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I just contacted the police, gave them all the information I could, including his IP address and Steam profile url, and that he's around 18 or 19 years old and male, and that he's poisoned himself with copper sulfate and zinc pellets if anyone knows anything else I can do please tell me, and I know he's on this website and all that so try not to let him know I've called the police, I don't know that he'll react well to that

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Fantastic news everyone, Sobotnik is going to be OK, we digged and digged and got enough info to get him to the police and so now he's safe with them

You did a good thing, you know. Might even have saved a life. [editline]17th September 2015[/editline] Probably saved a life, actually.

My fucking anxiety is flaring up again, and I'm pretty sure it's caused by messenger and texting apps with that little fucking "tick" icon. I'm on my own so naturally I'm trying to talk to people but when it feels like (and I should realise it's not the case) I'm being ignored it drives my anxiety into fucking [I]overdrive[/I]. I should probably stop using them, but then I'm just left with the thoughts in my head.

[QUOTE=ZombieDawgs;48704605]My fucking anxiety is flaring up again, and I'm pretty sure it's caused by messenger and texting apps with that little fucking "tick" icon. I'm on my own so naturally I'm trying to talk to people but when it feels like (and I should realise it's not the case) I'm being ignored it drives my anxiety into fucking [I]overdrive[/I]. I should probably stop using them, but then I'm just left with the thoughts in my head.[/QUOTE] Its times like that when its better to find something to keep you occupied. Water does boil while watched, but it takes fucking ages. Same thing in this case, it'd be a mind wracking experience which only spirals into something worse the more you stay on it. You know its not the case, but that annoying part of your head that says "but what if" can really take hold. Watching a video or playing games is a good way to take the pressure off, even for a little bit.

Yeah, don't quit it all together just find something else to do to distract you so that you're not consciously waiting for a reply.

Anyone have any experience with telling parents that you need to get help? I need to do it or I'll go downhill more but I can't figure out how to breach the subject and I feel like they'll resist me. I've lowkey tried to talk about it before but I've gotten shut down real fast.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;48707566]Anyone have any experience with telling parents that you need to get help? I need to do it or I'll go downhill more but I can't figure out how to breach the subject and I feel like they'll resist me. I've lowkey tried to talk about it before but I've gotten shut down real fast.[/QUOTE] Honestly, just tell one of your parents to sit down with you cause you need to have a talk - that way they know you're serious. Then be as straight up honest as you can with them. You don't have to tell both of them at the same time, it might be easier to just talk one on one with the one you think would understand you the best.

Wasn't planning on telling my dad at all anyway, he's the sort of person who thinks you can fix depression by thinking happy thoughts.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;48707654]Wasn't planning on telling my dad at all anyway, he's the sort of person who thinks you can fix depression by thinking happy thoughts.[/QUOTE] Yeah, you don't have to.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;48707566]Anyone have any experience with telling parents that you need to get help? I need to do it or I'll go downhill more but I can't figure out how to breach the subject and I feel like they'll resist me. I've lowkey tried to talk about it before but I've gotten shut down real fast.[/QUOTE] I do, but only with my mother. She yelled at me, was on some emotional rollercoaster, and finally told me it was down to me to get the help I needed. Frankly put, she was of no real help and is one of the reasons I stopped bothering with the medication. As with everyone, people react differently to it. If you've done the subtle way and got shut down quickly, I'd be cautious when approaching them about this. Last thing you want is your parents pulling a 180 on you and treating you differently after telling them. Be sure to do it in a way that its you and the parent(s) in a quiet room or part of the house, not while they're busy with something or just back from work. The right mindset makes the right response, believe me.

[QUOTE=Vaught;48707816]I do, but only with my mother. She yelled at me, was on some emotional rollercoaster, and finally told me it was down to me to get the help I needed. Frankly put, she was of no real help and is one of the reasons I stopped bothering with the medication. As with everyone, people react differently to it. If you've done the subtle way and got shut down quickly, I'd be cautious when approaching them about this. Last thing you want is your parents pulling a 180 on you and treating you differently after telling them. Be sure to do it in a way that its you and the parent(s) in a quiet room or part of the house, not while they're busy with something or just back from work. The right mindset makes the right response, believe me.[/QUOTE]That's horrible :( I think my mom will be decently understanding, I mostly just have to get past my fear of telling her.

[QUOTE=AtomicSans;48707566]Anyone have any experience with telling parents that you need to get help? I need to do it or I'll go downhill more but I can't figure out how to breach the subject and I feel like they'll resist me. I've lowkey tried to talk about it before but I've gotten shut down real fast.[/QUOTE] It was very hard for me to tell my mom about, I spent about 10 minutes pacing upstairs. But she was real supportive and so is my dad. It never hurts to be nervous, but it also never hurts to tell your folks what's going on in your head.

[QUOTE=kijji;48708299]It never hurts to be nervous, but it also never hurts to tell your folks what's going on in your head.[/QUOTE] To be honest, it can and it can. Some people have developed harmful coping mechanisms for handling stress (self-harm, depersonalization, problem eating etc.) Also, don't get me wrong, it's great if you tell your parents and they are supportive and help you get the help you need. Not everybody has those parents, though. Not going to go into too much detail, but somebody with emotionally or physically abusive parents simply can't rely on their support for mental and emotional health problems.

