Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;49044100]I don't know what to do. I walked out on my job awhile ago and ended up going back a few days later. Then I went to the psych ward for about about 2 weeks to get better without telling them anything. I went to get my check when i came back I told them I was in the hospital for 2 weeks and they asked when I wanted to work again so I ended up working later that day. The thing is I cant stand this job anymore. At the same time I want the money. Should I leave for good if i am really this unhappy at my job?[/QUOTE] Start looking for another job. Honest to god you wont realise how good it is mentally and physically to be in a job that you don't hate until you actually have one. You don't even have to love it, you just have to not hate going in every day. Don't quit your job in the meantime, but definitely start looking around.

[QUOTE=Zillamaster55;49049051]Took a test to try and get into "General Education Math", or Math 115. This basically just means lowest common denominator math that everyone who can rub brain cells together at a college level has to do. My score wasn't even high enough to get into remedial classes. I am literally at a 6th grade math level. Honest to god, with all of my grades slipping, my relationships strained or broken, I'm thinking suicide is a good option. I'll just be a financial and emotional drain to everyone else at this rate. [editline]4th November 2015[/editline] Not to mention the fact that I've gotten to be really fucking fat. To stop wasting everyone's money on food for me, I've decided to officially (starting tomorrow) eat less than 200 calories a day. Then, I'll get skinny faster, I'll eat less, and I won't look like a useless slob. If I can't lose these 25+ pounds by the end of the year, I don't know what I'm going to do. Probably just go flat out bulimia, it worked for my sister so it should probably work for me.[/QUOTE] Dude no! Starvation is not an effective way to lose weight. Well, you'll lose weight and a huge sum of that will be muscle. Not to mention your health. All I can say is that what I did a few years ago was starting to work out and cutting down on sugar and saturated fat. Worked wonders, all nice and steady and then I was in the shape of my life. Then that went almost down the drain when I got a girlfriend whom managed to say something that triggered my anorexia from way back. Malnutrition wears you down slowly and then breaks you down. Once I was back with anorexia I ate 1500 kcal/day and worked out 5 times a week. And then I collapsed.

Success seems so far away for me, yet it feels like everyone else gets a windfall.

my entire life is now one video game. [editline]5th November 2015[/editline] thankfully i'm getting friends into it so it's not like it's severely limiting my social outlet. [editline]5th November 2015[/editline] okay in retrospect it [I]IS[/I] severely limiting my social outlet, but still friends are joining so it's getting better.

God you people who have jobs don't understand how lucky you are. I'm practically begging for a job at this point. I just want money. It's November and I've been trying SINCE[B] JUNE.[/B] To get a job, and no one is hiring. I mean I appreciate my free time and all that, but sims 4 and jogging only take up part of that, I run out of things to do.

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;49054878]sims 4[/QUOTE] you poor thing, how could you do that to yourself

[QUOTE=fear me;49054897]you poor thing, how could you do that to yourself[/QUOTE] Sims 4 is great wh0t are you talking about?

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;49054920]Sims 4 is great wh0t are you talking about?[/QUOTE] oh no its worse than i thought

[QUOTE=fear me;49054928]oh no its worse than i thought[/QUOTE] sims 4 isnt the best sims, but its still a good sims game. anyways yeah before I derail this... I just really need a goddamn job. That would solve so many of my problems rn.

Hey everyone, this is my first post here and I need some advice if anyone is willing to help me out. I'm kinda worried that I might be depressed. Recently things haven't been going well, like at all (ie. big problems within my family and others concerning me that I won't really get into). I've felt this way before, this disinterest in life and hobbies, these feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness have happened to me a few years ago. When I started feeling this way again I just brushed it off as the usual blues or whatever, but more recently I've been getting physical symptoms that seem to be common with depression (thanks google). I've lost my appetite completely, I'm at one meal a day and even then I barely finish my plate, I'm having a lot of problem sleeping, waking up in the middle of the night etc. So yeah, it's been about 2 months and I'm feeling quite worried. I'm going to see a doctor next week in any case but since this thread is dedicated to this I was hoping someone could confirm or clarify what's going on for me. Thanks, and sorry for the WoT

Fuck. I should be refreshing my math skills for my GED, but I'm too apathetic to even try right now, and the test is the first of next month. Everything is so goddamn hazy.

