Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;50696405]Has anyone had the balls to call a family member out on their anger issues? I fear I might have to call my dad out oh his anger bullshit. But I won't be nice about it which isn't the right way but it's the only way I could respond quickly enough. Back story babies are having a hard time and it's giving my dad and his partner huge issues between their babies and each other. Mostly my dad's fault for being dumb aggressive towards someone trying to calm down the babies.[/QUOTE] I can relate. My dad suffers from the same problem of anger issues due to shitty experiences and stress from he's previous work. Looks like that sort of thing runs in the family lol. I say you should definitely confront him about it and call him out on he's shitty attitude in a way that keeps the message clear. Even if it means not playing nice.

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;50693866]More thoughts of suicide are coming up[/QUOTE] The past few weeks have been like this for me. I need change in my life but don't know where to start.

I always feel the need to go on long night walks, because those are the only times I can get my mind straight, in the day I feel as if my thoughts are all jumbled up and I don't know what emotions I feel

[QUOTE=~Kiwi~v2;50696405]Has anyone had the balls to call a family member out on their anger issues? I fear I might have to call my dad out oh his anger bullshit. But I won't be nice about it which isn't the right way but it's the only way I could respond quickly enough. Back story babies are having a hard time and it's giving my dad and his partner huge issues between their babies and each other. Mostly my dad's fault for being dumb aggressive towards someone trying to calm down the babies.[/QUOTE] Yes, I just tell him off now and it's great. Though in my case it was more of my parents want what they want and the kids well we got fucked. It's like my mom who tells my brothers girlfriend she wants them to get married and have kids after dating for two months. Which my brother already has a kid. Yet he has to get the fuck out of the house because the grankid isn't allowed here due to what he was doing. Yet rather than try to help it's a no fuck you get out you're worthless sorta attitude.

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;50688669]I didn't follow through with running away because I'm a pussy and I guess I didn't lose my job. So I toughened up and accepted that my grandma is always gonna give me hell, I have control over my body and she can't do anything. If I can manage to hold down my job, it will only take me a year or two to have a good large safety net of money. My friend out-of-state and I are still trying to think of a living-together situation but if that doesn't work I will have my shit together solo within 5 or so years.[/QUOTE] shit I was worried about you cuz I didn't see you post anything in a while. Thank god you're okay. Sorry if that's creepy, you're like one of the stories on this website that I keep waiting for the happy ending. You got this!

The girl I was sort of casually seeing said shed want to pick things up once I've cleared up my headspace Motivation

I wonder how my psychiatrist is going to take me not wanting to get rid of the symptoms of schizophrenia, as I only want meds to keep it under control. As even though a lot of it screws with functioning in society it has great benefits for art and any kind of science. Kinda weird to have a blessing and a curse wrapped all up into one package, though really as long as the delusions stay at bay I'm quite happy as those are what really fuck shit up. Well and this movement disorder side effect sucks a whole shit ton and a higher dose will just make it worse.

So i'm currently on a bi-polar low, and got hit with this news. I have a Brain Tumor, whether it is cancerous or not is not known yet but the results of my scans and tests have confirmed it is there. I dont really feel scared, the ways i look at life are a lot different than a lot of others, but lets hope it's a low grade.

My parents just found out I was arrested on my birthday for public intoxication. Pretty low point. They said "You're 30; you should be at home with a wife and kids instead of all of that" They then said they never wanted to talk to me again unless I got my life together. I know it's partly my fault but whenever I had issues it's always my fault, they don't show support, and I end up feeling worse than before.

Well enough of that I'm just a drug addict, who might be bipolar and I didn't want to face it yay.

Caught a cold. Yellow mucus and all that, no fever though. Needless to say i feel like shit : weak and tired. The fear of vCJD is at an all-time high, couldn't sleep last night and couldn't sleep this morning, the anxiety never leaves my stomach. I don't want do die with holes in my fucking brain.

I feel like I never sleep anymore

anyone else here part of the "i dont like my birthdays" club every passing one makes me just feel down

Sometimes if I'm not doing anything then my birthday would be depressing

wish i didnt feel super violent sometimes cuz my mom unreasonably walks away when problems arise regarding me, makes me completely unable to build a case for myself and it's very frustrating. and i have nowhere else to actually fall back on, im so depressed. i dont like the internet generation at all [editline]14th July 2016[/editline] i still miss my best friend. it's been almost 2 years now with him gone i think. gotta love being unable to control anger and taking them for granted. gotta love being unable to let go equally as much.

I need to give thanks to everyone on this thread, you guys always seem to be here for each other. Quite honestly I probably would never had the courage to even ask to hang out with that girl without you guys kinda egging me on. Also all of the past stuff I've vented about and received advice for on these threads over the years, you are all awesome and good people.

