Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

So last night I had a panic attack strong enough that I nearly passed out. I took my medcation that got stuck in my throat and gave me a minor chemical burn as it dissolved in there and I was in pain for a good few hours. Pretty sure I'd still be in pain right now if my throat hadn't gone numb. I can still breathe and drink/eat just fine so I'm sure it's nothing serious enough to warrant a doctor's visit, but man. I'm gonna definitely have to find an alternative to my pills for a while.

[QUOTE=Pascall;50306732]So last night I had a panic attack strong enough that I nearly passed out. [/QUOTE] Do you know what triggered it, if anything? I had a friend that used to have those kinds of issues and the worst part about dealing with it is not really knowing how to help. If you have friends or family that have an idea of how to help when that happens it might go a long way in aiding you during those episodes. Again, that's only if it's something you have a notion about why the panic attack is happening. Sometimes it just happens.

My brain started going to worst-case scenarios about why my throat was in excruciating pain. Started thinking about how people can get holes in their throat from dry-swallowing pills (not that that was something I did) and I guess it just escalated from there so badly that I had to go lay down for a while. I found ways to alleviate it but I don't think I could ever find a way to prevent that sort of thinking from happening in the first place.

[QUOTE=Pascall;50306778]My brain started going to worst-case scenarios about why my throat was in excruciating pain. Started thinking about how people can get holes in their throat from dry-swallowing pills (not that that was something I did) and I guess it just escalated from there so badly that I had to go lay down for a while. I found ways to alleviate it but I don't think I could ever find a way to prevent that sort of thinking from happening in the first place.[/QUOTE] Once I woke up with a dull stomachache. Only my mom was at home at that time, so I complained about it to her. Then the postman rang and she went outside. I thought I had at least cancer, so I passed out in the hallway, with my mom still downstairs. Later when I woke up, she told me, when she found me unconscious, I was shaking violently and that my tongue was stuck and I almost suffocated. Had an ambulance to drive me into the hospital, where they let me rest for a while and told me I probably just had a panic attack and basically offed myself. tfw your brain is trying to kill you

11 days alone just wanting my mom to come back home and not ten minutes after she's back i want her gone again. [editline]12th May 2016[/editline] i need to move out or i'll go insane.

[QUOTE=Pascall;50306778]Started thinking about how people can get holes in their throat from dry-swallowing pills[/QUOTE] ...Is this a thing? I take prozac without water each morning.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;50307392]...Is this a thing? I take prozac without water each morning.[/QUOTE] Depends on what the pill is made out of but if it's too acidic or too basic and gets stuck or rubs up against the walls of the esophagus, it can irritate, inflame, or eventually burn a hole in the wall. It has to be pretty corrosive for that though. But I would definitely start taking pills with lots of water to just be safe.

I've always took pills with water, never understood how people can dry swallow.

It's impossible for me to hold a strong relationship. I've tried five times and this last one just went down in flames with both parties hurting. I just don't think it's worth trying anymore. Friendships too, I just feel that when I'm friends with people, I hurt them and take things away from them. It's not worth trying to keep them up all the time because I make them feel obligated to do things for/with me. I don't know why I try.

there are literally 0 people available to talk to on 7cups and my mom isn't answering the phone and it's getting difficult to breathe for like no reason.

Coming off of antidepressants because the side effects were too much to bear. Lately I've been acting like an asshole, and my temper is shorter. I hope these mood changes are temporary. Also I'm not entirely sure I've bounced back from my friend's suicide earlier this year. I don't even know if it has really sunk in that he's really dead and gone.

After talking with my ex and her new boyfriend, we worked something out to where we can stay friends. I ended up breaking down in tears and having a flood of all the hurt that I've gone through and having it leave. Why? Because I listened to "Veni, Veni Emmanuel", the old hymn of the Catholic church. People are beautiful. We all are in one way or another. People can be cruel but we are inherently good and I know that now. I love life. I love seeing what people create. I love seeing the lives people lead because it lets me know that deep down inside people are good and can make good and be good. [editline]12th May 2016[/editline] I want all of you to read what I wrote hear and take it to heart. There is something intrinsically valuable about you no matter who you are or what you've been through. No matter how hard times end up being I want you to read this and understand that there is still good within you, all the time. If you think about hurting yourself, or if something like that comes up, I want you to look in the mirror and say "I can be good." Things like that, small pep-talks with one's self can make all the difference. Please, contact someone you love or your friends if you ever have these feelings. In fact, I am declaring that I am open to discuss these sorts of things with others. I don't want to see people in pain, and in fact, it makes me mad to see someone hate themselves without someone coming to help. I'm not a therapist, but I can be an ear to listen to and a shoulder to cry on. We all need friends. Do not hesitate to add me on steam or PM me.

