Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an
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great he followed me to youtube lol
[editline]26th October 2015[/editline]
purged my channel, i am cyberbully proof
[editline]26th October 2015[/editline]
[QUOTE=Qaus;48892192]you know what, ironically enough, cheers me up? when people try doing that "you should just kill yourself, you're pretty worthless" sort of talk.[/QUOTE]
talking about this guy
[QUOTE=MrJazzy;48985987]We could kinda use more ppl in the steam group, currently there are six of us, so it'd be great if anybody would join![/QUOTE]
link?
Well my high seems to be over, I feel a lot more slowed down now
[QUOTE=Mister Sandman;48985028]Hey guys, I was just watching the Twilight Zone and I saw an episode I think you guys should give a shot. It's called The Changing of the Guard, season 3, episode 37. It deals with a professor who becomes suicidally depressed when he's faced with retirement.
Barring the supernatural elements that are the bread and butter of the Twilight Zone, the first half of the episode offers a pretty startlingly accurate depiction of depression, especially for the time period, even if it's abridged for time reasons. I won't spoil the details here, but it's really fascinating that Rod Serling got down right in [I]1962[/I] what we can't get down right in fucking 2015.[/QUOTE]Rick and Morty has done an amazing job at depicting depression IMO. The way Rick overcompensates by being overenthusiastic really hits home for me.
[editline]26th October 2015[/editline]
God, school is getting impossible for me. I can't bring myself to attach value to anything so my grades are tanking. I just can't make myself do any work.
Thank you for the help guys <3
[QUOTE=AtomicSans;48987018]God, school is getting impossible for me. I can't bring myself to attach value to anything so my grades are tanking. I just can't make myself do any work.[/QUOTE]
That is literally how I'm feeling and why my grades have plummeted. I don't do any work or studying anymore.
Joined the group. Also man, saw some post of this thread...look, suicide isn't gonna fix anything guys, you'll just end up causing pain to your friends and family, everyone goes through hard times in life, they're meant to be hard, otherwise what's the point of feeling proud of yourself over something easy? Just keep that in mind ladies and gents
[QUOTE=masterchief6;48988724]Joined the group. Also man, saw some post of this thread...look, suicide isn't gonna fix anything guys, you'll just end up causing pain to your friends and family, everyone goes through hard times in life, they're meant to be hard, otherwise what's the point of feeling proud of yourself over something easy? Just keep that in mind ladies and gents[/QUOTE]
Try telling that to somebody who's in such a shit mood that they won't listen to reason. I've been there and it's sucks dick.
I'm just going to lurk in the chat and wait and see if people join. Right now the group is useless, so might as well use the chat room at the very least.
It does, but the best you can do is atleast to try and show them the light
[QUOTE=masterchief6;48989100]It does, but the best you can do is atleast to try and show them the light[/QUOTE]
Some days it feels like there's no light, other days it's very dull and far away.
Im done, my final ounce of strength spent, I havent got anymore.
[QUOTE=masterchief6;48988724]Joined the group. Also man, saw some post of this thread...look, suicide isn't gonna fix anything guys, you'll just end up causing pain to your friends and family, everyone goes through hard times in life, they're meant to be hard, otherwise what's the point of feeling proud of yourself over something easy? Just keep that in mind ladies and gents[/QUOTE]
No offense but these are kind of the same platitudes everyone's heard hundreds of times.
I really wish suicidal depression could just be wiped away with happy thoughts but it's kind of hard to think happy thoughts while you're mentally screaming in agony.
Oh boy!
Starting off my treatment at the acute outpatient-ward next week.
Been heavily pondering on whom to contact about my blank-gun, in case BPD-medication becomes a part of my treatment.
One thing I realized/remembered took weight of my shoulders today:
The place is both an outpatient-ward and an inpatient-ward. So if the medication makes me plummet or shoot trough the roof; I'll have a place to be under professional care.
But it's scary to think about it.
[QUOTE=Sunday_Roast;48992684]Oh boy!
Starting off my treatment at the acute outpatient-ward next week.
Been heavily pondering on whom to contact about my blank-gun, in case BPD-medication becomes a part of my treatment.
One thing I realized/remembered took weight of my shoulders today:
The place is both an outpatient-ward and an inpatient-ward. So if the medication makes me plummet or shoot trough the roof; I'll have a place to be under professional care.
But it's scary to think about it.[/QUOTE]
Good luck with everything! I have been to a psychiatric ward, and although i at first didn't at all like being there, i can tell with certainty that i would not be as sane and healthy today had i had not been hospitalised. I learned to enjoy it after a few weeks, and the chemicals in my body started to even out. All the best, take care.
