Depression, anxiety, suicidalism and similar disorders, issues and troubles V4 - Discussion, help an - General

[QUOTE=kijji;49259291]I have to use the bathroom more frequently, which I believe is a side effect of the Prozac; I remember this side effect happening when I took Prozac in the past. Anyone know why exactly it happens?[/QUOTE] Maybe it's a diuretic? None of the SSRIs I've taken had that effect, but I can't speak for Prozac. Isn't that a pretty shit med in general?

[QUOTE=DeadKiller987;49259396]Maybe it's a diuretic? None of the SSRIs I've taken had that effect, but I can't speak for Prozac. Isn't that a pretty shit med in general?[/QUOTE] It's working so far for me, my head's been feeling a bit clearer. I think Prozac is used as a "starter" antidepressant of sorts, but because I've reacted pretty well to it in the past, I guess it's good to stay with it to see if it actually helps. I'm not sure if it's a diuretic but after a quick search I think it can cause that effect in depressed people, idk though

So I'm a hypomanic with SAD (social anxiety disorder). Its an interesting mix. During my life I've been pushed to jobs that have been far beyond my ability. In my free time I get upto things that aren't exactly kosher. I take medication for depression and heterosexuality, I've put myself at risk for being too horny. In the past 365 days I've broken a few condoms and put myself at severe risk. My medication knocks me down and makes me a bit more subtle. I'm currently dealing with alcoholism. On most days I drink from midday up until midnight. I stopped drinking vodka and started moving myself towards more mild alcohol such as beer. My psychiatrist has given me medication that is supposed to help my liver. Being hypomanic I've dealt with sexual indiscretions that have endangered my health. I'm currently paranoid about testing my blood (whether it relates to my liver or the possibility of having an STD) At the age of 18 I dealt with an STD test which took about 4-5 years of my life. Another decade has passed and I feel paranoid about finding out whether I am a carrier of any disease. Inbetween my alcoholism my sexuality makes me absolutely afraid to what the future holds. I'd be curious to interact with people who have dealt with the same problems. Because of spending money frivilatntly I am currently in the hole for an amount that exceeds $2500 USD. During the past calendar year I've given up on my friends and family and tried to be alone. I only try to be my best. I don't know how well I do. I went out with a Catholic woman for more than 5 years and I never got any sex. It was a frustrating experience and after which I gave myself to many experiences which where both questionable and risky. I invest money as well as give money to charity. Currently I'm down about 3k USD. I live with a good friend who has taken me in, and I don't know how to proceed socially. All of my job opportunities have been through luck. In the next 60 days I need to come up with about 20k USD otherwise I will be homeless. I currently see both a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I take about 10 pills a day just to remain even. If you're at a point in your life which questions your sexual experiences, I only ask that you wait. If you wait better things will come, I assure you. Don't sacrifice yourself because you're impatient. You will enjoy life a lot more if you're just a little bit patient. If you're being bullied because of your skin color, please wait, because things will become better. You will find a better part of life that doesn't relate to your ethnicity. Please don't go on a school shooting, because better things will come for you.

I, sometimes, feel like an empty shell with no purpose. Taking meds since 2011, nothing changed, it only got worse. Someone fix me please.

[QUOTE=arthurisfine;49260116]I, sometimes, feel like an empty shell with no purpose. Taking meds since 2011, nothing changed, it only got worse. Someone fix me please.[/QUOTE] Pills can be a great help. Just push yourself to be yourself. It may be difficult to own yourself, but own yourself and be yourself. Being too confused can only act towards your personality. Please be understanding towards yourself. It may be difficult. But you owe yourself at least a chance.

normally i don't really care about ratings but when i make a serious post that gets funnies that isn't funny at all to me i feel like garbage and just want to snip it but can't because that would draw more attention than i want.

[QUOTE=Qaus;49260398]normally i don't really care about ratings but when i make a serious post that gets funnies that isn't funny at all to me i feel like garbage and just want to snip it but can't because that would draw more attention than i want.[/QUOTE] I feel like shit when I try to help someone or when I write a big informative post to help and no one notices. What you said gets me, too. I don't want attention I just want to be acknowledged. I get ignored so much in-person by people that it really gets to me. Jokes on everyone else though I may be writing articles for a company now and may actually have an audience for my work :^)

[QUOTE=arthurisfine;49260116]I, sometimes, feel like an empty shell with no purpose. Taking meds since 2011, nothing changed, it only got worse. Someone fix me please.[/QUOTE] Hate to be a barer of bad news, but you can only fix yourself. Guidance you can get, but its ultimately upon you.