[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;50310481]After talking with my ex and her new boyfriend, we worked something out to where we can stay friends. I ended up breaking down in tears and having a flood of all the hurt that I've gone through and having it leave. Why? Because I listened to "Veni, Veni Emmanuel", the old hymn of the Catholic church. People are beautiful. We all are in one way or another. People can be cruel but we are inherently good and I know that now. I love life. I love seeing what people create. I love seeing the lives people lead because it lets me know that deep down inside people are good and can make good and be good. [editline]12th May 2016[/editline] I want all of you to read what I wrote hear and take it to heart. There is something intrinsically valuable about you no matter who you are or what you've been through. No matter how hard times end up being I want you to read this and understand that there is still good within you, all the time. If you think about hurting yourself, or if something like that comes up, I want you to look in the mirror and say "I can be good." Things like that, small pep-talks with one's self can make all the difference. Please, contact someone you love or your friends if you ever have these feelings. In fact, I am declaring that I am open to discuss these sorts of things with others. I don't want to see people in pain, and in fact, it makes me mad to see someone hate themselves without someone coming to help. I'm not a therapist, but I can be an ear to listen to and a shoulder to cry on. We all need friends. Do not hesitate to add me on steam or PM me.[/QUOTE] You're a wonderful woman and an all around amazing person, im glad you're still part of my life.

Not sure where else to ask. Here it goes. I have a nephew who is into pokemon. That all he is into. He is 12 to 14. I want him to expand his interests. Any advice? We suspect he is on the autistic spectrum to a very minor degree. No formal diagnosis.

I definitely have alcoholism in my genes and well, ever since I started working up in northern sweden where everybody drinks, I have started drinking and now that I am home I sort of do the same. I dunno, I enjoy drinking when I do, but I hate alcohol. Now I am home, in a few weeks I'm going back up again and I'll probably end up drinking every other day at average, but I hate alcohol. I don't want to drink so often, but I'm easily tempted and up there... Fuck. I just want to get that work over with so I can go home and find a job at a small cafe close to home so I can work and live here and be with my mom, my lil bro and all my friends, so I can not drink so much because up there there is nothing else to do and fuck it's a mess. I have tendencies to be an alcoholic and when I go up to where I work I drink all the time, and I have such a good excuse to do so; I work minimum wage for a fucking waiter job that I hate, so it's all I can do. I just want to live here at home, work at a cafe, save money, do things for my family and stuff. Fuck life, seriously life can go fuck itself, I'm gonna stand strong for my mother and my brother but seriously life can go rot in a hell hole

[QUOTE=Dayzofwinter;50310896]Not sure where else to ask. Here it goes. I have a nephew who is into pokemon. That all he is into. He is 12 to 14. I want him to expand his interests. Any advice? We suspect he is on the autistic spectrum to a very minor degree. No formal diagnosis.[/QUOTE] Idk that seems like a normal thing to be into at that age. You can introduce him to other things similar though. Maybe show him how he can make his own Pokemon-type game in an easy to use game maker or something. Or have him come up with his own Pokemon by drawing or writing about them? Everybody gotta start somewhere. Maybe Pokemon is just his passion.

Just keep trying other different forms of entertainment/activities/fun???? with him. Just get him to do stuff and maybe he'll respond positively or not? If he still sticks to pokemon, maybe try art with him, let him draw his pokemon? If he doesn't want to, try playing pokemon with him and see where that leads? If that doesn't help, well... Just try expanding on his pokemon hobby, that's all you can do really, otherwise try other ways of getting him into other things through pokemon!

[QUOTE=MrJazzy;50310954]I definitely have alcoholism in my genes and well, ever since I started working up in northern sweden where everybody drinks, I have started drinking and now that I am home I sort of do the same. I dunno, I enjoy drinking when I do, but I hate alcohol. Now I am home, in a few weeks I'm going back up again and I'll probably end up drinking every other day at average, but I hate alcohol. I don't want to drink so often, but I'm easily tempted and up there... Fuck. I just want to get that work over with so I can go home and find a job at a small cafe close to home so I can work and live here and be with my mom, my lil bro and all my friends, so I can not drink so much because up there there is nothing else to do and fuck it's a mess. I have tendencies to be an alcoholic and when I go up to where I work I drink all the time, and I have such a good excuse to do so; I work minimum wage for a fucking waiter job that I hate, so it's all I can do. I just want to live here at home, work at a cafe, save money, do things for my family and stuff. Fuck life, seriously life can go fuck itself, I'm gonna stand strong for my mother and my brother but seriously life can go rot in a hell hole[/QUOTE] Put that all in your music fella. I heard some of your stuff. I think you would make excellent blues songs. I wanna hear :smile:

[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;50310481]I want all of you to read what I wrote hear and take it to heart. There is something intrinsically valuable about you no matter who you are or what you've been through. No matter how hard times end up being I want you to read this and understand that there is still good within you, all the time. If you think about hurting yourself, or if something like that comes up, I want you to look in the mirror and say "I can be good." Things like that, small pep-talks with one's self can make all the difference.[/QUOTE] I gasped alittle when reading this. I tend to consider myself somewhat bad and underestimated from the others point of view, especially thinking alot about this when starting at myself in the mirror. But then, really, you just think "I'm better than this." There were times I could do some really nasty things to the others becuase I didn't like them, and I keep refusing this because, again: "I'm better than this". Thank you just for making myself to think about this again, it makes to feel yourself good even more, despite the others not realizing it.

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[QUOTE=IJNOMED;50303208]It's fucked that there are so many narcisistic adults and parents that crave control over their kids because they feel entitled to their kid's lives. The "millenials" are getting so much shit for just being kids, or just trying to survive and get basic shit they need.[/QUOTE] i remember a few years sago i felt like i was the adult of my mom n dad, my dad less so these days, but my mom called me asking for my car n cash. narcissism/selfishness in parents is disgusting adsfhfklmdgomireadf [editline]13th May 2016[/editline] [QUOTE=Tobin;50311258]There isn't anything I want to do though I just want to go to sleep and never wake up[/QUOTE] i slept for 13 hours today, hoping for the same thing. must cram more goldfish crackes into my mouth

[QUOTE=Dayzofwinter;50310896]Not sure where else to ask. Here it goes. I have a nephew who is into pokemon. That all he is into. He is 12 to 14. I want him to expand his interests. Any advice? We suspect he is on the autistic spectrum to a very minor degree. No formal diagnosis.[/QUOTE] For what reason? One thing that really bothered me as a kid were my parents forcing me to like stuff outside of games, forcing me to go outside and play football or something when I clearly just wanted to be left alone and play the games I enjoyed. Pokémon is a very common thing for his age, so I don't see the issue. Leave this to himself, he's going to discover something new that he likes, he's only 12~14 after all. Just let him do what he loves, please. Forcing a kid to do stuff that you think is correct so you can "expand his interests" is horrible and it had a very negative effect on me.

[QUOTE=Tobin;50311258]There isn't anything I want to do though I just want to go to sleep and never wake up[/QUOTE] Well if you don't want to do anything, just do the best of what you don't want to do. You could also see if anyone know does things and just go along to do something.

My body is a trainwreck. I never took care of myself because my parents never bothered explaining the importance of it or really being anything other than abusive. I am very overweight, I am large framed and tall, so I wont ever be a small person, but I am now extremely uncomfortable with how bad my body is. I lead a relatively sedentary lifestyle, but I am fit in a fat kind of way. Even though I've always been out of shape, I am pretty strong and have a decent capacity to do exercise, I just have a lot of body fat. Anyway the point is, I noticed that my waist has gone up a size, which it hasnt for 3 years (since I graduated high school) and it's got me really feeling like a piece of shit. I have resolved to start exercising again, doing intense running and cycling mainly. I am also going to cut soda from my diet. I have come to terms that I have an unhealthy relationship with soda. I am drinking around 4 20 oz bottles of mountain dew a day. That is extremely terrible for me, and that is over 1000 calories. I'm hoping that with the cut of soda and the increase in my physical activity that I will lose weight and begin to feel more confident in myself. My self image is really getting the point that I want to throw myself into traffic.

[QUOTE=Arktomys;50314639]For what reason? One thing that really bothered me as a kid were my parents forcing me to like stuff outside of games, forcing me to go outside and play football or something when I clearly just wanted to be left alone and play the games I enjoyed. Pokémon is a very common thing for his age, so I don't see the issue. Leave this to himself, he's going to discover something new that he likes, he's only 12~14 after all. Just let him do what he loves, please. Forcing a kid to do stuff that you think is correct so you can "expand his interests" is horrible and it had a very negative effect on me.[/QUOTE] I am not going tell him stop with the pokemon. I would want him to talk about something outside of it and he does need to think of his future. He however is not my responsibility (since he is not blood related) and I got my own problems. I was wondering if any one had ideas to causally get him to do some thing else.

He's 14, at most??? No one has to think about their future at 14.

there's literally nothing to eat in my house.

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Is having no ambition, motivation, goals, or dreams a mental problem or just a symptom of the 21st century?

Could be both. Lack of enthusiasm, even for things you typically enjoy is a very distinct symptom of depression. And honestly, I'm sure you're not the only one disillusioned with "adult life" in this generation.