The Addicts' Lounge IV - fast times at Ridgemont, high - General

Yeah meant kratom but it seems my autocorrect has forgotten that I've used the word before Would be cool if there was in fact a drug called Keaton it sounds like a stim

Just called in. I didn't pass the drug test. Just another fucking failure in my life.

[QUOTE=Jrose14;53119772]Just called in. I didn't pass the drug test. Just another fucking failure in my life.[/QUOTE] I'm so sorry man. While this was avoidable, I honestly can't help but put a lot of blame on how brainwashed people have become, creating this illogical and shitty system that has only hurt us. It shouldn't have to be like this, but it is. Don't give up, and don't dwell on it or view it as "yet another failure" (I've had those kinds of thoughts a lot). Don't think of this as a dead end. You'll find another job.

I feel silly for asking, but how easy is it to have a bad time on ketamine @ k-hole doses? I'm waiting to receive some ketamine but my two bad trips has scared me enough to drop drugs completely for now. I was and still am a little hype to do ketamine tho as I really like the drug but I don't wanna take any chances if it's easy to bad trip on ketamine too. a part me of is saying it'll be fine but that's what I told myself before I had the worst trip of my life on LSD so I don't know. ketamine does detach you from your emotions so it's not exactly the same either. I went to the ER two days ago since my heart was giving me the spooks and my heart is perfectly healthy so no worries there.

You should not be doing ketamine if youre getting heavy anxiety from smoking weed. Just take a break dude

[QUOTE=EnlightenDead;53121984]You should not be doing ketamine if youre getting heavy anxiety from smoking weed. Just take a break dude[/QUOTE] that's the plan, just a little bummed out I ended up having the experience I had since I've already put down the money for the ketamine. been looking forward to doing ket again since August and its such a shame I'm scared to do it now even though I really want to. I'm thinking that since ketamine is such an emotionally devoid experience it'd be alright but I can't say for sure since I've only had good experiences with it. far from the same potential to freak out even though it can get a little too weird

[QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;53118846]ho damn nice to see zach and storm back. Life's goin man, just working the daily grind. Haven't seen either of yall post in ages.[/QUOTE] Glad its going great man! Man I went to a rap concert where my friend was the rapper last night. Got invited to the after party, shit was awesome. On another note, broke up with my girlfriend of 6 years last week, but still have to live in the same house for a while so shit sucks for her but I'm trying to move out fast. Positive side is I've ended up seeing a waitress from work properly, was always underlying tension but would never cheat so had to break up not for this girl, but because I realised that I no longer liked my gf in a romantic way anymore. Sounds pretty heartless I know but its not like I now hate her, I like her as a person but don't see a future anymore. This waitress is pretty gangster, pretty sure she could school most of us at Rainbow Six and Fortnite and we got got drunk and smoked weed in a Graveyard before properly going out to town haha ayy zach just so you know, if you need pain relief but don't want to fuck with opiates again, tramadol is great for that, it feels really similar but acts differently enough. I used 200mg of tramadol XR for just over a week to skip physical withdrawals when I went too hard on poppy seed tea for 2 weeks lol so theres that option. [editline]10th February 2018[/editline] Also on a personal proud note I have now lost 15kg in the past 3 months, 5 more kg to get back to that sweet number of 75kg before I start exercising again. Because exercising sucks when you are chubby I chose the harder but lazier option of eating less, and cutting back on that fiiiine tasting sugar.

[QUOTE=Stormcharger;53122216]Glad its going great man! Man I went to a rap concert where my friend was the rapper last night. Got invited to the after party, shit was awesome. On another note, broke up with my girlfriend of 6 years last week, but still have to live in the same house for a while so shit sucks for her but I'm trying to move out fast. Positive side is I've ended up seeing a waitress from work properly, was always underlying tension but would never cheat so had to break up not for this girl, but because I realised that I no longer liked my gf in a romantic way anymore. Sounds pretty heartless I know but its not like I now hate her, I like her as a person but don't see a future anymore. This waitress is pretty gangster, pretty sure she could school most of us at Rainbow Six and Fortnite and we got got drunk and smoked weed in a Graveyard before properly going out to town haha ayy zach just so you know, if you need pain relief but don't want to fuck with opiates again, tramadol is great for that, it feels really similar but acts differently enough. I used 200mg of tramadol XR for just over a week to skip physical withdrawals when I went too hard on poppy seed tea for 2 weeks lol so theres that option. [editline]10th February 2018[/editline] Also on a personal proud note I have now lost 15kg in the past 3 months, 5 more kg to get back to that sweet number of 75kg before I start exercising again. Because exercising sucks when you are chubby I chose the harder but lazier option of eating less, and cutting back on that fiiiine tasting sugar.[/QUOTE] Sounds great man, and good luck on the new relationship. I wouldn't say its heartless at all, shit man times change, people change, taste changes, what you gonna do? Marry the chick cause you feel bad, lol. I had a best friend who I had to cut ties with from the rest of my friend group because it got to a point where I didn't know how we were even friends, and it was hardest on him but, at the end of the day I had to look our for my happiness and the rest of our group. Shit sucked but we have been way happier ever since. Hard decisions are hard and I think movies and tv shows make it seem obvious/easy when in reality every relationship is this complicated net of shit.

