Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

Two months to see a fucking neuro-ophthalmologist. This is fucking stupid. I can't even stay in front of a screen for 10 minutes without getting mad headaches and monumental eye fatigue how am i supposed to wait two months.

some people are just so toxic to be with that you can still feel it even after cutting ties and not talking for months. worst part is that you somehow miss them from time to time too so you gotta refocus on the reason why you cut contact in the first place, because the relation was literally tearing you apart. it hurts for sure. I was the one who took the initiative to cut ties and I had been thinking about doing it for months prior, but yet I miss her. I don't really remember much positive either, all I remember is being uncertain, insecure and anxious. though she was a big part of my life, we were together almost every single day and I suppose that's why I miss her. only because she managed to leave a void that I've yet to refill. the friendship was pretty nice to begin with and was for a while, but something changed down the road somewhere. she got more irritable, angry and seemed to trust me less and less. it got so bad that if I were to do a minor thing wrong, she'd get irritated and it'd last pretty long too. good riddance, I just gotta replace her.

I'm on my 3rd day of my first real career job. My anxiety is unreal. Like I'm in the field that I want to be in one day, and i am getting paid to take classes at the moment. It's a great deal but the transition from college life to adult hood is tearing me apart inside. I want to run away but giving this job up would be so stupid because it's such a good dealternative but I just can't get over this crippling anxiety when I think about the future and my life. Has anyone else gone through a transition with this? I just need some advice on how to transition

ah man, I feel kinda lost in general. I notice I'm withdrawing more and more, my energy never properly refills, sleep is getting harder again and I'm so much more irritable. it's a good feeling that I act on irritation and very bluntly tell people if I don't agree with what they're saying, but it's not too fun to be easily irritated either. I frequently think back at the end of last year. I feel like I was a completely different person who was filled to the brim with energy and most importantly, a powerful drive to get things done. it's completely gone now and it has been gone for a long time too. I've tried doing the things I did back then in hope it'd "re-ignite" my drive, but it gives me a much more lackluster response this time around. working out and hitting the gym doesn't fill me with confidence or any feel good effects like before, I just feel a little more tired. I just don't understand what I did so much more differently back then. maybe it was the fact that I was social with people I enjoyed being with, maybe it was the fact that I hit the gym (don't think so, perhaps just a contributing factor), maybe it was the fact that a lot of change was happening at once which caused a surge of motivation, maybe it was the fact I was rapidly losing weight, maybe I just did more shit in general to get my head active? maybe it's a mix of all of that? maybe I've been losing weight for too long and my body has adjusted quite heavily to the little food intake? I mean, I am technically starving myself or else I wouldn't lose weight, perhaps the human body doesn't tackle this very well when it's done for nearly a year without breaks.

[QUOTE=PredGD;50822351]some people are just so toxic to be with that you can still feel it even after cutting ties and not talking for months. worst part is that you somehow miss them from time to time too so you gotta refocus on the reason why you cut contact in the first place, because the relation was literally tearing you apart. it hurts for sure. I was the one who took the initiative to cut ties and I had been thinking about doing it for months prior, but yet I miss her. I don't really remember much positive either, all I remember is being uncertain, insecure and anxious. though she was a big part of my life, we were together almost every single day and I suppose that's why I miss her. only because she managed to leave a void that I've yet to refill. the friendship was pretty nice to begin with and was for a while, but something changed down the road somewhere. she got more irritable, angry and seemed to trust me less and less. it got so bad that if I were to do a minor thing wrong, she'd get irritated and it'd last pretty long too. good riddance, I just gotta replace her.[/QUOTE] I feel this way about my ex girlfriend except she's the one that cut ties with me. We would hang out everyday also. Sometimes I miss her but then I just remember how easily she replaced me [editline]3rd August 2016[/editline] I'll probably never talk to her again and that's fine with me

Good news; I no longer feel like killing myself.