The Addicts' Lounge IV - fast times at Ridgemont, high - General

[QUOTE=NeverGoWest;52544460]To be completely fair I am quite aware that I am going through a depressive episode, weed makes you weird and paranoia is not uncommon. I am probably just very, very confused and sad right now.[/QUOTE] Weed paranoia is always fun to me, like I would be running around the house scared as shit before realising I'm high as shit and bursting into laughing.

[QUOTE=Black Pete;52544509]Weed paranoia is always fun to me, like I would be running around the house scared as shit before realising I'm high as shit and bursting into laughing.[/QUOTE] Used to be like this for me, and I still try to think of UFOs and aliens and shit so my paranoia grabs that instead so I can laugh at it, but I just constantly get this thought "I fear that the odor from my usage is irritating the wrong kind of people" where wrong people are "Old social conservative women with too little to do and a little too many hours on their phone plan" and that particularly loud, violent and pedantic young woman who lives a few houses away. I fear pissing people off with the smell, intoxicating pets and intoxicating children with the escaping smoke of my joints and pipe bowls, it really just is my empathy that is getting in the way, and on top of the depression, which already hampers my cognitive ability it just blends into this extreme fear of persecution. I know these thoughts make no sense, even with how compact my neighborhood is built. I think it all began after a bunch of kids woke me up one morning by constantly running to my door, knocking at it violently, yelling "fire"(as in a burning building, not an order for a soldier to discharge his firearm) and running away.

Nothing like a little night walk with music while high as hell. Pure spacey bliss

[QUOTE=cis.joshb;52528197]I had this problem for a long time. I would just feel bored with everything I did, and would do drugs to try to be entertained. Sometimes the drugs wouldn't be enough or wouldn't hit and I would be really dissapointed. Eventually I slacked off schoolwork once I went to college so much cause I just couldn't motivate myself to do things that weren't rewarding like drugs and video games. That's when I realized I had ADHD. I thought I couldn't have it cause I had a high highschool GPA, but that was with my parents motivating me with punishments and rewards. By myself I was completely nonfunctional, and they put me on stimulants. Methylphenidate based products (concerta, ritalin) didn't feel super great, but they helped me not feel the need to do drugs for an escape and to have the energy to do my work. Now I'm on adderall which feels great every time I take it because I feel like I'm getting high but also the high is just being functional and actually having a good time while working or living everyday life. I have far less random intense impulses to just go buy some DXM or get someone to get me a pack of cigs or some booze or call up a dealer for some DMT, other psychs, pills, etc. when I'm medicated. its also a fact that being on stimulants makes people with ADHD less likely to become drug addicts. Do you feel like your issues could be similar or are they mainly from depression? I honestly was quite depressed at points from the state of squalor my disorder left me living in and the intense anxiety that constantly failing and messing up and losing things and being clumsy caused. [editline]1st August 2017[/editline] in other news I'm swearing off sedatives for good. the day after xanax I was completely not myself and I made an extremely bad (ie way too fucked up) impression on my girlfriend's best friend[/QUOTE] Fucking Christ, I don't think I have ADHD but I do really get easily distracted and bored and from the little research I've done Adderall at therapeutic dose sounds like a miracle drug. Living in Canada, is there any way I could convince a doctor to prescribe it to me?

[QUOTE=NeverGoWest;52544460]To be completely fair I am quite aware that I am going through a depressive episode, weed makes you weird and paranoia is not uncommon. I am probably just very, very confused and sad right now.[/QUOTE] Paranoia typically manifests itself only when i am suuuuper high, and always comes in either 1 of 2 forms for me: External sound misinterpretation, where a sound in my environment im not paying attention to suddenly sounds like a footstep or distant voice, when in reality it is something else. Its not bad because if i focus on the sound, it sounds normal again and i end up giggling at myself for how stupid i was. The second one is the worst one for me imo: being in a public place and having a feeling that everyone is watching you behind your back. Its one of the reasons why i dont like being really high in public. If combined with a few beers the paranoia completely goes away. I dont mind being high in public, just not super high. Also, i cant get that fucking acid trip out of my head, in a good way. It was such a beautiful thing that i was super glad to experience, but i want to do it alone next time because i feel like my friends were holding me back from completely letting go into lucy's arms. Just going outside and walking while tripping was one of the most peaceful things ive ever experienced.

