The Addicts' Lounge IV - fast times at Ridgemont, high - General

[QUOTE=Dan The Man;53068995]I've never tried 2C-B (although I want to), but I always thought a standard dose was closer to 20mg than 50mg. I could be totally wrong there though. By the way, when you say "around 50mg", please don't tell me that you eyeballed it, or used a non 0.001g precision scale? In terms of weed and psychedelics: weed potentiates all the psychedelics I know of. It's not at all unusual for weed to bring a boring trip to exciting new places and for weed to make an exciting trip unbearably powerful.[/QUOTE] I used a 0.00 weight so it's not as accurate as it should be, I need to get around to buying a better one Anyway, I fucked up. I decided to take 50mg today as well, thinking that I'd be more chill with the weed and that I knew how to get past any uncomfortable moments today. Now, this shit wasn't kicking in at all due to me taking it on a filled to the brim stomach. After 5 hours of waiting with a slow gradual increase, I figured I wouldn't get much of a drug experience today. So I brought out the weed with the idea that it wouldn't be as bad as yesterday since I wasn't tripping that much and I figured out how to chill last night. Filled my vape up, turned it on and started sipping. I was feeling kinda trippy but very level headed at the same time. I threw clothes off of the bed and got comfy with some music, intending to just chill out in psychedelic bliss. As I was taking my last hit, it came rushing over me. I could feel my entire body heat up in an instant, my vision turned into a colorful, psychedelic mess and my body became really uncomfortable. I had to turn off the music in an instant as it was too much. I tried to breath and use techniques to calm down but it just got worse. I couldn't find a position to lie in that wasn't painful and my heart felt like it was beating so fast the sound just turned into a continuous beep. My body felt like it was burning up and I could feel sweat forming on my scalp. I tried sitting, lying and walking around but nothing felt right. Everything hurt. I could feel pure terror no matter what I did and how much I tried to avert myself. I was having a seriously bad time and I felt like I was dying and losing control. I couldn't keep my eyes open due to the sheer overload of what I was seeing and neither could I find a comfortable way to sit since I had to constantly be the move. I was seriously worried about having a seizure, it really was way too overwhelming. I had to tell my girlfriend that I was having a really bad time and needed help. I couldn't do anything but keep my eyes closed, breath in, out and count to 3, which wasnt helping at all. I told my SO she had to engage with me, talk to me, whatever. Just anything that could help. We ended up watching shit on Netflix Kids while I was silently freaking out and focusing on my breath for the next 4 hours. I still feel a lot of pain in my body and like I'm dying, but I'm in enough control to not freak out like earlier. Shit dude. I've never had a bad trip before and I don't intend on going back to that. There was nothing to learn from this, it was absolute pure terror. Just imagine every single alarm bell going off in your brain and feeling pain everywhere you can while completely losing control to the point you're worried you might be a danger to yourself and others. I'm taking a break from drugs, I absolutely do NOT want to repeat this. I'm seriously playing around with my sanity here. Now I can't sleep and all I want is something that'll chill me out

for some reason whenever i take xanax i always end up doing loads of game programming which I'm usually a bit lazy with and when i come back I've always written up mountains of code that actually works perfectly and i have absolutely zero memory or idea how I made it but it's always ten times better than what I'd nornally write and I'm a tad bamboozled lol

[QUOTE=TheDeadlyHaze;53069168]What do you guys think is more efficient? Coughing up the dough for a decent dry herb vape or just getting an any old vape for wax?[/QUOTE] I've got a dry herb vape, they're pretty decent. I find it gives you a different high to regularly smoking, though.

[QUOTE=PredGD;53069300]I decided to take 50mg today as well, thinking that I'd be more chill with the weed and that I knew how to get past any uncomfortable moments today.[/QUOTE] I don't understand why you would go for another trip the day after, which was already uncomfortable and do basically the same thing again expecting a different result. Firstly you need time to go over what happened with the first trip, and secondly you should be changing up the setting and leaving the weed behind. I'm not having a go, I honestly wish you the best. Also i'm assuming you're in your twenties... you've got plenty of time to experiment, just take things easy, no need to rush.