[QUOTE=Jrose14;53119772]Just called in. I didn't pass the drug test. Just another fucking failure in my life.[/QUOTE] Man dont say you failed. You got an extremely high score :) [editline]10th February 2018[/editline] [QUOTE=Cpn Crunch21;53122243]Sounds great man, and good luck on the new relationship. I wouldn't say its heartless at all, shit man times change, people change, taste changes, what you gonna do? Marry the chick cause you feel bad, lol. I had a best friend who I had to cut ties with from the rest of my friend group because it got to a point where I didn't know how we were even friends, and it was hardest on him but, at the end of the day I had to look our for my happiness and the rest of our group. Shit sucked but we have been way happier ever since. Hard decisions are hard and I think movies and tv shows make it seem obvious/easy when in reality every relationship is this complicated net of shit.[/QUOTE] Yea talking to one of my best friends made me make the call. He basically just said lifes too short not to take your own happiness as the most important thing. Not in the sense that you hurt people to be happy, but my ex like fucking loves me a ridiculous amount and I know her sense of happiness and self worth is way too dependent on me so I was stressing hard about what to do. You know what trope I also hate? That anyone who develops feelings for someone else while in a relationship is a scumbag. Like I agree thats true if you go round cheating like the plague, but just developing feelings and shit is something you can't control, and if you are developing it means you probably should end the current relationship. In all of my 6 years with her I never had any feelings for other chicks but within like a couple months of knowing this girl half my fucking dreams were with her in them. My mind just went and fucked with me hard with those type of dreams you wake up feeling like they should be the new reality.

Hi storm and zach!!!! Long time no see I just started poking my head back in here myself what a coinkydink! @PredGD from my brief experience with DCK it doesn't really seem like the kinda drug where it's possible to spiral into an LSD/weed style panic attack during the peak, except maybe on the comedown bc of the excess glutamate release (or so i've heard) You might feel better just holding on to it until your mind has settled down and you feel ready Ordered 5g isopropylphenidate yesterday, hyped as hell to GO FAAAAASSST

sup homebois

[QUOTE=ZenX2;53122395]Hi storm and zach!!!! Long time no see I just started poking my head back in here myself what a coinkydink! @PredGD from my brief experience with DCK it doesn't really seem like the kinda drug where it's possible to spiral into an LSD/weed style panic attack during the peak, except maybe on the comedown bc of the excess glutamate release (or so i've heard) You might feel better just holding on to it until your mind has settled down and you feel ready Ordered 5g isopropylphenidate yesterday, hyped as hell to GO FAAAAASSST[/QUOTE] wassup maaaaan! Thats a derivative of methylphenidate right? because I remember ethylphenidate used to be popular on the RC websites years ago, but wasn't the healthiest. [editline]10th February 2018[/editline] [QUOTE=scorpinat;53122477]sup homebois[/QUOTE] Oh sup man, I remember you!