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;49054878]God you people who have jobs don't understand how lucky you are. I'm practically begging for a job at this point. I just want money. It's November and I've been trying SINCE[B] JUNE.[/B] To get a job, and no one is hiring. I mean I appreciate my free time and all that, but sims 4 and jogging only take up part of that, I run out of things to do.[/QUOTE] I was unemployed for a year. Keep your chin up and press forward, someone is gonna pick up the phone eventually. Also how is your resume looking?

[QUOTE=Tagger;49055648]I was unemployed for a year. Keep your chin up and press forward, someone is gonna pick up the phone eventually. [/QUOTE] Getting a job is pretty random, I've had times where it took 6 months, and the last time took all of two weeks.

Given the way my last couple of relationships have gone, I have a feeling that even if I do start dating someone again, I'll have serious abandonment issues, as after my ex who I was with for 7 years, every single relationship I've tried to have is with them abandoning me, despite doing no wrong.

[QUOTE=Deri102;49055099]Hey everyone, this is my first post here and I need some advice if anyone is willing to help me out. I'm kinda worried that I might be depressed. Recently things haven't been going well, like at all (ie. big problems within my family and others concerning me that I won't really get into). I've felt this way before, this disinterest in life and hobbies, these feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness have happened to me a few years ago. When I started feeling this way again I just brushed it off as the usual blues or whatever, but more recently I've been getting physical symptoms that seem to be common with depression (thanks google). I've lost my appetite completely, I'm at one meal a day and even then I barely finish my plate, I'm having a lot of problem sleeping, waking up in the middle of the night etc. So yeah, it's been about 2 months and I'm feeling quite worried. I'm going to see a doctor next week in any case but since this thread is dedicated to this I was hoping someone could confirm or clarify what's going on for me. Thanks, and sorry for the WoT[/QUOTE]That's not a super long time but you should see someone. It could develop into something worse.

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;49054878]God you people who have jobs don't understand how lucky you are. I'm practically begging for a job at this point. I just want money. It's November and I've been trying SINCE[B] JUNE.[/B] To get a job, and no one is hiring. I mean I appreciate my free time and all that, but sims 4 and jogging only take up part of that, I run out of things to do.[/QUOTE] I've been looking for work for three and a half years now. Then again I have a few ways to earn a bit of money every now and again, instead of working the "mainstream" way.

I'm paranoid to the point that all I can see in everything is the worst-case scenario. Some days I can get past it but no matter what breakthrough I have I end up falling back into paranoia in like 24 hours and it's getting harder and harder to keep past it since I just know that no matter how good I feel at any point my mind will find some way to pull me back down.

[QUOTE=DELL;49055678]Getting a job is pretty random, I've had times where it took 6 months, and the last time took all of two weeks.[/QUOTE] Every job I've ever had I don't remember applying for because I just carpet bomb employers with applications. Works for me

Unless you have connections jobs are all about timing. The best strategy I've found is to go around places and think of stores you never really think about working at. You'd be amazed how easy it is to get into a place like Toys R' Us.

I've been thinking about attempting suicide again; by OD'ing on Codeine Phosphate this time. It's funny, I thought my life was looking to be good for once. I have a girlfriend who loves me, a family who cares, well that's pretty much it but still, more than what I had before. I've been telling myself to keep going because of possible experiences that can happen. But now, it's all looking very dull and hopeless again. Right now, I'm just wasting away in my room, playing videogames, jobseeking and trying to make others happy. There's absolutely nothing I could do to make any sort of positive change in my life. I have no funds, no money, no ambition, absolutely nothing to base on at all. Even the happiness of having a lovely gf has faded away and the dark thoughts have crept back in, to where they've always resided. I suppose, I can't always distract myself from these wants and thoughts so well anymore.

I might have schizo affective disorder. My doctor had me high light the symptoms I have on a paper she printed out. Does anyone have this? Right now they have me on Depakote a mood stabilizer and zyprexa an anti psychotic

[QUOTE=Jho;49057679]I've been thinking about attempting suicide again; by OD'ing on Codeine Phosphate this time. It's funny, I thought my life was looking to be good for once. I have a girlfriend who loves me, a family who cares, well that's pretty much it but still, more than what I had before. I've been telling myself to keep going because of possible experiences that can happen. But now, it's all looking very dull and hopeless again. Right now, I'm just wasting away in my room, playing videogames, jobseeking and trying to make others happy. There's absolutely nothing I could do to make any sort of positive change in my life. I have no funds, no money, no ambition, absolutely nothing to base on at all. Even the happiness of having a lovely gf has faded away and the dark thoughts have crept back in, to where they've always resided. I suppose, I can't always distract myself from these wants and thoughts so well anymore.[/QUOTE] Could you seek out someone professional to talk about these things to? It's scary how effective depression is at warping one's perception of how things are and the prospect of things to come.