Been doing retail work experience and it's been really helpful in destroying what little love for life I had remaining and purging my mind of all emotion.

Yeah retail does that quite horribly.

I came close to killing myself earlier. I don't know much longer I can go on

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;50713778]I came close to killing myself earlier. I don't know much longer I can go on[/QUOTE] YOU GOT THIS MAN YOU GOT THIS. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF YOU MATTER IN EVERYTHING YOU DO. YOU CAN DO IT MAN YOU GOT THIS!

[QUOTE=fudge blood;50699043]shit I was worried about you cuz I didn't see you post anything in a while. Thank god you're okay. Sorry if that's creepy, you're like one of the stories on this website that I keep waiting for the happy ending. You got this![/QUOTE] ;-; Thank you, and that doesn't sound creepy at all. I'm flattered. TBH If I ever do wind up acheiving a stable life somewhere down the road I'd be surprised, but tht made me smile knowing there's people who think I've got this. Tank u. I really hope everyone here gets their happy ending, because depression/mental illnesses can make life 20x more difficult; that and all that's going on in the world/economy makes it all that more difficult. [editline]16th July 2016[/editline] [QUOTE=DiscoInferno;50708114]Been doing retail work experience and it's been really helpful in destroying what little love for life I had remaining and purging my mind of all emotion.[/QUOTE] >customer service/retail/working with customers is hell on earth. [B][I]ESP when you prepare food because people flip mountains of flaming liquid shit if things are too expensive/not just right.[/I][/B]

I'm losing the little hope I have, day by day. Job interviews terrorize me, thus fucking them all up. I have no idea where I'm going. Future means nothing to me. I can't go through a single day without medication and drugs. Sometimes I'd like to end it, but I'm also terrorized by that idea. So what... wait for the end to come by itself? I'm so confused right now.

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;50718075]>customer service/retail/working with customers is hell on earth. [B][I]ESP when you prepare food because people flip mountains of flaming liquid shit if things are too expensive/not just right.[/I][/B][/QUOTE] It's not the customers that do it for me. It's listening to the people actually working there complaining about their job, when I'm standing there doing it for free. Not because I want to, but because of the decreasingly slim hope I [I]might[/I] get employed after 6 weeks of it. Also the interaction with the guy I work closest in proximity to has soured a lot.

So the Department of Human Services has basically told us that we'll never see my nieces again. Scratch another reason to live off the list.

So I constantly feel like every move I make or feeling that I have could screw my entire life up and leave to me being alone and isolated forever which is my worst nightmare. I'm running out of places to vent where I don't feel like I'm annoying anyone. My mom kinda makes the anxiety worse by reminding me that I'm not doing everything that I could be doing to find a job or to get all A's or whatever she's mad at that day. I dunno how to really handle the constant pressure, anxiety, and lack of sleep due to anxiety.

OK Neat. I've been off of Bupropion for about a week now, and thy only side effect is that I've been a little sleepier than usual. Was expecting a lot worse.

I feel really hopeless. I can't find a reason to live which brought me to my previous suicide attempt. I should of died then but I didn't. [editline]16th July 2016[/editline] Everyday is a struggle for me and I don't have anyone in my life I could talk to. I've kind of given up on life because I fucked mine up

loneliness is starting to catch up for real now. its been over a month I believe since I lost the only friend I frequently hung out with. I don't regret giving her up but not too cool to not have a "replacement" for her, someone to fill the void she left. I have a few people, I know I could just say hi to a certain few people and I'd probably have someone to be with. it's hard though. I find it difficult to regulate all of this. I don't know how often I can say hi before I just end up being a pain in the ass. more often than not I don't really have the energy either to be with someone so I have no real motivation to say hi to begin with. it kinda works if they say hi since it's easier to think "well, I don't really want to do this but since they ask I might as well say yes, it usually ends up okay anyway". it becomes hard to regulate when I never really want to contact people, I'd have to fake it from my side. I'd have to fake that I want to be with whoever it is when I'd rather sit at home. I used to feel the complete opposite, that I always wanted to go out to be with people but now I never feel that need anymore. it's still there, I need to be social to feel happy, I just lack that drive and interest to get it done. so tired and empty, I wonder where all of my energy went. I've noticed as of late that I can't really stand up without nearly passing out anymore. its always been around to a degree, sometimes you just get really dizzy by standing up, but it has started happening so often. I suppose it might be related to my B12 deficiency.

I feel lonely also, it's not a good feeling. I don't really have anyone I can talk to.

Go to the psych people you can talk to them and get into groups.