[QUOTE=darius_bielecki;53069952]I don't understand why you would go for another trip the day after, which was already uncomfortable and do basically the same thing again expecting a different result. Firstly you need time to go over what happened with the first trip, and secondly you should be changing up the setting and leaving the weed behind. I'm not having a go, I honestly wish you the best. Also i'm assuming you're in your twenties... you've got plenty of time to experiment, just take things easy, no need to rush.[/QUOTE] I agree. I honestly don't understand why I thought I'd be able to deal with it any better today. while it was a difficult experience to get through two days ago, I wasn't panicking as badly and managed to calm myself to enjoy the rest. the idea was that since I figured out how to keep calm that day, I'd be more prepared for a second time around but that was wrong. what I didn't think through was that I vaped weed while in the trip rather than after and that ended up being way too overwhelming for me. I've never fully bad tripped before. sure, I've ran into uncomfortable moments where I've been on the brink of completely losing it but actually losing it, that's new to me. I really didn't know that it could get as bad as it got. I honestly don't know if I'll be able to mess with these kinds of drugs any time soon. just the thought of taking a psychedelic or smoking weed right now is making my body act up. I don't think I've ever experienced something as terrifying as last night and I wish I wasn't so reckless about it. should have seen it coming though. I've used psychedelics for so long and eventually I'd have to experience it I guess. if I decide to do anything psychedelic again, I ain't doing it without benzos on hand. it seems impossible to turn a trip that has gone so bad back around anyway so I'd rather kill it at that point than suffer through hours of agony and terror. [editline]21st January 2018[/editline] fuck man, I decided to read up about other peoples experiences with bad trips and reading the symptoms is enough to make me relive what happened yesterday and fill me up with emotions. can this stuff traumatize you? it makes me physically sick to dig through these memories, I feel like I really fucked up this time

[QUOTE=PredGD;53070041] fuck man, I decided to read up about other peoples experiences with bad trips and reading the symptoms is enough to make me relive what happened yesterday and fill me up with emotions. can this stuff traumatize you? it makes me physically sick to dig through these memories, I feel like I really fucked up this time[/QUOTE] It takes time but you'll get over it. I had a trip with a very troubling existential crisis and it took me about 6 months to come to terms with it, in hindsight I look back at it as a good experience. I had the same thing where any reminder would have me slip back into that terrifying state of mind, on the brink of panic, it stops eventually once you stop fearing it and learn to laugh instead. I know it sounds like such a typical thing to say but you learn a lot from the worst trips. I guess you just learn the limitations of your mind. You'll be fine soon enough, taking a break from drugs isn't a bad thing, having a bad trip can be like hitting the reset button.

I miss getting high and posting trash in this thread, but the consequences of smoking again outweighs the fun. Being a responsible adult sucks.

[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;53069611]for some reason whenever i take xanax i always end up doing loads of game programming which I'm usually a bit lazy with and when i come back I've always written up mountains of code that actually works perfectly and i have absolutely zero memory or idea how I made it but it's always ten times better than what I'd nornally write and I'm a tad bamboozled lol[/QUOTE] i'd program while on dck and get mounds of spaghetti code that somehow worked. going back to look at it i don't understand why i did it the way i did and sometimes don't quite get how it works but i don't question it.

Hahaha try finessing a jefferson when the local anethesia still numbs half your face

[QUOTE=NeverGoWest;53071047]Being a responsible adult sucks.[/QUOTE] i hope i never have to be a responsible adult, or at least in a position where it is irresponsible for me to take drugs. [editline]23rd January 2018[/editline] haven't had weed in 2 days, biggest break i've had in 18 months.

[QUOTE=Raizo;53072005]Hahaha try finessing a jefferson when the local anethesia still numbs half your face[/QUOTE] is that anythin like a reginald [editline]23rd January 2018[/editline] [QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;53071450]i'd program while on dck and get mounds of spaghetti code that somehow worked. going back to look at it i don't understand why i did it the way i did and sometimes don't quite get how it works but i don't question it.[/QUOTE] I'm having literally the opposite problem, it's like some kind of divine clockwork that i literally cannot hope to make anything of comparable quality while sober and it's really fuckin with me, i wanna program bare shit for days and with the large scale project i got going on i want that programming to be Good so i don't have to unfuck it later down the line which leaves me with a dilemma: do i take this hectic drug and make great things or do i keep my mind fresh and sober but make average things. ngl it's kinda bait i wanna be able to program like that all the time