[QUOTE=Stormcharger;53122246]Man dont say you failed. You got an extremely high score :) [editline]10th February 2018[/editline] Yea talking to one of my best friends made me make the call. He basically just said [B]lifes too short not to take your own happiness as the most important thing[/B]. Not in the sense that you hurt people to be happy, but my ex like fucking loves me a ridiculous amount and I know her sense of happiness and self worth is way too dependent on me so I was stressing hard about what to do. You know what trope I also hate? That anyone who develops feelings for someone else while in a relationship is a scumbag. Like I agree thats true if you go round cheating like the plague, but just [B]developing feelings and shit is something you can't control[/B], and if you are developing it means you probably should end the current relationship. In all of my 6 years with her I never had any feelings for other chicks but within like a couple months of knowing this girl half my fucking dreams were with her in them. My mind just went and fucked with me hard with those type of dreams you wake up feeling like they should be the new reality.[/QUOTE] Yeah man, when I talked to my sis about my scenario, she basically told me to cut if off and to stop stressing so hard on something you can control. And yeah, its impossible to ignore chemistry like that, from what it sounds like you found someone on the same mental plane as you and I think that's huge to be able to look at your partner with that degree of equality instead of feeling like they are dependent on you or you on them.

[QUOTE=PredGD;53121861]I feel silly for asking, but how easy is it to have a bad time on ketamine @ k-hole doses? I'm waiting to receive some ketamine but my two bad trips has scared me enough to drop drugs completely for now. I was and still am a little hype to do ketamine tho as I really like the drug but I don't wanna take any chances if it's easy to bad trip on ketamine too. a part me of is saying it'll be fine but that's what I told myself before I had the worst trip of my life on LSD so I don't know. ketamine does detach you from your emotions so it's not exactly the same either. I went to the ER two days ago since my heart was giving me the spooks and my heart is perfectly healthy so no worries there.[/QUOTE] you're probably not going to have a bad trip on ketamine due to the kind of experience it is, however it might be best to just hold onto it for a bit if you're having reservations

[QUOTE=PredGD;53121861]I feel silly for asking, but how easy is it to have a bad time on ketamine @ k-hole doses? I'm waiting to receive some ketamine but my two bad trips has scared me enough to drop drugs completely for now. I was and still am a little hype to do ketamine tho as I really like the drug but I don't wanna take any chances if it's easy to bad trip on ketamine too. a part me of is saying it'll be fine but that's what I told myself before I had the worst trip of my life on LSD so I don't know. ketamine does detach you from your emotions so it's not exactly the same either. I went to the ER two days ago since my heart was giving me the spooks and my heart is perfectly healthy so no worries there.[/QUOTE] It's kind of hard to have a bad trip on Ketamine. You get this warm blanket feeling, euphoria, a sense of wonder and awe, and there's this general feeling that nothing can go wrong. That's not to say you can't have a bad trip, you can, but it's not like psychedelics where if you're in the wrong set and setting it'll cause intense panic. Dissociatives tend to kill anxiety rather than cause it. Also, at K-hole doses you pretty much leave your body and don't have any sense of who you are or anything like that, so it's kind of hard to have a bad trip. You'll just kind of sit there as your mind flies through different universes. Just be careful mixing it with cannabis. Cannabis greatly potentiates dissociatives and this can cause a lot of anxiety.

In my 10 years of psychonautic travels, only four of the "traditional" drugs have eluded me: Mescaline, Opium, PCP and DMT. Tonight I scratch DMT from that list.

[QUOTE=Anubis678;53122951]In my 10 years of psychonautic travels, only four of the "traditional" drugs have eluded me: Mescaline, Opium, PCP and DMT. Tonight I scratch DMT from that list.[/QUOTE] good luck space traveller

[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;53122958]good luck space traveller[/QUOTE] Thank you, friend. I feel like I've been building to this moment, and now that it's here, it feels so surreal. But that could also be the Adderall. Edit: I just realized dosing info may not be forum-appropriate. My apologies. Do you build up tolerance to it? I want to do it tonight, but I also want to do it tomorrow (when I'm not on anything else). Feasible? I just can't wait to see the other side. I can't wait to meet [I]them[/I].

tolerance goes down incredibly fast for DMT, you could probably try again ~60-90 min after your first go and have it be just as intense, if not moreso

[QUOTE=Ninja Gnome;53122967]tolerance goes down incredibly fast for DMT, you could probably try again ~60-90 min after your first go and have it be just as intense, if not moreso[/QUOTE] That's awesome! Going to have to pace myself then. I hate buying a drug like this and only getting a few doses... ...but all the same, I'm extremely grateful that I'm even getting my hands on it. Every time it went through my hometown (back when I was really in the scene), I heard about it right after it all sold out.

oh man i finally got this acid im so giddy, my brain will be amplified soon

[QUOTE=Anubis678;53122951]In my 10 years of psychonautic travels, only four of the "traditional" drugs have eluded me: Mescaline, Opium, PCP and DMT. Tonight I scratch DMT from that list.[/QUOTE] Shit man wish I could share my mescaline with you, I've got 5 grams of mescaline HCL sitting in my drawer. [editline]11th February 2018[/editline] Also it's nice to see you're also still alive and kicking.