Friendly reminder that just because you currently have a shitty brain does not make you a shitty person. Learn from mistakes, and don't let this be the mountain you die on.

So I'm on meds for depression, same ones my best mate and my stepbrother are on. They worked for a while, I felt numb, not happy but no depression, not much in the way of feelings really. My friend says he's always that way. But recently my meds have stopped doing that, now feelings are back and stronger than ever and I'm completely all over, today I was on top of the world, yesterday I was more down than I've been in recent memory, my friend actually half thinks I'm bi-polar. On top of that feelings for this girl that were replaced with complete numbness are back and I really don't want them. I feel like I have no one to talk to this about and I'm miles off from my next therapy session. I guess I just wanna vent, I hope I can get through depression and crushes alone again. I just thought it had all gone. It's not all bad, I get happy too and my sense of humour is back and I'm no longer a complete light weight. So I guess that's all cool. Any ideas/comments? My friend thinks I should wait a while see what happens and maybe get a different pill if he numbness doesn't come back idk. I preferred numbness but I get why people would think that's unhealthy. Edit: my step brother says I'm the same and I'm just adapting to how I feel, like how after being really cold for a while it just feels normal or something. I guess that makes sense, but I still miss the numbness and for me, her and our already shakey friendship I want to get rid of this fucking crush too.

Nothing seems interesting anymore. Not even videogames

This vacation to visit a female friend of interest has taught me i feel miserable when I have to spend all day alone, which made me realize that was what I already do. Now I'm headed home tomorrow and really stressed because I'm returning to that life and don't know how to fix it from long distance. I don't even think it's just that, it's probably just the fact I like her and even though she likes me she doesn't want to make the time for it

[QUOTE=Punchy;49262371]This vacation to visit a female friend of interest has taught me i feel miserable when I have to spend all day alone, which made me realize that was what I already do. Now I'm headed home tomorrow and really stressed because I'm returning to that life and don't know how to fix it from long distance. I don't even think it's just that, it's probably just the fact I like her and even though she likes me she doesn't want to make the time for it[/QUOTE] You're probably going to hate this, but here's how I'm gonna put it: If she doesn't want to make the time for you, there's no use. She doesn't truly like you. Shitty relationships happen when there isn't equal effort from each side to keep it going. Keep pushing through life friend. You will eventually find someone, I can guarantee it. There's 7 billion people on this earth, don't stress yourself over one of them. I'm telling you from experience. It'll be tough at first to accept the fact it's not going to work, but once you do you'll feel so fresh and free and you'll be ready to jump back into the dating game once you find someone suitable. Good luck, friend.

it's a great feeling to be so hyped up when listening to music. I wasn't able to really do that before September / October, but something happened and since then I've found a lot of joy in music. I've begun singing along and so on. makes me wish I was comfortable with dancing since it feels pretty natural to do

[QUOTE=kijji;49259430]It's working so far for me, my head's been feeling a bit clearer. I think Prozac is used as a "starter" antidepressant of sorts, but because I've reacted pretty well to it in the past, I guess it's good to stay with it to see if it actually helps. I'm not sure if it's a diuretic but after a quick search I think it can cause that effect in depressed people, idk though[/QUOTE] Glad that it works for you, I still haven't found good medication for myself. Currently waiting for the current one to kick it(amitriptyline). Hoping for the best, but I don't think I'll get anywhere without something stimulating for my ADD like Bupropion or something like that... [editline]7th December 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=icarusfoundyou;49259675]So I'm a hypomanic with SAD (social anxiety disorder). Its an interesting mix. During my life I've been pushed to jobs that have been far beyond my ability. In my free time I get upto things that aren't exactly kosher. I take medication for depression and heterosexuality, I've put myself at risk for being too horny. In the past 365 days I've broken a few condoms and put myself at severe risk. My medication knocks me down and makes me a bit more subtle. I'm currently dealing with alcoholism. On most days I drink from midday up until midnight. I stopped drinking vodka and started moving myself towards more mild alcohol such as beer. My psychiatrist has given me medication that is supposed to help my liver. Being hypomanic I've dealt with sexual indiscretions that have endangered my health. I'm currently paranoid about testing my blood (whether it relates to my liver or the possibility of having an STD) At the age of 18 I dealt with an STD test which took about 4-5 years of my life. Another decade has passed and I feel paranoid about finding out whether I am a carrier of any disease. Inbetween my alcoholism my sexuality makes me absolutely afraid to what the future holds. I'd be curious to interact with people who have dealt with the same problems. Because of spending money frivilatntly I am currently in the hole for an amount that exceeds $2500 USD. During the past calendar year I've given up on my friends and family and tried to be alone. I only try to be my best. I don't know how well I do. I went out with a Catholic woman for more than 5 years and I never got any sex. It was a frustrating experience and after which I gave myself to many experiences which where both questionable and risky. I invest money as well as give money to charity. Currently I'm down about 3k USD. I live with a good friend who has taken me in, and I don't know how to proceed socially. All of my job opportunities have been through luck. In the next 60 days I need to come up with about 20k USD otherwise I will be homeless. I currently see both a psychologist and a psychiatrist. I take about 10 pills a day just to remain even. If you're at a point in your life which questions your sexual experiences, I only ask that you wait. If you wait better things will come, I assure you. Don't sacrifice yourself because you're impatient. You will enjoy life a lot more if you're just a little bit patient. If you're being bullied because of your skin color, please wait, because things will become better. You will find a better part of life that doesn't relate to your ethnicity. Please don't go on a school shooting, because better things will come for you.[/QUOTE] You should defo take the blood test as soon as possible no matter how scary it is. Better to know if you have something than sit in the dark with a possible illness while not treating it. Also have you thought about Alcoholics/Sexoholics Anonymous? I haven't tried it myself, though I had a drinking problem a while back too, but it helps some people. [editline]7th December 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=PredGD;49262939]it's a great feeling to be so hyped up when listening to music. I wasn't able to really do that before September / October, but something happened and since then I've found a lot of joy in music. I've begun singing along and so on. makes me wish I was comfortable with dancing since it feels pretty natural to do[/QUOTE] Going to concerts is tons of fun, especially with friends.