[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;53075633]is that anythin like a reginald [editline]23rd January 2018[/editline] I'm having literally the opposite problem, it's like some kind of divine clockwork that i literally cannot hope to make anything of comparable quality while sober and it's really fuckin with me, i wanna program bare shit for days and with the large scale project i got going on i want that programming to be Good so i don't have to unfuck it later down the line which leaves me with a dilemma: do i take this hectic drug and make great things or do i keep my mind fresh and sober but make average things. ngl it's kinda bait i wanna be able to program like that all .the time[/QUOTE] I write code, and I can't imagine I would be able to write something that's logically coherent with anything in my system except low doses of stimulants, such as speed, mephedrone or Ritalin. What does your software do, btw? Also, which drugs have you been taking that help you code? I remember I once took about 300mg of Methylone and did my programming coursework for university in one night and got 86%, haha. Bear in mind that this was an entire year's module worth of coursework done in about 8 hours. :P It was well written too.

Hello how was everyone's day today? Please post one thing that made you happy today for me to read when I check back

[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;53075633]is that anythin like a reginald [editline]23rd January 2018[/editline] I'm having literally the opposite problem, it's like some kind of divine clockwork that i literally cannot hope to make anything of comparable quality while sober and it's really fuckin with me, i wanna program bare shit for days and with the large scale project i got going on i want that programming to be Good so i don't have to unfuck it later down the line which leaves me with a dilemma: do i take this hectic drug and make great things or do i keep my mind fresh and sober but make average things. ngl it's kinda bait i wanna be able to program like that all the time[/QUOTE] maybe you're held back by anxiety and limiting beliefs in your sober programming, and you're just more ambitious and worry less about the feasibility of what you're doing when you're xanned out. Kinda like how when I'm blitzed I take bigger hills on my longboard. Maybe it's a sign if you treated your anxiety with something like CBT? Mindfulness shit? I'm sure you've tried weed but if you haven't maybe smoke some indica? Have some green tea or some l-theanine supplements (supposed to help both anxiety and productivity)? Some kind of prescription? Though I hella don't recommend taking benzos everyday. I've been looking into gabapentin myself though having it prescribed for anxiety would be an off-label use. There's also SSRIs but your mileage may vary. They didn't work for me, and I don't even want benzos, so I wonder if it would be reasonable to ask for gabapentin. It's not even scheduled (yet). But yeah, maybe working on your anxiety would help you perform better, from what you've experienced with xanax?

i kind of feel like the lifestyle humans live nowadays is so far outside of what we are naturally adapted to that some sort of chemical alteration is necessary to operating at either an effective or a normal level. [editline]24th January 2018[/editline] i'm personally finding i really like CBD dominant strains of weed, doesn't make me anxious and just generally lowers any lower levels of anxiety i feel constantly

Rights guy.s.. I'm at day 6 on my phenibut cold turkey withdrawal. The thing is, it is more like 11 days, but 6 days ago, I took a pretty small dose because I kept hearing voices. Actually, the first night that I really noticed the withdrawals was when I was hearing somebody knocking at the door 4am, so I kept answering, and the nobody there. Then, eventually, there would be random applause that sounded distant. The weirdest part was when I heard a key in my front door, and considering that I hadn't clocked yet why these random events were happening, I shouted 'FUCK OFF!' towards the front door. Lo and behold, the noises now stopped, and I realised it was hallucinations. :P

