The Addicts' Lounge IV - fast times at Ridgemont, high - General

[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;52603320]that sounds like one of the major effects of high level DPH use. i've done a few hundred mg of the stuff just to see how it was and ended up playing video games and surfing the web only to blink and find myself just sitting on the couch. shit is weird. [editline]22nd August 2017[/editline] I occasionally take 100mg of it to help me get to sleep while coming down from a disso or whatever and while i do get to sleep even a regular sleep aid dose makes me feel like a zombie the next day especially when recovering from whatever other shit i had done. i really should get myself some etizolam to help me get to sleep in those instances.[/QUOTE] Its truly a slippery slope with this shit. I am glad my memory bounced back, i no longer get false memories anymore. Im gonna treat it from now on just as an extra 'kick' of drowsiness only if i am reeaaally struggling to sleep on a certain night.

[QUOTE=StrawberryClock;52603235]kinda jealous of you guys that seem to have such an easy access to ALL of the drugs i got weed and lsd but still[/QUOTE] I'm jealous you can get lsd, it's my new favorite but so hard to come by.

Id like to quit smoking cigarettes seeing as ive been on that unfiltered lucky strike game for a little ovver a year but i cant afford to replace it with gonja because i smoke way too much already, ive maanaged to keep myself off dabs for a few weeks and ill pace myself with bowls but if i quit smoking now im definitely gonna funnel that cash into pot. i might get a vape again, i had one when i had to quit smoking for 6 months on diversion but i fear the social stigma. maybe i should just stop being a pussy

[QUOTE=No Party Hats;52603404]Id like to quit smoking cigarettes seeing as ive been on that unfiltered lucky strike game for a little ovver a year but i cant afford to replace it with gonja because i smoke way too much already, ive maanaged to keep myself off dabs for a few weeks and ill pace myself with bowls but if i quit smoking now im definitely gonna funnel that cash into pot. i might get a vape again, i had one when i had to quit smoking for 6 months on diversion but i fear the social stigma. maybe i should just stop being a pussy[/QUOTE] Vapes are pretty cool IMO. Anyway, I heard the nicotene patches work as well. You just need to gradually reduce your nicotene intake.

i feel bad for people who can't have fun on drugs because of paranoia/anxiety. when i first started smoking weed i used to get paranoid but it was still fun because i turned it into a game and eventually i got comfortable being high and enjoying it.

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Festival blues + comedown. I need a hug.

just popped my tab 5 minutes ago, already feeling a little nausous, im excited :v:

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;52605275]just popped my tab 5 minutes ago, already feeling a little nausous, im excited :v:[/QUOTE] have fun boiiiii I miss acid, I used to do it like once a month to knock the dust loose and keep perspective, haven't all summer and I'm noticeably more irritable and lazy and rude

Hey all, hope y'all had a good time the past few weeks! Currently spacing on an MDMA capsule and it's alright, watching some disney movies. In serious talk though I'm gonna head to rehab soon, got an intake planned for in a month or so. Felt like it was needed after I had a serious talk with a mate I went on vacation went. Long story short, some of my friends are starting to be bothered by my massive drug abuse (I don't blaim them ofc). The worst that could happen in my life is losing my friends, so it was a real eye opener... Shame is, that since I've made this decision my drug use hasn't reduced a tiny bit. Everytime my mind says "lets do drugs", I still do it. Went to a weekend festival last weekend and did drugs(speed, ket, mdma) 3 days in a row. Now I'm feeling super bummed. Not because I can't do drugs anymore, but because the people I went with were so comfortable. The only reason I'm really doing drugs tonight is because I miss them so much and they're all still hungover. I feel like a prime case of escapism, filling voids with drugs. This is why I want help. I don't want to drink every night, do drugs every other day or otherwise fuck up my body and mind.... I hope the rehab can help me. Otherwise I am truly lost.

[QUOTE=PredGD;52601671]I quit caffeine for the same reasons, definitely worth it if you struggle with anxiety. used to consume about 1.2g of caffeine a day, tapered down to 300-600mg and then 0mg. I still suffer from anxiety obviously but its more manageable. instead of racing thoughts and spiraling, I just notice the anxiety and manage to push it away[/QUOTE] wtf 1.2g of caffeine? how? [QUOTE=Pat.Lithium;52603455]i feel bad for people who can't have fun on drugs because of paranoia/anxiety. when i first started smoking weed i used to get paranoid but it was still fun because i turned it into a game and eventually i got comfortable being high and enjoying it.[/QUOTE] I have anxiety and have never had any drug I've tried make me anxious.

[QUOTE=matt000024;52605704]wtf 1.2g of caffeine? how? I have anxiety and have never had any drug I've tried make me anxious.[/QUOTE] caffeine's a weird one. it increases my anxiety, but in such a passive way to where i won't notice unless i am dwelling on thoughts that make me anxious. if i am, then the anxiety will just 'feel' more intense. its the whole reason why i had a hard time making the connection unfortunately. the acid is helping though

I switched to caffeine pills once when I didn't have insurance for amphetamines and it absolutely wrecked me. Even though I'd take l-theanine, l-tyrosine, alpha-gpc, 5-htp, etc - I still got wired as fuck and it really ramped up my anxiety to awful levels. Same with nicotine, honestly. Broke my vape tank and switched back to cigarettes, because I'll smoke like 4 cigs a week usually and the nicotine amount ends up being way less than when I'd refill my vape like once a day. Really, stimulant-wise, the only one that does anything good for my anxiety is acid. Amphetamines balance out, because even though they make me anxious, I reduce my anxiety by sitting down and getting shit done. Acid cleans you out and the afterglow reduces all anxiety for like a week. Can't wait to get more once I'm back on campus

Does anyone else have that comfortable feeling when you're with people you trust, you just want to go with them to a certain level? I'm afraid rehab will tell me not to hang out with these people anymore, that is the last thing I would ever choose to do.