So loneliness is eating away at me, I'm bored out of my mind, my frustration with my shit life is causing me to lash out at my family and friends, I'm out of shape, don't have any kind of job and I don't have any motivation to do anything to fix any of this. Someone please help me

I've started to not want to wake up in the mornings anymore. As in, I just want to quietly sleep in painlessly. I can't tell if that counts as a suicidal thought... Should I call my doctor?

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;49059561]I might have schizo affective disorder. My doctor had me high light the symptoms I have on a paper she printed out. Does anyone have this? Right now they have me on Depakote a mood stabilizer and zyprexa an anti psychotic[/QUOTE] while everyone is different, I'd be wary around Zyprexa. that shit fucked me up so hard. I was constantly asleep, and when I was awake, I wished I was asleep. I could sleep an entire day and still manage to sleep the next night for several days in a row. my mood was constantly just "okay", I was incredibly apathetic. I found no joy in anything at all anymore. people thought my symptoms were getting worse so they figured it was a great idea to up my Zyprexa dosage above the max dose to 30mg, max is 20mg. of course I only got worse which they blamed my disorder for so we never took them off. I'm really glad my family eventually put their foot down and told my doctor to fuck off and get me off them. at that point I didn't care at all anymore, I just wanted to sleep. if they didn't put their foot down, it's fully possible I would still be on them right now since I as said had no will or care to even bother. with that in mind, it's fully possible that you'll get a positive effect from it. everyone is different, and to me it just fucked me up hard. though if you suddenly start getting worse, more apathetic, and all of that nice stuff, I'd be very quick to blame Zyprexa rather than your disorder. inform your doctor as quickly as possible if you start feeling worse.

[QUOTE=Tagger;49055648]I was unemployed for a year. Keep your chin up and press forward, someone is gonna pick up the phone eventually. Also how is your resume looking?[/QUOTE] I'm 18, fresh out of highschool with zero experience, and I'm applying for entry level jobs. I don't have a resume. I've tried places like sub shops and convenience stores. There's no mcdonalds around here. I have to find a place that's within walking distance because I don't have a car. The whole point of me saving up is to get a car so I can get a better job. I absolutely hate being unemployed. I'll take anything at this point! I don't care if I'm shoveling shit! I just want money! I'll be bullshit if I'm unemployed for a full year. I'd blow off what little money I do have to a one way flight out west and probably just fuckin become a homeless person. Shame, what a waste of a person because I'm so young and I'm at my best looking.

[QUOTE=PredGD;49061178]while everyone is different, I'd be wary around Zyprexa. that shit fucked me up so hard. I was constantly asleep, and when I was awake, I wished I was asleep. I could sleep an entire day and still manage to sleep the next night for several days in a row. my mood was constantly just "okay", I was incredibly apathetic. I found no joy in anything at all anymore. people thought my symptoms were getting worse so they figured it was a great idea to up my Zyprexa dosage above the max dose to 30mg, max is 20mg. of course I only got worse which they blamed my disorder for so we never took them off. I'm really glad my family eventually put their foot down and told my doctor to fuck off and get me off them. at that point I didn't care at all anymore, I just wanted to sleep. if they didn't put their foot down, it's fully possible I would still be on them right now since I as said had no will or care to even bother. with that in mind, it's fully possible that you'll get a positive effect from it. everyone is different, and to me it just fucked me up hard. though if you suddenly start getting worse, more apathetic, and all of that nice stuff, I'd be very quick to blame Zyprexa rather than your disorder. inform your doctor as quickly as possible if you start feeling worse.[/QUOTE] What dose were you on? I take 15mg and I don't have any side effects

Man I was sleeping so well until about a week ago when my anxiety decided to kick into overdrive. Now I sleep in bursts, like 2 or 3 hours at a time. I'll lay there for hours and try to fall back asleep but I can't seem to. Feels like my meds are less effective as they used to be.

[QUOTE=Crpto2007;49061962]What dose were you on? I take 15mg and I don't have any side effects[/QUOTE] Depending on when you started it they may start later. They put me on risperidone 1mg, after the second week it kicked in and everything went to hell for me. Though that's because of misdiagnosis as why it caused my problems. Of course it could work out great as it effects everyone differently.

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