What's up with everyone going on vacation to visit a friend? I literally just got back from mine a couple days ago.

Turns out my ex is already getting close to someone, and he's somewhat the reason she broke up with me. Any pain in the world would be better than this. Literally any I haven't hurt myself in a long time but this is the first night in years I've actually really actively wanted to do it, and I really don't see any reason why not anymore, these posts are all pointless anyway just like pretty much any attempt to do anything in my life.

[QUOTE=IJNOMED;49263305]What's up with everyone going on vacation to visit a friend? I literally just got back from mine a couple days ago.[/QUOTE] Christmas season coming up soon, maybe that's why? I hope to visit my family in another city for at least a day... [editline]7th December 2015[/editline] [QUOTE=flamehead5;49263464]Turns out my ex is already getting close to someone, and he's somewhat the reason she broke up with me. Any pain in the world would be better than this. Literally any I haven't hurt myself in a long time but this is the first night in years I've actually really actively wanted to do it, and I really don't see any reason why not anymore, these posts are all pointless anyway just like pretty much any attempt to do anything in my life.[/QUOTE] I know this is hard to hear, but shes just a girl. Don't cut yourself because of that. You should try and distract yourself doing something you like. Hell go to a titty bar, maybe that'll cheer you up. Then again what do I know, I'm just a sheltered virgin. I do know that self-harm is never the answer.

i am so bored at home, i live by myself and i see my friends maybe 2 times a week. the rest of the time i am sitting at home wasting away doing nothing but smoking, drinking and playing video games while i wait for any of the jobs i've applied for to get back to me. my life has gone seriously downhill since i got fired. i thought i'd be fine because i had someone to love and then she broke up with me and i have nothing. the girl i was dating thinks i'm an asshole who was only staying friends with her so i could rebound to her if i broke up with my gf. i don't know how to show her thats not how it is so we've just stopped talking. i know shes just going to end up with someone else and its going to upset me a lot. i cant be happy if i dont have money, i cant get money because i cant get a job. i want a car, i cant get a car without a job, jobs dont want to hire me because i dont have a car. i apply for about 10 jobs a week and it seems so fucking pointless, its like they just throw out my resume. i know how i can be happy again but it seems impossible.

Girlfriend and I are on a 'two week break' while she's living at her friends house, who she's confessed to having feelings for and drunkenly kissed (while we were dating). Strangely, I don't feel depressed about this. I don't feel anything right now, but I think if she ends up dumping me for him, I'll paralyze him from the waist down.