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;52546786]Paranoia typically manifests itself only when i am suuuuper high, and always comes in either 1 of 2 forms for me: External sound misinterpretation, where a sound in my environment im not paying attention to suddenly sounds like a footstep or distant voice, when in reality it is something else. Its not bad because if i focus on the sound, it sounds normal again and i end up giggling at myself for how stupid i was. The second one is the worst one for me imo: being in a public place and having a feeling that everyone is watching you behind your back. Its one of the reasons why i dont like being really high in public. If combined with a few beers the paranoia completely goes away. I dont mind being high in public, just not super high.[/QUOTE] back when i was hitting dissos and weed really hard, like smoking all night every night and multiple hits of MXE every few days, i was at my most paranoid all the time. not for any real shit, more thinking i might have been abducted by UFOs, ghosts in the woods around my house, paranormal kind of shit. didn't help that i have an interest in the paranormal in general. i never [i]really[/i] believed i was abducted or any of that shit but i entertained the thoughts moreso than most likely do. like, one time i had a black SUV "following" me on my way home from work. of course, i logically knew that they just happened to be going in the same direction, but since i live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere and any car behind me was an odd thing i was also thinking they were Mossad or some people looking to beat me up or some shit when I got home. i didn't truly believe in the delusions, but they were still there. part of the reason i cut the fuck back on most drug usage. hell, i only recently have started smoking weed again. [editline]7th August 2017[/editline] i've always felt like i've been really good at keeping what is real and what is not separate in my head, which leads me to thinking about some weird shit for fun and entertaining the idea of "what if it IS real", but my disso usage caused reality to seem less real. i'd say they've definitely had some permanent effects on my personality because they exposed to me how dependent reality is on our perceptions.

You wouldn't believe how much horse adrenaline there's in front of me right now.

[QUOTE=StrawberryClock;52546749]Fucking Christ, I don't think I have ADHD but I do really get easily distracted and bored and from the little research I've done Adderall at therapeutic dose sounds like a miracle drug. Living in Canada, is there any way I could convince a doctor to prescribe it to me?[/QUOTE] just find a psychiatrist or adhd specialist psychiatrist and describe your symptoms honestly. do you really think you have ADHD? if taking stimulants improves your life in one or more multiple areas (work, school, home) and doesn't cause trouble in any of those areas (especially relationships), and doesn't cause side effects that outweigh the benefit, then you basically have ADHD. I know stims can make a lot of people fuck up relationships with the mania of highs and the dark emotions of comedowns, but on my daily therapeutic dosage of adderall my parents have actually said that they're so happy with the person I've become and that this is a change that they didn't know how to make but we've finally found out how. I actually sit down and have conversations with my parents just for fun, even when I have stuff to do. Before I would always just be bored and rush off to game or something. Also, it seems that they only prescribe XR adderall products in Canada (and you may have to go through methylphenidate products first, but they may work for you), but XR is better than nothing. It's the same drug. [editline]7th August 2017[/editline] I think low dose DXM is a far overlooked psychoactive experience. It feels pretty stimulating, not very sedated like higher dosage DXM feels to me. It's slightly dissociating, and I feel like it makes me feel the same kind of feeling as being high for the first time, just in a really crazy headspace and blown away by everything. I did 180mg in cough gels, and the best thing is that the lower amounts of gels don't really fuck with your stomach either, so you can really have a fun and active euphoric experience (I don't fuck with syrup).

[QUOTE=cis.joshb;52546991]just find a psychiatrist or adhd specialist psychiatrist and describe your symptoms honestly. do you really think you have ADHD? if taking stimulants improves your life in one or more multiple areas (work, school, home) and doesn't cause trouble in any of those areas (especially relationships), and doesn't cause side effects that outweigh the benefit, then you basically have ADHD. I know stims can make a lot of people fuck up relationships with the mania of highs and the dark emotions of comedowns, but on my daily therapeutic dosage of adderall my parents have actually said that they're so happy with the person I've become and that this is a change that they didn't know how to make but we've finally found out how. I actually sit down and have conversations with my parents just for fun, even when I have stuff to do. Before I would always just be bored and rush off to game or something. Also, it seems that they only prescribe XR adderall products in Canada (and you may have to go through methylphenidate products first, but they may work for you), but XR is better than nothing. It's the same drug.[/QUOTE] Thanks for the info.

how can I convince someone I used to be very good friends that I'm not just a complete junkie?

[QUOTE=Zarjk;52548259]how can I convince someone I used to be very good friends that I'm not just a complete junkie?[/QUOTE] Why do you wanna do that? If that's how they see you why even bother?

