my gf or friends I feel really sad. Infact when I'm alone I just feel really sad. Until I've talked about this with my girlfriend I thought this was a normal thing to feel this way all the time. I'm not sure if this is the proper way to introduce myself I find it very hard to talk about this kind of thing.

[QUOTE=coyote93;50194683]So, Lets say [b]I'm considering disappearing.[/b] Whats the ways that feels the worst for friends/family members? Just going missing I guess will make lots of trouble and will let there be questions asked for years.[/QUOTE] I honestly think about doing this sometimes. Not to kill myself, just to leave for a while far away just to think and get away from everything.

Had a genuinely terrible day today. Someone in my house accidentally threw away my art project final that I'd put in, what I had assumed was, a safe place and the recycling came and picked it up and now it's gone forever. And now I have no clue what to do about it. I e-mailed my professor but she gave me a shit grade on the piece that got destroyed by the flooding in my car so I don't think she'll give me any leniency on this either. So whooo knows. GPA will take a hit, most likely. And nothing seems to be cheering me up so... Feeling real shit.

How exactly does one mistake an art project for something that should be recycled? What was it?