[QUOTE=Stormcharger;53123858]Shit man wish I could share my mescaline with you, I've got 5 grams of mescaline HCL sitting in my drawer.[/QUOTE] You lucky man. It just never seems to come through my area. I've considered purchasing cactus cuttings, but a lot of work goes into the extraction process, and I'm not sure the cuttings are still easy to come by. I've heard Mescaline described like this: If LSD is intellectual, and Shrooms are spiritual, then Mescaline is the emotional one of the three. Would you say that's accurate? I've heard it's emotionally healing, and I believe that's something I could benefit from. Ya know, should I manage to come across it before my drug days are over. [QUOTE=Stormcharger;53123858]Also it's nice to see you're also still alive and kicking.[/QUOTE] Same for you, man. But you've always been more responsible with your compounds than I have, so I'm not surprised you're still here running the show. It's really weird being back and seeing the old faces. So many memories. Good ones, of course. I've been feeling rather nostalgic lately, and this is like a rollercoaster of emotion. Growing up is weird, too. Three years ago, I was on every compound I could get my hands on. Reckless abandon. Now I only smoke, take Kratom, take my Adderall on occasion, and take psychedelics when they come my way. Quit smoking cigarettes (well, all tobacco). Quit drinking alcohol. No more hard stuff, no coke, no meth. No more taking heroic doses of Adderall and staying up for days. Now I'm all professional and shit. Not that I regret going down the rabbit hole, or the places it took me. I learned so much about myself and the world. Invaluable experiences, though I may have paid with my health. That's something else that starts to nag at the back of your mind. I don't feel invincible anymore, and I've replaced my self-destructive impulses with a determination to stand strong for my family and friends. For all of my past arrogance and ego, I truly was a miserable, selfish degenerate. It's a wonder you all put up with me lmao Sorry, went off on a tangent. As for the DMT, I didn't get my hands on it last night, but I just picked it up an hour ago. I took Adderall for the first time in several weeks yesterday, and it ended up lasting much longer than I expected. I got, at most, 4-5 hours of sleep. I'm hesitant to try the DMT right now because I dunno if being sleep deprived will ruin the experience, and I've also taken Adderall today. There are a ton of mixed reports on the combination, and I'd hate to have the Adderall completely kill it and waste the dose. I've also heard that when the two work together, Adderall makes it "darker". An intriguing thought, but I'm not really the person I used to be, and I don't think that's what I'm looking for. Sorry, another long-winded tangent. [QUOTE=sourcegamer101;53123259]oh man i finally got this acid im so giddy, my brain will be amplified soon[/QUOTE] Good vibes and happy tripping, friend. It truly is a magical compound. If I may, I'd recommend you look into micro-dosing (if you haven't already). Tripping is great, but I micro-dosed (on a set regimen) for 6 months and the results were absolutely incredible. Just a thought.

You know it's really funny you saying that I'm still here running the show because does that mean you're back after a long hiatus as well? I only came back here like 2 days ago after 2 years of not even looking at facepunch. I can relate to your rabbit hole experience more than you might think but that saying you can only learn from your failures makes more sense as you get older. I gotta agree on that microdosing assessment you have as well, that shit works. If mescaline is the emotional one I'm not sure, but I've come to realise that I'm pretty sure something is wrong with how I perceive emotions, I find it very hard to genuinely care about things but I've always known that being positive towards people and being friendly results in life being easier and happier. It's why I don't drink often at all because I find myself doing callous shit that I don't regret even though I should, so I avoid that option. Fuck now I'm tangenting and can't really explain it properly. Glad you're doing ok though bro.

Just got high off my last supply. I told you guys about getting ripped off a page or two back. Well I decided to softly start the topic with my guy. He thought I was joking at first, but noticed that I was serious right after. Well, he wasn't cool with it at all. I said I didn't want to cut ties with him, just wanted to let him know that I noticed the weight, or lack there of. Well I'm bummed out because he was a good friend too, and I didn't want it to end this way.