[QUOTE=Black Pete;52603401]I'm jealous you can get lsd, it's my new favorite but so hard to come by.[/QUOTE] I'm pretty sure you can legally buy 1P-LSD in the Netherlands at the moment.

i am full on tripping balls right now and i fucking love it

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;52606052]i am full on tripping balls right now and i fucking love it[/QUOTE] Coming down, once again that was fucking wild. There was one brief moment when peaking where i got so lost into a song with my eyes closed, it was literally all i felt, and it was amazing cause for that small moment, i was just experiencing with no identity. Pure visceral emotion and not a single thought. I learned a lot about myself too as well and broke out of many pre-conceived cycles i had been in.

[QUOTE=.Isak.;52605914]I switched to caffeine pills once when I didn't have insurance for amphetamines and it absolutely wrecked me. Even though I'd take l-theanine, l-tyrosine, alpha-gpc, 5-htp, etc - I still got wired as fuck and it really ramped up my anxiety to awful levels. Same with nicotine, honestly. Broke my vape tank and switched back to cigarettes, because I'll smoke like 4 cigs a week usually and the nicotine amount ends up being way less than when I'd refill my vape like once a day. Really, stimulant-wise, the only one that does anything good for my anxiety is acid. Amphetamines balance out, because even though they make me anxious, I reduce my anxiety by sitting down and getting shit done. Acid cleans you out and the afterglow reduces all anxiety for like a week. Can't wait to get more once I'm back on campus[/QUOTE] Completely agree. The only anxiety I get on acid is a sense of not knowing what I should do with my trip because it's such an amazing and special feeling and I want to do something really special but sometimes I can't think of anything cool and it kind of passively makes me anxious. Like I have an inability to just chill out and be happy with the activities that I have at my disposal. this is also probably largely a result of impulse tripping and not having a plan or company for your trip

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;52607028]Coming down, once again that was fucking wild. There was one brief moment when peaking where i got so lost into a song with my eyes closed, it was literally all i felt, and it was amazing cause for that small moment, i was just experiencing with no identity. Pure visceral emotion and not a single thought. I learned a lot about myself too as well and broke out of many pre-conceived cycles i had been in.[/QUOTE] Some call that 'ego death'. I think putting a name on it and classifying it means people sort of see that as the 'aim' of a trip and have failed if they don't achieve it... but it's an amazing sensation when it happens. I remember on my first trip, similar to you I got lost in a song and just melted into the space around me.

[QUOTE=matt000024;52605704]wtf 1.2g of caffeine? how? [/QUOTE] very slowly. my tolerance was massive after gradually adding more and more caffeine to feel anything. becomes kinda pointless after a while when you realize even 1.2g of caffeine barely does anything anymore

Got my exam results. Now time to get blazed as fuck in celebration

i like rum and coke it makes me happy

I like a nice cold mickey's 40oz

[QUOTE=matt000024;52605704]wtf 1.2g of caffeine? how?[/QUOTE] I've tried consuming 1g [i]at once[/i] for the hell of it; it doesn't really do much for me :v:. It sure still fucks with your stomach at those amounts though, I wouldn't recommend it.

[QUOTE=StrawberryClock;52603235]kinda jealous of you guys that seem to have such an easy access to ALL of the drugs i got weed and lsd but still[/QUOTE] I can only get weed/coke which sucks ass

So I destroyed and disposed of my stash and smoking equipment yesterday and contacted an ambulant rehab clinic by aid of a municipal worker that visits me regularly to check up on me, I still find it fucking pathetic that I managed to get addicted to fucking cannabis, I have been an alcoholic, I have been hooked on benzos, both things I aced quitting with no external help, but weed? Why the fuck did that have to turn out like that? Why the fuck did it have to come back four times like that? I still ask myself those questions, and I probably will for a long time. I will stay here, because I still fucking love you guys, but I probably won't be high the next many years to come, maybe not ever again.

my brother came home at about 7am this morning to get ready for work. he'd been out all night with his mate who is also a dealer. my brother will have an occasional cone, but he's not a regular user. he got 5 mollys, took 2 the night before and one in the morning in the shower. he's gonna be a fucking mess by the evening. [editline]26th August 2017[/editline] i got access to pretty much anything through friends of friends. our main dealer does everything except shrooms, we wanted to try some acid and he said $15 for a double dose tab.

Ok so where should I take MDMA? What kind of activity is fun to do after taking it?

i used to enjoy mdma at house parties, especially if there's a lot of people around that i hadn't met before. [editline]27th August 2017[/editline] the hair on my neck actually started rising when i thought back to the times i went heavy with mdma

Live music events/festivals are always good, depending on what sort of music you're into.