[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;53077223]i kind of feel like the lifestyle humans live nowadays is so far outside of what we are naturally adapted to that some sort of chemical alteration is necessary to operating at either an effective or a normal level. [editline]24th January 2018[/editline] i'm personally finding i really like CBD dominant strains of weed, doesn't make me anxious and just generally lowers any lower levels of anxiety i feel constantly[/QUOTE] dunno if I'd say it's necessary to alter your brain with chemicals in today's society but I kinda get what you mean. sleep deprivation and stress has pretty much become the norm now which is sad. there's so many people out there who looks forward to Friday every single week and I think that says something about society today. people actually think it's okay to only look forward to 2/7th's of their life while they spend 5/7th's of it working and looking forward to the remaining 2/7th's. what strain you got, if you know? I recently bought northern lights and I'm very disappointed. I struggle with anxiety and this strain makes it much worse. I thought indica's were supposed to help with that but now I'm starting to think that sativa is more helpful for me. shame too since I bought a shitload of northern lights. [editline]24th January 2018[/editline] the uncomfortable part about indicas is the fact that they slow me down. my thoughts aren't speeding all over the place but I think that's why it triggers my anxiety. I feel like I have less control of my thoughts and if I first get a bad one, it's hard to move on due to how sluggish my head gets. with sativas, even though I might get more crazy thoughts I can more easily move past them due to my thoughts not slowing down to a halt. [editline]24th January 2018[/editline] [QUOTE=iggy650;53076519]Hello how was everyone's day today? Please post one thing that made you happy today for me to read when I check back[/QUOTE] good day today! I finally got around to clean my apartment which was long overdue. clean apartment makes for a happy man

[QUOTE=PredGD;53077297]dunno if I'd say it's necessary to alter your brain with chemicals in today's society but I kinda get what you mean. sleep deprivation and stress has pretty much become the norm now which is sad. there's so many people out there who looks forward to Friday every single week and I think that says something about society today. people actually think it's okay to only look forward to 2/7th's of their life while they spend 5/7th's of it working and looking forward to the remaining 2/7th's.[/quote] i guess necessary may have been a bit too strong. it just seems like everybody has something, whether it is alcohol, nicotine, or something else, that helps them through the week, ya feel? [quote]what strain you got, if you know? I recently bought northern lights and I'm very disappointed. I struggle with anxiety and this strain makes it much worse. I thought indica's were supposed to help with that but now I'm starting to think that sativa is more helpful for me. shame too since I bought a shitload of northern lights.[/QUOTE] been bouncing between harlequin and girl scout cookies. GSG is definitely more potent than harlequin but harlequin gets me feeling chill without me feeling stoned

[QUOTE=iggy650;53076519]Hello how was everyone's day today? Please post one thing that made you happy today for me to read when I check back[/QUOTE] i got a good nights sleep, woke up to my cat snuggling on me finished the half joint I had from last night, feelin crispy and about to take a shower and go get some food I guess. Rock on stoners

As soon as i stop smoking weed, my dreams start up again with full force, every time. Im not gonna lie, my dreams either consist of very graphic shit, past memories and struggles im trying to move on from, or very muddled, convoluted, nonsensical, and illogical scenarios that are in familiar environments, except the environments are something out of a glitched videogame and rooms you dont think should connect to eachother do. As a result I either wake up confused, startled, or mildly traumatized. Id rather not dream to be completely honest, my brain is fucking weird :v:

[QUOTE=PredGD;53077297] good day today! I finally got around to clean my apartment which was long overdue. clean apartment makes for a happy man[/QUOTE] Hell yeah brother cleaning is a bitch but even just clearing the floor is a good feeling. Sometimes I convince myself that I like a dirty floor because it slows me down and I have to pay attention to my foot placement, but that's crazy talk tbh. You were asking about anxiety and indicas, I feel the exact same way. Indicas tends to slow my brain down and make me lazy. When I'm productive I feel less anxious, so sativa helps with making me productive. Sativa gets me too ripped and paranoid sometimes, though. CBD seems to be the key to leveling my head when I'm feeling too stoned. It also seems to be the key to helping anxiety in the long run. I'd suggest picking up some CBD distillate or a tincture, or checking out some CBD based strains. Get high off good weed and put CBD in yourself if needed. [editline]24th January 2018[/editline] It's pretty ridiculous how much I've been craving coffee recently. I was drinking 2 pots of drip coffee every day for about 3-4 months straight, sometimes with a Monster around 3am. I was working night shift delivery and had to close until 5am some nights. Now my coffee maker is dusty and dirty and broken and I have no source of caffeine in my house. I guess I could just eat raw coffee beans.

