• Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an
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[QUOTE=Pascall;50319489]Could be both. Lack of enthusiasm, even for things you typically enjoy is a very distinct symptom of depression. And honestly, I'm sure you're not the only one disillusioned with "adult life" in this generation.[/QUOTE] If there's one thing I'm sure of, its that I'm not unique. I just today realised that the one bit of news that would cause me to happily hug and kiss the person that told me is if they promised me I would die tomorrow.
[QUOTE=DiscoInferno;50319456]Is having no ambition, motivation, goals, or dreams a mental problem or just a symptom of the 21st century?[/QUOTE] Other way. I used to be very self driven, ambitious and passionate about many things. Then existence decided to take a huge crap on me. Part of my problem is I am often confused and confounded that people are not this way. I mean why do you not want the best for your self? To be driven is to be in the minority. If you have no idea with your life, why not seek wisdom, money and power for your self as the default option? Once you come to, I think you would have more options available. If you never do, well I will tell life with out those things is waay more depressing then what you got now. [QUOTE]there's literally nothing to eat in my house.[/QUOTE] If this persists or has been a persistent problem, I personally think you got a problem waay worse then me. Hope things work out for ya.
[QUOTE=Tobin;50318829]What do you mean?[/QUOTE] Choose something to do then do it no matter what. If you know anyone and you can't get yourself to do something, go with them when they do something.
[QUOTE=Catscratch;50286615]one of my cat's kidneys might be getting worse instead of better/staying stable like it was showing signs of a month ago. my vet said he has probably around 2 years as long as he stays stable (this was 2 months ago) but this could mean he might go into kidney failure and.. within a few to several months at worse. fuck i'm really hoping it's just a UTI instead[/QUOTE] it's not a UTI he had full renal failure and now requires bi-weekly treatment that costs $200 a month yay
oh no! that sucks. I can kinda relate because our last dog had congestive heart failure. they could've kept her going, but her constant treatment and medication was gonna cost hundreds of dollars which we couldn't afford. so we did what we could and just kept her comfortable. she ended up passing super peacefully in her sleep maybe a few months later. it was sad, but I felt like treatment was just gonna prolong the inevitable since she was already 14 years old. I wish you a lotta luck though. sometimes real resilient pets can pull through and surprise us.
I found a photo of myself at about 17, man did i look different, at the time i only weighed about 7 stone, i wouldnt of considered it an eating disorder, just didnt really feel hungry a lot and it was a weird time in life, and luckily it was only the top part of me, no idea why the picture exists, but i look really troubled.
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[QUOTE=Tobin;50322644]I don't know anyone I have no friends[/QUOTE] Id laugh at you but I think a lot of us are in the same situation. Including me. Let us laugh at our selves together.
Dark self-deprecating humor makes everything better
I still can't get over how many people my age and even people younger than me have succeeded in many things and have multiple talents meanwhile I have none. I already mentioned how my drawing hasn't improved even though I've been doing it for years and people are improving at a faster. It's like there's always something hindering me from being good at anything. Even if I do improve one day, when everyone else already has god-like abilities and I've only improved a bit from before, It'll be useless then. Also, my parents want me to study economic stuff or oily stuff in college when I graduate even though I have no interests at all. I'm interested in making fun stuff like animations and games but they won't let me do it because my brother already does. Even if I do pass and study those boring stuff I won't have any motivations to do it and will probably end up killing myself because of the pressure.
I'm doubting myself right now. I'm trying to help on that I know, and she is going trough an awful time right now, and she says "Why the fuck do you keep pressing me through this shit?" I'm doubting that I'm doing the right thing, by keeping her here at this point, because she obviously is not doing good and all, but she messaged me that she hates me for pushing her through this. And I'm not sure what the fuck I'm doing right now, but I kinda want to keep pushing her because of the good times she thinks never is going to come around. But, on the bright side, to show people in here that there is actually hope. Remember I told about that my only last exit was getting accepted to Uni? I actually got in, so I'm finally going to do something I really like, which is nice.
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I feel like I don't fit in with any particular crowds of people. I've met all sorts,, but I guess I'm just one of those people who just doesn't have a place and wasn't meant to belong anywhere. [QUOTE=Pascall;50306732]So last night I had a panic attack strong enough that I nearly passed out. I took my medcation that got stuck in my throat and gave me a minor chemical burn as it dissolved in there and I was in pain for a good few hours. Pretty sure I'd still be in pain right now if my throat hadn't gone numb. I can still breathe and drink/eat just fine so I'm sure it's nothing serious enough to warrant a doctor's visit, but man. I'm gonna definitely have to find an alternative to my pills for a while.[/QUOTE]That's rough, a few weeks ago I was having panic attacks because the part of my throat that leads to my stomach was a bit damaged from reflux and food was irritating it, a first I had no idea what the sensation was. I called an ambulance at one point.
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Hello I was recently diagnosed with depression and anxiety (but I don't think I have anxiety (I get panic attacks often but am not anxious in general)) and I am getting counselling in a week and I think having a community would be good. So hello everyone!