[QUOTE=Pat.Lithium;49263800]i am so bored at home, i live by myself and i see my friends maybe 2 times a week. the rest of the time i am sitting at home wasting away doing nothing but smoking, drinking and playing video games while i wait for any of the jobs i've applied for to get back to me. my life has gone seriously downhill since i got fired. i thought i'd be fine because i had someone to love and then she broke up with me and i have nothing. the girl i was dating thinks i'm an asshole who was only staying friends with her so i could rebound to her if i broke up with my gf. i don't know how to show her thats not how it is so we've just stopped talking. i know shes just going to end up with someone else and its going to upset me a lot. i cant be happy if i dont have money, i cant get money because i cant get a job. i want a car, i cant get a car without a job, jobs dont want to hire me because i dont have a car. i apply for about 10 jobs a week and it seems so fucking pointless, its like they just throw out my resume. i know how i can be happy again but it seems impossible.[/QUOTE] I have the same problem, but for a different reason. I have horrible ADD which stops me from doing shit I love like programming, reading, studying (I'm a technical sciences geek) and even playing games which have a story line. I feel alcohol actually kinda helps me concentrate and be at least a little productive, so maybe it's a stress/anxiety thing and not ADD. It's so annoying that my country doesn't recognize ADD as a disorder, I wish I could at least get a differential diagnosis and actually know for a fact whats wrong with me :C

[QUOTE=DeadKiller987;49263831]I have the same problem, but for a different reason. I have horrible ADD which stops me from doing shit I love like programming, reading, studying (I'm a technical sciences geek) and even playing games which have a story line. I feel alcohol actually kinda helps me concentrate and be at least a little productive, so maybe it's a stress/anxiety thing and not ADD. It's so annoying that my country doesn't recognize ADD as a disorder, I wish I could at least get a differential diagnosis and actually know for a fact whats wrong with me :C[/QUOTE] thats rough, as far as i know theres nothing wrong with me, i'm just stuck in a part of my life i cant get out of because there isn't enough jobs where i live.

One good thing about libido-decreasing anti-depressants is that I no longer care about badly-drawn or stupid hentai! [editline]7th December 2015[/editline] Like I'm just looking through some of the porn I bookmarked/downloaded and idk what the fuck I was thinking.

Not depression, but I want Facepunch's look on this. I'm about to pick IB choices (The exam before Uni) and I honestly don't know what to do. I don't really have a dream job or an aim I'm working towards. I've thought about it a lot but I still don't really know what I want to be or what I want to do. All I know is that I'm very, very interested in History. However, my parents want me to be a doctor - I like Biology and Chemistry and I get top grades in most subjects. I have no problem with being a doctor, but I really don't know if I should do something with History - after all, what jobs can a history degree find me? I'm stuck between the dilemma of planning to living a good life was a decent job or a possible bad life that has my dream job. What do you guys think?

[QUOTE=MyBumBum;49264258]Not depression, but I want Facepunch's look on this. I'm about to pick IB choices (The exam before Uni) and I honestly don't know what to do. I don't really have a dream job or an aim I'm working towards. I've thought about it a lot but I still don't really know what I want to be or what I want to do. All I know is that I'm very, very interested in History. However, my parents want me to be a doctor - I like Biology and Chemistry and I get top grades in most subjects. I have no problem with being a doctor, but I really don't know if I should do something with History - after all, what jobs can a history degree find me? I'm stuck between the dilemma of planning to living a good life was a decent job or a possible bad life that has my dream job. What do you guys think?[/QUOTE] You should probably choose your dream job, then again if you're not too much against being a doctor that's a good choice too. Just think about what you would prefer spending your life doing more - doctor or historian.

What sort of careers can come out of history?

Well, spent 5 weeks working on something that turned to shit, I wish I had a time machine so I could tell myself not to bother.

[QUOTE=MyBumBum;49264345]What sort of careers can come out of history?[/QUOTE] I'm wondering this myself, history's really the only thing I have interest in

I'm doing alright. Met a girl, hanging with her after school today.

So I have ADHD primarily innatentive and I always have trouble staying interested in things. I always get bored of things when they're no longer new and exciting. I have social anxiety so I tend to avoid people that I don't know. The only time I feel like I enjoy things is when I'm on my medication (adderall). I'm unable to stick with things I need to do if I'm not on my meds or they wear off at the end of the day. After they wear off I sit around doing things that I don't enjoy so I can "waste time" till I go to bed. Then rinse and repeat. I'm not suicidal or depressed I just want to know if anyone else feels this way. One other thing is when I'm on my meds I don't question myself about why I do things because I feel like I need to do them even though they're boring. But as soon as the meds wear off at the end of the day I question why I do anything at all because anything that doesn't offer stimulation is unexciting. I just get so confused because the part of me on my meds tells me that I'm going in the right direction in life. But the part of me off meds when I have dinner/settle down for the night chatters to me over and over "why do you do anything? It's not exciting". They don't actually chatter or talk so I'm not hearing voices obviously but those are my thoughts. For example when I'm on my meds I can read a text book for college and do the assigned questions. As soon as my meds wear off I don't see any point to it even though I know I should be doing it. Each one contradicts the other and I know me off of meds is not normal. I also know that me on my meds is how I should feel. But I can't be on meds 24/7. It drives me up a wall.