I've eaten one meal in the last five days, beginning to think I have some mild eating disorder because I just can't make myself eat most of the time
[QUOTE=AtomicSans;48993767]I've eaten one meal in the last five days, beginning to think I have some mild eating disorder because I just can't make myself eat most of the time[/QUOTE]
Sounds like an eating disorder to me. Try making something you love and haven't had in a long time!
I know it runs deeper than that :v:. I just don't want to see my brothers starve. I recommend you talk to someone. Why aren't you hungry friend?
[editline]27th October 2015[/editline]
[url]https://www.reddit.com/r/foodporn[/url]
My appetite has died a lot since yesterday. My mom took me out for lunch and dinner, but I barely ate my lunch despite being hungry and ate only half my dinner. I just couldn't bring myself to eat.
[url]https://www.reddit.com/r/foodporn[/url]
I can't cook. I just don't feel hungry and food seems disgusting to me.
[editline]27th October 2015[/editline]
I ate a little bit of chocolate earlier and I feel really intensely gross about it, I can almost feel myself physically getting fatter by the second even though I've lost like 15 pounds in the past month
[QUOTE=anders22;48992824]Good luck with everything! I have been to a psychiatric ward, and although i at first didn't at all like being there, i can tell with certainty that i would not be as sane and healthy today had i had not been hospitalised. I learned to enjoy it after a few weeks, and the chemicals in my body started to even out. All the best, take care.[/QUOTE]
Pleasantly surprising:
I got a letter in the mail. Got my first visit at the acute outpatient-ward on Friday this week :toot:
Thanks to my dad, I'm still alive.
[QUOTE=Torjuz;48995502]Thanks to my dad, I'm still alive.[/QUOTE]
Thank the universe and your dad for this <3
Now I'm finding myself turning to my pain medication to help me cope mentally, sort of.
Just to clarify, of the tablets That I'm taking, The reccomended dose is 2 of each, 4 times a day, Now, normally, I avoid doing this as it results in amongst other things, me feeling sickly, woozy, a bit nauseous, basically sort of like a slightly bad being high. But now I'm taking them 2 of each (though no more than the reccomended) as while it does leave me feeling a bit crap because of those effects, it also for some reason helps support my mind just a little, so rather than constantly breaking down all the time, I just feel ill.
[QUOTE=RayvenQ;48998080]Now I'm finding myself turning to my pain medication to help me cope mentally, sort of.
Just to clarify, of the tablets That I'm taking, The reccomended dose is 2 of each, 4 times a day, Now, normally, I avoid doing this as it results in amongst other things, me feeling sickly, woozy, a bit nauseous, basically sort of like a slightly bad being high. But now I'm taking them 2 of each (though no more than the reccomended) as while it does leave me feeling a bit crap because of those effects, it also for some reason helps support my mind just a little, so rather than constantly breaking down all the time, I just feel ill.[/QUOTE]
If it's anything opiate/opium related do not use it to cope mentally. If it's a side effect of prescribed amounts it's good. If you're on them long enough the sick will go away and that's really when you don't want the habit of mentally coping involved.
[QUOTE=RayvenQ;48998080]Now I'm finding myself turning to my pain medication to help me cope mentally, sort of.
Just to clarify, of the tablets That I'm taking, The reccomended dose is 2 of each, 4 times a day, Now, normally, I avoid doing this as it results in amongst other things, me feeling sickly, woozy, a bit nauseous, basically sort of like a slightly bad being high. But now I'm taking them 2 of each (though no more than the reccomended) as while it does leave me feeling a bit crap because of those effects, it also for some reason helps support my mind just a little, so rather than constantly breaking down all the time, I just feel ill.[/QUOTE]
Just as long as you don't take more than the recommended!
[editline]28th October 2015[/editline]
Here's a song a guy here on facepunch made a long time ago for his little sister, I can't remember who he was but I remember how much I loved the song and I remember it still because it's amazing and I feel like it goes well in this thread
[media]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVoD7nDnKhw[/media]
Sometimes I feel like I'm incapable of carrying a relationship. Whether that would be a friendship, or any kind of romantic relationship. Sometimes I feel incompatible being with them, or just feel mentally drained that causes myself to isolate myself from them for a while or second guessing their feelings towards me constantly. This makes me want to cut off contact with all of them just so I can be alone and they wouldn't have to put up with me anymore. I know I won't though because I'm too much of a coward, but the thought alone that I could just break off contact with someone is so simple and almost tangible.
[sp]besides i'd probably miss them all after a few days after feeling like shit[/sp]
there's a special layer of shame and embarassment to sex based depression that makes it even harder to talk about it to others
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