[QUOTE=Disseminate;50326620]Hello I was recently diagnosed with depression and anxiety (but I don't think I have anxiety (I get panic attacks often but am not anxious in general)) and I am getting counselling in a week and I think having a community would be good. So hello everyone![/QUOTE]Hello! <3
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[QUOTE=Tobin;50324930]im just gonna keep eating like shit until i die of a heart attack then no-one will get mad at me for killing myself[/QUOTE] and I am going to keep staying here, disintegrating until nothing left :sick:
another depressive flareup i can't see the point in living
I lost my job and now I'm being tested for ADHD/ADD or potentially asbergers. My family has convinved me that I'm retarded or something. Not only that but my grandpa wants me out soon after I turn 19, this august is a few months away and I no longer have a source of income. He TALKED about giving me his old shitty minivan he doesnt use, but I'd have to pay to fix it and I don't have the money, (I'm thankful as fuck though that he might give it to me) My family are all playing telephone with each other (talking amongst each other) and want to get me enrolled in a rehab program [I]I do not want to do this because the one they want me to be in has druggies, people with violent, scary disorders, and other shit that I don't need to be around because hospitals scare me and they just want me locked up.[/I]They also suggested that I "get mental help" (they always suggest that, they get a boner over having control over me) and they tried to sign me up (without my fucking permission) for this CHURCH PROGRAM FOR SPECIAL NEEDS KIDS AGES 12-18. FUCK THAT SHIT PRAY THE GAY AWAY MY ASS. I'm a god damn adult and they treat me like a sickly animal with rabies that needs to be put down. Honestly I want to just give up and get the fuck out of here NOW, but I've got $600 in my account, waiting on my last check from my boss (who was sad to let me go, but I wasn't efficient enough for her and I kept forgetting things) and I'm waiting on my running shoes to come in the mail. I have to change my bank account number because my grandpa and mother both have access to it and I don't trust them. [editline]16th May 2016[/editline] What the fuck is the point anymore? It's an ongoing struggle and I made the mistake of going back up to my family.
[QUOTE=IJNOMED;50332338]I lost my job and now I'm being tested for ADHD/ADD or potentially asbergers. My family has convinved me that I'm retarded or something. Not only that but my grandpa wants me out soon after I turn 19, this august is a few months away and I no longer have a source of income. He TALKED about giving me his old shitty minivan he doesnt use, but I'd have to pay to fix it and I don't have the money, (I'm thankful as fuck though that he might give it to me) My family are all playing telephone with each other (talking amongst each other) and want to get me enrolled in a rehab program [I]I do not want to do this because the one they want me to be in has druggies, people with violent, scary disorders, and other shit that I don't need to be around because hospitals scare me and they just want me locked up.[/I]They also suggested that I "get mental help" (they always suggest that, they get a boner over having control over me) and they tried to sign me up (without my fucking permission) for this CHURCH PROGRAM FOR SPECIAL NEEDS KIDS AGES 12-18. FUCK THAT SHIT PRAY THE GAY AWAY MY ASS. I'm a god damn adult and they treat me like a sickly animal with rabies that needs to be put down. Honestly I want to just give up and get the fuck out of here NOW, but I've got $600 in my account, waiting on my last check from my boss (who was sad to let me go, but I wasn't efficient enough for her and I kept forgetting things) and I'm waiting on my running shoes to come in the mail. I have to change my bank account number because my grandpa and mother both have access to it and I don't trust them. [editline]16th May 2016[/editline] What the fuck is the point anymore? It's an ongoing struggle and I made the mistake of going back up to my family.[/QUOTE] Sorry to hear that. I wish the best for you.
I love all of you <3
Was adult life this shitty for previous generations? I feel like this information age of sensory overload and sensationalist media is inflicting a terrible toll on me.
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[QUOTE=Jim Morrison;50335188]Was adult life this shitty for previous generations? I feel like this information age of sensory overload and sensationalist media is inflicting a terrible toll on me.[/QUOTE] Atleast we don't really have to fight wars or witness the murder of people by the millions. Which is something to be thankfull for, I guess.
I'm here to vent and give advice at the same time. This will most definitely be incoherent as hell but I don't wish this to happen on anyone here. When you're depressed and you don't have many friends to talk to, you seek friends out. But because you're depressed and you think that most people don't like you, your standards are lowered. You find a chatroom to talk to people in, they share your interests and you good people but you soon to learn that there are people who don't like you because of how you are. Chatrooms are text in a screen. There are no voices, there are no facial expressions, there is no body language to read. If you start saying little things that annoy and offend people, such as an opinion on a video game, chances are they won't say anything to you about it until it builds up to the point where they dislike you permanently. Even though you haven't said anything during that day, they'll act passive aggressively and you won't understand what the problem is because it could be absolutely anything. As a result of all this, your insecurities will increase. When they're at their absolute worst, you learn that they dislike you because at that point they'll call you out and attack you, for reasons irrelevant to what pissed them off because "I hate you for your opinion on video games". When they do that, don't swoop down to their level like I did. They will never forget. If you did swoop down to their level, leave that place. Leave it and never return. Don't be me and stay there because of attachment issues.
I think I have finally reached a dead end in my life where I see no future.Stuck in a dead end shithole of a job, unsupportive family members. Wasted 1/3rds of my life doing fuck all. Maybe I should have jumped last week. Dont know what held me back that day.
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I will forever be useless and empty inside.
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