Is it normal to be curious about suicide? Sort of a "what if this happened" kind of deal? Or is it something that should be looked at.

Depends. If it's particularly intrusive or recurring I'd get looked at, may be a sign of something worse that may or may not have yet presented itself. I kinda say that from experience, I had a morbid fascination with suicide for a long time before any real crap started.

[QUOTE=NikoChekhov;48708953]Is it normal to be curious about suicide? Sort of a "what if this happened" kind of deal? Or is it something that should be looked at.[/QUOTE] Morbid curiosity about anything is normal yeah. [editline]18th September 2015[/editline] My personal "object of morbid curiosity" is the enormous amount of death in early modern warfare (aka WW1, WW2, Vietnam etc) and the societies of those times.

It's been over a year since I was dumped. I've moved on in virtually every way; new job, new friends, back to following through on goals, progressing, et cetera. But whenever I see anything of them, there's suddenly this pit in my stomach and I feel like I'm back to a year ago. It's been a whole year. Can't I just forgive and forget already? Why do I still let him bother me so much.

I'm completely detached from my wife. I don't really feel much any more. Living with her is constant anxiety. Wondering what's going to freak Her out next. What's going to piss her off. Every single. Time. I do something I know she's going to be mad at me for it. So it's a constant worry of what will she judge next. She freaks out over the most mundane of lifes problems. And I'm running out of patience to put up with her bull crap. I can't take this much longer. I hate having kids. Makes my life miserable. I regret marrying someone with such a long, disgusting, damaging past. Maybe I wouldn't feel that way if she would leave it behind and choose to be happy with me. But she doesn't. She only chooses to take it out on me. I wake Every day filled with regret. For getting married. If I didn't (at least with her) I wouldn't be miserable Every day. I wouldn't have to take care of stupid kids. I would actually have a life again. I might have been able to find a woman who really cares about me. She finally saw the doc and got some medicine. First dose was yesterday. But I can't help but wonder if it's too late. I just don't really care anymore.

What's the point of having a voice if no one is going to listen anyways.

[QUOTE=shutter_eye5;48714071]What's the point of having a voice if no one is going to listen anyways.[/QUOTE]If you have anything to say, I'm glad to listen. I'm sure we all are.

Yeah, I feel people get tired of me bitching and such :v:

I can't stop living in the past and thing how badly I've fucked up my life. I know it's not [I]all[/I] my fault, the chronic ill health, depression, poor parenting etc. But then there are so many stupid decisions it feels like it. I want to start over, knowing my passion from a young age, knowing how to talk to people, how to get things done, stay healthy. Where's the restart button? Did I really fuck up my one chance? Does everyone else feel this way? [editline]19th September 2015[/editline] Aaah my angst is off the charts tonight.

[QUOTE=MintyMginty;48714967]I can't stop living in the past and thing how badly I've fucked up my life. I know it's not [I]all[/I] my fault, the chronic ill health, depression, poor parenting etc. But then there are so many stupid decisions it feels like it. I want to start over, knowing my passion from a young age, knowing how to talk to people, how to get things done, stay healthy. Where's the restart button? Did I really fuck up my one chance? Does everyone else feel this way? [editline]19th September 2015[/editline] Aaah my angst is off the charts tonight.[/QUOTE] I feel that if I could go back in time and restart college I'd do much better than I had, I feel so guilty and shit about dropping out and skipping classes and just :hairpull:

You can always correct the course from where you are Right now.

I would like to add people on Steam if they wanna chat.

My mental health has been getting worse each day and I want to attend therapy but I can't because I'm busy all fucking time. Shit doesn't help much, I'm drowning in college stuff, I need to study, then my stuff at home doesn't work (PS4 has a beeping/eject-disc issue and I lost the ticket so I can't get warranty), my PC has plenty of bugs and I haven't had time to upgrade to Windows 10. I wake up really early and sometimes I struggle with keeping myself awake in class. Then I get the pressure that if I fail I'm kicked out from the program, which means no escape from here, I'll be stuck here forever. My therapist said I have a problem controlling my impulses and that I tend to take things way too seriously, she says I should try to relax. But relaxing is impossible. I have seen hell, living here, my whole life, stuck here, doing the same thing over and over getting the same reward, not being able to go any further. It scares me the idea of living like that in the future, that's why every time I make a mistake, every single thing I don't know, I feel frustrated, because I feel like it increases the chances of it happening. It doesn't help my brain is like my own torturer. It just wants approval, but that's not right, I shouldn't be looking for approval, but it's pretty hardwired into that. It goes to the point where it makes me feel bad for not getting attention,then I end up angry and sad for failing at said task. I could be capable of doing great things, my brain just won't believe it unless someone tells me I am. I could look pretty good, it won't think it's true unless someone explicitly says it's true. It's low self-esteem, I know, but even when I try to think positively about it, I always feel the doubt "If I believe that I'm X, it doesn't mean it's true, so there is no way to be sure" and I end up feeling worse.

CSGO is so psychologically bad for me, why do I keep playing it

[QUOTE=D0C H.;48715574]You can always correct the course from where you are Right now.[/QUOTE] it feels like I can't though :/