[QUOTE=Zarjk;52548259]how can I convince someone I used to be very good friends that I'm not just a complete junkie?[/QUOTE] Hang out with them or do something normal. Being seen in person in general will help, as long as you're not really a junkie

[quote]Why do you wanna do that? If that's how they see you why even bother?[/quote] because she means a lot to me and I went through a really stupid few years. [quote]Hang out with them or do something normal. Being seen in person in general will help, as long as you're not really a junkie[/quote] i'll see what I can, thank you

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;52536209]You guys are dead right on the acid sleep thing, not happening Dph works to an extent for me, but i still only got 4 hours of sleep unfortunately. I might use it to blunt the comeup nausea next time i trip[/QUOTE] How much did you end up taking? I just got my mail of 1P-LSD. I'd like to take some soon but I'll take all the advice I can get.

you know when you load a fresh vape but don't turn down the temperature to the one you normally start at so you vape a fresh vape at max temperature and you don't realise so you get waaaaaay fucking high out of nowhere and it tapes you awhile to work out why then when you work it out you post it on facepunch

and then dan was boobies

I love it when the weed goddess reminds you how good and therepeautic it can be. The music is massaging my ears mmmm

[QUOTE=MrJazzy;52548825]and then dan was boobies[/QUOTE] exactly. where were you when dan was boobies

One day I'll make a song called "Living at mom's place, drinking mom's beer, smoking my own shit, killing myself" [editline]8th August 2017[/editline] Fuck it, I'll make it a progressive album

[QUOTE=Zillamatic;52548802]you know when you load a fresh vape but don't turn down the temperature to the one you normally start at so you vape a fresh vape at max temperature and you don't realise so you get waaaaaay fucking high out of nowhere and it tapes you awhile to work out why then when you work it out you post it on facepunch[/QUOTE] reminds me when i got my first dab pen. i took 3 full long drags off of it, waited 10 minutes and didn't feel anything, so i took 4 more. what proceeded was me staring at the wall for 10 minutes with the most intense framerate vision ive had

I'm thinking about getting a Magic Flight Launch Box as my main piece when I go back to college to be stealthy and efficient; any thoughts/other suggestions? I've used one before and think it's pretty nifty, if a bit finicky at first.

Think I absorbed a little 1P-LSD by accident because I touched the blotters with my fingers and then when I ate supper I licked my fingers clean. Oops.

went skinnydipping at 3am the other night while high with my SO, was wonderful. how high do you guys like to get during the day? I want to experiment with being less high than blasted but dunno how to moderate consumption. if I first start vaping the green I find it difficult to stop since it's not like a joint where when it's done it's done. I can just keep going for up to an hour until I become an alien. how to pace myself?

[QUOTE=Flicky;52549875]I'm thinking about getting a Magic Flight Launch Box as my main piece when I go back to college to be stealthy and efficient; any thoughts/other suggestions? I've used one before and think it's pretty nifty, if a bit finicky at first.[/QUOTE] I really like the [URL="https://www.puffitup.com/VapCap-M-DynaVap-p/dyna.vapcap-m.htm"]VapCap M[/URL]. It's only $50, incredibly efficient, no smell, and the size and shape of a little metal cigarette. It's a "manual" vaporizer though, so instead of an MFLB or a Pax or something, which will heat itself with a battery, you heat a VapCap with a torch lighter. Once you get the hang of it (doesn't take long) you can take hits on par with the best vaporizers. I really can't recommend anything else, I've tried the Pax before and this fits my needs so much more.

[QUOTE=PredGD;52550688]went skinnydipping at 3am the other night while high with my SO, was wonderful. how high do you guys like to get during the day? I want to experiment with being less high than blasted but dunno how to moderate consumption. if I first start vaping the green I find it difficult to stop since it's not like a joint where when it's done it's done. I can just keep going for up to an hour until I become an alien. how to pace myself?[/QUOTE] My rule of thumb is to just start small and smoke more each time I do. There's no need to wake and bake an entire bowl because then you'll be out of it before you even wake up, then the weed comedown will make you tired all day. I like to take a small snap if I feel like smoking before night time and just get really high at night [editline]8th August 2017[/editline] I just got back on FP for the first time in a while and the front-page has changed. But where is Durgz Discussion?

I find if i smoke in the morning it is harder to get high in the middle of the day once it the morning high wears off. I do like wake and bakes still cause for some reason getting high right after waking up gives me a instant rush of energy, while caffeine on the other hand is more passive and lasts shorter

I only ever smoke in the tail end of the afternoon or at night. Gives me a sense that if I'm ever tired of being fucked I can just go to bed or take a nap. Never had the temptation to smoke first thing in the morning.

While I was in Colorado last year I smoked a half gram joint every morning. I'd wake up, take a walk out outside and smoke it with my cigarette and coffee. Looking back it was a real problem, some days I would get so high so early that I would fall back asleep immediately. I now believe that smoking in that fashion is unhealthy not just for one's body but mental health as well. Receiving a dopamine increase before even taking a shower has to fuck with the brain's reward system.

I only enjoy a high fully if its at night I find

i basically smoke any time i get a chance, every day