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;53078500]As soon as i stop smoking weed, my dreams start up again with full force, every time. Im not gonna lie, my dreams either consist of very graphic shit, past memories and struggles im trying to move on from, or very muddled, convoluted, nonsensical, and illogical scenarios that are in familiar environments, except the environments are something out of a glitched videogame and rooms you dont think should connect to eachother do. As a result I either wake up confused, startled, or mildly traumatized. Id rather not dream to be completely honest, my brain is fucking weird :v:[/QUOTE] yeah i got some very vivid nightmares about two weeks after my tbreak. good thing it's ending soon

[QUOTE=sourcegamer101;53078500]As soon as i stop smoking weed, my dreams start up again with full force, every time. Im not gonna lie, my dreams either consist of very graphic shit, past memories and struggles im trying to move on from, or very muddled, convoluted, nonsensical, and illogical scenarios that are in familiar environments, except the environments are something out of a glitched videogame and rooms you dont think should connect to eachother do. As a result I either wake up confused, startled, or mildly traumatized. Id rather not dream to be completely honest, my brain is fucking weird :v:[/QUOTE] This is what kept me smoking weed back in the days, being able to sleep uninterrupted, I have the exact same thing with shitty dreams. I had a nightmare about a lion being on the lose eating my family, friends and random strangers, at this point I would wish I still smoked weed so I never had that dream, I recently had a nightmare about a bear emerging from a lake and mauling the family dog. Also spending an entire day not having sudden mood drops was nice too. But panic attacks, paranoia and both my family and the system being on my ass for smoking it(with the paranoia mainly stemming from my family discovering me, which they did through a mother of one of my friends catching me smoking weed with a bunch of unrelated friends snitching on my dad about it, what an asshole) means I can't smoke it. Oh yeah and routine blood testing by psychiatry that likely includes them testing for drugs. It fucking sucks, I'd give anything to not feel like ass all day and having nightmares again.

It looks like I'll finally be getting the opportunity to do DMT. Funny that it should happen when my drug-use is starting to cool off. Same source is supposedly stock with acid, so I get to start microdosing again. Very excited for that.

[QUOTE=Rolond Returns;53075633] I'm having literally the opposite problem, it's like some kind of divine clockwork that i literally cannot hope to make anything of comparable quality while sober and it's really fuckin with me, i wanna program bare shit for days and with the large scale project i got going on i want that programming to be Good so i don't have to unfuck it later down the line which leaves me with a dilemma: do i take this hectic drug and make great things or do i keep my mind fresh and sober but make average things. ngl it's kinda bait i wanna be able to program like that all the time[/QUOTE] Please post a github gist of this immaculate code that can only be produced while under the influence, I'm curious

[QUOTE=Anubis678;53079707]It looks like I'll finally be getting the opportunity to do DMT. Funny that it should happen when my drug-use is starting to cool off. Same source is supposedly stock with acid, so I get to start microdosing again. Very excited for that.[/QUOTE] i'm still waiting for an opportunity for dmt. so i had some weed last night after a 3 day break. and by some weed i mean party cone after party cone all night. i got so fucking high i nearly greened out, spewed and i felt fantastic.

[QUOTE=Anubis678;53079707]It looks like I'll finally be getting the opportunity to do DMT. Funny that it should happen when my drug-use is starting to cool off. Same source is supposedly stock with acid, so I get to start microdosing again. Very excited for that.[/QUOTE] i feel that DMT when your drug use is cooling off is probably the best time to take it. i hope you can breakthrough! i've been nursing off some DMT every few months for a few years now and still haven't been able to make it through to the other side

Lemon Haze is my new favorite sativa strain

[QUOTE=Booker K;53080821]i had a dream last night where i smoked a giant blunt and i woke up disappointed everyone keeps mentioning Lemon Haze lately and it's convincing me to try some whenever i can obtain some weed again[/QUOTE] I've enjoyed every variation of Haze strains. Hash Haze is one of my favs.

[QUOTE=Dan The Man;53075933]I write code, and I can't imagine I would be able to write something that's logically coherent with anything in my system except low doses of stimulants, such as speed, mephedrone or Ritalin. What does your software do, btw? Also, which drugs have you been taking that help you code? I remember I once took about 300mg of Methylone and did my programming coursework for university in one night and got 86%, haha. Bear in mind that this was an entire year's module worth of coursework done in about 8 hours. :P It was well written too.[/QUOTE] Personally I've too found low to moderate doses of speed to help, though higher amounts are a mixed bag. Weed can also be pretty fantastic for it, but you can't just light it up, you gotta get high with [i]precision[/i].