[QUOTE=Anubis678;53124440] Good vibes and happy tripping, friend. It truly is a magical compound. If I may, I'd recommend you look into micro-dosing (if you haven't already). Tripping is great, but I micro-dosed (on a set regimen) for 6 months and the results were absolutely incredible. Just a thought.[/QUOTE] lmao i fucking tried to last time i had LSD and ended up basically tripping cause it was some strong shit :v:

[QUOTE=Stormcharger;53124550]You know it's really funny you saying that I'm still here running the show because does that mean you're back after a long hiatus as well? I only came back here like 2 days ago after 2 years of not even looking at facepunch.[/QUOTE] Haha oh wow, I thought you'd stayed more active. As for me, I've popped in several times over the past few years, but it was mostly just to prune some unnecessarily specific personal details from posts made many many years ago. I stop in to say hi every now and then, but not many people remember me anymore. It's mostly for the nostalgia, tbh. I keep hoping to run into FoodStuffs/Luke/Jonas and the rest of the old crew, but it seems we all mostly moved on. [QUOTE=Stormcharger;53124550]I can relate to your rabbit hole experience more than you might think but that saying you can only learn from your failures makes more sense as you get older.[/QUOTE] You definitely learn more from mistakes. They force you to re-evaluate yourself and adjust your approach. So long as you don't irreparably damage something, there's always room for positive growth. [QUOTE=Stormcharger;53124550]I gotta agree on that microdosing assessment you have as well, that shit works.[/QUOTE] It's absolutely incredible. It's hard for me to justify an 8-12 hour psychedelic trip, but I know I benefited extensively from microdosing. Unfortunately, I ran out and LSD is hard to come by. I was set to grab a few strips a little while back, and I was so excited to get back on a regimen that I almost literally cried when it fell through. [QUOTE=Stormcharger;53124550]If mescaline is the emotional one I'm not sure, but I've come to realise that I'm pretty sure something is wrong with how I perceive emotions, I find it very hard to genuinely care about things but I've always known that being positive towards people and being friendly results in life being easier and happier. It's why I don't drink often at all because I find myself doing callous shit that I don't regret even though I should, so I avoid that option.[/QUOTE] I can absolutely relate to that. Faaar more than I'd like to. This, more than anything else, is what cemented psychedelics as a staple of my life. They've always made me feel more emotionally healthy and "human", and while the "healing" always fades, it lasts long enough to show me what life could be for me. I remember the first time I took a real dose of LSD... I felt at home. More at home than I ever did sober. Definitely got addicted to that feeling though, and tainted the magic with over-indulgence and abuse, but I don't believe that damage to be irreparable. Just a state of mind that can be fixed like most anything else. [QUOTE=Stormcharger;53124550]Fuck now I'm tangenting and can't really explain it properly. Glad you're doing ok though bro.[/QUOTE] I don't mind tangenting at all. And it's really good to catch up with you. [QUOTE=sourcegamer101;53124580]lmao i fucking tried to last time i had LSD and ended up basically tripping cause it was some strong shit :v:[/QUOTE] Yeah, that's happened to me too lol

[QUOTE=Raizo;53124575]Just got high off my last supply. I told you guys about getting ripped off a page or two back. Well I decided to softly start the topic with my guy. He thought I was joking at first, but noticed that I was serious right after. Well, he wasn't cool with it at all. I said I didn't want to cut ties with him, just wanted to let him know that I noticed the weight, or lack there of. Well I'm bummed out because he was a good friend too, and I didn't want it to end this way.[/QUOTE] Is his scale broken? I don't know how much you paid for in total and how much you received.. If the guy is always dishing out light sacks he's a scumbag for refusing to make that right. Not sure what state you're in, but you're practically doing HIM a favour by picking up from him in the first place.

i took a third of a tab to test my lsd an hour ago i think im feeling it

I’ve been able to blast off a second time on DMT almost immediately after coming down, it’s a really weird substance I finally got some for the first time in November, got 1g bc it’s so hard to come by not gonna let the opportunity slip away. And then I blasted off ~3 times a day for two weeks... would not recommend it lol, left me with a minor case of being a space cadet and forgetting basic human things [editline]11th February 2018[/editline] When I first started getting heavy into psychedelics the space cadet thing was an issue at first, kinda getting “out there” and having trouble relating to people, but then it ended up making me really motivated to re-learn everything and now I feel like I am much more competent at being a human than I was before All things in moderation.... shrug emoji